Ordinary People

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00:01:43 ## [Angelic Choir]
00:02:06 [Male Voices]
00:02:11 # O Lord,
00:02:18 [Women]
00:02:24 # Free of fear and all anxiety #
00:02:30 # Ooooh. Ooooh #
00:02:33 # Ooooh. Ooooh #
00:02:36 # Ooooh. Ooooh #
00:02:38 # Ooooh. Ooooh #
00:02:42 # Ooooh. Ooooh #
00:02:45 # Ooooh. Ooooh #
00:02:48 # Ooooh. Ooooh #
00:02:50 # Ooooh. Ooooh #
00:02:53 # Alleluia #
00:02:57 # Alleluia #
00:02:59 # Alleluia #
00:03:02 # Alleluia #
00:03:07 # Sing Alleluia ##
00:03:26 We've made love 113 times.
00:03:30 I figured it out
00:03:34 To know someone
00:03:37 [Man]
00:03:39 [Woman]
00:03:40 I don't know your favorite actors.
00:03:43 I can't remember the name
00:03:47 That's funny.
00:03:52 [Man] In the last 24 years,
00:04:05 Well. Did we like it?
00:04:07 Ben Walsh was wonderful.
00:04:09 It was funny.
00:04:11 It was a comedy. Wasn't it?
00:04:14 Clyde Banner's getting fat.
00:04:18 He should never turn profile.
00:04:20 Most of us shouldn't turn profile.
00:04:24 What were you thinking about?
00:04:28 When?
00:04:42 [Door Alarm On]
00:04:45 [Door Alarm Off]
00:05:20 Yeah?
00:05:24 You okay?
00:05:25 Yeah.
00:05:29 - Trouble sleeping?
00:05:31 You're sure?
00:05:32 Mm-hmm.
00:05:34 Burning the midnight oil?
00:05:35 Yeah.
00:05:36 Okay.
00:05:38 Have you thought about
00:05:41 No.
00:05:42 The month's up.
00:05:44 What about the plan?
00:05:46 That was if I needed him.
00:05:48 Yeah. Okay. Don't worry about it.
00:05:51 Get some sleep.
00:05:53 I'll get those Michigan State tickets.
00:05:56 Okay.
00:06:32 [Wife]
00:06:35 They said they'll make it
00:06:37 Look at these people.
00:06:39 is in the paper these days.
00:06:40 "Joey Georgella. New
00:06:45 What about those
00:06:48 Jane's checking with John.
00:06:50 Where's Conrad?
00:06:53 Con!
00:06:54 Drop my suits at the cleaners?
00:06:57 They won't be back by Saturday.
00:06:59 That's okay. Connie!
00:07:04 Conrad!
00:07:05 Be right there!
00:07:20 Here he is.
00:07:22 Morning.
00:07:23 Good morning.
00:07:27 Did you sleep?
00:07:29 Yeah.
00:07:30 Hungry?
00:07:32 Uh... hungry?
00:07:35 It's French toast.
00:07:37 It's your favorite.
00:07:39 Yeah.
00:07:41 I'm not really hungry.
00:07:43 Breakfast. Pal. Remember?
00:07:46 So you're not hungry.
00:07:48 Hang on. He'll eat.
00:07:50 Con. It's French toast.
00:07:52 There's fresh fruit later.
00:07:55 What are you doing?
00:07:57 You can't save French toast.
00:07:59 I've got to run.
00:08:01 Will you call Mr. Herman
00:08:04 You have to charm him.
00:08:07 Did you charm him?
00:08:13 You have to eat. Con.
00:08:15 You must get stronger.
00:08:17 Dad. I'm not hungry.
00:08:19 Are you okay?
00:08:21 Yeah.
00:08:27 I got to go.
00:08:28 Lazenby's picking me up.
00:08:30 Oh. Is he? Great.
00:08:32 Why is it great?
00:08:35 Well. I don't see
00:08:39 I miss them.
00:08:40 Bring them around...
00:08:42 Phil. Don. And Dick.
00:08:44 We'll play some touch football.
00:08:46 See you later.
00:09:04 Con!
00:09:21 [Horn Honks]
00:09:29 It's called flake.
00:09:32 Come on. We're late. Let's go!
00:09:37 Jarrett. Come on!
00:09:45 We're late 'cause Dickie's mom
00:09:48 I studied all night
00:09:53 That guy wants a damn
00:09:57 How can you understand that?
00:09:59 You read it.
00:10:00 Yeah. Right!
00:10:02 We swim.
00:10:05 I swim. And I study.
00:10:08 What you reading?
00:10:09 Hardy.
00:10:11 You should try meditation.
00:10:13 That's just like thinking.
00:10:14 Have you got
00:10:18 Didn't they pass you on anything?
00:10:22 They don't pass you
00:10:25 without taking the final.
00:10:26 Hey. Quit with that radio.
00:10:28 I'm trying to study.
00:10:31 Hope it's a long train.
00:10:33 I'm going to flunk.
00:10:34 [Lazenby]
00:10:53 Does my hair look like shit?
00:10:56 Yeah.
00:10:58 Thanks.
00:10:59 Hey, hey, hey!
00:11:00 Hey, there's Pratt.
00:11:02 Let me out.
00:11:03 [Lazenby]
00:11:05 Pratt, you have nice knees!
00:11:07 Hey. Interested in
00:11:20 Hey. Cleary!
00:11:22 Hey. Cleary!
00:11:27 [Woman]
00:11:29 Conrad, what's your
00:11:32 Conrad?
00:11:34 What's your theory
00:11:38 Was he powerless in
00:11:41 or could he have
00:11:45 I don't... Powerless?
00:11:48 He thought he was.
00:11:50 He was a jerk.
00:11:52 He was hung up on morals.
00:11:55 It was senseless.
00:11:56 That's too easy. Joel.
00:11:59 Paul?
00:12:00 I found the book hard to follow.
00:12:05 Come on!
00:12:13 [Telephone Rings]
00:12:14 Hello.
00:12:16 Hello.
00:12:17 Dr. Berger?
00:12:19 Yes?
00:12:20 Hi. This is Conrad Jarrett.
00:12:23 Who?
00:12:24 Conrad Jarrett.
00:12:26 Dr. Crawford at Hillsboro Hospital
00:12:30 I'm with a patient now.
00:12:33 Can you call back at 2:15?
00:12:36 I don't think I'll be free.
00:12:39 Give me your number.
00:12:40 I'll call you tonight.
00:12:42 Hello?
00:12:44 Hello?
00:12:46 I'll call you back. Thanks.
00:12:51 Go!
00:12:54 Come on.
00:12:56 Keep it going!
00:12:59 Keep plugging!
00:13:00 Use those legs!
00:13:01 Lazenby, get with it!
00:13:03 Jarrett, head down!
00:13:05 Work it!
00:13:06 Come on. Now!
00:13:09 Get your head down. Jarrett!
00:13:10 Come on!
00:13:12 Dig in there!
00:13:15 Push off. Jarrett!
00:13:17 Push off!
00:13:29 Is he actually inclined to lose?
00:13:33 Well. Regionally.
00:13:35 It's too bad.
00:13:36 I mean...
00:13:38 it's tragic. Really.
00:13:39 Look at him now.
00:13:42 He's lost everything.
00:13:43 Fish too dry?
00:13:45 It's not too dry.
00:13:50 C&S has a new mechanic.
00:13:52 What happened to Harry?
00:13:54 I think he moved to Skokie.
00:13:57 This new mechanic is so awkward.
00:14:00 Is that shirt ripped?
00:14:02 Leave it on the table
00:14:05 Wasn't that girl
00:14:08 What was her name?
00:14:09 Karen.
00:14:11 [Beth]
00:14:14 I haven't played in a year.
00:14:18 Well. Isn't it time to start?
00:14:27 We're going to Clark Murray's
00:14:31 I bought him
00:14:35 Not the Murrays.
00:14:39 Cut the rope. Now. Bucky!
00:14:43 We're going in!
00:14:46 Give me your hand!
00:14:48 Bucky!
00:14:50 Bucky.
00:14:51 Bucky.
00:15:30 Hi. How are you?
00:15:32 Oh. I'm fine.
00:15:33 Couldn't be better.
00:15:53 Come in.
00:15:57 Jarrett.
00:16:00 Come in.
00:16:02 Sit down.
00:16:06 I just have to...
00:16:09 wire some...
00:16:11 volume.
00:16:18 [Music Blares]
00:16:20 Sorry. Sit down.
00:16:26 You have trouble finding the place?
00:16:28 Not yet.
00:16:31 [Telephone Rings]
00:16:33 Uh. Jarrett.
00:16:34 How long since you've been
00:16:38 A month and a half.
00:16:41 Feeling depressed?
00:16:43 No.
00:16:44 On stage?
00:16:46 Pardon me?
00:16:47 People nervous...
00:16:49 treating you like
00:16:53 Yeah. I guess a little.
00:16:55 Are you?
00:16:57 I don't know.
00:17:03 How long were you
00:17:06 Four months.
00:17:08 What did you do?
00:17:09 I tried to off myself.
00:17:12 It doesn't say
00:17:16 Double-edged Super Blue.
00:17:18 Oh.
00:17:24 Is everybody glad
00:17:27 Yeah.
00:17:29 Friends?
00:17:30 Yeah.
00:17:32 You're back in school.
00:17:34 Everything okay there? Teachers?
00:17:36 Yeah.
00:17:37 No problems?
00:17:39 Uh-uh.
00:17:41 So why are you here?
00:17:49 Uh...
00:17:51 I'd like to be more in control.
00:17:54 Why?
00:17:56 So people can quit
00:17:59 Who's worried about you?
00:18:01 My father. Mostly.
00:18:03 This is his idea.
00:18:05 And your mother?
00:18:06 Isn't she worried. Too?
00:18:08 I don't know.
00:18:10 Look. I'll be straight with you.
00:18:13 I don't like this already.
00:18:15 As long as you're straight.
00:18:18 Have you talked to Crawford?
00:18:21 Yes. He called me.
00:18:23 He told me to look for you.
00:18:27 He said you had
00:18:31 Boating accident. Wasn't it?
00:18:35 Want to tell me about it?
00:18:48 You talked this over
00:18:51 Right.
00:18:53 How did that go?
00:18:54 It didn't change anything.
00:18:57 What needed changing?
00:18:58 I'd like to be more in control.
00:19:03 Why?
00:19:04 So people can quit
00:19:08 Well. I'll tell you something.
00:19:10 I'll be straight with you. Okay?
00:19:13 I'm not big on control.
00:19:18 But it's your money.
00:19:20 So to speak.
00:19:23 So to speak.
00:19:26 Okay.
00:19:32 How's Tuesdays...
00:19:35 and Fridays. Same time?
00:19:37 Twice a week?
00:19:39 Well. Control's a tough nut.
00:19:42 I've got swim practice every night.
00:19:46 Well. That's a problem.
00:19:48 How do we solve that?
00:19:53 Guess I'll skip practice
00:19:56 Well. It's up to you.
00:19:57 I don't like being here.
00:20:00 I don't like it at all.
00:20:04 Mm-hmm.
00:20:08 I saw Mort Swain.
00:20:12 The one from Idaho?
00:20:15 The one with the restaurant.
00:20:17 She died in Idaho?
00:20:19 I guess so.
00:20:22 Why?
00:20:23 You said she was always traveling.
00:20:26 I don't know.
00:20:28 Maybe in Idaho.
00:20:30 Maybe Kansas City.
00:20:39 I went to see Dr. Berger.
00:20:41 Berger?
00:20:43 Yeah.
00:20:45 You didn't say anything. Good!
00:20:47 I went today.
00:20:48 I didn't know
00:20:51 How was it?
00:20:53 It's a lot of money.
00:20:54 It's okay.
00:20:56 It's $50 an hour.
00:21:00 It's okay.
00:21:03 What did you talk about?
00:21:05 Not much.
00:21:07 What about your schedule?
00:21:08 Well. It'll cut
00:21:12 Where's his office?
00:21:14 Highland Park.
00:21:19 Head straight!
00:21:21 I don't want to tell you again.
00:21:27 This is what I see.
00:21:29 I see you yawning
00:21:33 I don't see you having fun.
00:21:35 Are you getting enough sleep?
00:21:38 Yeah.
00:21:41 Are you having fun?
00:21:43 Fun?
00:21:44 There's no point
00:21:48 Yeah. I guess so.
00:21:50 You guess so.
00:21:54 Are you on medication?
00:21:56 Tranquilizers?
00:21:57 Anything?
00:21:59 No. No. Sir.
00:22:01 Did I ask you
00:22:04 Yeah.
00:22:05 Yeah what?
00:22:07 Yeah. You asked me.
00:22:09 Yeah. They did.
00:22:13 Don't look at us. Lazenby.
00:22:15 Get in the water!
00:22:21 I'm no doctor. Jarrett.
00:22:25 I wouldn't let them
00:22:31 He drives me nuts!
00:22:33 Everybody drives you nuts.
00:22:38 Don and Fenetch looked good.
00:22:40 They looked very good.
00:22:42 Is he giving you a hard time?
00:22:45 Want a clarinet?
00:22:47 Van Buren wants a clarinet.
00:22:49 Who's selling it?
00:22:50 My brother.
00:22:52 You stand behind me
00:22:55 Oh. I do?
00:22:57 You have a lot of energy.
00:23:00 I do?
00:23:01 I mean. That's good.
00:23:03 My name's Jeannine Pratt.
00:23:05 Nice. Hi.
00:23:06 You're Conrad Jarrett.
00:23:08 Right.
00:23:11 Yeah. Um. Bye.
00:23:13 Bye-bye.
00:23:15 "You've got a lot of energy."
00:23:22 [Children]
00:23:23 You're the scariest
00:23:27 You look wonderful.
00:23:28 Thank you.
00:23:30 There you go.
00:23:31 Be careful.
00:23:33 Thank you.
00:23:36 The Cabots.
00:23:38 She's so cute!
00:23:42 Ha! Ha! Ha! Ha!
00:23:45 Know what I've been thinking?
00:23:48 That Christmas in London...
00:23:50 would be like something
00:23:53 We've never done that before.
00:23:56 Maybe we shouldn't plan
00:24:00 We talked about it.
00:24:02 We decided on that.
00:24:04 Yeah. I know that.
00:24:06 But the timing
00:24:09 We've always gone away
00:24:12 It'd be good for him. Too.
00:24:15 Let's get back to normal.
00:24:18 He's just started
00:24:20 He'll miss three weeks.
00:24:22 Why interrupt it?
00:24:24 Because I want to get away.
00:24:27 I think we should.
00:24:30 Not if he doesn't
00:24:34 He might change his mind.
00:24:37 If he changes his mind...
00:24:39 it wasn't right for him.
00:24:42 Does he want to go?
00:24:44 He doesn't know what he wants.
00:26:54 Ahh!
00:26:56 Don't do that!
00:26:58 I'm sorry.
00:26:59 I didn't think you were here.
00:27:02 I just got in.
00:27:04 No golf today.
00:27:06 How was golf?
00:27:08 I didn't play.
00:27:09 It's colder today.
00:27:11 I mean. For the year.
00:27:15 Weren't you swimming?
00:27:17 Yeah. Sorry I scared you.
00:27:19 How'd it go?
00:27:21 Good. I swam well.
00:27:23 Good.
00:27:24 I could swim the 50 if my...
00:27:27 my timing got better.
00:27:29 I'm a little off.
00:27:31 You must work at that.
00:27:34 Yeah.
00:27:35 I got 74 on a Trig quiz.
00:27:39 74?
00:27:41 Gee. I was awful at Trig.
00:27:44 Oh. Yeah? Did you...
00:27:45 You took Trig?
00:27:50 Wait a minute.
00:27:54 Did I take Trig?
00:27:59 I bought you two shirts.
00:28:06 Who'll be there?
00:28:08 Well. The Murrays.
00:28:12 Let's go to the movies instead.
00:28:15 Don't be negative.
00:28:18 That's not negative.
00:28:20 Let's go to the movies.
00:28:23 Okay.
00:28:24 Really?
00:28:26 Okay. Yeah.
00:28:29 What's our excuse?
00:28:31 Beth wanted to go
00:28:35 Good.
00:28:36 Very good.
00:28:43 All right now. Smile.
00:28:45 Remember. Not too many martinis.
00:28:53 Will you put that
00:28:56 Look. We're in time.
00:28:58 Look who's here!
00:29:00 Three blocks away
00:29:04 Come on in.
00:29:05 Happy birthday!
00:29:08 Is that new?
00:29:09 Yes. It is.
00:29:13 You did the mousse?
00:29:15 It turned out well?
00:29:16 Hey. Partner.
00:29:19 Hi there.
00:29:20 Hi. Beth.
00:29:22 Good to see you.
00:29:24 Borrow the money.
00:29:25 I'll go public.
00:29:27 I wouldn't do it now
00:29:31 Your hair looks wonderful.
00:29:33 It's shorter. You like it?
00:29:36 I said.
00:29:39 He says. "Huh?
00:29:44 Good to see you!
00:29:47 You look beautiful. As ever.
00:29:49 In school...
00:29:51 they think they've got
00:29:56 What are these hushed tones?
00:29:58 He told the funniest joke!
00:30:02 I'm not talking to you.
00:30:05 Why?
00:30:06 I have my fingers crossed
00:30:10 Let's have lunch.
00:30:11 I don't know my schedule.
00:30:13 I'm free most days.
00:30:16 Bob McLean's leaving
00:30:18 Where is he going?
00:30:20 He doesn't know.
00:30:22 Jesus.
00:30:24 No. You didn't.
00:30:25 Isn't he the meanest man
00:30:29 When a ball is in play.
00:30:31 If a player or caddy
00:30:35 #Jolly good fellow #
00:30:37 # For he's a jolly good fellow ##
00:30:42 # Won't regret. Can't forget #
00:30:45 # What we did #
00:30:47 # For #
00:30:50 # Love ##
00:30:59 Hi. Annie. What's your boy up to?
00:31:02 Oh. Who knows?
00:31:03 How's Conrad doing?
00:31:05 He's great. Just great.
00:31:07 I asked Donald.
00:31:11 I said maybe he's self-conscious.
00:31:14 Oh!
00:31:18 No. No. No.
00:31:21 No. He's...
00:31:23 There's a doctor
00:31:27 that he sees twice a week.
00:31:29 He's great. Just great.
00:31:31 Is he still having some problems?
00:31:35 No. Nothing like that.
00:31:37 Just somebody to talk to...
00:31:39 to polish off the rough edges.
00:31:42 How are you. Darling?
00:31:43 Is he falling asleep on you?
00:31:46 Nah. He's great.
00:31:49 [Mimicking "Mr. Wonderful"]
00:31:56 Hey.
00:31:58 You drank too much.
00:32:00 I'm not drunk.
00:32:02 Why did you tell Annie
00:32:06 Why not?
00:32:07 People don't hear
00:32:10 For most people.
00:32:14 Well. Your blurting it out...
00:32:16 was a violation of privacy.
00:32:18 Whose privacy?
00:32:20 The family's privacy!
00:32:22 I think it is
00:32:32 I tell you my dreams?
00:32:35 I don't believe in dreams.
00:32:37 What kind of
00:32:41 What's happening?
00:32:44 What's going on?
00:32:46 I just feel...
00:32:48 I feel so...
00:32:52 What?
00:32:53 Jumpy. I don't know.
00:32:55 Look. Kiddo...
00:32:57 I lied.
00:33:00 I believe in dreams.
00:33:02 Sometimes I want to know
00:33:06 Something's making you nervous.
00:33:08 Maybe I need a tranquilizer.
00:33:11 Tranquilizer?
00:33:12 What do you think?
00:33:14 You look like something
00:33:18 It's not my impression
00:33:23 What is this?
00:33:25 A clock.
00:33:27 You can tell the time.
00:33:30 So you know when
00:33:33 Right.
00:33:35 50. 55 minutes?
00:33:46 Maybe I don't want
00:33:49 My timing is for shit.
00:33:51 Two guys better than me
00:33:55 They're a bunch of boring jocks.
00:33:58 And him...
00:34:01 Thought about quitting?
00:34:03 You telling me to?
00:34:04 Nope.
00:34:05 It wouldn't look good.
00:34:08 How does it feel?
00:34:11 How does it feel?
00:34:14 Yes.
00:34:17 It's the same damn thing
00:34:22 Are you the same
00:34:25 That's why you need
00:34:28 You're a doctor.
00:34:29 I'm supposed to
00:34:32 Not necessarily.
00:34:40 Is it getting any easier
00:34:44 No. It's still hard.
00:34:46 Is anyplace easy?
00:34:51 The hospital was.
00:34:53 It was? Why?
00:34:57 Because nobody
00:35:00 Was there anyone there
00:35:04 Uh-huh.
00:35:05 I mean, beside Dr. Crawford?
00:35:08 Uh-huh.
00:35:17 Whoa!
00:35:18 Hi.
00:35:19 Karen!
00:35:20 How are you?
00:35:22 Good.
00:35:23 Sit down. Please.
00:35:25 Thank you.
00:35:32 Wow.
00:35:55 When did you get back?
00:35:58 The end of August.
00:36:00 Good.
00:36:01 It's great to see you.
00:36:03 Oh. You. Too.
00:36:05 Listen. I've got a meeting
00:36:08 Drama Club meeting.
00:36:10 We're doing
00:36:12 You know it?
00:36:14 Anyway. We're going crazy
00:36:18 Don't let me hang you up.
00:36:20 No. I wanted to see you.
00:36:24 I didn't know what to expect.
00:36:27 You sounded funny on the phone.
00:36:30 It was just a gray day.
00:36:33 Everything's great.
00:36:36 Oh. You're swimming?
00:36:37 Terrific. Conrad.
00:36:40 That's really wonderful.
00:36:41 I could be benched all year.
00:36:44 You'll do great.
00:36:46 I'll bet your folks
00:36:50 Yeah.
00:36:51 What can I get you?
00:36:54 Are you hungry?
00:36:55 Just a coke.
00:36:57 Two cokes. Please.
00:36:59 Did we offend him?
00:37:01 Something I said?
00:37:04 A low self-image day.
00:37:09 So. Uh...
00:37:10 - Are you...
00:37:14 I can't believe
00:37:18 You really look beautiful.
00:37:20 So do you.
00:37:22 Do you miss it?
00:37:24 Miss what?
00:37:25 The hospital.
00:37:26 No.
00:37:29 Thank you.
00:37:30 You don't miss it?
00:37:32 No.
00:37:33 You don't miss Leo's corny jokes?
00:37:40 Are you seeing a doctor?
00:37:42 Yeah. I'm seeing one. Are you?
00:37:45 Uh. Dr. Crawford gave me a name.
00:37:48 I went for a while.
00:37:50 It didn't work.
00:37:52 He told me the things
00:37:56 Finally. I decided...
00:37:57 the only one who
00:38:03 At least. That's what
00:38:06 If it's something
00:38:09 That's what you
00:38:12 I don't know
00:38:19 Your hair grew in.
00:38:20 Oh. That was such
00:38:25 I like it.
00:38:26 You do?
00:38:28 Yeah.
00:38:31 I don't know.
00:38:34 I miss it sometimes.
00:38:36 The hospital.
00:38:37 I really do.
00:38:42 Things have to change. You know?
00:38:44 But that's where we laughed.
00:38:46 But that was a hospital.
00:38:49 This is the real world.
00:38:52 I guess you're right.
00:39:01 I really have to go.
00:39:04 I'm sorry.
00:39:05 I have a meeting at the school.
00:39:09 We're doing A Thousand Clowns.
00:39:11 You told me.
00:39:15 Did I?
00:39:17 Yeah.
00:39:19 I better hurry.
00:39:21 Don't want to be late.
00:39:26 Thanks for seeing me.
00:39:30 Conrad?
00:39:32 Let's have a great Christmas.
00:39:38 Okay?
00:39:39 Let's have...
00:39:41 a great year.
00:39:45 Let's have the best year
00:39:49 This could be
00:39:52 Yeah.
00:39:54 Yeah.
00:39:56 Yeah.
00:39:59 Will you call me?
00:40:02 Yeah.
00:40:03 You mean it?
00:40:04 Yep.
00:40:07 You. Uh...
00:40:09 You look good. Conrad.
00:40:11 Yeah.
00:40:13 Bye.
00:40:14 Bye-bye.
00:40:18 Hey!
00:40:21 Would you cheer up?
00:41:03 It's cold.
00:41:07 You should put that on.
00:41:09 Do you want a sweater?
00:41:11 Do I need one?
00:41:18 What are you doing?
00:41:20 Nothing.
00:41:22 Thinking.
00:41:26 About what?
00:41:27 Not about anything.
00:41:32 Your hair is starting to grow out.
00:41:36 It's looking... looking better.
00:41:43 I was thinking
00:41:46 that hung around the garage.
00:41:49 How it used to get
00:41:54 Oh. Yeah.
00:41:57 I remember
00:42:00 That wsssshhhhh!
00:42:02 Every time I started the car.
00:42:05 That was the closest
00:42:10 Buck tried to talk you
00:42:15 He said. "If it's the size
00:42:19 You know.
00:42:22 that Pepper or Pippin...
00:42:24 Pippin. Pippin. Pippin.
00:42:26 He's not friendly...
00:42:28 whatever Mr. McGreary says.
00:42:30 He wanted the retriever.
00:42:33 Each time that dog comes here.
00:42:36 Arf!
00:42:37 Arf! Arf!
00:42:42 Put that on
00:43:24 Can I help?
00:43:26 With this?
00:43:28 No.
00:43:30 I will.
00:43:31 You can go to your room...
00:43:34 and clean the closet.
00:43:36 Mom.
00:43:38 Okay?
00:43:40 Because it's really a mess.
00:43:47 [Telephone Rings]
00:43:49 [Telephone Rings]
00:43:53 [Ring]
00:43:58 Hello.
00:43:59 Oh. Hi.
00:44:01 I didn't get there.
00:44:03 How did it go?
00:44:05 No. I'm not doing anything.
00:44:07 Just getting dinner ready.
00:44:09 Uh-huh.
00:44:10 Did she really?
00:44:15 Mary Ann Ramon started
00:44:19 We got so drunk.
00:44:22 It was the last day of school.
00:44:26 We walked out
00:44:29 Oh, Bucky.
00:44:32 No. Stop!
00:44:36 What do you expect from her?
00:44:39 We just don't connect.
00:44:40 Why not?
00:44:41 We just don't.
00:44:53 What are you thinking?
00:44:58 That I jack off a lot.
00:45:01 So what else is new?
00:45:03 Does it help?
00:45:04 For a minute.
00:45:14 What now?
00:45:19 John-Boy.
00:45:21 Who?
00:45:23 John-Boy on
00:45:25 Yeah.
00:45:30 After Buck died.
00:45:33 He didn't
00:45:38 He put his
00:45:40 We just sat there.
00:45:43 I remember watching his shoe.
00:45:49 His shoe was turned
00:45:52 I was thinking. He's so uptight!
00:45:59 I knew I should've
00:46:03 I didn't know what to feel.
00:46:05 On TV. They say stuff
00:46:10 But I didn't say that...
00:46:12 because I didn't feel sad...
00:46:15 so much as...
00:46:21 So much as what?
00:46:23 I kept thinking John-Boy
00:46:26 about how he felt.
00:46:28 What would he say?
00:46:33 I don't know.
00:46:35 Come on.
00:46:42 Come on.
00:46:44 Come on what?
00:46:46 Don't hold back.
00:46:55 Well. At least
00:46:58 That's what you get...
00:47:00 when your partner
00:47:03 That's my fault.
00:47:04 I can't tell anybody...
00:47:07 that they're not making it.
00:47:12 Wait a minute.
00:47:14 That's not the problem.
00:47:17 Where are you?
00:47:18 What?
00:47:20 I've been losing you these days.
00:47:25 Oh. I'm sorry.
00:47:26 That's okay.
00:47:28 You off the track?
00:47:30 Huh?
00:47:32 Come on.
00:47:35 Is something wrong?
00:47:36 How's Connie?
00:47:38 Connie's all right.
00:47:41 He is. He's okay.
00:47:44 It's none of my business...
00:47:47 but you worry too much.
00:47:49 You've been on the rack
00:47:54 I'm not on the rack about him.
00:47:57 In a year. He'll be gone.
00:48:00 Off to Michigan
00:48:05 Maybe he'll tour Europe.
00:48:07 Who knows?
00:48:10 I can't argue with "Who knows."
00:48:12 I'm giving you the benefit
00:48:15 Thanks.
00:48:17 Valerie isn't just
00:48:20 she's gone.
00:48:22 Got her own friends.
00:48:25 She breezes in
00:48:29 I don't know.
00:48:32 Or maybe she
00:48:35 of what was happening
00:48:39 But they leave. And that
00:48:52 [Young Conrad]
00:48:56 Hang on.
00:48:57 [Bucky]
00:48:58 Give it to me!
00:49:01 It's already on me.
00:49:03 Whose sweater is it?
00:49:05 It's my sweater!
00:49:07 I'll give it back...
00:49:08 if you give me my skis.
00:49:11 All right.
00:49:15 Conrad! Conrad!
00:49:18 What?
00:49:19 [Man]
00:49:21 Cuts are vertical.
00:49:23 He really meant business.
00:49:25 Let's go.
00:49:27 [Conductor]
00:49:29 Lake Forest.
00:50:00 [Laughing]
00:50:27 What do you want?
00:50:28 I don't know
00:50:32 I'm not asking for anything.
00:50:34 You're kidding me.
00:50:36 I don't get it.
00:50:38 You're excused from practice...
00:50:40 to see some shrink;
00:50:42 I work with you
00:50:46 What more should I do?
00:50:48 Nothing.
00:50:50 A bright kid like you.
00:50:53 I don't get it.
00:50:55 Why keep messing up your life?
00:50:58 I don't think that
00:51:02 will mess up my life.
00:51:09 Okay.
00:51:11 Okay. Now. This is it.
00:51:15 Yeah.
00:51:16 You're a big kid.
00:51:18 Actions have consequences.
00:51:20 I'm not taking you back.
00:51:22 I won't ask you to.
00:51:33 [Laughing]
00:51:46 What happened?
00:51:48 Yeah.
00:51:50 You quit the swim team.
00:51:51 Yeah.
00:51:53 Why?
00:51:54 It was a bore.
00:51:56 That's no reason!
00:51:59 What's going on?
00:52:00 Nothing.
00:52:02 Talk to me.
00:52:03 Swimming's a bore. That's all.
00:52:05 I talked to...
00:52:06 Quit talking to people!
00:52:08 Okay?
00:52:10 Holy shit.
00:52:12 Yeah. Sure.
00:52:14 Fuck you. Jarrett.
00:52:16 Ooh! Ohh!
00:52:18 Shut up.
00:52:20 Leave it alone.
00:52:22 I told you. The guy's a flake.
00:52:30 - What did your dad say?
00:52:33 How come?
00:52:35 The timing isn't right.
00:52:37 He sweats everything.
00:52:38 He'll just get worried.
00:52:40 Can you tell your mother?
00:52:42 My mother?
00:52:44 I told you we don't connect.
00:52:46 What do people have
00:52:50 It's all surface junk.
00:52:51 You know?
00:52:53 "Clean your room.
00:52:55 get good grades."
00:52:58 I'm not feeling anything today.
00:53:01 I'm sorry.
00:53:03 No. Sorry's out.
00:53:04 Something's on your mind.
00:53:06 What time is it?
00:53:08 Never mind. There's time.
00:53:11 Remember the contract?
00:53:13 Maybe there's some connection...
00:53:15 between control
00:53:18 I said I feel things.
00:53:20 When?
00:53:21 Come on.
00:53:25 When?
00:53:26 Sometimes. I don't know.
00:53:28 I thought you didn't
00:53:31 What do you want?
00:53:33 Don't say. "I don't know."
00:53:36 Should I make up answers?
00:53:39 Make one up about
00:53:42 I have feelings.
00:53:43 Get it together. Jarrett.
00:53:45 You're trying to make me mad.
00:53:48 Are you mad?
00:53:50 No!
00:53:51 You don't like being pushed.
00:53:53 Do something about it!
00:53:55 What?
00:53:56 No. I can't do this.
00:53:58 Why not?
00:54:00 Getting mad takes too much energy.
00:54:01 It takes more holding it back.
00:54:04 When I let myself feel.
00:54:07 # I never promised you
00:54:10 Fuck you. Berger.
00:54:12 Fuck you.
00:54:13 Yeah?
00:54:14 That's it.
00:54:16 What do you feel?
00:54:19 What do you think?
00:54:21 You married a fat lady...
00:54:23 and you fuck
00:54:26 Sounds good to me.
00:54:41 Little advice
00:54:44 Don't expect it always to tickle.
00:54:49 Do you know how
00:54:52 Be quiet. I have to concentrate.
00:54:55 Be quiet.
00:54:56 Is it in focus?
00:54:58 Smile. Smile.
00:55:00 I want to take
00:55:04 Dad. Get out of there.
00:55:07 All right.
00:55:08 Connie.
00:55:10 Be quiet.
00:55:11 Conrad. Where are you?
00:55:13 Between your mother and father.
00:55:16 You're taller than
00:55:19 Will you be quiet?
00:55:21 This is beautiful.
00:55:23 Shut up.
00:55:24 Wonderful.
00:55:26 Now Cal and Beth.
00:55:28 Sure.
00:55:29 Go on.
00:55:31 You can do better than that.
00:55:34 I want one of Connie and Beth.
00:55:37 Let's get the three men in there.
00:55:41 Move closer to your mother.
00:55:44 Prize winner.
00:55:45 Yeah. That's great.
00:55:46 Do it.
00:55:48 Isn't it marvelous?
00:55:49 Yes. It is.
00:55:51 It isn't cocked.
00:55:53 Calvin.
00:55:54 Hold it. Connie. Smile.
00:55:57 Calvin!
00:55:58 Smile.
00:56:00 Give me the camera.
00:56:02 Give me the camera.
00:56:03 I want a really good picture.
00:56:07 I want a shot of you three men.
00:56:10 Not until I get you two.
00:56:13 Give her
00:56:32 Smile.
00:56:38 Who's hungry?
00:56:46 [Crash]
00:56:54 Beth!
00:56:57 It can be saved.
00:57:02 That was so dumb.
00:57:08 I don't think
00:57:14 Have you talked to his teachers?
00:57:17 People don't want
00:57:20 He provokes people.
00:57:21 Well. It's an awkward age.
00:57:24 Thank you.
00:57:27 Maybe he needs a change.
00:57:29 Is he eating enough?
00:57:31 Yes. Mother.
00:57:33 He'll be all right.
00:57:35 If you're firm with him.
00:57:38 I think he should
00:57:42 I can't deal with him.
00:57:44 Who'd make that decision?
00:57:46 I suppose this doctor he's seeing.
00:57:52 What sort of doctor...
00:57:53 would make that decision for you?
00:57:55 A psychiatrist.
00:57:57 I thought that was finished.
00:57:59 No.
00:58:01 What's his name?
00:58:03 Berger.
00:58:05 Jewish doctor?
00:58:07 I suppose he's Jewish.
00:58:09 Maybe just German.
00:58:11 What does Cal say
00:58:16 This can be saved.
00:58:18 It's a nice clean break.
00:58:21 # Amen. Amen. Alleluia #
00:58:24 # Amen #
00:58:27 # Amen ##
00:58:34 Okay.
00:58:35 That last "E" natural
00:58:39 Officers. Don't forget
00:58:48 # Mmm mm mmm #
00:58:49 # Mmm mm mmm #
00:58:51 # Mmm mmm #
00:58:53 # Mmm mm mmm #
00:59:02 Hi. Jeannine.
00:59:04 You're really a terrific tenor.
00:59:06 In fact. You should be
00:59:10 No. L...
00:59:12 No. I'm serious.
00:59:13 You sing well.
00:59:15 I'm getting to know your voice.
00:59:18 How can you hear me
00:59:21 Well...
00:59:23 I don't always sing.
00:59:25 Sometimes I just listen.
00:59:27 For instance. Marcia Blair
00:59:31 Janet Fox mouths the words
00:59:35 A detective.
00:59:37 [Jeannine]
00:59:38 Telemann?
00:59:41 [Conrad]
00:59:43 What kind of music do you like?
00:59:46 Oh. Uh...
00:59:48 Modern jazz. I like.
00:59:50 Folk rock. Spoon on a glass.
00:59:54 Spoon on a glass?
01:00:02 Oh. You mean.
01:00:07 Oh. Dear.
01:00:10 Why do I ask dumb questions?
01:00:13 I'm just showing off.
01:00:20 Why is it so hard...
01:00:22 the first time you talk
01:00:25 You make it look easy.
01:00:30 Really?
01:00:34 That's my bus.
01:00:37 I'll see you later!
01:00:41 You're really a terrific tenor.
01:00:45 # Ah. You're
01:00:57 # Alleluia #
01:01:01 # Alleluia #
01:01:03 # Alleluia #
01:01:05 # Alleluia #
01:01:07 # Ah ha ha ha
01:01:10 # Ha ha ha ha
01:01:14 # Alleluia. Alleluia #
01:01:16 # Alleluia #
01:01:17 # Alleluia #
01:01:20 # Alleluia #
01:01:21 # Alleluia #
01:01:22 # Alleluia #
01:01:25 # Alleluia ##
01:01:44 Hello.
01:01:45 Is Karen there?
01:01:47 Who's calling?
01:01:48 A friend of hers from Hillsboro.
01:01:51 Oh.
01:01:53 She's not home from school yet.
01:01:56 Oh. Um...
01:01:58 Hmm. Tell her I called.
01:02:00 This is Conrad.
01:02:02 Tell her I'm feeling great...
01:02:04 and I wanted to talk to her.
01:02:08 Yes. I will.
01:02:09 Thank you.
01:02:51 Hello. Jeannine.
01:02:54 Hello. Jeannine.
01:03:05 Hello. Jeannine.
01:03:09 Conrad.
01:03:10 Conrad?
01:03:12 What a dumb name.
01:03:14 Hello. Jeannine.
01:03:17 Uuuuugh!
01:03:24 Hello.
01:03:25 Hello. This is...
01:03:28 Hello. This is Conrad calling.
01:03:30 Jarrett.
01:03:31 Oh.
01:03:33 Oh. Hi!
01:03:35 Listen. I was...
01:03:36 I was wondering
01:03:39 to go out sometime.
01:03:41 Like on a date?
01:03:43 We wouldn't have
01:03:46 We could see how it goes.
01:03:49 That was dumb.
01:03:53 This is Conrad Jarrett.
01:03:54 I'd love to. When?
01:04:31 I didn't see you.
01:04:32 What do you think?
01:04:34 Fine.
01:04:36 Rawlins used to have
01:04:38 They look like
01:04:42 Hi. What do you think?
01:04:47 It's very nice.
01:04:51 What is wrong?
01:04:52 Ask him what's wrong.
01:04:54 Maybe you won't have to
01:04:57 Hear what?
01:05:03 I quit the swim team.
01:05:05 Carol thought I knew.
01:05:07 It happened over a month ago.
01:05:10 Quit? When?
01:05:13 Where have you been every night?
01:05:16 Nowhere.
01:05:18 I didn't think it mattered.
01:05:20 That was meant for me.
01:05:23 It's important to hurt me. Right?
01:05:26 You have that backwards.
01:05:28 Do I embarrass you
01:05:32 "Poor Beth believes
01:05:36 I didn't lie.
01:05:38 You did when
01:05:42 If the lying's starting again.
01:05:46 Then go to Europe!
01:05:48 She only gives a fuck because
01:05:54 She never came
01:05:57 because she's busy going
01:06:01 She doesn't care if I'm hung up
01:06:05 They may talk like this
01:06:08 but we're not at the hospital.
01:06:11 You never came to the hospital!
01:06:13 She had the flu
01:06:16 She would've visited Buck
01:06:19 Buck never would've been
01:06:22 That is enough!
01:06:24 I won't do it again.
01:06:27 What in hell has happened?
01:06:29 Somebody better go up there.
01:06:32 He walks all over us...
01:06:34 then you apologize to him.
01:06:38 You've been apologizing to him...
01:06:39 since he returned from the hospital!
01:06:43 I'm trying to
01:06:46 Don't talk to me...
01:06:48 the way he talks to you.
01:06:51 Let's not fight. Okay?
01:06:53 No fighting. Okay?
01:06:55 Please.
01:06:57 Let's go upstairs.
01:07:17 I want to talk to you.
01:07:20 I didn't mean any of it.
01:07:23 Please don't be mad.
01:07:25 I'm trying to
01:07:28 I don't know what happened.
01:07:30 I didn't mean it.
01:07:32 Tell her I'm sorry. Will you?
01:07:36 Why don't you?
01:07:37 God. I can't!
01:07:39 I can't talk to her!
01:07:41 Why not?
01:07:43 It doesn't change anything.
01:07:45 It doesn't change
01:07:49 She was hurt because
01:07:53 I don't mean just now.
01:07:56 I don't mean just today.
01:07:59 Explain it to me.
01:08:01 I can't. You don't see things.
01:08:04 What things?
01:08:05 What things?
01:08:07 I want you to tell me.
01:08:10 Can't you see she hates me?
01:08:13 She doesn't hate you.
01:08:15 You're right.
01:08:18 Please leave me alone.
01:08:33 Do you think Dr. Berger's helping you?
01:08:36 It's not his fault.
01:08:44 I'll be downstairs if you need me.
01:08:51 Tuesday everything was hunky-dory.
01:08:56 You're the doctor.
01:09:00 Don't take refuge
01:09:03 Because that pisses me off.
01:09:05 Okay. Okay.
01:09:07 Everything was fine...
01:09:09 till you had the fight
01:09:12 I don't blame her.
01:09:13 She's got her reasons.
01:09:16 after all the shit I've pulled.
01:09:18 What shit have you pulled?
01:09:22 I'm talking about proportion.
01:09:25 Now. What shit?
01:09:30 You can find one example.
01:09:34 Don't say you tried suicide.
01:09:36 What have you done lately?
01:09:38 I'll never be forgiven for that.
01:09:42 Never.
01:09:43 You can't get out
01:09:47 and in her rug.
01:09:49 Everything
01:09:52 The bathroom tile
01:09:56 She fired the maid...
01:09:58 because she couldn't dust right.
01:10:00 If you think I'll forgive...
01:10:03 she's gonna forgive me...
01:10:13 What?
01:10:34 I think I just figured
01:10:38 What?
01:10:41 Who it is who can't forgive who.
01:10:48 [Berger]
01:10:52 [Conrad]
01:10:54 Doesn't make it any less true.
01:10:57 I'm so tired.
01:10:59 That's some secret
01:11:02 So what do I do now?
01:11:06 Recognize her limitations.
01:11:10 Like she can't love me.
01:11:12 No. Like she can't
01:11:16 Don't blame her
01:11:19 more than she's able.
01:11:21 She loves my father.
01:11:24 She loved my brother.
01:11:26 It's me.
01:11:27 We're back to
01:11:30 She can't love you
01:11:34 How come your Dad loves you?
01:11:38 He feels responsible.
01:11:40 Besides. He loves everybody.
01:11:42 The guy's got no taste.
01:11:45 He loves you. But he's wrong.
01:11:48 Look...
01:11:49 maybe she can't express it...
01:11:52 the way you'd like.
01:11:54 Maybe she's afraid
01:11:58 What do you mean?
01:12:00 There's someone
01:12:03 you've got to forgive.
01:12:04 You mean me?
01:12:08 For trying to off myself?
01:12:12 Don't stare.
01:12:15 Why don't you let yourself
01:12:19 What did I do?
01:12:22 What did I do?
01:12:23 We'll talk Thursday.
01:12:25 Come on!
01:12:26 Time's up.
01:12:28 What did I do?
01:12:30 You know the rules.
01:12:32 What rules?
01:12:33 Think about it.
01:12:35 Just think about it.
01:12:40 Jesus!
01:12:45 Say. After going to a new high...
01:12:48 it falls to 1121/4...
01:12:50 and then rallies on good volume.
01:12:53 I order to buy 4.000.
01:12:56 If I get the 4.000 at 1133/4.
01:13:00 But suppose I order
01:13:04 and I plug in at 1133/4...
01:13:07 I get 2.000 at 114.
01:13:11 and the rest on the way up.
01:13:14 Then I know I'm right.
01:13:16 I'm going to peel off here.
01:13:19 See you later.
01:13:26 [Voice Echoing]
01:13:28 [Beth's Voice]
01:13:30 and you apologize.
01:13:32 [Man's Voice]
01:13:33 [Conrad's Voice]
01:13:36 [Beth]
01:13:37 since he returned from the hospital.
01:13:41 Tell her to stop it!
01:13:43 Buck never would've
01:13:46 She hates me!
01:14:10 I want to be clear.
01:14:11 That's good.
01:14:15 In the car.
01:14:23 I suppose that's what
01:14:26 Being precise and clear.
01:14:28 And honest, of course.
01:14:31 I'm not a great believer
01:14:35 Okay.
01:14:37 What happens here
01:14:41 and I respect that.
01:14:43 He's better.
01:14:45 I just don't believe in psychiatry...
01:14:48 as a panacea for everybody.
01:14:52 Neither do I.
01:14:56 I wish I knew what
01:15:01 You said you could shed
01:15:05 I meant in terms of Conrad.
01:15:08 I knew something was wrong...
01:15:11 even before he tried suicide.
01:15:14 But I thought that...
01:15:17 It's clear that he's very smart.
01:15:20 He's always been
01:15:23 Naturally. I thought
01:15:25 could work out their problems.
01:15:28 But you still feel responsible?
01:15:30 Yeah, sure I do.
01:15:33 It's hard not to.
01:15:35 It was just luck that
01:15:39 when he tried it.
01:15:41 We both could've been away.
01:15:44 You think of yourself
01:15:48 No. No. No.
01:15:50 I used to think that
01:15:55 before the accident.
01:16:01 I guess the whole of life...
01:16:04 is nothing but an accident...
01:16:07 what happens to you.
01:16:09 That sounds like
01:16:12 Yeah. Maybe.
01:16:14 Maybe I am drifting a little.
01:16:16 I can see the two of them...
01:16:20 drifting away from me...
01:16:22 and I just stand watching.
01:16:24 What would you want
01:16:29 Something.
01:16:31 I feel like
01:16:35 They're on opposite sides
01:16:38 Yeah... No.
01:16:41 I don't know.
01:16:42 I see her not being able
01:16:48 For what?
01:16:49 I don't know exactly.
01:16:51 Being too much like her.
01:16:54 People always think that
01:17:00 But it's really she and Conrad.
01:17:03 They were the only two...
01:17:05 that didn't cry at the funeral.
01:17:09 It's not easy for me to admit this...
01:17:13 but. Um...
01:17:14 she didn't...
01:17:20 His mother doesn't
01:17:23 I'm not trying
01:17:27 Did she give Buck
01:17:31 God. Yes.
01:17:33 Bucky got so much.
01:17:35 What she felt for him was special.
01:17:39 He was her first-born.
01:17:41 And you?
01:17:43 I loved Buck.
01:17:45 I mean your wife's affection.
01:17:47 For me?
01:17:49 Yes.
01:17:51 She's very...
01:17:53 No. There's no problem
01:17:57 We've been married
01:18:02 Everybody loves Beth.
01:18:03 For Conrad. It's been difficult.
01:18:07 He didn't talk about that?
01:18:10 We don't know what happens here.
01:18:13 It doesn't come up.
01:18:19 I guess that's what it is.
01:18:22 It's private here. Isn't it?
01:18:25 Mm-hmm.
01:18:30 I think I know why I came here.
01:18:36 I think I came here
01:18:39 Okay. Why don't we?
01:18:48 Hi.
01:18:50 [Car Buzzer Alarm]
01:18:54 Calvin?
01:18:56 [Buzzing Continues]
01:18:58 What's the matter?
01:19:06 This will sound strange.
01:19:10 What I'm going to say
01:19:14 What happened?
01:19:15 Come inside.
01:19:18 Could we talk about
01:19:21 What?
01:19:23 It'll seem trivial.
01:19:27 I'd like to talk about it.
01:19:30 When I was getting dressed
01:19:34 What could getting dressed
01:19:37 have to do with anything?
01:19:40 I was wearing a blue shirt.
01:19:42 You said. "Wear a white shirt
01:19:47 It was nothing. But
01:19:52 What difference did it make...
01:19:55 what I wore to Buck's funeral?
01:19:58 Hear me out. Beth!
01:20:00 No one would listen to that.
01:20:03 I just want to talk about it.
01:20:06 Why do you want to remind me?
01:20:09 Because I've wondered what
01:20:14 I was crazy that day.
01:20:16 We were going
01:20:23 You were worried about
01:20:27 It sticks with me...
01:20:30 and I wanted to
01:20:46 It's all right.
01:21:02 Beth! How are you?
01:21:04 Fine. How are you?
01:21:07 I haven't seen you.
01:21:09 I'll call you. How's Brad?
01:21:11 Fabulous! Is everything okay?
01:21:14 Isn't this madness?
01:21:15 It gets worse every year.
01:21:18 Good-bye.
01:21:27 May I show you this in your size?
01:21:31 What?
01:21:32 May I show you this?
01:21:34 Oh. No. No. Thanks.
01:21:44 Bennetts. Grants. And Foleys.
01:21:47 Conrad should get something
01:21:51 He's not getting something
01:21:55 We should go see Dr. Berger.
01:21:59 What?
01:22:00 We could all go see him.
01:22:03 Why?
01:22:04 He thinks it's a good idea.
01:22:07 What's he know about me?
01:22:10 I've never even met him.
01:22:13 Wouldn't it be easier
01:22:17 What will we talk about?
01:22:20 Don't try to change me.
01:22:23 Hasn't enough happened?
01:22:24 Let's hold on to what we've got.
01:22:28 That's what this is for.
01:22:30 Maybe you'll be surprised.
01:22:32 I don't want surprises.
01:22:36 I know I'm not perfect.
01:22:38 If I can't hug everybody
01:22:42 You're missing the point.
01:22:44 I don't want to see counselors.
01:22:48 This is my family.
01:22:50 We will solve our problems...
01:22:52 in the privacy of our own home...
01:22:56 not by running to some...
01:22:58 Ready to order?
01:23:00 Could you give me
01:23:04 Running to experts every time
01:23:13 I know you mean well.
01:23:16 I want this to be
01:23:20 I want them all to be nice.
01:23:23 You and I need time together.
01:23:26 We must get away.
01:23:29 New Years'. We'll spend
01:23:32 with my brother.
01:23:34 Play some golf. Relax.
01:23:38 I've talked to Mother.
01:23:40 Conrad can stay with them.
01:23:42 Please don't worry about it.
01:23:45 Please. For his sake.
01:23:48 We need time together.
01:23:51 Okay?
01:23:53 Okay.
01:23:55 Okay.
01:23:57 I love you.
01:24:02 I love you. Too.
01:24:08 Let's just give things time. Okay?
01:24:11 Okay.
01:24:23 Conrad.
01:24:24 Hmm?
01:24:25 I don't bowl.
01:24:27 I'm a horrible bowler.
01:24:29 That's all right.
01:24:30 Yeah. Well...
01:24:34 I got it.
01:24:35 The thing is.
01:24:39 Listen. We don't
01:24:42 I'm not a bowling nut.
01:24:44 How funny are you?
01:24:46 On a scale from 1 to 10...
01:24:51 That's pretty funny.
01:24:52 I promise you won't look silly.
01:24:54 Guarantee it?
01:24:56 Guarantee it.
01:25:23 Can you break the ball?
01:25:27 Can't break anything
01:25:31 That's what I like
01:25:33 Can't even break the record.
01:25:43 Anyway...
01:25:45 Hmm? What?
01:25:47 It's a conversation starter.
01:25:49 Catchy.
01:25:51 You like it?
01:25:52 I've been working on it all day.
01:25:56 Are people punished
01:25:59 By God?
01:26:01 Yeah.
01:26:02 I don't believe in God.
01:26:04 Not at all?
01:26:06 Either you do or don't.
01:26:08 I believe in God.
01:26:12 You afraid he'll punish you
01:26:15 I've done many things
01:26:21 Yeah? So have I.
01:26:31 Did it hurt?
01:26:39 I don't remember really.
01:26:41 You don't want
01:26:44 I've never really
01:26:48 To doctors.
01:26:52 You're the first who's asked.
01:26:54 Why did you do it?
01:26:56 Uh...
01:27:03 I don't know.
01:27:06 falling into a hole.
01:27:10 It was like falling into a hole.
01:27:13 It keeps getting bigger...
01:27:15 and you can't escape.
01:27:17 All of a sudden, it's inside...
01:27:21 and you're the hole.
01:27:22 You're trapped.
01:27:26 Something like that.
01:27:27 It's not really scary...
01:27:30 except when
01:27:32 'Cause you know
01:27:37 # Like McDonald's can #
01:27:38 # Nobody can do it #
01:27:41 # Like McDonald's can #
01:27:42 # You deserve
01:27:46 # So get up
01:27:49 Hey. Jarrett.
01:27:51 How you doing?
01:27:54 What are you doing?
01:27:59 Hey. Lighten up.
01:28:01 Hey. I don't like your attitude.
01:28:30 Energetic. Those guys.
01:28:32 They were pretty funny.
01:28:34 No.
01:28:35 You thought they were.
01:28:38 No. L...
01:28:48 I'm sorry.
01:28:50 What for?
01:28:55 Anyway...
01:29:13 Do you want to talk?
01:29:15 About what?
01:29:19 Are you okay?
01:29:21 Yeah.
01:29:22 Yeah. I'm fine.
01:29:25 I'll give you a call.
01:29:28 Will you? I want you to.
01:29:31 Sure.
01:29:41 Well...
01:29:44 I'll see you in choir.
01:29:46 Okay. Yeah.
01:29:48 Thanks.
01:29:50 Okay.
01:29:52 I mean. Good night.
01:29:54 Good night.
01:30:09 Seven.
01:30:10 In preparation
01:30:13 observe the fasten
01:30:16 and no smoking until
01:30:29 Watch this.
01:30:31 Pessimistic golfer.
01:30:33 Pessimistic golfer.
01:30:35 Oh. Damn!
01:30:39 Are we two up?
01:30:41 Two.
01:30:42 Let's hustle up.
01:30:44 It is flat here.
01:30:46 But we decided
01:30:50 He wants everybody to move here.
01:30:53 It's good to see you.
01:30:56 - You look tired. Cal.
01:30:59 Why am I still hungry?
01:31:02 'Cause you're in Texas.
01:31:04 We'll get you home.
01:31:06 Get some steaks on.
01:31:08 A baked potato. Too?
01:31:10 How long has he had
01:31:14 Since joining the club.
01:32:00 [Laughing]
01:32:04 It sure wasn't funny.
01:32:06 We weren't that bad.
01:32:08 I can't listen to that
01:32:12 He bugs me
01:32:16 Will he ever stop
01:32:20 Stillman. Shut up.
01:32:23 Connie. Want a ride?
01:32:25 Oh. No. Thanks.
01:32:26 We could've used you today.
01:32:29 I don't think so.
01:32:31 Nobody could've helped us.
01:32:34 I hear you got eyes for Pratt.
01:32:37 Made it with her yet?
01:32:39 Don't be a prick.
01:32:40 You're the prick.
01:32:42 You give me a goddamn
01:32:51 Connie. Come on!
01:32:54 Connie!
01:33:00 Connie. That's enough.
01:33:02 No!
01:33:03 No!
01:33:04 Let go! Let go!
01:33:07 It's all right!
01:33:09 Just calm down.
01:33:12 You're crazy!
01:33:17 Send him back
01:33:20 It's over. It's over.
01:33:22 All right!
01:33:24 Shit!
01:33:37 Here's your hat.
01:33:48 You want to talk?
01:33:51 The guy's a nothing.
01:33:53 He's a zero upstairs.
01:33:55 Since fourth grade,
01:33:58 So you look stupid...
01:34:00 when you let him get to you!
01:34:03 So I look stupid?
01:34:05 What's with you?
01:34:07 Why do you want
01:34:14 You know. I miss him. Too.
01:34:19 The three of us
01:34:24 It hurts too much
01:34:31 I got to go.
01:34:36 Yeah. Okay.
01:34:41 [Honk]
01:35:58 Hello.
01:35:59 Hello. Is Karen there?
01:36:01 She...
01:36:04 Bill.
01:36:06 Hello.
01:36:07 Is Karen there?
01:36:09 This is Conrad Jarrett.
01:36:11 I'm a friend of hers.
01:36:13 [Father]
01:36:15 What? What?
01:36:17 [Man]
01:36:27 [Karen's Voice]
01:36:32 We can. You know.
01:36:34 We could have
01:36:37 of our whole lives.
01:36:43 Get the sail down!
01:36:45 Keep it starboard!
01:36:50 Get the sail down!
01:36:51 Starboard!
01:36:56 Keep trying!
01:36:57 I can't! Let it out!
01:37:02 Let it out!
01:37:04 Just keep it starboard!
01:37:06 I can't!
01:37:11 Ahh!
01:37:15 Bucky!
01:37:16 Give me your hand!
01:37:22 We screwed up. Buddy!
01:37:23 Dad's gonna haul ass over this!
01:37:26 It ain't so goddamned funny!
01:37:32 Don't let go!
01:37:33 I won't. Buck!
01:37:35 Everything will be okay!
01:37:40 Hang on. Brother!
01:37:42 Don't let go!
01:37:43 Stay with me!
01:37:45 Stay with me!
01:37:47 Stay with me!
01:37:54 Oh. God!
01:37:58 Bucky!
01:38:01 Buck!
01:38:03 Buck!
01:38:10 [Berger]
01:38:11 This is Conrad.
01:38:13 What's going on?
01:38:14 I need to see you.
01:38:16 Where are you?
01:38:18 I don't know.
01:38:19 All right.
01:38:21 Get to the office.
01:38:23 I'll meet you there.
01:38:24 Okay.
01:38:30 Good. You're here.
01:38:32 Something happened.
01:38:34 Just a minute.
01:38:35 Wait till we get inside.
01:38:40 There.
01:38:43 Shit.
01:38:44 You'd think they'd assume
01:38:48 Don't take it off.
01:38:55 Something happened.
01:38:56 What?
01:38:57 It's...
01:38:58 It's what?
01:39:00 Oh. God!
01:39:03 I need something.
01:39:04 What?
01:39:06 It keeps coming.
01:39:07 I can't stop it!
01:39:09 Don't try.
01:39:11 Got to get off the hook.
01:39:13 For what?
01:39:15 What I did to him!
01:39:17 What?
01:39:18 It must be somebody's fault...
01:39:21 or there's no point!
01:39:23 What point? It happened!
01:39:25 Oh. No. I don't mean that.
01:39:28 It's just that...
01:39:30 Bucky. I didn't mean it.
01:39:33 Bucky, I didn't mean it.
01:39:36 Bucky!
01:39:37 It wasn't your fault.
01:39:39 You said. "Get the sail down!"
01:39:41 I couldn't! It jammed!
01:39:43 And then the halyard jammed!
01:39:45 Because the goddamned
01:39:47 Then you're sittin' here
01:39:50 Until it's too late!
01:39:52 And I'm supposed
01:39:55 That wasn't fair.
01:39:56 No! And then
01:39:59 "Hang on!"
01:40:00 Then you let go!
01:40:02 Why'd you let go?
01:40:04 I got tired!
01:40:05 Yeah? Well. Screw you. You jerk!
01:40:20 It hurts to be mad at him.
01:40:24 Yeah.
01:40:27 He just wasn't careful.
01:40:29 He didn't see how
01:40:33 Bad things happen even
01:40:37 We should've come in...
01:40:39 when it started to look bad.
01:40:42 So you made a mistake.
01:40:44 Why did he let go?
01:40:47 Why?
01:40:48 Maybe you were stronger.
01:40:51 Did that ever occur to you?
01:41:03 How long will you
01:41:06 When will you quit?
01:41:07 I'd like to.
01:41:09 Why don't you?
01:41:10 It's not that easy.
01:41:19 God...
01:41:21 I loved him.
01:41:27 I know.
01:41:43 What happened?
01:41:47 Karen.
01:41:50 She killed herself.
01:41:52 I just found out she's dead.
01:41:56 Jesus.
01:41:58 She was fine.
01:42:00 No. She wasn't.
01:42:02 She told me!
01:42:06 What?
01:42:07 She was busy and
01:42:10 What?
01:42:13 What?
01:42:14 If I'd known...
01:42:15 I could've done something.
01:42:17 You're taking her on. Too?
01:42:20 No!
01:42:21 No?
01:42:22 No. I just...
01:42:23 What?
01:42:24 That isn't it.
01:42:26 I feel really bad about this.
01:42:29 Just let me feel bad about this!
01:42:33 Okay.
01:42:37 Listen. I feel
01:42:44 Why do things
01:42:47 It isn't fair.
01:42:49 You're right.
01:42:52 You just do one wrong thing...
01:42:55 and...
01:42:56 Um-hmm.
01:42:59 And what was the one
01:43:10 You know.
01:43:24 You know.
01:43:29 I hung on.
01:43:31 I stayed with the boat.
01:43:34 Exactly.
01:43:41 Now. You can live
01:43:52 I'm scared!
01:43:54 I'm scared.
01:43:56 Feelings are scary.
01:43:58 And sometimes they're painful.
01:44:00 If you can't feel pain...
01:44:03 you won't feel
01:44:06 You know what I'm saying?
01:44:11 I think so.
01:44:16 You're here. You're alive.
01:44:18 Don't say you don't feel that.
01:44:21 It doesn't feel good.
01:44:23 It is good.
01:44:24 Believe me.
01:44:30 How do you know?
01:44:34 Because I'm your friend.
01:44:41 I don't know
01:44:44 if you hadn't been here.
01:44:50 You're really my friend?
01:44:55 I am. Count on it.
01:45:51 Hi.
01:45:52 I would've called...
01:45:54 but I didn't
01:45:57 About the other night...
01:45:58 I liked being with you.
01:46:01 I didn't like myself.
01:46:03 Conrad. I was stupid.
01:46:05 That was dumb of me to laugh.
01:46:08 It was my fault.
01:46:10 I was embarrassed.
01:46:12 Really?
01:46:14 You were embarrassed?
01:46:15 When those boys came in...
01:46:18 it was awful and awkward.
01:46:20 When I'm embarrassed. I laugh.
01:46:23 They were just having
01:46:26 I let them interfere
01:46:30 It was dumb.
01:46:32 I've done lots of
01:46:35 I just didn't know if you were
01:46:43 Yeah?
01:46:45 Anyway. I'd like
01:46:48 It worked okay...
01:46:49 except for the bowling.
01:46:52 Yes.
01:46:53 Yes?
01:46:56 Yes.
01:46:59 Are you going to school?
01:47:02 No. Not on Sunday.
01:47:08 Have you eaten?
01:47:10 No. I haven't.
01:47:12 Do you want some breakfast?
01:47:16 Okay.
01:47:31 Mom!
01:47:34 All right.
01:47:37 Boy. Oh. Boy.
01:47:38 I do love that.
01:47:40 These holes sure do love you.
01:47:43 We should spend more time
01:47:48 Maybe our next vacation...
01:47:51 Pinehurst.
01:47:52 Pinehurst would be nice.
01:47:54 I think Connie would
01:47:57 Is that deliberate
01:48:01 I assumed you meant him. Too.
01:48:04 I'm surprised you
01:48:07 I'll call him tonight.
01:48:09 Can we have a little drink?
01:48:12 Drink. Yes. Little. No.
01:48:14 Let's finish this.
01:48:16 What?
01:48:17 What you started.
01:48:18 Me? There's no point.
01:48:20 He controls you.
01:48:22 He isn't the problem.
01:48:24 Isn't he?
01:48:25 No. Let's talk about
01:48:29 No. Let's discuss
01:48:32 How did I make you
01:48:36 You blame me
01:48:38 Can't you see
01:48:41 No. I can't!
01:48:42 Neither can you
01:48:46 I'm just honest.
01:48:47 Stop being honest...
01:48:49 and start being generous!
01:48:51 Think about him!
01:48:52 What does he expect from me?
01:48:55 He wants a hug
01:48:59 I can't respond
01:49:02 "I did something
01:49:05 He wants to know
01:49:09 Mothers don't hate their sons.
01:49:12 Is that what he told you?
01:49:15 You accept what he says
01:49:19 I'm trying to
01:49:22 What does everyone
01:49:25 Listen. We all just
01:49:30 Happy?
01:49:31 Yes.
01:49:32 You tell me
01:49:36 First. Be sure your kids are safe...
01:49:39 that nobody's been hit by a car...
01:49:43 or drowned in your swimming pool!
01:49:46 Then tell me how to be happy!
01:50:43 I'm turning in.
01:50:46 Dinner was good.
01:50:47 Really good.
01:50:49 It's early. You tired?
01:50:51 It was a rough week.
01:50:53 Your grandmother
01:50:57 No. She was fine.
01:51:02 I'm glad you're back.
01:51:19 Good night.
01:52:39 [Sobbing]
01:52:50 Calvin?
01:53:03 Why are you crying?
01:53:12 Can I. Uh...
01:53:14 Can I get you something?
01:53:18 I don't...
01:53:20 What did you say?
01:53:26 Calvin. What did you say?
01:53:28 [Sighing]
01:53:33 Tell me.
01:53:42 You are beautiful.
01:53:47 And you are unpredictable.
01:53:51 But you're so cautious.
01:53:56 You're determined. Beth...
01:53:57 but you know something?
01:54:02 You're not strong.
01:54:06 I don't know
01:54:12 Tell me something.
01:54:14 Do you love me?
01:54:18 Do you really love me?
01:54:23 I feel the way I've always
01:54:39 We would've been all right...
01:54:42 if there hadn't been any mess.
01:54:47 But you can't handle mess.
01:54:51 You need everything neat and easy.
01:54:55 I don't know.
01:54:57 Maybe you can't love anybody.
01:54:59 It was so much Buck.
01:55:02 It's as if you buried
01:55:07 I don't understand that.
01:55:11 Maybe it wasn't even Buck.
01:55:14 Maybe it was just you.
01:55:17 Maybe, finally, it was
01:55:25 But whatever it was...
01:55:30 I don't know who you are.
01:55:33 I don't know what
01:55:41 So I was crying.
01:55:47 Because I don't know
01:55:54 And I don't know
01:57:29 [Door Slams]
01:58:30 Dad?
01:58:34 The yard looks smaller
01:58:39 Dad. What happened?
01:58:43 Your mother's
01:58:46 Where?
01:58:47 Why?
01:58:49 Back to Houston.
01:58:51 I don't know.
01:58:54 Why? What...
01:58:57 I know why.
01:58:59 It's me. Isn't it?
01:59:01 No.
01:59:02 It's my fault.
01:59:03 Don't do that to yourself!
01:59:06 It's nobody's fault!
01:59:07 Things happen.
01:59:14 I don't know why
01:59:18 You should do
01:59:22 Haul my ass a little.
01:59:23 Get after me.
01:59:27 Like you did for him.
01:59:29 He needed it.
01:59:31 You didn't.
01:59:32 You were always
01:59:35 I never had the heart.
01:59:37 Oh. Dad. Don't.
01:59:40 Well. It's the truth.
01:59:44 I never worried about you.
01:59:46 I just wasn't listening.
01:59:50 I wasn't sending
01:59:52 You couldn't do anything.
01:59:54 I should've got
02:00:03 I used to figure you had
02:00:07 You knew it all.
02:00:09 You always made us feel
02:00:15 I've thought about that
02:00:18 I really admire you for it.
02:00:20 Don't admire people too much.
02:00:22 They'll disappoint you sometimes.
02:00:26 I'm not disappointed.
02:00:31 I love you.
02:00:40 I love you. Too.