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S som i en spegel Through a Glass Darkly
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THROUGH A GLASS DARKLY |
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Translation: Kajsa von Hofsten |
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TO KABI |
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- I was first up on the jetty! |
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If dad and Martin set the nets, |
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No, David and Minus can set the nets |
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Or Karin and I can set the nets |
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I don't want to do either. |
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- Why don't we go, Minus? |
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I say we do what Karin decides! |
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We'd have gained a lot of time |
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Should we get dressed |
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- What do you think? |
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- If you're cold... |
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It was you who said it was chilly. |
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We'll harden ourselves. |
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If Hemingway can do it, so can we! |
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- Will there be a thunderstorm? |
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I don't know - Iook at those clouds... |
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- Are you afraid of the thunder? |
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- The thunderstorms in Switzerland... |
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I was homesick. But I wasn't coming |
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- And is it finished now? |
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- How is your stomach ulcer? |
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We can go to the chemist's tomorrow. |
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Did you get my last letter? |
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- I was with the Waldstein's in Basel. |
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- Then I flew here on Wednesday. |
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- Was it important? |
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I felt I had to write to you. |
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Even if it would interrupt your writing. |
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- A cuckoo. Didn't you hear it? |
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- Surely, you must hear it now? |
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- When did you last wash your ears? |
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After my illness, my hearing |
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Maybe it's the electric shock therapy. |
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Wasn't dad looking grey yesterday |
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He was tired after the journey. |
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- Is Marianne coming here? |
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- Poor dad, alone again. |
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She put on such airs. |
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- And then she sneered at his books. |
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- But everybody reads his books! |
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He wants to be a poet. |
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What are you laughing at? |
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You're so tall, and so serious! |
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Don't look so stung. |
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- You're so terribly tall! |
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Seventeen and nearly ten feet tall! |
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- Where's your girlfriend? |
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Don't be cross with me |
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Edgar is the only psychiatrist I trust. |
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And? |
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When Karin came home from |
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- he and I had a good talk. |
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He can't guarantee a lasting recovery. |
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And now? |
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She seems unusually well. |
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Her sleep is a little unsettled. |
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Her hearing has become very acute. |
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- How much does she know? |
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- But not that it's relatively incurable. |
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Edgar has had cases of full recovery, |
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- How are things between you? |
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The days pass by as usual... |
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I've been giving my lectures |
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I've come to realise that I love her, |
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Come what may... |
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I've become the anchor of |
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Maybe her only security. |
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I see. |
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- Shall we go back to the nets? |
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Minus... |
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Dear... |
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Beware of me! Stay away! |
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Stop hugging and kissing me. Don't |
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You know very well what I mean! |
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They smell and move around, |
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- Makes me feel like a skinned rabbit! |
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Pity! I can provide |
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What's wrong, my darling? |
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Please don't tell Martin or dad... |
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Don't be silly! |
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I wish I could talk to dad, just once! |
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He's so wrapped up in himself. |
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Him too. |
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Let's go back now. |
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- And I've spilt the milk too. |
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- Damn! I hate hurting my fingers! |
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- Hello! |
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- Let's have a look. |
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- It looks deep. Put a plaster on it. |
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How beautiful - lanterns |
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- You're a master chef, dad! |
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Smell it, Minus... |
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You should write cookery books |
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Listen, the seating... |
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Minus over there and me here. |
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How I've longed for this moment! |
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- For us? |
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- Are you staying? |
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- Are you going away again? |
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- A guide? Why? |
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It's for a cultural delegation. |
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- Well, David. Welcome home! |
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Your health, Karin. And yours, Minus! |
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- But what about your book? |
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I spoke to the publishers, |
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- Will you be away for long? |
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I may stay a while in Dubrovnik |
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I feel like a criminal for some reason. |
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You promised to stay at home |
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I don't remember |
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Yes, Dad, you promised. |
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- How unfortunate. |
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Listen... We were going to have |
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- and instead we're |
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I've got presents for you all |
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Karin. |
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And Martin. |
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- Thanks, but you shouldn't... |
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- Can we open them right away? |
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Excuse me, |
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- I won't get these over my thumbs. |
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- I bet he bought them in Stockholm. |
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- Thank you so much, David! |
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We've got a surprise for you too! |
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- We have to blindfold you. |
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- I'll take care of this, you go ahead. |
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It's like walking on clouds. |
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Mine and Karin's. |
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Wait and see... |
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This is almost like Shakespeare. |
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Ready? |
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Our play is called |
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Or "The Tomb of Illusions". |
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Let the play begin! |
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It is midnight |
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Here I shall meet her, my bride-elect. |
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Here, by this tomb redolent with |
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Someone moved inside! |
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I shall hide, so as not to frighten her. |
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- Who are you? |
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Died in childbirth |
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My lord and beloved master, |
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- has turned to other women. |
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Princess, I love you! |
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But who are you? I cannot talk to |
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Fear not! |
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I am lord of my own realm, |
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- I am an artist! |
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Yes, Princess! |
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A poet with no poems, |
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- Musician. |
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I scorn the completed work of art, |
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My life is my work, |
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- Beautiful but incredible words. |
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Listen carefully, |
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When the clock strikes two |
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- and blow out |
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In that same moment the door will |
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A light sacrifice, my Princess. |
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Thus you complete your work of art |
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Thus you ennoble your life and show |
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Farewell, my friend. |
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Do not fail me. |
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I stand before the moment of ultimate |
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I enter oblivion. |
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Only Death shall love me now. |
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I will go, nothing can stop me now. |
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- I am waiting. |
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Sacrifice my life - for what? |
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For eternity? For the perfect |
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- Have I gone mad? |
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Who shall see my sacrifice? Death! |
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- And who shall thank me? Eternity! |
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My knees are like clay and I shake, |
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- I cannot enter eternity with... |
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Well... such is life. |
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I could of course write a poem |
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Paint a picture or compose an opera - |
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- although the ending |
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I enter oblivion. |
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Only Death shall love me. |
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Not bad. |
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The cockerels announce daybreak! |
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I shall go home to bed. |
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- And that's it. |
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You were fantastic! |
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- And you were excellent. |
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- But I forgot my lines. |
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Let's clear the table and wash up now. |
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- I'll do it, it's too early to go to bed. |
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I like pottering around, |
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- Well, in that case... |
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I'll get cracking straight away. |
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- Are you going to bed now? |
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- There's hot water in the kitchen. |
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- The thunderstorm has passed. |
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We left the window open, we'll have |
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- Good night, Daddy. |
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Good night, everybody! |
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- Are you all right there? |
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- I'll help you. |
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Could you help me, please? |
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They get this black |
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It won't go away. |
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You have such kind fingers. |
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But your thumb looks a little stubborn. |
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- Are you sad, Karin? |
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What are you thinking? |
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Sometimes we're so defenceless. |
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No, I don't know... |
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Like children cast out |
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The owls fly by, watching you |
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You hear the pitter-patter and rustle, |
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All the moist muzzles... |
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The teeth of the wolves... |
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Not to worry, we'd have each other. |
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- You look anxious, I'm not so sure... |
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You say there are no wolves, I'm not |
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"You're just imagining things." |
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You have to trust me, Karin. |
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"Little Kajsa"... |
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You always say that... "Little Kajsa." |
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Am I so little, or has the illness |
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Do you think I'm strange? |
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- Do you think I speak the truth? |
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- Don't you think I love you? |
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- Isn't that enough? |
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- Leave it, or you'll start bleeding! |
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I have to do some washing tomorrow. |
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Come to bed, Karin. |
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Dad took Minus's play |
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He was terribly hurt, |
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And Minus was upset, of course. |
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Shall we put out the light? |
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- I'm sorry if I upset you. |
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- I'm sorry. |
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My dear, dear girl... |
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Sweetheart, I love you. |
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You couldn't hurt me. |
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You're so kind and I'm so mean. |
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Good night. |
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"She came towards him, |
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- "cheeks rosy from the strong wind." |
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My God...! |
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"They met..." |
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"...on the beach." |
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Hello, little Kajsa. Are you up already? |
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- Hello, Daddy. |
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Are you having problems? |
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I'm adding the finishing touches |
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- Read to me. |
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- How come you're not sleeping? |
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They woke me up, and then |
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Here you are... |
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- Just like when I was little. |
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"They met on the beach." |
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"It was a clear day." |
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"Autumn was in the air." |
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- Dad! |
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- Want to come and pull in the nets? |
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Last year I was as good at |
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- Now I'm so tall, I've lost all stability. |
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Spiritually, you mean? |
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- Do you write these days? |
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- Can I read something? |
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Nothing personal, |
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- Have you written a lot? |
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It's gushing out of me. |
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No. |
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What did you think of our play |
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- It was nice. |
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"Her illness is incurable..." |
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"...with temporary improvement." |
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"I have long suspected it, the certainty |
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"I'm horrified by my curiosity." |
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"By my urge to record its course." |
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"To make an accurate description |
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"To use her." |
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Martin! Wake up! |
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Martin, time for a bath! Get up now! |
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- What time is it? |
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Heavens, have I slept that long? |
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- You little imp! It's only five. |
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I've been up for ages and had such |
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- Come over here. |
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- Dad and Minus are doing the nets. |
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You sleep too much, that's what |
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My little one, what's wrong? |
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Nothing... |
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- What is it, Karin? |
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So spit it out. |
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When dad went out just now - |
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- I rummaged through |
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I don't know why, I just felt I had to. |
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And? |
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- I found his diary. |
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- He'd written things there... |
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About me. |
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- What had he written? |
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About your illness? |
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- Is it true it's incurable? |
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Listen to me now! |
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Listen... Look at me! |
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Look at me... |
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I told David that there is a chance |
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Maybe he misunderstood me. |
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No one could say |
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- Word of honour? |
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There now... |
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There was more... |
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- Well...? |
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- Please... |
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Ask him yourself! |
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Karin... Little Karin... |
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Martin? |
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You have to be patient with me. |
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I'm sure my desire will come back. |
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- Don't you think? |
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- Does it worry you? |
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Listen... I'm terribly tired, but... |
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I still think we should get up |
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It's not cold at all. |
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Imagine having a calm woman who |
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Who was big and soft |
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Wouldn't that be nice after all? |
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- It's you I love. |
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I don't want anyone else! |
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Even though you always say and do |
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I do it out of love. |
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He that loves for real, |
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In that case you don't love me. |
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Bye, Minus! |
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Bye! |
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Make sure poor Minus |
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- I said I'd test him on his grammar. |
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Don't forget your brandy, |
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- Bye, darling. |
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What the hell are you laughing at?! |
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Eh? |
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Say something! |
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Go ahead, if it's so amusing! |
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Which are your favourites? |
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Don't be an old maid, |
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- Do you like her best? Why? |
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I think she's pretty too. |
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- And her hair is so long... |
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But what good is that to me? |
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Are you going to hit me? |
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It's my fault. Forgive me. |
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Calm down, Minus. |
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It was foolish of me to pry. |
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I don't want to, it just happens. |
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- Do you want me to test you? |
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- I wonder if everyone is caged in? |
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You in yours, I in mine. |
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- I don't feel caged in at all! |
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Constructio ad sensum. |
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Don't try... |
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It means changing a grammatical |
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An example? |
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Nobilitas rem publicam deseru... |
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...deseruerant. |
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- It's so hot! |
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Do you want to smoke a cigarette? |
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If you look long enough with your |
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Scary? |
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Though tempting. |
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I don't talk to dad or Martin about it, |
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Particularly not Martin, he's too |
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They don't understand, |
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- Do you think so too? |
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I thought so. |
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You're stronger. |
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I've so often wanted to talk to you |
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You can trust me. |
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It's hard not to talk about something |
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But I don't think they mind |
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- "They"? |
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Either I tell you, or it's over. |
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- It makes me curious. |
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Let me show you something. |
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I walk through walls, you see. |
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Early every morning I'm woken by |
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I rise and come to this room. |
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One day someone called me |
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I looked in the closet, |
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But the voice went on calling me - |
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- so I pressed myself against the wall, |
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- and then I was inside. |
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You think I'm making it up, don't you? |
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I come into a big room. |
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It's all light and peaceful. |
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People are moving up and down. |
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Some of them talk to me, |
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It's so nice, and I'm safe. |
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In some of the faces |
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Everyone is waiting for him to come - |
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- but no one is anxious. |
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They say that I can be there too |
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Why are you crying? |
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It's nothing. |
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Nothing to worry about. |
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But... sometimes I have this |
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I yearn for that moment... |
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...when the door will open... |
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- ...and all the faces will turn to him. |
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No one has said for certain. |
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But I think it's God |
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That it will be him coming into |
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Minus... |
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This isn't easy to say... |
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- What's that? |
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He calls out after me, |
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It becomes play-acting. |
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- Does he notice anything? |
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I must choose between him |
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I've made up my mind... |
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- Is all this for real? |
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I don't know! I'm caught in the middle, |
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I know I've been ill |
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But these are not dreams, they're real. |
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To me they're not real, |
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Karin... |
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- It's not real for me. |
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A god steps down from the mountain. |
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He walks through the dark forest... |
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Everywhere the wild beasts, |
| 00:48:54 |
It has to be real. |
| 00:48:57 |
I'm not dreaming, |
| 00:49:00 |
Now I'm in one world, |
| 00:49:04 |
I can't stop it! |
| 00:49:17 |
Shall we go for a swim? |
| 00:49:22 |
I'll go on my own then. |
| 00:49:26 |
I feel sleepy. |
| 00:49:29 |
I'm going to take a nap. |
| 00:49:32 |
Close the door when you leave. |
| 00:49:43 |
Don't do that! Get out! Get out! |
| 00:50:00 |
What the hell can I do? |
| 00:50:15 |
Well, have you prepared your Latin? |
| 00:50:19 |
Let's continue. |
| 00:50:23 |
First we'll have tea. |
| 00:50:27 |
Minus! |
| 00:50:30 |
- Will you tell dad and Martin? |
| 00:50:34 |
Clever answer, but you can't fool me. |
| 00:50:39 |
"I have to talk to you about Karin." |
| 00:50:43 |
- Can't you tell him? |
| 00:50:47 |
- I promise. |
| 00:50:50 |
- One word, and you've betrayed me. |
| 00:51:07 |
- It looks like rain. |
| 00:51:10 |
- What's with you? |
| 00:51:13 |
You're so quiet, almost hostile. |
| 00:51:16 |
- It's not worth talking about it. |
| 00:51:20 |
It's about Karin. |
| 00:51:23 |
She rummaged through your desk |
| 00:51:27 |
- And she read it, of course. |
| 00:51:34 |
What have you written? |
| 00:51:38 |
Karin wanted me to ask you. |
| 00:51:43 |
I wrote that her illness is incurable. |
| 00:51:48 |
And that I felt a strong urge |
| 00:51:53 |
I can't put the blame anywhere else. |
| 00:51:58 |
It's always about you and yours. |
| 00:52:04 |
Your callousness is perverse. |
| 00:52:07 |
"Record its course." |
| 00:52:13 |
- You don't understand. |
| 00:52:17 |
But one thing I do understand |
| 00:52:21 |
Your own daughter's mental illness. |
| 00:52:27 |
- I love her, Martin. |
| 00:52:30 |
There's no room for emotion in your |
| 00:52:35 |
You know how to express yourself, |
| 00:52:39 |
There's only one phenomenon you |
| 00:52:45 |
You're a craven coward! |
| 00:52:48 |
But in one particular you're a genius: |
| 00:52:54 |
- What do you want me to do? |
| 00:52:58 |
It might give you your heart's desire: |
| 00:53:03 |
Then you won't have sacrificed |
| 00:53:07 |
Go ahead, say it! |
| 00:53:19 |
In your novels |
| 00:53:22 |
Let me tell you: Your faith and |
| 00:53:28 |
What is most conspicuous |
| 00:53:32 |
- Don't you think I know that? |
| 00:53:36 |
- Do something respectable instead. |
| 00:53:40 |
Have you written one word of truth |
| 00:53:44 |
- I don't know. |
| 00:53:47 |
Your half-lies are so refined |
| 00:53:51 |
- I try. |
| 00:53:54 |
But you never quite get there. |
| 00:53:59 |
I know. |
| 00:54:02 |
You're empty but capable. |
| 00:54:05 |
And now you're trying to fill your void |
| 00:54:10 |
But how will God fit into that? It must |
| 00:54:16 |
Let me ask you something... Can you |
| 00:54:21 |
Fortunately I'm not very complicated. |
| 00:54:24 |
My world is very simple. |
| 00:54:29 |
- Still you've wished Karin would die? |
| 00:54:34 |
Only you could think that. |
| 00:54:37 |
Can you swear that you've never |
| 00:54:41 |
You know her case is hopeless. And |
| 00:54:48 |
- She might just as well be dead. |
| 00:54:51 |
That depends entirely |
| 00:54:56 |
I love her. |
| 00:54:59 |
I'm powerless. |
| 00:55:02 |
I can only stand and watch - |
| 00:55:05 |
- as she is transformed into |
| 00:55:12 |
Let me tell you something. |
| 00:55:17 |
When I was in Switzerland |
| 00:55:21 |
I hired a car and found a precipice. |
| 00:55:25 |
I calmly set out. It was afternoon, |
| 00:55:32 |
I was empty. |
| 00:55:37 |
I set out for the precipice, stepping on |
| 00:55:42 |
The gearbox went, you see. |
| 00:55:45 |
The car slid on the gravel and came |
| 00:55:50 |
I crawled out of the car, trembling. |
| 00:55:55 |
I leaned against the rock face |
| 00:55:59 |
I sat yawning for hours |
| 00:56:04 |
Why are you telling me this? |
| 00:56:07 |
I want to tell you that I no longer have |
| 00:56:12 |
The truth won't bring a catastrophe. |
| 00:56:15 |
- This has nothing to do with Karin. |
| 00:56:20 |
I don't understand that. |
| 00:56:22 |
Out of my void something was born, |
| 00:56:30 |
A love... |
| 00:56:32 |
...for Karin... and Minus. |
| 00:56:36 |
And you. |
| 00:56:41 |
One day I may tell you about it. |
| 00:56:44 |
I daren't do it now. But... |
| 00:56:47 |
If it is the way I'm hoping... |
| 00:56:55 |
Let's leave it for now. |
| 00:57:16 |
The rain is coming now. |
| 00:57:20 |
No. |
| 00:57:24 |
Yes... |
| 00:57:27 |
The rain's coming! |
| 00:58:00 |
Karin! |
| 00:59:51 |
Karin, is that you? |
| 01:00:14 |
It's me, Karin. |
| 01:01:02 |
Can't you hear me, Karin?! |
| 01:01:05 |
- I'm not well. |
| 01:01:08 |
- You have to help me. |
| 01:01:13 |
You have to help me. |
| 01:01:21 |
- I'm so thirsty. |
| 01:02:21 |
God. |
| 01:04:23 |
What time is it? |
| 01:04:27 |
Five, I think. |
| 01:04:31 |
I've been very ill, but I feel better now. |
| 01:04:35 |
- Poor Minus! |
| 01:04:38 |
- I want to talk to dad alone. |
| 01:04:42 |
I have to talk to dad, |
| 01:04:56 |
I'll go to the farm |
| 01:05:06 |
Please, go and get my medicine bag. |
| 01:05:20 |
- Dad... |
| 01:05:22 |
I want to stay at the hospital now. |
| 01:05:28 |
- Can I be spared if you tell them? |
| 01:05:33 |
One can't live in two worlds. |
| 01:05:38 |
I can't go on moving from one |
| 01:05:53 |
It can't go on. |
| 01:05:56 |
What? |
| 01:05:58 |
- The hatred. |
| 01:06:08 |
I didn't do it of my own free will. |
| 01:06:12 |
A voice told me what to do. |
| 01:06:17 |
The voice told you to read my diary. |
| 01:06:22 |
It also told you |
| 01:06:31 |
I've done worse than that. |
| 01:06:37 |
Much worse. |
| 01:06:45 |
I tried to resist, |
| 01:06:51 |
I was forced to do it. |
| 01:06:55 |
When was this? |
| 01:06:59 |
Just now. |
| 01:07:03 |
Poor Minus! |
| 01:07:10 |
I just don't understand! |
| 01:07:13 |
Try to stay calm, Karin. |
| 01:07:20 |
And then the room |
| 01:07:26 |
The good, light people |
| 01:07:30 |
- for God to come to them. |
| 01:07:35 |
But then the voices appear... |
| 01:07:38 |
I have to do what the voices tell me. |
| 01:07:43 |
I can't make sense of it all. |
| 01:07:46 |
Is it really only my illness? |
| 01:07:50 |
Dad... |
| 01:07:52 |
It's so horrible to see one's own |
| 01:08:12 |
I want to apologise to you. |
| 01:08:17 |
I've always had a guilty conscience |
| 01:08:23 |
It makes me sick to think of all the life |
| 01:08:29 |
When your mother died, my making it |
| 01:08:34 |
I was secretly rejoicing, yet I loved |
| 01:08:39 |
When I fell ill you went to Switzerland. |
| 01:08:42 |
I couldn't bear that you'd inherited |
| 01:08:46 |
I had to finish my novel. |
| 01:08:49 |
Is it any good? |
| 01:08:56 |
You see, Karin... |
| 01:09:00 |
One draws a magic circle |
| 01:09:03 |
- to keep everything out |
| 01:09:08 |
Each time life breaks the circle, the |
| 01:09:14 |
So one draws a new circle |
| 01:09:22 |
Poor little dad. |
| 01:09:24 |
Poor little dad, |
| 01:09:44 |
Let's go home now. |
| 01:09:46 |
I have to pack. |
| 01:10:02 |
- When will the ambulance be here? |
| 01:10:07 |
I just want to get changed and pack. |
| 01:10:17 |
I can manage on my own. |
| 01:10:25 |
The light is so strong. |
| 01:10:37 |
You must help Linus |
| 01:10:43 |
We mustn't forget to bring the keys |
| 01:10:46 |
- Aren't you coming back here? |
| 01:10:51 |
I think that's best. |
| 01:10:55 |
We didn't get to pick any mushrooms. |
| 01:11:00 |
- Will you help me pack, Martin? |
| 01:11:05 |
Minus! |
| 01:11:08 |
Minus, I want to talk to you! |
| 01:11:13 |
Come here now, Minus! |
| 01:11:30 |
Your shirts are clean, but not ironed. |
| 01:11:35 |
- I'll wear this. I have shirts in town. |
| 01:11:51 |
It's the shoes. I'll leave them here. |
| 01:11:54 |
Wear these instead and leave those. |
| 01:11:57 |
I'm taking them to the shoemaker's. |
| 01:12:02 |
Have you got a headache tablet? |
| 01:12:05 |
- I thought I put my bag in here. |
| 01:12:10 |
So I did. |
| 01:13:03 |
- Have you seen Karin? |
| 01:13:41 |
Yes, I understand. |
| 01:13:46 |
I understand. |
| 01:13:50 |
Yes... that's good. |
| 01:13:54 |
Yes, I understand. |
| 01:14:00 |
Yes, I understand. |
| 01:14:02 |
I know it won't be long now. |
| 01:14:07 |
It's a great comfort to know. |
| 01:14:11 |
But our waiting has been one ofjoy. |
| 01:14:16 |
Sh, Martin! They're saying |
| 01:14:21 |
We have to be ready. |
| 01:14:23 |
- We're going to town. |
| 01:14:27 |
You're mistaken, Karin. |
| 01:14:31 |
Nothing is happening in there. |
| 01:14:35 |
Karin... No god |
| 01:14:39 |
He'll be here any moment now, |
| 01:14:44 |
Dearest Karin, it's not true! |
| 01:14:47 |
If you can't be quiet you'd better leave! |
| 01:14:51 |
Come now. |
| 01:14:52 |
Go away and let me have |
| 01:15:27 |
Martin, dearest... |
| 01:15:30 |
I'm sorry I was so mean just now. |
| 01:15:34 |
Couldn't you kneel down next to me |
| 01:15:40 |
It looks so funny and demonstrative |
| 01:15:45 |
I know you don't believe. |
| 01:15:48 |
But for my sake, Martin. |
| 01:15:59 |
Karin... |
| 01:16:01 |
My love! |
| 01:16:04 |
My love... my love! |
| 01:17:22 |
Hold her legs. |
| 01:17:43 |
Calm down, Karin. |
| 01:18:25 |
I was frightened. |
| 01:18:30 |
The door opened... |
| 01:18:33 |
...but the god was a spider. |
| 01:18:40 |
He came up to me... |
| 01:18:43 |
...and I saw his face. |
| 01:18:46 |
It was a terrible, stony face. |
| 01:18:53 |
He scrambled up |
| 01:18:56 |
- but I defended myself. |
| 01:19:00 |
All along I saw his eyes. |
| 01:19:04 |
They were cold and calm. |
| 01:19:09 |
When he couldn't penetrate me... |
| 01:19:13 |
...he continued up my chest... |
| 01:19:17 |
...up into my face and onto the wall. |
| 01:19:29 |
I have seen God. |
| 01:19:52 |
Wait by the jetty, |
| 01:20:02 |
They'll be waiting by the jetty. |
| 01:23:08 |
Dad... |
| 01:23:13 |
I'm scared, Dad! |
| 01:23:16 |
I sat in the wreck, holding Karin, |
| 01:23:21 |
- Do you understand what I mean? |
| 01:23:24 |
Reality... cracked, and I fell out. |
| 01:23:29 |
It's like in dreams... |
| 01:23:31 |
Anything can happen. |
| 01:23:34 |
Anything! |
| 01:23:36 |
- I know. |
| 01:23:41 |
Yes, you can. But you have to have |
| 01:23:45 |
What would that be - a god? |
| 01:23:50 |
Give me a proof of God! |
| 01:23:55 |
- You can't. |
| 01:23:57 |
But you have to listen carefully. |
| 01:24:00 |
Yes... I need to listen. |
| 01:24:03 |
I can only give you an indication |
| 01:24:07 |
It's knowing that love exists for real |
| 01:24:12 |
- A special kind of love, I suppose? |
| 01:24:15 |
The highest and the lowest, the most |
| 01:24:20 |
All kinds. |
| 01:24:22 |
- The longing for love? |
| 01:24:26 |
Doubt and faith. |
| 01:24:29 |
So love is the proof? |
| 01:24:33 |
I don't know whether love is proof of |
| 01:24:40 |
For you, love and God are the same? |
| 01:24:44 |
I rest my emptiness and dirty |
| 01:24:50 |
Tell me more, Dad! |
| 01:24:52 |
Suddenly the emptiness |
| 01:24:55 |
- and hopelessness into life. |
| 01:24:58 |
It's like a reprieve, Minus... |
| 01:25:01 |
...from a sentence of death. |
| 01:25:04 |
Dad... if it is as you say - |
| 01:25:07 |
- then Karin is surrounded by God, |
| 01:25:13 |
Could that help her? |
| 01:25:17 |
I believe so. |
| 01:25:21 |
Dad? |
| 01:25:23 |
- Would you mind if I go for a run? |
| 01:25:28 |
See you in an hour. |
| 01:25:37 |
Dad talked to me. |
