In The Land Of Women

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00:00:39 Let's be honest with ourselves.
00:00:49 I think we always knew
00:01:02 Carter...
00:01:06 ...I care about you.
00:01:08 Very much.
00:01:10 In a way, I do love you
00:01:17 Carter, you have to say something.
00:01:21 We haven't stopped talking
00:01:27 Excuse me. Are you...?
00:01:29 You are. You're Sofia Bunuel.
00:01:31 Oh, my God.
00:01:34 I've seen Sprawl, like, a million,
00:01:37 That's really sweet. Thank you.
00:01:39 - Can I get your autograph?
00:01:42 Just write, "To Todd.
00:01:43 You're a pathetic faggot
00:01:46 Okay. Yeah.
00:01:52 Thank you.
00:01:58 Listen...
00:02:01 ...I hear what you're saying.
00:02:04 But you've gotta hear me.
00:02:06 All I know is that I need space.
00:02:11 I don't know what's gonna happen.
00:02:14 Maybe, eventually, who knows?
00:02:19 But right now,
00:02:23 Fine. I wanna do that. I wanna give you
00:02:27 I just--
00:02:30 - I have to go now.
00:02:33 Will you not leave me here like this?
00:02:36 I can't.
00:02:39 Goodbye.
00:03:32 You have one unheard message.
00:03:35 The following message
00:03:37 It's Avi.
00:03:39 You know, this is supposed to be
00:03:52 Hey.
00:03:54 What are you doing here?
00:03:57 I just came to get some... .
00:04:01 And I wanted some... .
00:04:04 Are you--? Are you crying?
00:04:07 Oh, a little.
00:04:12 I think she's got big, big problems.
00:04:14 She hasn't exactly been
00:04:17 No, she's convinced she's dying.
00:04:20 - Is she sick?
00:04:23 The doctor can't find
00:04:25 But hearing her sound
00:04:30 I felt so sorry for her.
00:04:32 Anyway, I'm gonna fly out there
00:04:37 I should go there.
00:04:43 - I'll go to Michigan. I'll stay with Grandma.
00:04:46 I write soft-core porn.
00:04:49 Doesn't really require tremendous effort.
00:04:51 Besides, it'll give me an opportunity to write
00:04:56 About Genghis Khan?
00:04:58 - No, that other thing.
00:05:01 Don't say it like that,
00:05:03 You've been saying you were gonna
00:05:06 The only way I'm actually gonna do it...
00:05:08 ...is if I just get out of L.A.,
00:05:10 Wonder how Sofia's
00:05:12 I think she'll be thrilled.
00:05:17 Sofia dumped me.
00:05:21 Are you kidding me? When?
00:05:24 Hour and a half ago. Been in traffic.
00:05:29 - Maybe it's just a--
00:05:31 It's over. She's gone.
00:05:33 Oh, shit. Shit.
00:05:35 - Would you please hold it together?
00:05:38 I just can't handle you acting
00:05:41 I'm sorry, honey. I'm sorry.
00:05:43 It's just she's so beautiful.
00:05:47 Oh, Carter, oh, God, I'm sorry.
00:05:49 Honey, how are you doing?
00:05:53 No.
00:05:54 I know this is gonna sound
00:05:58 ...but it is true, you will be all right.
00:06:01 I mean, these things, you know,
00:06:05 Sometimes a really long time.
00:06:06 I mean, I'm still trying
00:06:09 ...and that was 12th grade.
00:06:11 Don't tell me that Rodney Portchnik story,
00:06:13 I'm just saying that you will be all right.
00:06:17 Women have always been drawn to you,
00:06:20 And one day when you least expect it,
00:06:24 I don't wanna meet a really great girl.
00:06:27 I don't wanna meet anyone.
00:06:31 ...and her cat.
00:06:50 You're such a freak.
00:07:09 Are you going out tonight?
00:07:11 No. Maybe. Why?
00:07:15 It's Friday night.
00:07:16 You're going out with Gabe Foley,
00:07:18 Shut up.
00:07:21 I have to live through you.
00:07:25 Yeah, we're still not talking about this.
00:07:27 Whatever. Be that way.
00:07:31 Lucy? I'm in the kitchen.
00:07:39 How was your day?
00:07:41 Fine. What's up?
00:07:43 Nothing.
00:07:47 Well, something, actually.
00:07:51 Then can it wait? Because there's
00:07:59 I went to go see Dr. Bennett today.
00:08:03 Why?
00:08:05 I found a nondescript kind of...
00:08:10 ...lump in my breast.
00:08:15 - Oh, my God.
00:08:18 It's very possible that it could be nothing.
00:08:23 ...it still could--
00:08:29 Mom... .
00:08:32 So your dad is going to take me
00:08:36 ...for some tests.
00:08:38 - I should come with you.
00:08:41 No. L-- I just want you to go to school.
00:08:44 Okay, we're not gonna treat this
00:08:48 Okay?
00:08:50 Yeah.
00:08:52 Lucy...
00:08:56 ...everything's gonna be all right.
00:08:59 Really.
00:10:09 Hi, Grandma.
00:10:11 Whoa, Grandma. Grandma.
00:10:15 Agnes is my mother, also your daughter.
00:10:20 I can't believe I'm still alive.
00:10:25 I can't believe I lived
00:10:29 Thank you. I'm so glad too...
00:10:31 ...although I probably
00:10:34 Do you think I can come inside?
00:10:38 - Through the door.
00:10:40 - Where's the cat?
00:10:47 - Can you cook?
00:10:49 I haven't eaten anything in three weeks.
00:10:53 - Really?
00:10:57 Okay.
00:11:03 When I'm dead...
00:11:06 ...you want this house?
00:11:09 - I'm sure it's not that simple.
00:11:11 I can give it to whomever I choose.
00:11:13 Well, then, thank you.
00:11:18 I'm starving.
00:11:27 - Hello?
00:11:29 Thank God. Carter, this is the worst idea
00:11:33 I know.
00:11:36 - Okay, I'm coming.
00:11:37 Listen, let's just give it a try, okay?
00:11:40 I still think this could be
00:11:43 Just kind of regroup and get in--
00:11:46 Someone is calling for you.
00:11:52 - Hello?
00:11:54 - Avi?
00:11:56 - Damn it, my service sucks.
00:11:59 I have my ways.
00:12:02 Listen, we have an emergency.
00:12:04 You gave him the number?
00:12:09 I'm walking on the set.
00:12:10 I've got a girl in this one, tush so hot
00:12:14 Beside the point. She has a problem.
00:12:18 ... why her character would have sex
00:12:21 ... since she's already having an affair
00:12:25 You said you wanted a scene...
00:12:26 ...where she seduces the guy
00:12:29 Yeah. I don't think I can sell her that.
00:12:33 How about this, man,
00:12:36 We're being funny now?
00:12:38 Listen, the character, Monica,
00:12:41 Because of a traumatic childhood,
00:12:44 It's the only way she can orgasm,
00:12:47 That's just a phase. You get over it.
00:12:50 Grandma, would you
00:12:52 Where the hell are you?
00:12:54 I'm out of town for a few days, okay?
00:12:57 I'll get you the new script by Monday
00:12:59 Listen, all right, it should have a scene...
00:13:01 ... where the hot rookie cop
00:13:04 Hey, buddy. My grandma's on the line.
00:13:07 God.
00:13:22 Grandma, I'm not abandoning you.
00:13:25 - I'll put on the alarm.
00:13:28 - Why not?
00:13:53 Thank you very much.
00:14:18 - Bozo.
00:14:22 The dog's name is Bozo.
00:14:23 Oh, hey.
00:14:25 Hey, Bozo.
00:14:30 You must be from the nursing home.
00:14:36 No, she's actually my grandma.
00:14:40 Your grandmother.
00:14:42 I didn't know she had children
00:14:45 Yeah, we don't get out
00:14:48 - Where are you from?
00:14:50 Oh, Los Angeles.
00:14:56 - Yeah. Well, you know, it gets a bad rap.
00:15:02 I'm Sarah.
00:15:05 Carter. Nice to meet you.
00:15:09 So you finally get to spend some time
00:15:13 Yeah. I think I may be staying
00:15:17 See if we can't figure out some arrangement
00:15:22 She's a handful.
00:15:23 I know. I'm kind of worried about it.
00:15:26 - Well, don't be worried.
00:15:27 No, no, you'll be great.
00:15:29 All right, I appreciate that.
00:15:38 Oh, shit.
00:15:41 I better get going before my daughter
00:15:44 ...like I'm the most embarrassing person
00:15:48 Probably because I used to give it
00:15:53 - It's a beautiful night.
00:15:55 - Yeah.
00:15:57 Yeah, I guess it is.
00:16:00 Hey, Lucy. I thought maybe... .
00:16:03 No, that's fine.
00:16:06 Either that or she's just fat.
00:16:13 Hi.
00:16:16 This is gonna sound weird,
00:16:20 ...so I was wondering if you could not... .
00:16:22 You have a cigarette on you now?
00:16:24 No.
00:16:27 Maybe. Why?
00:16:29 Because I'm taking it hostage.
00:16:47 So... .
00:17:17 This message is from
00:17:20 ... calling to confirm Sarah Hardwicke
00:17:37 - wake up with aching back,
00:17:41 Wake up refreshed and feel like new...
00:17:43 ... with our revolutionary
00:17:45 This may be the biggest no-brainer
00:18:36 Devon runs a lazy finger
00:18:40 ... trying not to glance
00:18:43 "We've got to keep this professional.
00:18:46 Maybe we could just consider it
00:19:25 - Hello.
00:19:30 Hi, Phyllis. How's it going?
00:19:33 That's Mrs. Harding.
00:19:35 Hardwicke.
00:19:37 Who gives a shit?
00:19:39 Okay. Grandma, I got it.
00:19:42 I'm so sorry.
00:19:46 Yeah. Well, I made some cookies.
00:19:48 Wow, thank you so much.
00:19:51 They look a little bit like Fig Newtons.
00:19:54 That's right. That's exactly what they are.
00:19:58 ...as wrap them and put them on the plate
00:20:02 - The truth is I'm a terrible baker. Bakess.
00:20:07 My grandmother will just completely
00:20:13 Well, actually,
00:20:16 And this might sound a little bit weird...
00:20:18 ...but it's a beautiful day
00:20:21 ...and I was wondering
00:20:23 Yeah. Okay.
00:20:24 Great. Really?
00:20:27 Yeah. Just give me one minute.
00:20:30 I'm on the plane on the way out here
00:20:34 ...and I start reading these e-mails
00:20:36 Like, 30 or more, maybe,
00:20:40 And not just short messages.
00:20:41 I'm talking about long,
00:20:45 Like, desperately trying to be romantic
00:20:51 And as embarrassing as it is...
00:20:54 ...it's also, like, kind of
00:20:57 ...because it's got this naive idealism thing
00:21:00 ...where ours is gonna be
00:21:03 And I'm writing it.
00:21:05 So I'm sitting there reading these emails...
00:21:08 ...and there's some turbulence...
00:21:10 ...and I start to have
00:21:13 Like nothing I've ever had.
00:21:15 And I think it's happening...
00:21:19 ...because I can not imagine ever feeling
00:21:23 Listen, I have never, in my life,
00:21:27 ...like the kind of letters you wrote her.
00:21:29 Never written one, either.
00:21:32 And you're lucky. You're lucky in a way...
00:21:34 ...that has nothing to do
00:21:36 But you already know that.
00:21:39 I must sound so young to you.
00:21:41 Yeah, well, screw you, pal.
00:21:44 Come on. I didn't mean it like that.
00:21:46 I know what you meant.
00:21:48 You know, I pride myself
00:21:51 ...but whenever I meet somebody new,
00:21:55 What is that?
00:21:57 Maybe you're not really
00:21:59 Maybe you're not such a great listener.
00:22:03 No. No, that's not it.
00:22:07 Yeah, but that's the thing.
00:22:10 Nelson's career. Lucy's painting.
00:22:13 Like they're my own interests and
00:22:17 And I find myself wondering,
00:22:21 Let me ask you this.
00:22:23 Like, what is it exactly you do
00:22:27 You see, now, that is just so predictable.
00:22:29 There is the perception that because
00:22:32 ...that I'm sitting around doing nothing,
00:22:35 Most days I don't have
00:22:39 I'm driving somebody around or dealing
00:22:43 Not to mention I'm on, like, 15 boards.
00:22:46 I'm sorry. I didn't think that... .
00:22:48 Yeah, I know you didn't,
00:22:51 I can feel them all just silently judging.
00:22:55 No matter what I do, l-
00:22:57 It's like I'm just disappointing to her.
00:23:00 Well, she's a teenager.
00:23:03 I mean, it'd be weird
00:23:07 I don't know. I'm sorry,
00:23:12 But maybe I could be doing more.
00:23:14 God, I just don't wanna
00:23:18 ...and wonder what part of it
00:23:22 Okay.
00:23:24 - Yeah.
00:23:25 That was really nice. Thank you.
00:23:27 Yeah, you're welcome. I mean,
00:23:32 - Yeah, all right.
00:23:36 - Shit.
00:23:38 - Shit.
00:23:42 I'm a last-word freak.
00:23:45 - Yeah?
00:23:46 Okay, well, I'm gonna go inside.
00:23:49 You just shout something to me
00:23:51 - That'd be great.
00:23:53 - Great.
00:23:58 You're gonna be all right.
00:24:07 I don't know. Do you maybe wanna
00:24:11 Oh, l-- Sorry, I can't tomorrow.
00:24:14 Okay. All right.
00:24:16 - Wednesday?
00:24:20 I'll come by.
00:24:21 - Okay. Well, I guess--
00:24:35 "Awesome"? That's... .
00:24:39 Mom, I can't talk about this anymore.
00:24:42 And I really do not wanna fight
00:24:44 It's not a fight. It's not a fight.
00:24:47 I'm just saying
00:24:50 You could just take him to a movie.
00:24:52 Do you have any idea
00:24:55 It would redefine lame. Seriously.
00:25:02 She might have a point, sweetheart.
00:25:04 It could be a little awkward.
00:25:07 Forget it. Just forget it.
00:25:09 I thought maybe, maybe, just do
00:25:13 ...but I can't handle the two of you
00:26:07 This is happening
00:26:09 So I'm gonna say to you
00:26:12 Whatever we find out tomorrow,
00:26:16 Now, your daughter
00:26:19 ...and she said, if you really want her to...
00:26:21 ...she'll go across the street now
00:26:24 He's a sweet kid. I feel bad for him.
00:26:27 He's heartsick.
00:26:34 I'm gonna be with you every second.
00:26:55 What?
00:26:58 Well, I'm just curious.
00:26:59 Do you ever worry that you're gonna
00:27:05 Yes, I do.
00:27:08 Ready for bed?
00:27:11 Did you know yoga increases circulation...
00:27:14 ...promotes health and well-being
00:27:17 Yeah, I've read that.
00:27:20 Well, maybe you could try it.
00:27:26 Hey, you know what?
00:27:31 I'm sorry if I've seemed
00:27:37 It's cool.
00:27:48 Good night, muffin.
00:27:51 Did you get my pills?
00:27:53 Yeah, these are some pretty serious
00:27:56 Are you sure it's safe
00:28:04 I love it.
00:28:15 Who changed the sheets?
00:28:17 I did.
00:28:32 Who's Sofia?
00:28:35 How did you know about that?
00:28:37 Oh, you kind of mutter in your sleep.
00:28:40 What are you doing in my room
00:28:42 That's a really good question.
00:28:49 Well, she was my girlfriend...
00:28:51 ...and she doesn't wanna
00:28:54 Is she zaftig?
00:28:57 Yeah. Spectacular, actually.
00:28:59 That's so important.
00:29:39 I'm Sofia.
00:29:44 I am completely in love with you.
00:29:55 Goodbye.
00:30:15 Hey. How you doing?
00:30:20 - Yes?
00:30:22 I'm just regrouping.
00:30:29 - I could give you a ride home if you want.
00:30:33 Gotta keep running. It's healthy.
00:30:56 Actually, you know what?
00:31:00 My mom and I kind of
00:31:04 I mean, it wasn't really a fight,
00:31:07 She wanted me to maybe ask you
00:31:11 ...to go see a movie or something.
00:31:14 And I told her
00:31:16 It would be the last thing
00:31:19 I mean, some creepy girl accosting you
00:31:24 This is really coming out wrong.
00:31:25 Your parents, they normally pretty cool
00:31:30 Not really.
00:31:31 Do you think if you were
00:31:34 ...being neighborly,
00:31:38 I don't know.
00:31:39 All right. Find out. Get back to me.
00:31:51 What is it?
00:31:53 It's possible...
00:31:55 ...I think maybe...
00:31:58 ...my toilet might be stopped up.
00:32:01 Maybe? What's the variable?
00:32:04 Water's running over the top.
00:32:07 The carpet's all wet.
00:32:10 Well, I'll take a look. First, I just gotta
00:32:30 I think I should tell Paige alone.
00:32:33 I think it's less scary
00:32:36 ...and she sees that I'm fine.
00:32:38 I think you're right.
00:32:40 But I want you to tell Lucy.
00:32:47 It's better that way.
00:32:49 So he goes, "Find out. Get back to me."
00:32:53 Which is not exactly like, whatever...
00:32:55 ...but it definitely indicates
00:32:58 - Interested?
00:33:01 I mean, even if he were,
00:33:04 - Do it.
00:33:07 Yeah. You have to do it.
00:33:09 Like, seriously,
00:33:20 All right. Somebody better tell me
00:33:25 I really want ice cream.
00:33:28 Who wants to come with me?
00:33:29 Wait, but what--?
00:33:32 You want me to go get ice cream?
00:33:35 You know what? You two go ahead.
00:33:39 Lucy and I are gonna take Bozo for a walk.
00:33:51 Does it hurt?
00:33:56 No.
00:34:01 The chemotherapy can be rough,
00:34:06 And it could make me tired.
00:34:11 Are you scared?
00:34:14 Yeah, sometimes.
00:34:17 Not right now, though.
00:34:23 You don't look so tough.
00:34:30 I took $20 from your purse.
00:34:33 Really? When?
00:34:36 A while ago. Last February.
00:34:40 Are you serious?
00:34:42 Yeah.
00:34:45 I've been wanting to tell you for a while.
00:34:48 I felt bad about it. I'm sorry.
00:34:51 Well, just out of curiosity,
00:34:55 It's stupid.
00:34:57 I wanted to start saving money,
00:35:03 But I didn't have any money...
00:35:07 ...so I needed a foundation.
00:35:10 Right. Well, at least
00:35:15 I'm telling you because other than that,
00:35:19 - It's okay to keep some things to yourself.
00:35:22 Like, I always tell you the truth
00:35:27 Right?
00:35:30 Right.
00:35:32 If you say everything's gonna be okay,
00:35:35 And I know you're telling the truth
00:35:39 Maybe to other people...
00:35:43 ...like, maybe to Lucy
00:35:46 ...but not to me.
00:35:53 I just needed to know.
00:35:57 Are you gonna be okay?
00:36:41 Hey.
00:36:45 What's going on?
00:36:48 You look good.
00:37:00 - So, what was her name?
00:37:03 - The girl you wrote all those letters to.
00:37:09 - Was she your first love?
00:37:11 Well, there was somebody
00:37:13 ...but I used to have this tendency
00:37:17 ...my fantasies of what
00:37:19 Didn't have anything to do
00:37:22 It would just take me forever
00:37:25 Usually four to five months.
00:37:28 But Sofia was different?
00:37:30 Yeah. Well, you know.
00:37:35 No. Actually, that was pretty much
00:37:40 Well... .
00:37:43 Come on.
00:37:50 This is exciting.
00:37:53 I feel like we're gonna
00:37:57 Love it here.
00:38:00 I have this whole science-fiction scenario
00:38:05 ...where I pretend that since
00:38:09 ...that I could walk out of these woods...
00:38:11 ...and be in another time
00:38:16 I love that.
00:38:29 My husband has been having an affair.
00:38:33 I found out a while ago
00:38:40 I told myself
00:38:48 I just have a very comfortable life.
00:38:52 I'm good at that, you know?
00:38:55 And the thing is, he's really a decent guy.
00:39:01 Anyway, it's discreet, I guess.
00:39:06 That must sound pretty vacant to you.
00:39:09 I wouldn't even begin to know
00:39:16 The thing is, I just don't... .
00:39:18 I just don't love him.
00:39:21 Not like you love her.
00:39:23 ...where it hurts when it's good...
00:39:25 ...especially when it's good, you know?
00:39:29 The further away I get from that
00:39:33 ...l'm not so sure
00:39:40 You know, I'd really like
00:39:43 Would that be weird?
00:40:08 Hey, Lucy can't know anything
00:40:10 - Sarah.
00:40:13 Goes without saying.
00:40:15 You know, she asked me about taking you
00:40:20 We usually don't let her
00:40:23 That's responsible.
00:40:25 I'm making an exception.
00:40:27 I'm guessing tomorrow
00:40:29 Yeah. Another appointment.
00:40:33 Hey, look, I don't know
00:40:37 It might be a couple days, might be longer.
00:40:41 All right.
00:40:44 - But I have to go to the grocery store.
00:40:47 - Okay.
00:40:49 I had never been to New York before.
00:40:51 And I remember that I was sitting alone
00:40:57 I was in the room
00:41:00 ...from the Hudson River Valley School.
00:41:02 I just suddenly had this feeling
00:41:06 Finally, awake to my life. Like I was
00:41:13 And then the other day...
00:41:15 ...l'm sitting in the car
00:41:19 She comes out.
00:41:22 ...and jumps in the car
00:41:24 Like, "This is it. This is exactly where
00:41:29 So I guess I just wish that I could
00:41:35 I just want as many of those moments
00:41:40 I mean, I wanna go back to New York City
00:41:45 Probably more than anything
00:41:48 ...who would just eat that candy bar
00:41:53 Well, then you should.
00:42:06 I think I should really tell you just a little bit
00:42:11 Okay, but then
00:42:15 Okay, you go first.
00:42:17 All right, well, I was just gonna say...
00:42:20 ...I think your husband's out of his mind.
00:42:29 So... .
00:42:32 What were you gonna say?
00:42:34 Nothing. It's really not very important.
00:42:49 First unheard message.
00:42:50 Hi, honey, it's me.
00:42:52 We need to talk about long-term plans,
00:42:55 I'm- - I don't think this is healthy.
00:43:06 Sir?
00:43:10 Oh, gee, you should go over there.
00:43:19 What?
00:43:21 It's me. I need to show you something.
00:43:24 It's pretty important.
00:43:28 - You're all dressed up.
00:43:31 - Tonight, cute guy from across the street?
00:43:35 ...with everything going on,
00:43:38 Look, when I get freaked out
00:43:42 ...I like to do research on the Internet.
00:43:45 ...l've learned everything I could
00:43:49 Really?
00:43:51 Most likely they're gonna
00:43:55 They say that can be pretty difficult
00:43:58 ...so we're just gonna really
00:44:02 Then, about three weeks later,
00:44:07 Did they actually say that?
00:44:09 Yeah, but these days a lot of people
00:44:14 All of this doesn't
00:44:17 Well, of course it does.
00:44:18 But since I'm not a breast surgeon
00:44:21 ...there's not a whole hell of a lot
00:44:29 So I was thinking
00:44:33 Carter, you enjoy pizza?
00:44:36 Yeah, I'm into pizza.
00:44:39 - I was a lot like you when I was your age.
00:44:42 Precocious.
00:45:04 I like her sometimes.
00:45:06 Are you kidding? She's phenomenal.
00:45:10 Oh, and the other day I was reading online
00:45:16 I'm gonna go to the bathroom.
00:45:24 Get ahold of yourself. You're a man.
00:45:26 You're not weak. You're not pathetic.
00:45:35 I know you.
00:45:38 Not really,
00:45:42 My worst fear is that I'm gonna come out
00:45:48 ...and the place is all rank with my--
00:45:54 ...and I'm gonna know the other guy
00:45:58 That's your worst fear?
00:46:01 It's up there.
00:46:05 Whoa, it just keeps getting better.
00:46:10 Hi.
00:46:12 I mean, hi.
00:46:15 Did you guys, like,
00:46:19 You're Eric Watts.
00:46:21 Yeah, I guess I am.
00:46:23 You work at the Orange Julius.
00:46:26 I love... .
00:46:28 I love the Orange Julius.
00:46:31 I didn't know that.
00:46:33 Yeah. I built the car?
00:46:36 The Camaro?
00:46:38 Lmpressive. Trés impressive.
00:46:41 Well, basically, I rebuilt it. Restored it.
00:46:45 Which cost a lot of money.
00:46:47 Money I didn't exactly have,
00:46:55 So you're, like, what?
00:46:59 Oh, not exactly.
00:47:01 Lucy's mom forced them
00:47:04 ...because I've been feeling
00:47:09 Anyways, we should get going
00:47:13 ...and amuse me with witty anecdotes
00:47:16 Well, enjoy your movie and food.
00:47:22 ...dude. Whatever your name is.
00:47:26 Okay, so I want you to tell me something.
00:47:30 You live in suburban Michigan.
00:47:32 You go to an average high school.
00:47:36 I want you to tell me about, like,
00:47:39 The John Hughes stuff.
00:47:42 Who?
00:47:44 I am very old.
00:47:47 You didn't go to high school?
00:47:49 Well, I went to this private, sort of
00:47:54 Overprivileged, lot of drugs.
00:47:57 I don't know. I never really felt like it was
00:48:02 For instance, there was no football team.
00:48:05 Well, it's not exactly the '50s here, either.
00:48:08 I mean, it may not be fast-lane L. A...
00:48:10 ...but, you know,
00:48:15 - We do things.
00:48:17 - Yes, like what?
00:48:22 - Let's see the Colin Farrell movie.
00:48:27 What is with you and that guy, anyway?
00:48:34 I had a great time, Paige.
00:48:36 - Really?
00:48:38 Well, I'm gonna go to sleep now.
00:48:41 Okay.
00:48:44 Thanks for paying for everything tonight.
00:48:46 Yeah. Good night.
00:48:49 Oh, Carter?
00:48:52 Will you marry me?
00:48:54 Yes.
00:49:12 To listen to your messages, press 1.
00:49:16 You have two saved messages.
00:49:30 - This is my room.
00:49:32 Grab a sweater.
00:49:34 Why?
00:50:02 So I think I'm dating the quarterback
00:50:09 I don't know, does it get
00:50:15 Are you serious?
00:50:20 We're not exactly dating.
00:50:24 ...hanging out a lot.
00:50:29 His name's Gabe.
00:50:31 And I'm into him. I just... . I don't know.
00:50:34 - Remember the guy at the mall?
00:50:37 That's his best friend
00:50:41 But they're totally different.
00:50:44 Gabe's really confident.
00:50:48 Maybe even cocky.
00:50:50 Have you kissed him?
00:50:52 Yeah. Sort of.
00:50:56 Not really, though.
00:50:58 Define "kissing."
00:51:00 Why not?
00:51:13 My dad's having an affair.
00:51:17 And the weird thing is
00:51:21 I mean, I am...
00:51:24 ...but I'm mad at my mom.
00:51:27 Well, that doesn't seem fair.
00:51:28 I know. I just--
00:51:32 I can't end up like her. I mean, she's...
00:51:35 ...cold and superficial.
00:51:39 I mean, she's obsessed
00:51:41 ...look more like
00:51:43 I don't understand
00:51:46 ...every time she looks at herself in the--
00:51:48 I mean, especially now--
00:51:52 Why you telling me this?
00:51:56 I don't know.
00:51:57 I'm sorry.
00:52:01 Your mom said you're a painter?
00:52:03 I'm not a painter.
00:52:07 It kind of calms me down
00:52:12 Helps me with my problem.
00:52:14 And what's your problem?
00:52:18 I'm afraid to kiss Gabe Foley.
00:52:21 You'll get over that, trust me.
00:52:23 When you're in the moment,
00:52:30 Hey, so my mom doesn't really
00:52:35 Right. Thanks.
00:52:41 Grandma. Grandma.
00:52:44 I'll clean it as soon as I
00:52:46 Will you just let me?
00:52:51 What does that mean?
00:52:53 - My cell phone?
00:52:55 Okay, well, it's probably my boss.
00:52:58 Most likely, he's calling
00:53:02 You're in swimming-pool resurfacing?
00:53:05 What? I'm a writer.
00:53:09 What do you write?
00:53:12 I write children's books.
00:53:13 That's nice. I love children.
00:53:17 That's not true. I used to.
00:53:20 Now I resent them. But maybe
00:53:24 I didn't bring any here with me,
00:53:28 It's too bad. I would have loved to have
00:53:38 Grandma.
00:53:40 I hate to be the one
00:53:44 But you're not dying.
00:53:46 It's just not gonna happen.
00:53:48 So would you please--?
00:53:53 You know what hospice is?
00:53:54 Oh, God.
00:53:59 When you find my lifeless corpse...
00:54:02 ...those are the people
00:54:05 And they'll manage everything.
00:54:07 They'll put me in a big Ziploc bag
00:54:12 - I've requested incineration.
00:54:16 The number for hospice in Michigan...
00:54:18 ...is taped on the phone
00:54:20 You wanna see it?
00:54:24 That'll be the deli guy.
00:54:28 Well, that's a relief.
00:54:32 - Oh, thank you.
00:54:35 - Thanks.
00:55:04 It's been four days.
00:55:07 I just thought maybe... .
00:55:09 I know Lucy told you.
00:55:11 I knew she would.
00:55:15 So I wouldn't have... . So I wouldn't... .
00:55:17 Lucy did not tell me anything.
00:55:23 I'm sick.
00:55:26 I'm pretty sick.
00:55:34 I have breast cancer.
00:55:40 Tomorrow morning, l--
00:55:41 Tomorrow morning,
00:55:44 ...and they have to cut-- Oh, shit.
00:55:49 And they have to cut off--
00:55:51 Oh, shit.
00:55:55 Shit!
00:56:07 Hey, look at me.
00:56:10 I'm right here, and I promise you,
00:56:14 You're gonna be all right.
00:56:16 I know.
00:56:24 I didn't mean... .
00:56:26 I didn't--
00:57:03 Pandy had thought
00:57:07 Then one day, the child he belonged to
00:57:13 He had been replaced...
00:57:16 ... by Colin Farrell.
00:57:25 - Jesus.
00:57:27 Hey. You can just go to my room.
00:57:29 - It's the last one on the left.
00:57:31 Phyllis and I are about to have
00:57:34 Let's go in there.
00:57:39 Grandma,
00:57:42 Okay? Look at me, look at me.
00:57:44 Not okay for you to answer the front door
00:57:48 It's not okay for you
00:57:51 ...when you're not dressed.
00:57:53 I'm wearing a sweater.
00:57:55 Listen to me. Get with the program.
00:57:58 I'm looking out
00:58:00 Now, if you wanna give the illusion
00:58:04 ...you will heed my advice on this. Okay?
00:58:08 Put some pants on.
00:58:10 Put some pants on.
00:58:14 Let's never talk about that.
00:58:17 Done.
00:58:21 How's your mom?
00:58:23 She's okay.
00:58:25 She had her first chemotherapy yesterday,
00:58:31 Maybe you could visit her.
00:58:35 She hasn't exactly indicated
00:58:38 It seemed more like maybe... .
00:58:40 Yeah. She's tired a lot.
00:58:44 It's good to see you.
00:58:49 So I came here
00:58:52 And you were-- That night on the field,
00:58:57 - I was wondering if maybe you could... .
00:59:01 Okay.
00:59:06 This is gonna sound... .
00:59:09 Okay, whatever.
00:59:12 Apparently, Gabe couldn't wait for me
00:59:16 ...so he decided to hook up
00:59:20 And it's been pretty awful at school.
00:59:24 I mean, drama, a lot of meaningful looks
00:59:29 Anyway, there's this party tonight...
00:59:31 ...and I was suppose to go with him
00:59:35 I mean, I haven't talked to him.
00:59:37 - Go.
00:59:38 Yeah, you have to go.
00:59:42 Have a great time.
00:59:47 Come with me.
00:59:49 Let's not get carried away.
00:59:51 Seriously, I walk in with you.
00:59:56 I am mysterious.
00:59:58 I am totally kissing your ass right now.
01:00:02 I mean, it would be so cool.
01:00:05 And I would be indebted to you for, like...
01:00:08 ...the rest of time.
01:00:20 This is just like a dream I have.
01:00:25 Ladies and gentlemen,
01:00:30 Tonight she's wearing a designer dress
01:00:35 - Hey, how's it going?
01:00:39 - What did you say your name was?
01:00:41 - Portchnik. And your father?
01:00:45 - Is he here?
01:00:47 I don't think I'd be having this party
01:00:49 - Have fun, kids, stay awesome.
01:00:52 What was that?
01:00:54 I think, like a million years ago,
01:00:58 Oh, my God. You're here.
01:01:02 And you are...?
01:01:04 I'm her best friend. Yeah.
01:01:08 I don't know.
01:01:10 Oh, my gosh, Madison's here.
01:01:14 Come on, I have so much I have to tell you.
01:01:18 - Go. Go, it's all right.
01:01:20 It's crazy. I'll be around.
01:01:30 We drank so much.
01:01:33 Whoa, hey, you're here. I mean--
01:01:35 I'm a real party animal.
01:01:39 - So how you doing?
01:01:42 Oh, that's good.
01:01:44 If you need someone to talk to
01:01:50 I don't know.
01:01:53 Yeah, great. We gotta keep going, Lucy.
01:01:55 There's some seniors from Carver
01:01:59 Great.
01:02:22 This guy is a complete asshole.
01:02:27 I could have been the son of an asshole.
01:02:34 Mom, you're never gonna believe
01:02:36 Carter. It's Sofia.
01:02:40 Are you there?
01:02:43 Yeah. Hi. Hey, how are you?
01:02:46 God, I missed you.
01:02:49 So much is happening.
01:02:53 I just feel like my whole life
01:02:57 I cry all the time...
01:02:58 ... and you are the only person I can talk to
01:03:02 My best friend.
01:03:05 How are you?
01:03:10 Carter?
01:03:11 Are you the pathetic faggot
01:03:16 I'm gonna have to call you back.
01:03:25 You think you can step into my 'hood,
01:03:30 ...drinking my boy's brew,
01:03:34 - What?
01:03:37 Don't-- Don't repeat all that, please.
01:03:40 Okay, I think the answer
01:03:43 ...depends on whether you have,
01:03:47 ...or you're just an average moron.
01:03:56 - All right.
01:04:00 - Don't take that.
01:04:07 - Get him, Gabe.
01:04:09 - This guy is a good friend of mine.
01:04:12 No, you don't.
01:04:15 ...that I am not the complete asshole
01:04:17 - It was your mistake.
01:04:19 Not me, not this guy,
01:04:23 She's amazing.
01:04:25 She's beautiful and intelligent
01:04:29 ...and you blew it.
01:04:31 What's wrong with you?
01:04:33 How could I have let you drive my car?
01:04:44 Come on.
01:05:03 You know, that's the first time
01:05:08 How was it for you?
01:05:10 It hurt.
01:05:13 I'm not a fan.
01:05:16 There's something I wanna tell you.
01:05:20 I've actually never talked about it
01:05:25 Okay.
01:05:26 Something happened when I was, like, 11.
01:05:30 I had this friend Ethan.
01:05:34 Me and Ethan did everything together.
01:05:36 It's not really weird to be friends
01:05:41 Anyway...
01:05:43 ...I went to his house one day.
01:05:46 And we were just, like...
01:05:48 ...hanging out and, like, playing.
01:05:51 Doing kid stuff. I don't know.
01:05:56 I don't think his parents were home.
01:05:59 It was like Truth or Dare?
01:06:03 But, like, a game.
01:06:05 I mean, there was clothes taken off... .
01:06:09 I'm not really even sure, like, what--
01:06:13 It's all right.
01:06:15 I freaked out.
01:06:20 And he got really defensive, saying, like... .
01:06:23 Like it was my fault that it went that far.
01:06:25 The next day at school
01:06:28 ...because it was everyone--
01:06:32 I was just so humiliated.
01:06:36 Teachers got involved,
01:06:38 Lucy, Lucy, that kind of thing,
01:06:43 Really. It does.
01:06:46 Even though, hey,
01:06:48 Like, afterwards, my mom and I...
01:06:52 ...we never talked about it. At all.
01:06:56 And I don't know, it just always
01:07:01 That I was, like, a pervert or something--
01:07:04 You're not a pervert.
01:07:07 - Then how could she let me feel that way?
01:07:12 Hating her for these-- You gotta let it go.
01:07:14 If she was not there for me
01:07:18 Because she might die.
01:07:23 I'm sorry. I shouldn't have said that.
01:07:31 What the f--?
01:07:35 That was really hard for me to say.
01:07:37 What, are you trying to scare me?
01:07:39 I'm trying to wake you up.
01:07:42 There's a big fucking world out there.
01:07:46 ...and it's never, ever,
01:07:49 It is okay to be scared...
01:07:51 ...but you cannot allow your fears
01:07:55 Not when it comes to the people
01:07:57 The people that need you.
01:08:03 So I guess we're done, right?
01:08:07 Yeah. We're done.
01:08:30 I can't-- I don't--
01:09:31 Don't come any closer. Please.
01:09:35 Okay.
01:09:38 I just wanted to know if you're all right.
01:09:42 Everything hurts.
01:09:53 It's my fault. I know that.
01:09:57 But you need to hear this, Carter.
01:10:01 You are never gonna
01:10:03 - You can't see her.
01:10:07 - I am--
01:11:52 - What is it with you?
01:11:55 I mean, if you-- If you don't
01:11:59 But don't send Phyllis out to make
01:12:03 Where am I suppose to believe you went?
01:12:08 - Right?
01:12:11 It's been like a week.
01:12:15 I don't know. I wanted to call you,
01:12:20 I don't know.
01:12:22 ...like, mad at me.
01:12:26 I'm not mad at you.
01:12:28 So you regret kissing me?
01:12:33 Lucy, I can't. Okay?
01:12:44 I just-- I wasn't the guy.
01:12:47 Okay, then I guess-- Who is?
01:12:51 Actually, when you think about it...
01:12:53 ...you're gonna find
01:13:16 Mom.
01:13:20 I don't feel good.
01:13:22 I think I need--
01:13:32 - Nelson Hardwicke's office.
01:13:35 Lucy, he's not here. He stepped out to- -
01:13:41 Mom, we're gonna try
01:13:43 I'm gonna get you to the hospital,
01:13:46 I can't do this by myself.
01:13:53 You're having what we call
01:13:57 Your white-blood-cell count
01:13:59 ...your body can't defend itself.
01:14:01 I spoke with Hoffman in Ann Arbor.
01:14:03 We're gonna put you
01:14:10 I'm so sorry I wasn't--
01:14:11 - What happened to her?
01:14:13 I'm gonna grab a soda.
01:14:15 No. I'm good.
01:15:06 - Of course I do. You're a cad.
01:15:09 - Hello?
01:15:14 Who?
01:15:16 Carter.
01:15:17 - Who?
01:15:22 Oh, Carter, baby.
01:15:25 Hey, this is just a really bad time.
01:15:29 What?
01:15:30 Listen, I'm at this thing in SoHo
01:15:35 And I'm wasted too.
01:15:39 No. It's not. It's October.
01:15:41 Well, it feels like New Year's Eve.
01:15:43 Listen, sweetie, I really wanna
01:15:48 But let me try a little later. Okay? Okay.
01:15:52 Yeah, okay. No.
01:15:56 I sort of... .
01:15:59 Hello?
01:16:12 What's wrong with you?
01:16:17 Can't seem to get it together.
01:16:21 I'm 26 years old.
01:16:23 I'm healthy. I'm capable.
01:16:28 My friend's are getting married
01:16:30 ...and I'm just so far away.
01:16:33 Why did you come here?
01:16:35 I'm trying to write this thing
01:16:38 How long have you been trying?
01:16:41 Oh, 11 years, give or take.
01:16:44 Too long. You're not trying hard enough.
01:16:46 Maybe you should think about
01:16:50 Yeah. You're probably right.
01:16:53 I don't know. I had this idea...
01:16:55 ...that maybe I could figure something out
01:16:58 I was wrong.
01:17:00 Carter. I am 133 years old.
01:17:05 Oh, Grandma. That's impossible.
01:17:08 I have spent my life
01:17:12 And you know what?
01:17:15 It's not going well.
01:17:19 I didn't say anything.
01:17:21 I'll be dead soon and you'll still be alive.
01:17:26 So stop complaining.
01:17:38 Hey.
01:17:41 Where did everyone go?
01:17:43 Paige was falling asleep.
01:17:47 ...but I just felt like being alone.
01:17:51 Okay.
01:17:54 We should talk.
01:18:13 I'm not really sure
01:18:17 Maybe you should start
01:18:26 It's hard to even--
01:18:29 I mean...
01:18:31 ...l've been at it for so long...
01:18:33 ...that I think I'd probably be mad at you
01:18:39 I mean, anything.
01:18:49 You know, they did another CAT scan
01:18:54 They say that apparently the surgery
01:18:58 There aren't any cancer cells
01:19:01 ...so all this shit that I have to go through
01:19:08 But I know I'm gonna be all right.
01:19:11 And I didn't before.
01:19:15 I was really afraid.
01:19:25 I don't wanna miss the part
01:19:32 Listen, I don't know what happens next,
01:19:39 I'm just gonna keep loving you.
01:19:42 And I'm gonna keep hoping
01:19:45 And I will make mistakes, of course...
01:19:49 ...but I will always be there for you.
01:19:56 There's just one thing
01:20:00 What?
01:20:06 You've got to quit smoking.
01:20:10 - Okay.
01:20:12 - I will.
01:20:17 You should be sleeping, Mom.
01:20:54 Dear Sarah.
01:20:56 I've been trying to write this letter
01:20:58 The kind you said you'd never received.
01:21:00 The kind I've been working on
01:21:03 I remember being 13 years old,
01:21:06 ... listening to the same song
01:21:09 I thought that if I could write
01:21:13 ... maybe I could make someone love me.
01:21:17 I've taken a lot for granted.
01:21:20 I never tried too hard.
01:21:23 I came here because I was running away.
01:21:27 Instead, I met you.
01:21:29 I met you, and you weren't
01:21:36 I hope you get
01:21:39 I hope you go back to New York
01:21:41 ... in the room with the paintings
01:21:45 And I hope when you do,
01:21:49 ... because I know she would love it.
01:22:00 I'm sorry if I've made your life
01:22:03 I'm sorry for a lot of things,
01:22:05 ... I'm sorry I never got the chance
01:22:10 ... I'll never be anything but grateful
01:22:15 And even though I keep fumbling
01:22:17 ... all I really wanted to say
01:23:05 Grandma.
01:23:07 Grandma.
01:23:09 I had one of my children's books
01:23:12 It's called Pandy: The Unlovable
01:23:17 You might really like it.
01:23:18 There's no pictures yet,
01:23:21 Grandma? Phyllis.
01:23:24 Grandma. Wake up.
01:23:28 Grandma?
01:23:40 Okay. Yeah.
01:23:54 Grandma.
01:26:16 You wrote me a letter.
01:26:24 It's freezing out here.
01:26:28 Seriously, I mean, I've heard things,
01:26:33 It's depressing.
01:26:39 I'm gonna miss you a little bit.
01:26:43 Good.
01:26:49 Do you maybe want to go for a walk
01:26:55 I can't. I have to--
01:26:58 I have to get back inside.
01:27:02 Okay.
01:27:04 I'll see you around.
01:27:15 Goodbye, Sarah.
01:27:19 Wait.
01:27:22 You know, I have to have the last word.
01:27:26 You're welcome.
01:27:47 Stumped?
01:27:49 Yeah, I guess. I was so close.
01:27:53 To what?
01:27:55 Being finished.
01:27:56 Well, what happened?
01:28:00 I just feel like it's missing something
01:28:03 You have any ideas for me?
01:28:05 What's it about?
01:28:07 My grandmother. She passed away.
01:28:11 - Sorry. Was she wonderful?
01:28:14 - Did you spend a lot of time with her?
01:28:18 That's nice.
01:28:20 That's a really nice thing
01:28:25 No. I got no ideas.
01:28:27 That's so disappointing.
01:28:28 It would have been so cool
01:28:31 ...and given you that perfect nugget
01:28:34 It's what any decent waitress
01:28:36 - Sorry. Settle for a refill?
01:28:41 I'm Carter.
01:28:42 Janey. Very nice to meet you.
01:28:44 Yeah. You too.
01:28:46 You know, if you're not too busy...
01:28:48 ...I was wondering maybe do you
01:28:53 It's really rough, but I think
01:28:56 Okay. But I have to warn you,
01:29:00 Terrific.