Antichrist
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How are you? |
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Didn't we just talk about that? |
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That was yesterday. |
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Today is Tuesday. |
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So I've been here long? |
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A month. |
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Wayne says that |
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my grief pattern is atypical. |
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Yeah. |
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Gotta talk with Wayne. |
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I think he gives you too much medication, |
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Stop it, please. |
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Trust others to be smarter than you. |
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He's straight out of medical school, |
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I've treated ten times |
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But you're not a doctor. |
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No, I'm not. |
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And I'm proud that I'm not |
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There is nothing atypical about your grief. |
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It was my fault. |
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What about me? |
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I was there, too. |
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I could have stopped him. |
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No. |
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You didn't know that he |
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I was aware that he would sometimes |
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wake up |
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and crawl out of bed... |
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and walk about... |
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just as you thought |
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He could open the baby gate. |
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He... |
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He woke up... |
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and... was confused... |
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Hey! |
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Dr. Wayne says he wants me back home. |
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You couldn't leave it, could you? |
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You had to meddle. |
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This place leads nowhere. |
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On the contrary. |
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Grief... |
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It's not a disease, |
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it's a natural, healthy reaction. |
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You can't just remove it, you mustn't. |
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Wayne knows you're a therapist. |
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He says you shouldn't treat your own family. |
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In principle I agree, but... |
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But you're just so much smarter, aren't you? |
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I love you. |
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Nothing hurts more than |
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subjected to mistakes and wrongs. |
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No therapist can know |
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- It hurts. |
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There's no way around it. |
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I want to talk to - |
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I'm not gonna let you do that. |
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Will it just go on and on? |
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No. No, it'll change. |
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Will it get any worse? |
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Yes, it will. |
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You've always been distant from me and Nick. |
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Ever I come to think of it... |
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very, very distant. |
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Okay. |
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Can you give me some examples from this? |
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Hell, that's not that difficult to understand. |
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Last summer, for instance... |
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You were terribly distant last summer. |
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As a father, and as a husband. |
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And that was Nick's last summer |
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you missed that on. |
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Too bad. |
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I never interested you... |
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until now... |
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that I'm your patient. |
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Perhaps I'm not supposed to |
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There is nothing you can't talk about. |
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You're indifferent to whether |
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I bet you have a lot of clever |
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Well, actually... |
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it was to honor your wish. |
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You wanted peace to write. |
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Perhaps I didn't mean it. |
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What I understood... |
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is that you wanted to write alone. |
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That you and Nick were going to go to Eden, |
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just the two of you. |
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That way, you could finish your thesis. |
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But I didn't. |
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You didn't? |
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You see? |
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You didn't even know that. |
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Why did you give up? That's not like you. |
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The whole project just seemed |
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As you said, |
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"Glib". |
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I never called your subject "glib". |
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Perhaps you didn't use that word, |
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And all of a sudden, it was glib. |
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Or even was some, some kind of lie. |
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I see. |
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No, you don't see. |
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You see a lot of things, but not that. |
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Inhale. On a count of five... |
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call me, call me. |
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Just... follow me, do it with me. Inhale. |
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Inhale, on a count to five... |
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Inhale. Two... |
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Stay with me, stay with me. |
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Inhale. |
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2, 3, 4, 5, hold. |
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2, 3, 4, 5, exhale. |
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2, 3, 4- good. |
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Imagine, |
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imagine you're blowing |
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calmly, quietly... |
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Yes, yes, that's good. That's good. |
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That's very good. |
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I told you there would be a change. |
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You're still mourning |
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What phase? |
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Anxiety. |
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Anxiety? |
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Yes. |
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This is physical. |
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It's dangerous. |
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No, it's not dangerous. |
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Just as your grief wasn't dangerous. |
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A main part of anxiety is physical: |
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Dizzy spells, |
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dry mouth, |
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distorted hearing, |
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trembling, |
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heavy breathing, |
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fast pulse, |
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nausea... |
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Hey! |
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Easy. |
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Never screw your therapist. |
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No matter how much |
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I know it distracts you, but |
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it's not good for us. |
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Do the breathing. |
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Hold... |
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Exhale. |
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Do you love me? |
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Yes, I do. |
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Then help me. |
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It's what I'm doing. |
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Exposure - that's the only thing |
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Everything else is... just talk. |
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You have to have the courage to stay |
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And then you'll learn |
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Let's make a list of things you're afraid of. |
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At the top, you put the situation |
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But I don't know what I'm afraid of. |
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Just... take your time. |
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I'm thinking. |
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Okay. |
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I'm thinking, but... |
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Can't I just be afraid |
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No, no! |
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This won't do. |
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Stupe, stupidest thing I could do to you. |
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If you can't tell me... |
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what you're afraid of, |
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maybe it would be easier for you to tell me |
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where you're afraid? |
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Where would you feel most exposed? |
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What would be the worst place? |
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An apartment? |
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The street? |
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A store? |
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The park? |
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Visiting someone, maybe. |
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The woods. |
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The woods? |
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The woods, yes. |
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It's funny because |
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you were the one that always wanted |
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What scares you about the woods? |
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What frightens you... there? |
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Everything. |
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Tell me what you think |
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Eh? |
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Is it any woods in particular? |
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Eden. |
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Eden? |
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What do you say we put... |
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a garden around Eden, |
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No... Not quite at the top. |
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No. |
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Stop it. |
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Okay. |
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It's, it's okay. |
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- I'm sorry. |
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I don't know. |
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We can start by working on your expectations. |
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Close your eyes. |
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Feel the seat underneath you. |
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Feel yourself sinking down into it... |
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enfolding you... |
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It's a nice feeling. |
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What you feel is a pleasant warmth... |
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and heaviness. |
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Your breath is deep... |
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Regular... easing. |
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Now... |
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Imagine you're at Eden. |
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Imagine you arrived |
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Tell me what you see. |
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I'm at the bridge. |
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It's evening. |
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Almost no birds can be heard. |
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The water is running without a sound. |
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Darkness comes out anytime here. |
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I walk into it. |
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The little deers... are hiding, |
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Is it difficult to walk there? |
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No. Not really. |
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In fact, it's almost okay. |
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In among the trees, |
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on the slope, |
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there's a? foxhole. |
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How do you feel there? |
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I can't really tell. |
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It should be easy, passing. |
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And yet, |
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it's like walking through mud. |
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The trunk is thick. |
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The tree rots so slowly. |
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It has some strange kind of personality. |
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I've always found that. |
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Now... |
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Where are you, are you, |
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Yes, I am. |
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I'm walking up the path |
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Then don't go in. |
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Don't go in. |
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It's the outside you're afraid of. |
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Don't look around. |
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No. |
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Lie down on the green. |
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You want me to lie down? |
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Lie down on the grass. |
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On top of all the plants? |
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Yes, lie down on the plants. |
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Are you lying down? |
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Yes. |
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Good. |
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What is everything like around you? |
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Green. |
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It's all very green. |
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Good. |
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Now will you do what I ask you? |
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Yes. |
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What do you want me to do? |
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I want you... |
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to melt into the green. |
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Don't fight it. |
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Just - turn - green. |
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No matter what happens: |
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Let fear come, if it likes. |
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Remember: what the mind can |
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What's wrong? |
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Ground is burning. |
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The ground is not burning. |
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Gotta go. |
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I want to lie down, just for a minute. |
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Sure. |
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Yeah, we'll take a rest. |
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Shouldn't we go home? |
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Yeah. |
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Yeah, we should. |
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Slowly... |
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Stay with it. |
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I know it hurts. |
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Stay! Stay in there! |
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It's just the stupid acorns. |
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What are you doing? |
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I'm just... |
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setting up a little exercise. |
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It's... it's like a... |
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It's like a game. |
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You cheated me yesterday. |
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Running is not good. |
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You have to really feel the grass. |
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I want you to go from this stone... |
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to this stone. |
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Pretty scary, huh? |
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You're ready? |
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Yeah. |
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I'll give you a ride. |
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I'll put you on the first stone. |
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Stay with me. |
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Here we go. |
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Now put your foot down. I got you. |
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I got you. I'm right here. |
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I can't do this. |
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Yes, you can. |
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You can and you will. Just like I will. |
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We're gonna walk together. |
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We're gonna walk together, okay? Now... |
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Alright now, breathe. |
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Let's step off the rock. |
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And step on that grass. |
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Step down. |
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See? What happened? |
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Keep breathing. Keep, keep breathing. |
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I've got you. |
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You're really doing great. |
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Okay? Keep breathing. |
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Five, five and five. |
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You're almost there. |
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You're almost there. You're doing great. |
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...Five. |
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We're there, we are there. |
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There, you told me. |
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You did it. |
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You learned something. |
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Didn't you? |
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You did beautifully. |
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You did beautifully. |
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I miss him so much. |
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I've been afraid of here before. |
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Yes, it seems likely. |
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I just didn't know it was fear. |
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I became afraid, and I stopped writing. |
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What was different, the last time? |
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I heard a sound. |
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Nick? |
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Nick! |
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Nick! |
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Nick! |
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Nick! |
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You didn't hear Nick screaming. |
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Apparently not. |
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And because you experienced something |
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you placed Eden very high |
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Eden was the catalyst |
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You jumped to conclusions... |
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and tied the emotional event with a place. |
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When you feel threat, it's natural to react. |
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If the danger were real, |
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because your adrenaline would |
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But what you're experiencing |
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The scream wasn't real. |
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Stop! |
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Calm down. |
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You shouldn't have come here. |
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You're just so damn arrogant. |
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But this may not last. |
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Have you thought of that? |
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Oak trees grow to be hundreds of years old. |
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They only have to produce one single tree |
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May sound benign to you, but |
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it was a big thing for me to realize that |
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The acorns fell on the roof then, too... |
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kept falling, and falling, |
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and dying, and dying. |
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And I understood that... |
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everything that used to be |
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was perhaps hideous. |
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Now I could hear |
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The cry of all the things that are to die. |
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It's all... very touching... |
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if it was a children's book. |
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Acorns don't cry. |
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You know that as well as I do. |
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That's what fear is. |
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Your thoughts distort reality... |
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not the other way around. |
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Satan's Church - |
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Satan? Jesus! |
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Nature is Satan's Church. |
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What? |
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Well, there you have him. |
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That was his brother. |
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Nick? |
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He drifted away from me the last time. |
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He was always out and about. |
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He might have made more of an effort |
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You look like you slept well. |
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Thanks, I did. |
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I just wanted to say how happy |
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I love you, darling. |
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Did you have a good sleep? |
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I've just been having a lot of... |
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crazy dreams. |
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Dreams are of no interest |
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Freud is dead, isn't he? |
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Yeah. |
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What are you doing? |
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Look! |
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I'm well again. |
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I'm cured. |
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I see clearer. |
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I'm fine. |
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You can't just be happy for me, can you? |
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Chaos reigns. |
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I'd like to do one more exercise. |
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It's like role playing. |
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My role... |
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is... |
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all the thoughts that provoke your fear... |
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Yours... |
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is rational thinking. |
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I am nature... |
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All the things that you call nature. |
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Okay, Mr. Nature. |
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What do you want? |
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To hurt you as much as I can. |
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How? |
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How do you think? |
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By frightening me? |
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By killing you. |
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Nature can't harm me. |
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You're just the whole greenery outside. |
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No, I'm more than that. |
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I don't understand. |
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I'm outside, but also... |
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within. |
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I'm nature of all human beings. |
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Oh, that kind of nature. |
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The kind of nature that |
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causes people to do |
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That's exactly who I am. |
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That kind of nature interested me |
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That kind of nature |
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But you shouldn't underestimate Eden. |
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What did Eden do? |
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I discovered something else |
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If human nature is evil, |
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then that goes as well... |
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for the nature of... |
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Of the women? |
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Female nature? |
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The nature of all the sisters. |
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Women do not control their own bodies - |
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I have it in writing in my books. |
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The literature that you used in your research |
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But you read it as proof of the evil of women? |
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You were supposed to be critical of |
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Instead you're embracing it. |
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Do you know what you're saying? |
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Forget it. |
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I do not know why I said it. |
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I can't work anymore now. |
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Hit me. |
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What? |
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Hit me so it hurts. |
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No. |
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Hit me, please. |
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No! |
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I can't stand it. |
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I don't want to. I don't want to. |
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Then you don't love me. |
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Okay. |
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Maybe I don't love you. |
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Yeah. |
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Again. |
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Again. |
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The Sisters from Regensburg |
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could start a hail storm. |
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I'm not gonna continue this |
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Good and evil... |
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have nothing to do with therapy. |
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You know how many innocent women |
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just for being women? |
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I'm sure you do. Many. |
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Not because they were evil. |
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I know. |
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It's just, sometimes, I forget. |
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The evil you talk about is an obsession. |
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Obsessions never materialize. |
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Anxieties can't trick you into doing things |
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It's like hypnotism. |
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You can't be hypnotized into doing |
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normally do, something against your nature. |
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You understand me? |
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Yeah, I think so. |
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You think so? Well, you don't have to |
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What's this? |
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It's from the medical officer |
01:09:21 |
The autopsy? |
01:09:25 |
They performed an autopsy? |
01:09:27 |
I didn't wanna tell you, |
01:09:32 |
Well... What did they find? |
01:09:36 |
Nothing that would have any... |
01:09:37 |
bearing on the case. |
01:09:40 |
The only abnormality |
01:09:44 |
of the bones in his feet, of an earlier date. |
01:09:49 |
We did not attach any significance to this. |
01:10:06 |
You are aware that you put Nick's |
01:10:15 |
It's right. How weird... |
01:10:23 |
A slip of the mind that day? |
01:10:25 |
How weird. |
01:11:33 |
Herself. |
01:11:38 |
Bastard! You're leaving me, aren't you? |
01:11:43 |
You bastard! |
01:11:45 |
You're leaving me! |
01:11:47 |
I'm not. |
01:11:48 |
I'm helping you. |
01:11:49 |
- You're leaving me, aren't you? |
01:12:05 |
- I love you. |
01:12:07 |
Yes. |
01:12:09 |
I don't believe you! |
01:12:10 |
I don't fucking believe you! |
01:17:16 |
Where are you? |
01:17:21 |
You bastard! |
01:17:24 |
Where are you? |
01:17:35 |
Where are you? |
01:17:50 |
Where are you? |
01:18:00 |
Where are you? |
01:18:07 |
You bastard! |
01:18:19 |
Where are you? |
01:18:24 |
Where are you? |
01:18:29 |
How dare you leave me? |
01:18:42 |
You said you wanted to help me. |
01:18:46 |
Where are you? |
01:18:51 |
Where are you? |
01:20:15 |
Where are you? |
01:20:21 |
You bastard! |
01:21:34 |
Get out! |
01:21:35 |
Get out! You bastard! |
01:21:39 |
Get out! |
01:21:42 |
You bastard! |
01:21:44 |
Get out! |
01:21:47 |
Get out! |
01:22:09 |
Get out! |
01:22:12 |
You bastard! |
01:22:15 |
Get out! |
01:23:17 |
I'm sorry. |
01:24:04 |
You gotta get this thing off... my leg. |
01:24:30 |
I can't find the wrench. |
01:25:37 |
Did you want to kill me? |
01:25:40 |
Not yet. |
01:25:44 |
The three beggars aren't here yet. |
01:25:47 |
The three beggars? |
01:25:51 |
What does that mean? |
01:25:54 |
When the three beggars arrive, |
01:26:01 |
I see. |
01:26:26 |
The crying woman is a scheming woman. |
01:26:41 |
False in legs, |
01:26:46 |
False in breasts, |
01:28:42 |
Hold me. |
01:28:48 |
Hold me. |
01:30:13 |
There is no such constellation. |
01:30:43 |
But none of it is any use |
01:30:45 |
None of it is any use. |
01:30:52 |
No! |
01:38:16 |
Subtitle made available by: Dr. Na'el Hariri |