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Kissed
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When you die, your life flashes... |
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and you disintegrate, radiating energy. |
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When a thing turns into its opposite, |
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there are always sparks. |
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But when life turns into death... |
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it's explosive. |
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There are streaks of light... |
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magical and electrifying. |
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Everyone senses something, |
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some sort of illumination. |
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But I see it. |
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I've seen bodies shining like stars. |
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Some say there's no soul. No afterlife. |
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But life, like death, |
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And nothing more. |
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I say believe what you want. |
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Because no matter what you do, |
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you're in the path |
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I've always been fascinated by death. |
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The feel of it, the smell of it... |
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and the stillness. |
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I shroud the body. Shroud the body. |
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Shroud little sparrow with broken wing. |
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I lower the body. Lower the body. |
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I enter the night. Enter the night. |
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The anointment. |
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Hi! |
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Come on, guys, two minutes in the closet. |
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Carol was my first real friend. |
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She said she could see in the dark... |
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and talk to spirits and ghosts. |
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Puss-puss, what you got? |
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It's a mouse. |
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Sandra. |
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- Let's bury him. |
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Carry the body. Carry the body. |
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We carry the body. |
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- Let's bow our heads in prayer. |
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For what we are about to receive, |
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That's grace. |
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It's religious, that's all that matters. |
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- You're leaving already? |
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Okay. |
| 00:07:09 |
All summer long, we'd find dead animals... |
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shroud their bodies, chant, and bury them. |
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After dark, I'd go back |
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It's a chipmunk. |
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- What's that? |
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They're dead. |
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What'll we do with them? |
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We'll have a special ceremony. |
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And please, dear God, who art in heaven... |
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take care of the chipmunks. |
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In power and in glory, |
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- What are you doing? |
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Oh, no, I hurt it. |
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Carol. |
| 00:10:33 |
Carol! |
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Oh, boy. |
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Mom said Carol's mother had phoned |
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She said I had made her do |
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Mom told me to stay away from Carol. |
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She said I was a lady now. |
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I never played with Carol again. |
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And for the first time |
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I would like you all |
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We start the incision from the abdomen, up. |
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Sandra Larson? |
| 00:11:42 |
No. |
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It's dead. Doesn't feel a thing. |
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Now we continue the process |
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As you can see, |
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Cutting into the body |
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But I had to get inside... |
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see the order... |
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understand the perfection. |
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Larson's Flowers. |
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Yeah, gladiolas are no problem. |
| 00:13:11 |
We can deliver by 2:00. All right. |
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Sandra. |
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The Valley Forge... |
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and of course, the Monaco. |
| 00:13:40 |
No, that can't be right. |
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God damn it. |
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Mr. Wallis? Hi. |
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Is it that time already? |
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Quick, follow me. |
| 00:14:01 |
Anywhere is fine. The family is going |
| 00:14:07 |
That's good. Now if you'll excuse me, |
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I'd like to work here. |
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Pardon? |
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I need a job. |
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I'm really sorry about your assistant. |
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- Well, Sandra... |
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- I have my chauffeur's license. |
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What do you know about funerals? |
| 00:14:42 |
What is there to know? |
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And here we have the office, |
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- three slumber rooms for viewing. |
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Oh, yes. Remember that bus wreck |
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But we managed to squeeze them all in. |
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And this is where it all happens. |
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Once we've worked our magic, |
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Comfortable repose, |
| 00:15:38 |
Now... |
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which one was it? |
| 00:15:42 |
Yes. You can use this one. |
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What should I wear? |
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A simple dress with flats will do. |
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Don't wear black. It's too depressing. |
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Okay. |
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Jan! Come and meet Sandy Larson. |
| 00:16:09 |
She's taking over where Tony left off. |
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Hands like the Virgin. |
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He's Catholic. |
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I did the things I did to find the edge... |
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feel the end beginning. |
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Any thought you act on... |
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pushes you further out. |
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After you bring in all the flowers, |
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If you need a vacuum, |
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All right. |
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- Mr. Wallis, is there... |
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Do you know who? |
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Tony. Died on the job... |
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buried on the job. |
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- Should l... |
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The parents will be here in half an hour. |
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He was a good boy. Handsome. |
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He was. Very handsome. |
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You're so cold. |
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That's okay. |
| 00:21:29 |
"And he that was dead came forth... |
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"bound hand and foot with graveclothes: |
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"And his face was bound about |
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"Jesus saith unto them, |
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Crossing over was glorious |
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It was absolutely addictive. |
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Mr. Wallis? |
| 00:22:47 |
I want to study embalming. |
| 00:22:54 |
I want to study the art. |
| 00:22:57 |
Why? |
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- It's unique. |
| 00:23:03 |
It is a profession apart from all others. |
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I really think I'd be good at it. |
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Welcome to embalming. |
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Now, if rigor mortis has begun... |
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then all these muscles |
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Because after a while, |
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That's more comfortable. |
| 00:23:49 |
You have to pack up all these holes. |
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Otherwise, we'll have |
| 00:24:04 |
There. |
| 00:24:10 |
What's that? |
| 00:24:13 |
It's something to make him smile. |
| 00:24:22 |
That's a lot easier, and a lot faster, |
| 00:24:31 |
These little gems hold the eyes shut. |
| 00:24:44 |
Next, we raise the vessels. |
| 00:24:46 |
Always remember: Jugular is for draining... |
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and the carotid, for injecting. |
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One goes in... |
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and one comes out. |
| 00:25:17 |
Sometimes they get clots. And sometimes |
| 00:25:23 |
But our patient should be a piece of cake. |
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Came straight from the hospital. They were |
| 00:25:50 |
A trocar. Many see it |
| 00:25:56 |
And this is what you call cavity aspiration... |
| 00:25:59 |
where we suck out all the goo, |
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That way our young friend |
| 00:26:09 |
- Wait! |
| 00:26:12 |
- Doesn't it... |
| 00:26:23 |
You get used to the smell. |
| 00:26:40 |
All done. |
| 00:26:52 |
That's it? |
| 00:26:56 |
All you do is hose him down, dress him up, |
| 00:27:02 |
Jan is gone for the day. Would you mind |
| 00:27:06 |
And the front door locks behind you. |
| 00:27:12 |
You didn't faint. That's always a good sign. |
| 00:28:12 |
It's okay. |
| 00:28:34 |
Don't worry. |
| 00:29:09 |
- Jan? |
| 00:29:19 |
- She's beautiful. |
| 00:29:24 |
Not like today, all skin and bone. |
| 00:29:29 |
In the '40s they were all Madonnas. |
| 00:29:32 |
So womanly, so feminine. |
| 00:29:37 |
Mr. Wallis calls them "patients." |
| 00:29:42 |
Don't let him fool you. |
| 00:29:48 |
All I hear is his dirty jokes. |
| 00:29:57 |
Mr. Wallis is a troubled man. |
| 00:30:02 |
What do you mean? |
| 00:30:09 |
He likes the boys. |
| 00:30:13 |
I caught him once. |
| 00:30:15 |
I asked him why. |
| 00:30:19 |
"It's all dead flesh. |
| 00:30:32 |
What do you think? |
| 00:30:37 |
I think they can. |
| 00:31:00 |
It was like diving into a lake: |
| 00:31:04 |
Sudden cold, then silence. |
| 00:31:13 |
Their bodies floated... |
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solemn and shimmering. |
| 00:31:22 |
I watched their lives flow out... |
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who they were, what they had done. |
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My hands burned |
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And all I could see... |
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was the light. |
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I looked right into it. |
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College. I learned everything I could... |
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the proper procedures, |
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I was completely absorbed. |
| 00:32:23 |
...and the fluid pressure from the body. |
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Be aware of the temperature... |
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The trocar. |
| 00:32:36 |
Oh, God. |
| 00:32:40 |
Cool! |
| 00:33:23 |
Primary postmortem? |
| 00:33:28 |
- Yup. |
| 00:33:32 |
I like the pictures. |
| 00:33:35 |
Well, there's a newer edition out |
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Higher resolution photographs. |
| 00:33:45 |
Are you a pathology student? |
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I work in a funeral home. |
| 00:33:54 |
Really? You know that's really |
| 00:34:00 |
- Don't you think? |
| 00:34:05 |
Sure you do. |
| 00:34:09 |
I mean, you see it all. |
| 00:34:14 |
Don't you? |
| 00:34:25 |
Where are you going? |
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Home. |
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I couldn't stop thinking |
| 00:35:34 |
It was like he knew, |
| 00:35:59 |
Coffee, please. |
| 00:36:11 |
Thank you. |
| 00:36:17 |
- Hi. |
| 00:36:21 |
Sit... |
| 00:36:29 |
- Matt. |
| 00:36:33 |
I have something for you. |
| 00:36:48 |
- Fifth edition. |
| 00:36:51 |
I'm a med student. |
| 00:36:54 |
- What year? |
| 00:36:58 |
I'm, you know, taking some time off. |
| 00:37:07 |
So, how is it working at the funeral home? |
| 00:37:14 |
It's a full-time job. |
| 00:37:21 |
Why would you want to be an embalmer? |
| 00:37:34 |
Because of the bodies. |
| 00:37:42 |
What do you mean? |
| 00:37:49 |
I make love to them. |
| 00:37:56 |
Really? |
| 00:38:01 |
Yeah, dead bodies. |
| 00:38:12 |
You don't believe me, do you? |
| 00:38:16 |
I believe you. |
| 00:38:22 |
I've never told that to anyone. |
| 00:38:28 |
- Men or women? |
| 00:38:33 |
Young men. |
| 00:38:34 |
- Fresh corpses? |
| 00:38:40 |
Do you climb on top of them? |
| 00:38:43 |
- Yeah. |
| 00:38:47 |
Blood? |
| 00:38:50 |
Yeah, it's essential. |
| 00:38:54 |
You know, when you think about it, |
| 00:39:00 |
but blood sustains it. |
| 00:39:04 |
Blood is primary. |
| 00:39:07 |
Yes. |
| 00:39:30 |
This is where I live. |
| 00:39:36 |
You want to come in? |
| 00:39:40 |
- Maybe another... |
| 00:39:45 |
- Okay. |
| 00:39:46 |
- Goodnight. |
| 00:39:58 |
Okay. Thanks. See you. |
| 00:40:03 |
Bye. |
| 00:40:06 |
I live in the basement. |
| 00:40:41 |
Hi! |
| 00:40:52 |
No. |
| 00:40:55 |
Go around the front and down the steps |
| 00:40:58 |
- Okay. |
| 00:41:16 |
The biographies of my life. |
| 00:41:21 |
- One day I'll clean up around here. |
| 00:41:24 |
Yeah? |
| 00:41:32 |
She looks like you. |
| 00:41:37 |
- You think so? |
| 00:42:01 |
Those are sample bottles, from the school. |
| 00:42:08 |
- Do you want to dance? |
| 00:42:10 |
- I'm just not very good at it. |
| 00:42:22 |
- Sorry. |
| 00:42:28 |
- Do you want a drink? |
| 00:42:57 |
I've never done this before. |
| 00:43:05 |
That's okay. |
| 00:43:11 |
It's all right. |
| 00:43:15 |
Just lie back. |
| 00:43:23 |
Just lie still. |
| 00:48:50 |
That night I knew I couldn't give it up. |
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And I didn't think I would ever have to. |
| 00:49:08 |
Why do you need to know all the details? |
| 00:49:11 |
I'm just curious, that's all. |
| 00:49:14 |
- That's the only reason? |
| 00:49:19 |
I've never met anyone like you before. |
| 00:49:25 |
You're totally different. |
| 00:49:28 |
- Like an experiment? |
| 00:49:36 |
You're complex... |
| 00:49:39 |
you're complicated, you're dynamic... |
| 00:49:43 |
You know? |
| 00:49:52 |
I like you, Sandra. |
| 00:49:59 |
I want to show you something. |
| 00:50:16 |
I spent a lot of time here. |
| 00:50:19 |
This is where I lost Carol. |
| 00:50:22 |
What happened to her? |
| 00:50:24 |
I don't know. Married somewhere. |
| 00:50:33 |
I don't believe in marriage. |
| 00:50:35 |
- Come on. |
| 00:50:38 |
Sex would get pretty stale. |
| 00:50:41 |
And how would you know? |
| 00:50:46 |
I don't want to know. |
| 00:51:03 |
It's all one way. |
| 00:51:08 |
- That's not true. |
| 00:51:14 |
Yes, they can. |
| 00:51:19 |
I think you're drafting personalities |
| 00:51:25 |
Then I guess I have |
| 00:51:27 |
'cause I've never met two the same. |
| 00:51:29 |
You could have a pretty big imagination. |
| 00:51:32 |
Schizophrenics... |
| 00:51:34 |
are able to manufacture |
| 00:51:39 |
- Thank you! |
| 00:51:42 |
You create this history, this life, for them... |
| 00:51:46 |
and then you have total control over them. |
| 00:51:48 |
It has nothing to do with control. |
| 00:51:55 |
What's this? |
| 00:51:59 |
- Don't look at that. |
| 00:52:04 |
Dates, times, frequency of occurrence. |
| 00:52:10 |
Matt this is a record of everything I've done |
| 00:52:15 |
Yeah. |
| 00:52:24 |
It's just based on the stuff you told me. |
| 00:52:31 |
- You should be flattered. |
| 00:52:41 |
It's just something I use |
| 00:52:45 |
This is not going to help you |
| 00:52:49 |
It's not about... |
| 00:52:52 |
facts and figures. |
| 00:53:05 |
It's about crossing over. |
| 00:53:12 |
By the time I get there, I'm out of myself. |
| 00:53:20 |
It's more than this. |
| 00:54:29 |
Hi. |
| 00:54:31 |
- You scared the shit out of me! |
| 00:54:39 |
So? |
| 00:54:40 |
So what if I did? |
| 00:54:43 |
Formaldehyde. |
| 00:54:46 |
You got blood under your fingernails. |
| 00:54:48 |
You know, I didn't have time for a manicure. |
| 00:55:11 |
"Dean Rodrick English, 30. |
| 00:55:15 |
"...on Tuesday, after a lengthy illness. |
| 00:55:17 |
"Body can be viewed 1:00 to 3:00 p.m. |
| 00:55:20 |
The obituaries? Matt what are you doing? |
| 00:55:22 |
Michael Gazitias. 35. |
| 00:55:25 |
Wednesday, in his sleep. |
| 00:55:28 |
He's also at the Wallis Funeral Home. |
| 00:55:31 |
Now... |
| 00:55:34 |
did you sleep with these two guys? |
| 00:55:35 |
You know, I don't fuck |
| 00:55:38 |
That's not what I meant. |
| 00:55:43 |
Is it the same with each of them? |
| 00:55:45 |
No! |
| 00:55:47 |
Everyone is different. It's like in life. |
| 00:55:50 |
Everybody is different. |
| 00:55:54 |
How is it different? |
| 00:55:59 |
Each of them has its own... |
| 00:56:04 |
wisdom... |
| 00:56:05 |
its own innocence, its happiness, its grief. |
| 00:56:11 |
I feel everything from the body, okay? |
| 00:56:15 |
I see it. |
| 00:56:19 |
You see it? |
| 00:56:21 |
It's like... |
| 00:56:26 |
Iooking into the sun without going blind. |
| 00:56:32 |
I am consumed. |
| 00:56:38 |
So am I, Sandra. |
| 00:57:17 |
- It's so noisy in here. |
| 00:57:22 |
And hot, like the beach. |
| 00:57:29 |
I'll try the window again. |
| 00:57:42 |
Goddamn deathtrap. |
| 00:57:57 |
Stay here. |
| 00:58:02 |
I can't. |
| 00:58:09 |
Okay. |
| 00:58:17 |
- I'll come back on Thursday. After class. |
| 00:58:22 |
Fine. |
| 00:59:08 |
- He was so young. |
| 00:59:37 |
He looks wonderful. |
| 00:59:42 |
Better in death than in life. |
| 00:59:47 |
I thank you for your kind words. |
| 00:59:50 |
I must say, however, |
| 00:59:53 |
is the dedicated work |
| 01:00:00 |
Miss Larson, you possess a true talent. |
| 01:00:04 |
Thank you. |
| 01:00:15 |
- You could have had me fired. |
| 01:00:19 |
Can I watch you at the funeral parlor? |
| 01:00:21 |
- You were just there! |
| 01:00:23 |
- when you're alone... |
| 01:00:27 |
- Just once? |
| 01:00:30 |
Stop. |
| 01:00:32 |
I really need to talk to you. |
| 01:00:34 |
I've been thinking about this a lot, |
| 01:00:40 |
I don't know what to do. |
| 01:00:43 |
I have to do it. |
| 01:00:45 |
You have to do what, Matt? |
| 01:00:49 |
I have to fuck a corpse. |
| 01:00:52 |
Forget it! |
| 01:00:53 |
Forget it! |
| 01:00:55 |
This is not something |
| 01:01:00 |
- I need to do it! I have no choice. |
| 01:01:04 |
- L... |
| 01:01:10 |
Fine. |
| 01:01:31 |
I'll get it. |
| 01:01:36 |
Wallis Funeral Home. |
| 01:01:37 |
It's me. |
| 01:01:39 |
Matt? |
| 01:01:42 |
Why are you calling me here? |
| 01:01:45 |
Where are you? The line's really bad. |
| 01:01:48 |
Look, skip your class tonight. |
| 01:01:53 |
I can't. |
| 01:01:59 |
Matt? |
| 01:02:31 |
What's going on? |
| 01:02:33 |
Nothing. |
| 01:02:36 |
You didn't answer my calls all day. |
| 01:02:38 |
I know. I'm sorry. |
| 01:02:44 |
What's with the suit? |
| 01:03:01 |
Forget it. |
| 01:03:03 |
- Just indulge me. |
| 01:03:06 |
Sandra, just try. |
| 01:03:08 |
It's just a little thing. |
| 01:03:31 |
- No, it's weird. |
| 01:03:33 |
- No, I really don't want to. |
| 01:03:35 |
Just calm down, it will be fine. |
| 01:03:36 |
- Lf you just calm down, it will be... |
| 01:03:40 |
- Just relax! |
| 01:03:42 |
Look, I just want to feel |
| 01:03:45 |
Stop it! |
| 01:03:53 |
Just once! |
| 01:04:59 |
Hi. |
| 01:05:12 |
I tried calling. |
| 01:05:16 |
I know. |
| 01:05:19 |
I've been busy. |
| 01:05:23 |
Are you still coming over tomorrow night? |
| 01:05:30 |
I'll try. |
| 01:05:37 |
Well, maybe I'll see you then. |
| 01:05:59 |
What are you doing? |
| 01:06:04 |
I've always had bad skin. |
| 01:06:18 |
That's not true. |
| 01:06:28 |
You have beautiful skin. |
| 01:06:33 |
Let me help you take it off. |
| 01:07:24 |
I'm going to go. |
| 01:07:27 |
Okay. |
| 01:07:38 |
Bye. |
| 01:08:05 |
Hello? |
| 01:08:07 |
I love you. |
| 01:08:44 |
Matt, come on. |
| 01:08:46 |
This is stupid. Get down. |
| 01:08:49 |
Pull away the stool. |
| 01:08:55 |
Matt, I'm serious. You're scaring me. |
| 01:08:57 |
Get down. |
| 01:08:59 |
All you have to do is pull away the stool. |
| 01:09:05 |
- What are you doing? |
| 01:09:10 |
If you do anything |
| 01:09:13 |
I'm just going to kick it over myself. |
| 01:09:18 |
Matt, please. |
| 01:09:23 |
I love you, okay? |
| 01:09:27 |
- No, you don't. |
| 01:09:31 |
No, you don't, Sandra... |
| 01:09:35 |
but you will. |
| 01:10:23 |
Morning gentlemen. Let's make this quick. |
| 01:10:25 |
Okay, make sure this whole room |
| 01:10:27 |
- Let's not disturb anything. |
| 01:10:29 |
Captain, do you want to come |
| 01:10:39 |
They were all over Matt... |
| 01:10:41 |
and questioned me for hours. |
| 01:10:44 |
Why did he kill himself? |
| 01:10:46 |
Why didn't I talk him down? |
| 01:10:49 |
I said: |
| 01:10:51 |
"As soon as I entered the room, |
| 01:11:12 |
Okay, let's make room for the gurney here. |
| 01:11:14 |
Now, don't disturb anything. |
| 01:11:18 |
Clear. Here we go. |
| 01:11:23 |
They wouldn't understand. |
| 01:11:26 |
And I couldn't explain it... |
| 01:11:28 |
even if I wanted to. |
| 01:11:31 |
Chaos came with Matt's death. |
| 01:11:35 |
It came with time and form breaking free... |
| 01:11:38 |
as everything was magnified, |
| 01:12:13 |
Matt was gone, but not his energy. |
| 01:12:17 |
His star was the brightest I'd ever seen... |
| 01:12:21 |
exploding and surrounding us. |
| 01:12:33 |
His love was so intense... |
| 01:12:39 |
I felt burned. |
| 01:12:48 |
Love is about craving. |
| 01:12:51 |
Our craving for transformation. |
| 01:12:54 |
And all transformation, |
| 01:12:58 |
because life turns into death. |
| 01:13:09 |
I still work at a funeral home. |
| 01:13:16 |
I'm still compelled to cross over. |
| 01:13:21 |
But now I see Matt |
