On The Edge

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00:01:24 No. Still dead.
00:03:12 Well, gentlemen,
00:03:16 Okay, down to business.
00:03:17 Drugs.
00:03:19 You got loads of them. Give us some.
00:03:21 - What do you want?
00:03:23 God's, ups, downs, hash,
00:03:25 ...heroin, Charlie, speeds, acids.
00:03:27 - I think I'll have a gram...
00:03:30 I'll have a gram of cocaine.
00:03:32 Get your hands off!
00:03:35 Fuck.
00:03:40 - Hello.
00:03:43 - Was that your boyfriend there?
00:03:45 - What is he like?
00:03:48 What do you care?
00:03:50 What are you doing
00:03:53 What's it to you?
00:03:55 Do you want to come back to my flat
00:04:01 - Okay.
00:04:10 - Is that your car, lads?
00:04:12 We wouldn't buy a car like that.
00:04:20 What are you doing
00:04:23 You know, this and that.
00:04:25 Bit of shopping. Seeing the sights.
00:04:29 - Really? He's dead?
00:04:32 - What did he die of?
00:04:36 Are you heartbroken?
00:04:38 You know,
00:04:41 So the doctor says to him,
00:04:45 "Your liver will fucking give in.
00:04:48 He goes home and he celebrates
00:04:51 - Some way to go!
00:04:53 - I never joke about death.
00:04:56 Am I?
00:05:19 Wait here. I'll be back in a second.
00:05:30 - 'Morning.
00:05:37 Thanks.
00:05:40 - It's a beautiful morning out there, Mikey.
00:05:48 It was a great funeral, wasn't it?
00:05:52 - What's the matter? Have you slept?
00:06:01 I want the ashes.
00:06:03 - What are you talking about?
00:06:07 I want to take it home with me.
00:06:09 What are you shitting on about? It's 5:00.
00:06:12 Mikey, she's asleep. Come on.
00:06:15 I'm not going to give you the urn, okay?
00:06:18 Look. Why don't you get
00:06:23 ...and we'll all have breakfast then, okay?
00:06:26 Do you have pancakes?
00:06:28 Yes. I will make you some...
00:06:42 - Is he going to be all right?
00:06:47 He's been a lot better the last few months.
00:06:52 Listen. I'm sorry.
00:06:54 We'll see you. We're going for a spin.
00:07:37 I'm going to have to ask you
00:07:39 What?
00:07:41 I have to ask you to get out of the car.
00:07:44 What are you talking about?
00:07:46 I have to ask you to get out of the car now.
00:07:50 You're serious.
00:08:46 If you want to kill yourself...
00:08:48 ... you can't go wrong
00:08:51 ... over a cliff at 50 miles an hour.
00:08:53 That's a sure thing.
00:08:57 I broke my baby finger.
00:09:00 No seat belt.
00:09:02 The police said if I had been wearing
00:09:19 Under the threat of a prison sentence
00:09:22 ... I opted for three months
00:09:25 ... in a psychiatric hospital.
00:09:36 The good thing about going
00:09:39 ... is that my stay would run right over
00:09:42 For as long as I can remember,
00:09:45 ... in a suburban mental institution.
00:09:50 The group session you'll be attending
00:09:52 It's made up of four people
00:09:56 Most of them have been with us
00:10:02 I'm sure you'll all get on very well.
00:10:18 Well, I'll take it.
00:10:23 There's a special room for patients
00:10:26 You've got your Velcro-tipped darts,
00:10:31 ... and a kettle that stops boiling
00:10:35 ... so you can't kill yourself
00:10:40 Look at that animal.
00:10:45 Yeah, he's nice.
00:10:48 I had a cat once.
00:10:51 But it got its head stuck in a tin of cat food
00:10:57 It was stuck for 10 hours
00:11:03 I'm sorry.
00:11:05 Must have been horrible for him.
00:11:09 All that time in the dark...
00:11:12 ...trying to breathe, bumping into walls.
00:11:19 That's sad.
00:11:23 But he's okay now.
00:11:26 Just a little edgy, but he's fine.
00:11:32 Okay. I'll see you later.
00:11:42 What's that for, lads?
00:11:49 Thanks.
00:12:08 You don't feel like talking?
00:12:12 Okay.
00:12:16 We'll leave it for today.
00:12:19 My therapy sessions are at 12:00
00:12:26 You're required to attend.
00:12:32 I've been through your file this morning.
00:12:37 I'm sorry about your father.
00:13:29 You're woken at 7:30 sharp.
00:13:35 Excuse me. Why are you dressed like that?
00:13:39 - What?
00:13:41 What are you talking about?
00:13:43 You're an inpatient, aren't you?
00:13:55 I'll have your clothes.
00:13:57 There is nothing as comfortable
00:14:01 ... that previously belonged
00:14:19 Excuse me.
00:14:22 You're in the right direction.
00:14:25 He's at the end of the corridor
00:14:30 - Hello.
00:14:34 Are you two patients here?
00:14:38 - No. We're doctors.
00:14:44 - I like your slippers.
00:14:48 Do they bite?
00:14:51 I don't know. Why don't you put
00:14:55 Well, they're nice.
00:14:58 Do you want a game of pool sometime?
00:15:01 - When?
00:15:05 - I don't play pool.
00:15:08 Yeah? I was actually more interested...
00:15:11 ...in having a game of pool
00:15:14 - No offense.
00:15:21 How about table tennis?
00:15:23 Can I give you the telephone number
00:15:26 No.
00:15:36 Come in.
00:15:41 I want to talk
00:15:43 What's the problem?
00:15:45 The problem is I've been forced
00:15:48 It's health board regulations,
00:15:52 It's fucking ridiculous.
00:15:54 They're too small. I look like an idiot.
00:15:57 You look fine, Jonathan.
00:16:00 Everyone is wearing them.
00:16:04 We can look at these sheets in a moment.
00:16:06 So, therapy sessions.
00:16:11 This must be the nutcase class, is it?
00:16:13 Come in. Grab a seat.
00:16:15 Fantastic.
00:16:17 This is Jonathan Breech, everyone.
00:16:21 So, why don't you all introduce yourselves?
00:16:25 - Rachel.
00:16:29 That's Leslie and...
00:16:32 ...Nick.
00:16:34 - No, you haven't missed anything.
00:16:40 Yeah, my name is Jonathan Breech,
00:16:44 And I'm really looking forward
00:16:48 ...to all I learn about everyone.
00:16:50 But more importantly,
00:16:55 Thanks. Next?
00:16:58 We've all been together here as a group
00:17:03 ...and we've been sharing
00:17:06 Let me just ask you
00:17:08 ...and whether there's anything
00:17:14 She's cute.
00:17:17 Do you have a boyfriend?
00:17:21 That'll be a "no," then.
00:17:27 Okay. Let's just look
00:17:31 On your sheets,
00:17:33 ...that some people find difficult,
00:17:38 I don't know about you.
00:17:43 - It's okay, Nick. He's a patient.
00:17:47 It's fine. Fine.
00:17:50 What I want you to do
00:17:54 ...that particularly trouble you.
00:17:55 Excuse me.
00:17:58 Filling out forms really scares me.
00:18:02 That's okay, Toby. You can just leave it.
00:18:05 No, I was joking.
00:18:08 - You're funny.
00:18:13 Actually, it was quite funny.
00:18:15 All right. I'm out of here. See you.
00:18:18 You're not going to help yourself
00:18:23 No, you know, you're right, Doctor, no.
00:18:28 Why don't you show us how it's done?
00:18:30 Tell us a bit about yourself.
00:18:34 I want to know if there's anything
00:18:38 I'd be happy to go through it with you
00:18:41 ...we're not here to talk about me.
00:18:45 - Sounds like denial to me.
00:18:47 - Now you sound angry.
00:18:50 Sometimes it's good to be angry.
00:18:51 I don't think it's
00:18:54 Fine. If you don't feel comfortable
00:18:57 But I believe you said I was running away.
00:18:59 Yes, and I think that's what
00:19:03 You're trying to deflect
00:19:06 And now you sound paranoid,
00:19:10 - What did you say about me?
00:19:15 I hear everything.
00:19:19 Don't you be talking about me
00:19:22 I have enough on my plate!
00:19:27 This has been a wonderful session for me.
00:19:31 ...and I'm almost ready
00:19:34 So, thanks, Doc. Same time tomorrow.
00:19:38 I'll see you.
00:20:04 You think I'm cute? You think I'm cute?
00:20:08 - Don't call me cute.
00:20:10 - You're cute.
00:20:15 What? You want to play?
00:20:21 You think you're so tough.
00:21:24 Do you think I'm cute now?
00:21:32 I have to go back to therapy.
00:21:47 You like that Rachel one, do you?
00:21:51 I don't know.
00:21:52 She's beautiful, isn't she?
00:21:56 She's very complicated.
00:22:35 - Does she play all the time?
00:22:39 That's the thing about these places.
00:22:41 You think you're doing something noble
00:22:45 When she doesn't end up getting better,
00:22:50 Then you forget about her.
00:22:54 Two years.
00:22:56 - Two years. The road to recovery?
00:23:01 That's very frank of you, Doctor.
00:23:03 The board of directors won't be pleased
00:23:06 And tell me,
00:23:12 You're more talkative today.
00:23:14 I'm just fucking bored with this place.
00:23:22 So what's troubling you, Jonathan?
00:23:24 That's a real standard textbook question,
00:23:27 - Is it?
00:23:29 ...who wears corduroy pants
00:23:33 ...and drives an old Saab. Is that yours?
00:23:35 - Yeah.
00:23:38 You expect something
00:23:40 "What's troubling you, Jonathan?"
00:23:43 - Do you?
00:23:46 ...social worker type
00:23:49 Because you're very laid-back.
00:23:52 I thought that we'd be bonding
00:24:00 - You want to talk about your father?
00:24:05 What would you do if you were allowed
00:24:08 Get a decent cup of coffee,
00:24:14 Okay.
00:24:18 Just one thing.
00:24:21 It's like a pledge
00:24:24 We nominate a day,
00:24:27 ...like New Year's Day...
00:24:29 ...and you mustn't harm yourself
00:24:32 You have to stick to it.
00:24:36 Yeah, I think it's a fucking ridiculous idea.
00:24:39 - It's been known to work.
00:24:41 - Might. Why don't you think about it?
00:24:46 Fuck, you made a good breakthrough.
00:24:49 Okay, we'll talk about it more
00:24:52 You've given me the will to live,
00:24:56 After that, I'll show you the benefits
00:25:01 - Okay? See you.
00:25:05 So let me tell you about this pledge thing.
00:25:08 See, Dr. Figure was
00:25:11 And all the hard-core suicidals in his group,
00:25:15 ... had agreed not to kill
00:25:19 Can you imagine someone dead hanging
00:25:24 ... thinking, "If my doctor finds out
00:25:29 You did get privileges
00:25:31 Going to the shops
00:25:33 Not that I needed that because
00:25:37 So I promised to buy him a drink,
00:25:58 Hang on a second.
00:26:12 - Cheers.
00:26:21 You spilled my drink.
00:26:23 - It was an accident, all right?
00:26:30 Not tonight, kids.
00:26:35 Fucking unbelievable.
00:26:42 All right, boys.
00:26:48 Lads, lads, lads.
00:26:50 Do you remember when you were
00:26:55 ...and you bumped into my buddy here,
00:26:58 And he dropped his drink,
00:27:02 It would be a gas if you said sorry to him.
00:27:05 You see, that was an accident, you know?
00:27:10 It doesn't seem to be bothering
00:27:12 So why the fuck is it bothering you?
00:27:19 A little fucking spanner.
00:27:23 - No, lads, you're right. I'll get another one.
00:27:27 - Our pleasures.
00:27:30 Take care.
00:27:31 - No hard feelings, okay?
00:27:50 Fuck! You fucking punks! Bugger you!
00:28:00 - I got a fucking stitch.
00:28:05 But these fellows,
00:28:10 Let's go over here.
00:28:47 - So why are you at the sessions, Toby?
00:28:52 Okay, fuck it.
00:28:56 I killed my brother in a car accident.
00:29:04 How about you?
00:29:07 I don't know.
00:29:09 I've never been properly diagnosed,
00:29:13 I did drive a car off a cliff
00:29:16 - Fuck off.
00:29:18 Are you serious?
00:29:23 And you survived? What was it like?
00:29:27 For the first five seconds,
00:29:31 Fucking "A," I'd say so. That's brilliant.
00:29:34 Well done. I've got to try that
00:29:46 - For fuck's sake!
00:29:51 We only want to have a word with you.
00:30:22 - Hi.
00:30:25 What are you doing here?
00:30:29 Aren't you happy to see me?
00:30:35 - So, where were you?
00:30:41 - What do you think of him?
00:30:46 - Did you have a thing with him?
00:30:51 He's sweet.
00:30:53 You didn't answer my question.
00:30:56 I don't know.
00:31:01 Sometimes I think he likes me.
00:31:05 What about you? What do you think?
00:31:15 - Was your father in today?
00:31:19 - Did he admit you here?
00:31:23 So he's Irish.
00:31:26 Yeah, he's Irish. My mom was American.
00:31:29 - And do you live in America?
00:31:32 I moved here six months ago.
00:31:34 - And where's Mom?
00:31:37 I'm sorry.
00:31:41 Why are you standing over there?
00:31:56 So are you doing that pledge thing?
00:31:58 - Yeah. Are you?
00:32:01 Yeah, New Year's Day.
00:32:05 - I like it.
00:32:08 I don't know.
00:32:16 So you tried to kill yourself.
00:32:21 I don't want to die.
00:32:24 I don't want to be alive.
00:32:28 Are you afraid of dying?
00:32:31 Not for the few seconds
00:32:45 Lie on top of me.
00:32:48 Leave your pants on, don't ask questions,
00:32:54 You can take off your shirt.
00:33:29 Don't stop. Don't stop.
00:33:32 I'm just fucking wriggling, really.
00:33:35 - Whatever it is, don't stop.
00:33:55 Oh, God!
00:34:22 What the fuck is the matter with you?
00:34:48 You're just...
00:35:15 "I'm singin' in the rain
00:35:19 "Just singin' in the rain
00:35:22 "What a glorious feeling
00:35:25 "I'm happy again
00:35:29 "I'm laughing at clouds"
00:35:31 Have you got tickets
00:35:34 No.
00:35:35 - Do you know where I can get them?
00:35:38 That's not much good to me.
00:35:41 "Let the stormy clouds chase
00:35:45 "Everyone from the place
00:35:49 "Come on with the rain
00:35:55 "I'll walk down the lane
00:35:58 "With a happy refrain
00:36:02 "Just singin' in the rain"
00:36:07 It was at that moment
00:36:12 Don't ask me why.
00:36:30 Once every two weeks, there's bowling.
00:36:32 That's where we're encouraged to mix
00:36:35 ... and behave like normal people.
00:36:37 All right, lads. Get your shoes. Let's go.
00:36:55 You're very bad at bowling, Toby.
00:36:58 - We should do something this weekend.
00:37:01 I've had enough of fucking broken
00:37:08 Driving Miss Daisy is on the telly.
00:37:10 We can invite some of the lunatics
00:37:13 It could be a laugh.
00:37:14 How do you ever hear
00:37:17 Shut up. I was starting to like you.
00:37:20 But we should do something.
00:37:23 ...or take some drugs.
00:37:26 If we get caught, fuck it.
00:37:29 We'll round up a load of loonies
00:37:32 We could have a party in my flat.
00:37:34 - Where do we get the people?
00:37:37 We'd hand out the address
00:37:39 Say there's free gargle.
00:37:41 Everyone wants to do something
00:37:44 Fuck!
00:37:47 No, I'm telling you.
00:37:51 - Bowling is shite.
00:38:04 Wednesdays are visiting days.
00:38:06 I really look forward to them
00:38:09 And he's fantastic.
00:38:36 I saw you with your brother today
00:38:40 What kind of a relationship
00:38:45 Did you ever see that Marx Brothers sketch
00:38:49 "You love your brother, don't you?"
00:38:56 - I like the Marx Brothers.
00:39:00 So you have a history of male depression
00:39:04 He's been giving you the old rundown,
00:39:06 He's great, that Mikey.
00:39:09 I have a history of male depression
00:39:12 How do you think it's affected you?
00:39:14 Your mother died when you were 10.
00:39:17 Do you think
00:39:21 Or was he suffering
00:39:24 I don't know. I suppose
00:39:27 ...he finally saw the light,
00:39:30 - I'm proud of him.
00:39:33 On the road.
00:39:35 Did you see the light?
00:39:37 I don't want to talk about what you see
00:39:40 It would scare the wits out of you.
00:39:43 If I could describe it,
00:39:48 ...we'd all be jumping out the windows.
00:39:52 Up until recently,
00:39:56 That's just a matter of letting
00:39:59 Doesn't work anymore though.
00:40:02 I can talk about this
00:40:05 I know more about the business of suicide
00:40:09 ...than you do in all your years of training
00:40:12 I guaran-fucking-tee you that.
00:40:15 I know you do.
00:40:29 Have you ever heard of people,
00:40:34 ...getting excited?
00:40:35 - You mean sexually?
00:40:38 Yes, I've heard of it.
00:40:40 Is it for real?
00:40:42 Yes, it's very real.
00:40:47 Why are you interested in it?
00:40:53 Be careful, Jonathan.
00:40:55 What do you mean?
00:40:58 What I say.
00:41:04 Doctors discourage relationships
00:41:09 I mean,
00:41:11 Well, they go along with them
00:41:13 But once either party
00:41:16 ... they become worried, because
00:41:20 ... the person left behind
00:41:23 So you have to be more careful
00:41:26 ... because they take you more seriously
00:41:30 You can't fuck around
00:41:33 Guess who?
00:41:35 It's you. Gosh!
00:41:39 I haven't stopped thinking
00:41:44 So is it okay if I walk with you
00:41:50 Sure. Why not?
00:41:57 - How's the arm?
00:41:59 - It's all bandaged up.
00:42:02 - And how's your hand?
00:42:05 It was just that it kept hitting off my face.
00:42:08 - I was just wondering if it was okay.
00:42:12 - Yeah, it's fine. How's your face?
00:42:17 We should stop talking about our wounds.
00:42:21 Anyway, it was my ego that was bruised,
00:42:25 Why?
00:42:28 Why? I don't know why.
00:42:32 There's a girl in the high-security ward
00:42:36 ...takes her intestines out
00:42:39 They stitch her back up.
00:42:42 She's really lovely.
00:42:45 Now, you see, I haven't met her.
00:42:47 And she didn't come and slap me
00:42:50 - I don't need your help.
00:42:55 Just take care of yourself.
00:42:58 You know what? Fuck it.
00:43:00 You want to come up to my room
00:43:04 - Yeah? Now?
00:43:07 We could hang ourselves,
00:43:10 - Give you a good time.
00:43:13 - That'd be fun.
00:43:17 Do you want to know
00:43:22 - You want to hear it?
00:43:24 It's disgusting.
00:43:28 I think we should go sometime
00:43:34 - Just the two of us. Get some fresh air.
00:43:37 - I'll buy you an ice cream.
00:43:46 I'll be waiting for your call. Call me.
00:44:03 Myself and Toby's breakouts
00:44:06 He'd always take me with him.
00:44:09 We both agreed
00:44:12 ... outside the hospital
00:44:15 Toby decided to take a trial run.
00:44:20 He swore that he could hot-wire any car
00:44:33 It's fucking beautiful, isn't it?
00:44:37 Let me tell you something
00:44:42 He was in the hospital for a month
00:44:44 He was just wasting away.
00:44:47 We all knew he was dying.
00:44:51 I think if I'd lost anyone else,
00:44:56 I think I can handle death
00:45:03 What I don't understand
00:45:07 ...simple things I wished
00:45:10 Like the fact that I loved him.
00:45:14 And that I never went a day
00:45:17 ...or talking about him to people.
00:45:21 And since then,
00:45:24 ...is that over the month in the hospital...
00:45:28 ...I couldn't get it together enough
00:45:33 I always thought I'd say them in the end.
00:45:39 And one night, the nurse brought him in
00:45:44 And I went out to the toilets.
00:45:50 And when I came back in...
00:45:54 ...he was a dead man.
00:46:01 All the family and friends around him,
00:46:09 My elbow touched off his cup.
00:46:13 And there was still heat in it.
00:46:18 And that, it totally fucked me up,
00:46:24 I mean, the idea...
00:46:30 It was his tea, you know.
00:46:34 It was his tea, and it was still warm, and...
00:46:39 It had outlived him.
00:46:45 It was his tea.
00:46:57 A plane is coming
00:47:03 Full of people.
00:47:07 I wonder if it'll crash now.
00:47:15 Safe and sound.
00:47:19 Fuck, I'm sorry.
00:47:21 I don't know why I'm talking about this.
00:47:24 We'll go back.
00:47:51 Wanks!
00:48:02 Hey, pal, give it up, will you?
00:48:06 I'm getting better, lads.
00:48:10 Are you trying to start a fight?
00:48:12 Chill out, honey.
00:48:14 What are you, a homosexual or something?
00:48:19 No more than you're a dickhead.
00:48:22 You're distracting us,
00:48:25 We're trying to play here,
00:48:27 You're in my fucking peripherals.
00:48:29 Mind your own business.
00:48:32 Shut the fuck up, you ugly mutt, you.
00:48:35 What did you say to her?
00:48:38 Forget it, Toby. Just bowl.
00:48:44 You're a wise man.
00:48:57 It's a fucking strike!
00:49:01 You're going to have to die for that now,
00:49:06 What's your problem? Do you want
00:49:09 If you want to get at him, you're going
00:49:13 But bear with me,
00:49:19 Come on. Come on.
00:49:23 But listen very carefully first before you do.
00:49:27 Whatever you do to me,
00:49:31 ...and get one in at you.
00:49:34 And as sure as I'm standing here,
00:49:39 You'd better kill me with your first shot.
00:49:41 If you don't, I'll come back
00:49:45 Give it to me in the fucking neck.
00:49:48 Come on, you wanker!
00:49:54 Dean, leave it. He's from the hospital.
00:50:07 Yeah.
00:50:20 Jonathan, come here a second.
00:50:39 - That was a close call.
00:50:44 What if he'd gone for you?
00:50:47 Doctor, he'd have been doing me a favor.
00:50:50 You're trembling.
00:50:53 Do you really believe that,
00:50:59 I felt it at the time.
00:51:01 What about now?
00:51:10 Isn't it a relief to be alive?
00:52:14 - How's it going?
00:52:19 I'm okay.
00:52:23 - I wrote another poem, you know.
00:52:26 - I like your poetry.
00:52:30 - Do you want to hear it?
00:52:40 It's called The Demons.
00:52:49 "Deep within these flesh walls
00:52:51 "A raging monster screams
00:52:54 "The pain is felt when I'm asleep
00:52:57 "And fills my every dreams
00:53:00 "To overcome the demon within
00:53:02 "I found a light that shone
00:53:05 "And called out loud and guided me
00:53:09 "That light inspired me on
00:53:12 "When darkness falls across mine eye
00:53:16 "A light within does shine
00:53:18 "And helps me when the demon screams
00:53:21 "That light to me
00:53:23 "sublime"
00:53:27 That's it.
00:53:32 - What do you think of it?
00:53:35 - It's good.
00:53:42 Is it for me?
00:53:46 Not necessarily.
00:53:58 I'm going to the toilets.
00:54:13 I didn't really have to go.
00:54:22 I hope I didn't pressure you in the past.
00:54:27 No. I mean...
00:54:31 You're not like that, you know.
00:54:35 You're what my mom
00:54:42 Come here.
00:55:07 I'll see you around.
00:55:19 - Hi.
00:55:22 - Were you out for the day?
00:55:25 How is your dad?
00:55:27 What are you doing later?
00:55:31 Think I'll catch a show.
00:55:34 - Do you know where my room is?
00:55:48 How was today?
00:55:51 It was fine.
00:55:54 I didn't enjoy it really.
00:55:57 Your dad, how was he?
00:56:00 I don't know. I don't understand him.
00:56:05 We went home for lunch today.
00:56:10 I haven't been there in ages.
00:56:15 There are these cliffs...
00:56:18 ...10 minutes from my house.
00:56:21 Used to go there when I was a kid.
00:56:25 Last time I was there I was 7
00:56:32 It was nice and sunny.
00:56:36 We took a nap on the blanket,
00:56:39 ...and I could feel it moving up and down
00:56:44 We decided to go home.
00:56:48 She wanted to walk along the cliffs.
00:56:53 I don't know. She just...
00:56:59 ...lost her footing.
00:57:02 She just went over.
00:57:09 No sound, no scream.
00:57:16 And I looked over...
00:57:17 ...and I could see her on the rocks below,
00:57:31 Nowadays I have this dream
00:57:35 ...and I'm looking down,
00:57:41 ...still there, sleeping.
00:57:46 And I want to get down to her.
00:57:50 But I can't figure out how.
00:57:57 Then I realize I could just jump.
00:58:03 So I jump.
00:58:06 But it's not like falling. It's...
00:58:10 I just float down.
00:58:14 And then I'm with her,
00:58:23 And I can feel her breathing.
00:58:26 And it's...
00:58:29 It's so warm and nice.
00:58:34 And then everything just fades away.
00:58:50 And where was your dad that day?
00:58:54 I don't know.
00:58:58 I think, work.
00:59:04 He blames himself?
00:59:08 I don't know.
00:59:12 You know, he loved her so much.
00:59:18 A daughter is a poor substitute for a wife.
00:59:23 You couldn't be a poor substitute
00:59:29 Thanks.
00:59:33 It's nice of you to say.
00:59:39 You should go back to your room now.
00:59:48 I'll see you.
00:59:50 I could talk to you, though.
00:59:52 Yeah?
00:59:55 Good night.
01:00:03 - What does that mean?
01:00:05 "Say your prayers and sleep well," in Irish.
01:00:08 It's nice.
01:00:10 My dad used to say that to me every night.
01:00:13 Do you miss him?
01:00:15 I miss him saying that to me.
01:00:17 You miss him.
01:00:19 Not as much as you do,
01:00:27 Good night.
01:01:32 All good escape plans
01:01:34 Something fast and discreet.
01:01:38 Rachel suggested her dad's house
01:01:41 He'd be away,
01:01:43 By giving out the address
01:01:46 ... news of the party
01:01:56 - What's the story? Who we waiting for?
01:02:00 She said she'd bunk out around 10:00.
01:02:27 We spiked the guard's flask
01:02:31 Happy New Year.
01:03:18 Come on. Let's go for a downer.
01:03:22 - There's something I want to say.
01:03:24 I'm totally pissed, so...
01:03:26 Fuck it. I'm just going to say it.
01:03:30 I just want to say that,
01:03:35 ...you're not in my ballpark.
01:03:38 That's all I want to say.
01:03:40 - What are you fucking talking about?
01:03:45 You're not what people think you are.
01:03:47 I mean, you're not even close. I'm close.
01:03:51 I'm everything they say I am.
01:03:56 I am telling you now.
01:04:00 Don't get fucking cornered
01:04:04 ...and what they expect you to do,
01:04:10 - I'm drunk.
01:04:12 That's all I've got to say.
01:04:17 You're the fucking man.
01:04:20 - You know, just fuck them.
01:04:25 Let's go bring in the New Year.
01:04:27 - You're the fucking man.
01:04:29 You are the fucking man.
01:06:14 - Why won't you kiss me?
01:06:24 Why won't you kiss me properly?
01:06:27 Because I'm unusual.
01:06:33 You don't want me?
01:06:35 Listen to me. I want to make love to you.
01:06:39 I'd just like to start with a proper kiss.
01:08:00 Ten, nine...
01:08:03 ...eight...
01:08:05 ...seven, six, five, four...
01:08:23 You can never know
01:08:27 ... at that exact moment.
01:08:30 If they survive, they'll never tell you.
01:08:32 If they succeed, all you can do
01:08:36 ... because it might have had
01:08:40 Your only concern can be
01:08:43 They're the ones to look out for.
01:11:01 And what is Rachel's dad going to do?
01:11:05 I don't know. We'll see.
01:11:09 She's so vulnerable.
01:11:19 What's going to happen to her, Doc?
01:11:22 What's going to happen to you?
01:11:29 I can only help people who are really sick.
01:11:33 Even then, half the time it doesn't work.
01:11:38 Who's going to help you?
01:11:53 What are you looking at?
01:11:56 Nothing.
01:11:58 Are you blind?
01:12:02 I know what's going on in your mind.
01:12:06 - Do you?
01:12:10 What are you hanging around here for,
01:12:16 Anyway, this is my window really.
01:12:21 Everyone knows that.
01:12:27 I've been here for years.
01:12:56 Security? There's a young guy,
01:12:59 He'll be heading for the main gate
01:13:03 Yeah, a push bike.
01:13:06 He's wearing a green coat and a hat.
01:13:14 Let him through. Okay?
01:13:44 It's beautiful here.
01:13:53 You can't take this all on your own.
01:13:59 So are you all good now?
01:14:04 Too many near-death experiences.
01:14:26 Do you want to know the truth?
01:14:30 If it's a matter of life and death
01:14:37 ...then I want to outlive you.
01:14:42 And I want to see what happens to you...
01:14:46 ...because I like you.
01:14:50 I can't.
01:14:55 What if we are still together in a year?
01:15:00 Would we be?
01:15:03 I see it happening.
01:15:13 I don't know.
01:15:19 So, you think you love me?
01:15:23 I know I love you.
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