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00:02:02 Friday, 30 November, 1962
00:03:18 Waking up begins with saying
00:03:21 Jennifer, I'm not gonna tell you again.
00:03:43 For the past eight months waking
00:03:52 The cold realization that
00:03:57 I was never teribly fond of waking up.
00:04:00 I was never one to jump out of bed and
00:04:05 I used to want to punch him sometimes
00:04:09 I always used to tell him that only fools
00:04:13 ...that only fools possibly
00:04:16 That now isn't simply now.
00:04:21 It's a cold reminder.
00:04:24 One year later than last year.
00:04:27 And that sooner or later it will come.
00:04:32 He used to laugh at me and then
00:04:37 It takes time in the morning
00:04:40 The time to adjust to what is expected
00:04:46 By the time I have dressed and
00:04:49 ...on the now slightly stiff
00:04:55 ...I know fully what part
00:05:10 Looking in the mirror staring back at me
00:05:13 ...as the expression of a predicament.
00:05:16 Just get through the goddamn day.
00:05:23 A bit melodramatic, I guess.
00:05:25 But then again...
00:05:28 ...my heart has been broken.
00:05:30 I feel as if I am sinking, drowning...
00:05:34 ...can't breathe.
00:06:29 Aren't you going to say something?
00:06:34 What are you doing?
00:06:35 Just stop it.
00:06:38 I don't think that you're quite
00:06:41 Drapes, old man.
00:06:45 You're the one who is always saying
00:06:49 That's not exactly what I meant.
00:07:14 For the first time in my life
00:07:19 Every day goes by in a haze.
00:07:23 But today I have decided
00:07:36 Finally. You know it's been
00:07:40 I've been trapped in this house
00:07:42 I'm sorry, I must have the wrong number.
00:07:48 I'm sorry, I was expecting someone else.
00:07:51 ...correct number. How may I help you?
00:07:54 I'm Jim's cousin.
00:07:56 Of course.
00:08:00 I'm afraid I'm calling with
00:08:04 There has been a car accident.
00:08:07 An accident?
00:08:09 There has been a lot of snow here
00:08:13 On his way into town,
00:08:18 It was instantaneous apparently.
00:08:25 It happened late yesterday, but his
00:08:32 I see.
00:08:33 In fact, they don't that
00:08:36 But I thought that you should know.
00:08:44 Thank you.
00:08:46 I know this must be quite a shock.
00:08:53 Yes, indeed.
00:08:58 - Will there be a service?
00:09:05 Well, I suppose I should
00:09:09 ...and book a plane flight.
00:09:12 The service is just for family.
00:09:17 For family, of course.
00:09:22 Well, thank you for calling.
00:09:26 - Mr. Ackerley?
00:09:28 - May I ask what happened to the dogs?
00:09:32 There was a dog with him but he died.
00:09:36 Yes, there was a small female.
00:09:39 I don't know, I'm sorry.
00:09:41 I haven't heard anyone
00:09:52 - Well, thank you for calling Mr. Ackerley.
00:13:45 Hello, Charley.
00:13:46 How did you know it was me?
00:13:48 Charlotte, nobody else calls me
00:13:51 I didn't call too early, did I?
00:13:55 No, I have a headache.
00:13:57 Listen, I was going to call you actually.
00:14:01 No, of course not.
00:14:05 - I'm dying for a dose of you.
00:14:09 So great, I'll see you tonight.
00:14:12 I have to run.
00:14:14 I'll call you later from school.
00:14:16 Alright, I see you then.
00:14:18 - Bye, kiddo.
00:15:05 Good morning, Mr. George.
00:15:09 Sir, you don't look so good today.
00:15:11 Good morning, Alva.
00:15:14 You forgot to take the bread
00:15:16 It stays fresh that way.
00:15:18 It was a little too fresh this morning.
00:15:20 There are some papers
00:15:22 ...which need to stay there.
00:15:25 - I'm afraid my pen leaked all over the bed.
00:15:28 - Alva?
00:15:30 Thank you, you're a wonderful.
00:16:42 This government, as promised,
00:16:47 ...of the Soviet military buildup
00:16:52 Within the past week unmistakable evidence...
00:16:55 ...has established the fact...
00:18:07 - Professor Falconer?
00:18:09 There was a student here this
00:18:11 My address?
00:18:14 - Did you give it to him?
00:18:17 I did.
00:18:18 I hope that's okay.
00:18:20 I realize that I probably shouldn't
00:18:24 Before I knew it he...
00:18:27 Your hair looks great up like that.
00:18:32 You always look so beautiful...
00:18:33 ...really fresh...
00:18:36 You have such a lovely smile.
00:18:46 - Arpège?
00:18:50 Really beautiful.
00:19:01 ...that a series of offensive missile sites...
00:19:05 - Good morning, Don.
00:19:22 Good morning, George.
00:19:25 Good morning, Grant.
00:19:28 You look awful.
00:19:34 Look around you, Grant.
00:19:35 Most of these students aspire to
00:19:38 ...and a desire to raise coke-drinking,
00:19:42 ...who as soon as they can
00:19:44 ...and smashing things with hammers.
00:19:48 Don't tell me. You have
00:19:50 I found them staring at me
00:19:53 ...as if I were lecturing in
00:19:54 Remind me why we shouldn't
00:19:57 You seem to think this is all a joke.
00:19:58 We're living in a world where
00:20:01 I don't understand how
00:20:03 You're serious, aren't you?
00:20:05 Yes, I'm serious.
00:20:06 George did you even read the article
00:20:09 Our is almost done. We had 3
00:20:11 ...so none of them know what we've got.
00:20:13 I'm having the outside of it landscaped
00:20:16 Really?
00:20:20 If word gets out that
00:20:22 ...then everyone will try to get in
00:20:24 So?
00:20:26 There will be no time for sentiment
00:20:29 If it's going to be a world with
00:20:32 ...the it's not a world
00:21:20 After Many a Summer Dies the Swan.
00:21:28 I think you've all...
00:21:31 ...read the Huxley novel I assigned
00:21:38 How does the title relate to our story?
00:21:41 - Yes, Mr. Mong.
00:21:43 It's about a rich guy who's too
00:21:48 ...and thinks that a young guy...
00:22:19 Russ.
00:22:32 Russ?
00:22:52 Yes, Mr. Hirsch.
00:22:54 Sir, on page 79, Mr. Propter says that...
00:22:57 ...the stupidest text in the Bible is
00:23:01 Does that mean the Nazis were
00:23:04 - Is Huxley an anti-Semite?
00:23:15 No, Mr. Huxley is not an anti-Semite.
00:23:19 Of course, the Nazis were
00:23:21 But their hating the Jews
00:23:26 It's just that the cause wasn't real.
00:23:29 The cause was imagined.
00:23:30 The cause was fear.
00:23:35 Let's leave the Jews out o
00:23:39 Let's think of another minority.
00:23:42 One that can go unnoticed if it needs to.
00:23:47 There are all sorts of minorities,
00:23:50 ...or people with freckles.
00:23:54 But a minority is only
00:23:57 ...when it constitutes some kind of
00:24:01 A real threat or an imagined one.
00:24:03 And therein lies the fear.
00:24:08 If the minority is somehow invisible...
00:24:13 ...and the fear is much greater.
00:24:17 That fear is why the
00:24:20 So, you see there always is a cause.
00:24:21 The cause is fear.
00:24:23 Minorities are just people.
00:24:26 People like us.
00:24:35 I can see that I've lost you a bit.
00:24:37 So tell you what? We're gonna
00:24:42 ...and we're gonna talk about fear.
00:24:45 Fear, after all, is our real enemy.
00:24:48 Fear is taking over our world.
00:24:50 Fear is being used as a tool of
00:24:54 It's how politicians peddle policy.
00:24:58 It's how Madison Avenue sells us
00:25:01 Think about it.
00:25:04 Fear of being attacked.
00:25:07 Fear of that there are communists
00:25:10 Fear of that some little
00:25:12 ...that doesn't believe in our way
00:25:15 Fear that black culture
00:25:17 Fear of Elvis Presley's hips.
00:25:22 Actually, maybe that one is a real fear.
00:25:27 Fear that our bad breath
00:25:33 Fear of growing old and being alone.
00:25:43 The of that we're useless and that
00:25:52 Have a good weekend.
00:26:00 Sir! May I talk to you for a minute?
00:26:03 Why don't you always
00:26:05 I don't think it went over very well.
00:26:07 Man, fear of things gets
00:26:10 But you can't talk about it with
00:26:13 - You can't even talk about it with Lois?
00:26:17 Everyone's afraid of something, Kenny.
00:26:19 What are you afraid of, sir?
00:26:21 Cars.
00:26:22 How can you live in Los Angeles
00:26:25 Maybe you can't.
00:26:27 Sometimes my fear of things
00:26:31 It's like I get really panic stricken and
00:26:36 - May I ask you a personal question, sir?
00:26:40 Do you ever get high?
00:26:42 - How old do I look to you?
00:26:47 Of course, Kenny.
00:26:49 Like what?
00:26:51 I don't feel I should be discussing this
00:26:54 It's the only way I get by sometimes.
00:26:58 - Have you ever tried mescaline?
00:27:01 I shaved off one of my eyebrows once
00:27:05 - Sir?
00:27:08 Big mistake if you're high on mescaline.
00:27:10 I decided that my eyebrows
00:27:13 Before I knew it, I had shaved one off.
00:27:14 I wore a band-aid over my eye for about
00:27:17 Very embarrassing.
00:27:18 - You didn't take it again after that?
00:27:21 I shaved off my eyebrow.
00:27:24 I wanted an experience Mr. Potter,
00:27:30 If you ever want to get high sir,
00:27:34 You're really mad aren't you?
00:27:43 I'm sorry, sir. I guess you don't feel
00:27:46 What makes you say that?
00:27:48 Lois thinks you're kind of cagey.
00:27:51 ...when you were listening to all that
00:27:54 Well, not all of you.
00:27:56 I didn't notice you open
00:27:58 I was watching you.
00:28:00 You let us ramble on and on
00:28:04 But you never really tell us
00:28:09 Well, maybe that's true up to a point.
00:28:13 It's not that I want to be cagey.
00:28:16 It's just that I can't really discuss
00:28:21 ...at school.
00:28:22 Someone would misunderstand.
00:28:26 I tried that today.
00:28:35 What was it you wanted to get, sir?
00:28:38 Nothing. I was on my way
00:28:40 You mean you walked all the way
00:28:43 - Why not?
00:28:45 I think you deserve
00:28:48 Here sir, take your pick.
00:28:51 - It's on me.
00:28:57 I thought you'd probably pick blue.
00:29:00 - Why blue?
00:29:03 What makes you think I'm spiritual?
00:29:08 And you? Red?
00:29:12 - What is red stand for?
00:29:14 Rage, lust.
00:29:18 No kidding?
00:29:25 Well sir, I...
00:29:26 I guess I see you around.
00:30:50 Hello?
00:30:51 What are you up to, kiddo?
00:30:53 Just trying to finish up a book.
00:30:57 Fine.
00:30:58 I was just leaving school and wanted to
00:31:02 Thanks, you're sweet.
00:31:04 But I think I'm all set.
00:31:08 Be a darling and...
00:31:09 ...pick up gin for me, Tangueray.
00:31:15 You love what's in it.
00:31:19 7 would be great if that's ok with you.
00:31:22 Perfect. I'll see you then.
00:31:25 I'll see you then.
00:31:27 Bye, kiddo.
00:31:50 Beautiful.
00:32:47 - Yes, Mr. Potter?
00:32:50 That is usually why people
00:32:53 No, I mean are you going on
00:32:55 - What?
00:33:03 What exactly is it that you want, Kenny?
00:33:07 I was just hoping that perhaps we could get
00:33:12 Why is that?
00:33:15 I don't know, sir.
00:33:17 Because I think you might like it.
00:33:21 ...because you seem as though
00:33:23 - Oh really?
00:33:30 They may be right.
00:33:33 It will have to be another time.
00:33:37 But thank you for the invitation.
00:33:40 And thank you for the talk earlier.
00:33:44 And stay away from the mescaline.
00:34:18 Hello, Mr. Falconer.
00:34:20 - Hello. How are you today?
00:34:22 - Do you need to get into your box?
00:34:25 Follow me.
00:34:35 Here you are, sir.
00:34:39 If you could please sign here...
00:34:49 - Thank you.
00:35:58 So explain your friend Charlotte to me.
00:36:02 What would you like to know?
00:36:04 I don't know.
00:36:08 Like you were once
00:36:12 - You haven't slept with her, have you?
00:36:17 And?
00:36:20 A few times when we were young.
00:36:22 I wouldn't say that it
00:36:24 ...but it certainly meant
00:36:27 It was a long time ago in London.
00:36:31 I love Charley.
00:36:33 - And We were very close friends
00:36:37 If you sleep with women
00:36:39 Because I fall in love with men.
00:36:41 Because I fell in love with you.
00:36:46 Anyway, doesn't everyone sleep with
00:36:48 - I haven't.
00:36:51 No, I'm not.
00:36:53 It was just never anything
00:36:55 Well, you're awfully
00:36:58 You know, I think that was the first
00:37:02 ...was how sure of yourself you were.
00:37:07 How can you be so sure about
00:37:11 You think I'm sure of myself?
00:37:14 Of course, you are.
00:37:37 I'm finished now.
00:37:45 Yes, Mr. Falconer?
00:37:48 Is there something else we
00:37:50 I can't find my check book
00:37:53 Not my day I'm afraid.
00:38:49 Mommy says bushy eyebrows are pedestrian,
00:38:55 I think yours are pretty too.
00:38:57 Why do you look so sad?
00:39:03 Ben Hur.
00:39:07 He's our scorpion.
00:39:09 Every night we throw in something
00:39:13 Daddy says it's like the colosseum. So my
00:39:18 He wants to be a set designer.
00:39:21 He hasn't eaten the spider yet...
00:39:22 ...cause he's still full from
00:39:26 Daddy says he wants to throw
00:39:29 No kidding?
00:39:31 He says you're light in your loafers...
00:39:35 ...but you aren't even wearing loafers.
00:39:37 I think my brother Tom is
00:39:39 ...but he wears Keds.
00:39:43 He made me do a hair conditioning
00:39:48 Does it look shiny?
00:39:50 Sweetheart, what are you doing
00:39:53 She's not bothering me at all Susan.
00:39:55 I'm glad to see you George.
00:39:59 George, we're having a few people
00:40:02 ...and would love to have you
00:40:03 - Thank you. That's very kind of you but I
00:40:08 Jennifer, let's let Mr. Falconer get
00:40:11 Goodbye, George.
00:40:12 Bye, Susan.
00:40:24 - May I help you, sir? - I'd like to buy
00:40:28 Yes, sir.
00:40:32 We have a two for one sale on
00:40:34 - Perhaps one for the little lady?
00:40:40 - Here you go. Anything else?
00:40:43 That would be $2.29, sir.
00:40:48 Thank you.
00:41:28 I'm sorry. I hope she
00:41:31 She goes a little crazy sometimes when
00:41:33 She's perfect.
00:41:35 India.
00:41:37 Let's go there.
00:41:43 You little baby.
00:41:48 I used to have smooth fox terriers.
00:42:13 The very smell of buttered toast.
00:42:16 She's still a puppy isn't she?
00:42:24 Well.
00:42:26 - Have a nice evening.
00:42:28 Good night, India.
00:42:42 - I'm sorry about that.
00:42:45 - It's my fault. I'll get you another pack.
00:42:49 No, no I insist.
00:42:56 Thank you.
00:42:58 I'm sorry about the broken glass.
00:43:00 - Here you go.
00:43:04 You want one?
00:43:06 No, thanks.
00:43:09 Actually, yes.
00:43:12 Thank you.
00:43:45 - Carlos.
00:43:47 Carlos. You asked me my name.
00:43:49 Are you okay?
00:43:51 Yeah.
00:43:54 Yeah, I'm sorry.
00:44:00 You're really something.
00:44:02 You have an incredible face.
00:44:04 Enjoy that. It's a great gift.
00:44:07 Your Spanish is perfect.
00:44:08 Thank you.
00:44:13 I should have used it more.
00:44:16 Well...
00:44:17 It's not too late.
00:44:46 What are you doing?
00:44:49 Aren't we going somewhere?
00:44:51 No. But, thanks.
00:45:00 You know, it's the smog that
00:45:03 I've never seen a sky like this before.
00:45:06 Sometimes awful things have
00:45:15 Could I have another cigarette?
00:45:17 Sure.
00:45:47 - Are sure that you don't want to go
00:45:53 - Where are you from?
00:45:55 Madrid?
00:45:58 It's a long story.
00:46:00 I met a guy from LA at the
00:46:03 ...who told me I could live with him
00:46:06 But he never realized that
00:46:11 I like your accent.
00:46:15 - How did you learn English? - My mom had
00:46:20 Is your mother in Madrid?
00:46:23 Yes, she is.
00:46:25 She cut my hair before I left.
00:46:30 - I thought it made me look like James Dean.
00:46:34 Really?
00:46:35 Thanks.
00:46:41 No one has ever picked me up
00:46:44 I think you picked me up.
00:46:48 This is kind of a serious day for me.
00:46:51 Come on. What could be
00:46:55 I'm just trying to get over
00:47:01 My mother says that
00:47:05 You just have to wait a little while
00:47:14 I have to go.
00:47:17 You're a nice guy.
00:47:19 I hope you find...
00:47:21 ...someone like you.
00:47:22 Thanks.
00:47:24 I'm going away.
00:48:24 It's your turn to change it.
00:48:26 Yeah, I'm not changing it.
00:48:29 Besides, you never like
00:48:32 I'll give you five dollars if you
00:48:35 You're only old when it's
00:48:37 What are you reading anyway?
00:48:39 Oh God. Not that depressing crap again.
00:48:42 It's for my class.
00:48:45 What highbrow work of fiction
00:48:50 Don't be so smug.
00:48:56 Man, what a life he has.
00:48:59 - Don't you just envy him?
00:49:01 Because he can sniff
00:49:04 Nice.
00:49:06 No, because he just does what he wants.
00:49:10 ...I was standing in the front yard
00:49:13 And that little brat of hers
00:49:16 ...running over waving that
00:49:18 And our little dog walked
00:49:22 ...and peed all over Christopher's
00:49:25 All over Christopher actually.
00:49:28 And of course, I had
00:49:30 It was so perfectly executed
00:49:33 After all the times those kids
00:49:37 I mean, you should take a
00:49:40 They don't stay up all night worrying.
00:49:42 They figured out how to get the two
00:49:46 They are basically very sophisticated
00:49:51 Well, the dumbest creatures are the
00:49:58 He's really just living the moment.
00:50:02 It's like now.
00:50:04 What could be better than
00:50:10 If I died right now it would be OK.
00:50:16 Well, it wouldn't be OK with me so why don't
00:50:23 Good answer.
00:50:26 You know what? I was thinking
00:50:27 ...to Denver with me next week
00:50:31 It's my mom.
00:50:32 Probably that recognition
00:50:39 You stay there, old man.
00:54:26 No, I did not forget the gin.
00:55:15 Christopher, would you
00:55:18 I don't know.
00:55:19 If you keep this up
00:55:22 So, why don't you go home
00:55:56 I'm so happy to see you.
00:56:03 Come on in.
00:56:07 It smells wonderful.
00:56:10 I gave her the night off.
00:56:13 - You are?
00:56:15 - Charley darling, ''you cooking' is new.
00:56:18 I'm in a good mood tonight.
00:56:21 I've already made two
00:56:24 Resolution one: No more talk
00:56:27 ..and children who don't give a damn.
00:56:29 - And the other one?
00:56:30 Resolution.
00:56:32 Resolution two: More smoking and more
00:56:37 ...mix me up a drink.
00:56:39 I'll have a gin and tonic, please.
00:56:41 - And watch out baby!
00:56:48 - It was sweet of you to come tonight.
00:56:53 - I needed to see you.
00:56:57 Whenever you do something sweet
00:57:02 Here is to our early
00:57:07 Cheers.
00:57:10 What are your resolutions by the way?
00:57:14 To let go of the past completely,
00:57:21 Light me up, will you?
00:57:31 Darling, you don’t look well.
00:57:33 Do you remember that little
00:57:36 - It wasn’t a heart attack.
00:57:39 ...you don’t look so hot.
00:57:41 I’m fine.
00:57:44 - I'm a little tired. I haven't
00:57:48 You were with Jim for 16 years.
00:57:50 I think about Richard every day.
00:57:53 It’s hard being alone.
00:57:56 At least you have a job and a life.
00:58:00 Let’s have a bit of dinner shall we?
00:58:03 Because I’ve worked so very hard.
00:58:09 - What are you talking about? - Seriously,
00:58:12 The other day one of my students
00:58:16 I wouldn't mind if old didn't exist...
00:58:18 ...but I'm not sure senior is
00:58:21 It's all becoming so bland.
00:58:24 It's like a complete breakdown
00:58:26 The young ones have no manners.
00:58:29 The other day at the car wash
00:58:33 ...and actually asked me if I
00:58:36 - What did you say?
00:58:38 ...and said: ''Let's just say
00:58:41 ...I would be a natural
00:58:43 - You didn't!
00:58:47 And the amusing thing was
00:58:52 You know, you had a mouth on you
00:58:55 Do you remember that old lesbian
00:58:57 ...because you asked her if
00:59:10 Geo.
00:59:12 We could always go back to London.
00:59:15 - No, thanks.
00:59:18 I miss it sometimes.
00:59:21 Maybe if Jim had lived.
00:59:23 He loved being in England. He asked us
00:59:26 Do you really think you
00:59:30 I don't know. It's silly to even talk
00:59:42 What's this?
00:59:43 It's my mother's wedding ring.
00:59:46 I found it a drawer
00:59:56 Charley my dear, you and I are
01:01:30 Wait!
01:01:42 I love this!
01:01:44 - You're insane!
01:03:06 Don't move.
01:03:16 Thank you.
01:03:28 - Very smooth cigarette move.
01:03:33 You don't even smoke.
01:03:35 Well, not for the last
01:03:38 What's to stop me now?
01:03:48 This is so nice, lying here with you.
01:03:53 Don't you ever miss this?
01:03:56 What we could have been to each other?
01:03:59 Having a real relationship and kids?
01:04:05 - I had Jim.
01:04:10 Geo, let's be honest, what you and Jim
01:04:16 ...wasn't it really just a
01:04:22 Is that really what you think
01:04:27 You think Jim was just some
01:04:35 Jim was not a substitute for anything.
01:04:40 Do you understand?
01:04:41 There is no substitute for Jim...
01:04:43 ...anywhere!
01:04:45 And by the way, what is so real
01:04:48 He left you after nine years!
01:04:52 Jim and I were together
01:04:54 And if he hadn't died we
01:04:57 What the hell is not real about that?
01:04:58 I'm sorry.
01:05:01 I know how much the two
01:05:05 I suppose I'm just jealous that
01:05:11 Actually, I've never had that
01:05:16 I don't think Richard ever loved me...
01:05:19 ...except for the way I looked.
01:05:21 And Clay...
01:05:22 I don't know. You raise
01:05:24 ...and then when they are
01:05:27 Charley, there is nothing
01:05:29 You just like feeling sorry for yourself.
01:05:32 And it's not one of yours?
01:05:35 You're as pathetic as I am.
01:05:37 Feeling sorry for myself is definitely
01:05:40 Well, it's not one of mine either. I don't
01:05:43 I tried to hold onto
01:05:45 ...even when it was obvious to
01:05:47 And now Clay is grown up.
01:05:48 I mean, what am I doing here Geo?
01:05:51 You have plenty of friends.
01:05:53 Yes, I have friends.
01:05:56 And yes I have you and if you weren't such a
01:06:06 I only have you now
01:06:09 Soon I'll lose you to someone else.
01:06:12 I've done everything the way
01:06:14 ...all I have to keep me
01:06:16 Maybe you should try
01:06:20 Screw you.
01:06:24 Charlotte, you are dramatic.
01:06:27 I swear you really almost had me.
01:06:29 A tiny tear was beginning to
01:06:33 Now stop it.
01:06:34 You are still
01:06:39 When you can be bothered
01:06:41 ...and you stop whimpering about
01:06:44 Go to London.
01:06:48 If you're not happy being a woman
01:06:50 You have all the answers.
01:06:53 No, I don't have any to mention.
01:06:55 If you're so smart why don't you
01:06:58 Take that position at Stanford.
01:07:00 You complain about that little school
01:07:03 I think what I've done
01:07:05 I'm sorry, I'm sorry.
01:07:07 I shouldn't have said that.
01:07:11 As much as I dread it, I think
01:07:13 Why do you dread it?
01:07:15 When I lived in London last I was
01:07:20 Coming to America was such a dream,
01:07:24 Going home is defeat.
01:07:26 None of it really worked
01:07:29 Most things don't work out
01:07:34 You're just living in the past. You need
01:07:37 Living in the past is my future.
01:07:41 It doesn't have to be yours.
01:07:45 And you're a bore tonight.
01:07:49 Can't we just feel sorry for
01:07:52 Let's have another drink.
01:07:54 - I don't think so. I have to go. Come on.
01:07:57 - Come on, I have to!
01:08:09 When will I see you again?
01:08:13 - Aren't you going to England?
01:08:16 It's far too much effort.
01:08:19 Besides, I don't think Jim would want me
01:08:25 Don't worry about me. I'll be fine.
01:08:29 What are you doing this weekend?
01:08:32 I think I might just be very quiet.
01:08:37 You never really did take me
01:08:40 I tried to Charley. Remember?
01:08:45 It didn't really work out, did it?
01:08:49 No, Charley.
01:08:58 Sleep tight.
01:09:43 Patrick, a beer and a
01:10:31 Excuse me.
01:10:48 It's too hot in there.
01:10:50 Yes, it is.
01:10:52 - Would you like a cigarette?
01:10:56 - This place is really crowded.
01:11:01 It's usually as bad as this.
01:11:03 People normally just stop by and pick
01:11:07 Yeah. It's pretty wild out there.
01:11:09 I'm surprised the cops
01:11:12 - Is it always like that?
01:11:15 It's pretty great actually.
01:11:19 - I'm Jim.
01:11:22 Pleased to meet you Jim.
01:11:23 I'm sorry, I'm supposed to meet some
01:11:26 I just needed to get out of the house
01:11:31 Do you live hereby?
01:11:33 Canyon.
01:11:34 - For how long?
01:11:37 - Where are you from?
01:11:40 I really like it here.
01:11:45 I think I might stay after
01:11:48 I don't know, maybe
01:11:56 - After you.
01:12:04 Sorry.
01:12:13 - Well, hello.
01:12:17 Do you buy me a drink?
01:12:21 I think I'm taken.
01:12:25 Too bad, too bad.
01:12:30 Do you want another beer?
01:13:29 Patrick, a bottle of scotch and
01:13:43 Patrick, cancel that.
01:13:56 Well, hello Mr. Potter.
01:13:58 Hello, sir.
01:14:02 - What are we drinking?
01:14:05 Okay.
01:14:13 I come here all the time. I live just
01:14:18 On Camphor Tree Lane.
01:14:26 You're still carrying that around.
01:14:30 One must always appreciate
01:14:37 So, what are you doing here?
01:14:39 - Just out for a ride on my bike.
01:14:42 I don't know.
01:14:44 Were you looking for me?
01:14:46 Maybe. I don't know.
01:14:49 I feel like my head's
01:14:51 What kind of stuff?
01:14:52 Like, the stuff you were talking
01:14:54 That is definitely not important.
01:14:56 No, it is important.
01:14:59 But somehow we always seem
01:15:04 The past just doesn't matter to me.
01:15:05 - The present?
01:15:09 It's a total drag.
01:15:12 Well, tonight is the exception.
01:15:16 What?
01:15:18 Tonight, yes!
01:15:21 Let's drink to tonight.
01:15:23 Tonight.
01:15:27 So if the past doesn't matter and
01:15:29 What about the future?
01:15:31 What future?
01:15:35 Death is the future.
01:15:37 I'm sorry.
01:15:39 It's not depressing.
01:15:41 It may not be your immediate future
01:15:45 Death is the future.
01:15:46 You're right, I guess.
01:15:48 If one is not enjoying one's present
01:15:51 ...suggest that the future
01:15:54 Yeah, I've thought that before.
01:15:57 But the thing is you just never know.
01:16:01 Look at tonight.
01:16:06 Actually...
01:16:08 ...I feel really alone most of the time.
01:16:11 - You do?
01:16:14 I've always felt this way.
01:16:16 I mean we're born alone, we die alone.
01:16:19 And while we're here we are absolutely,
01:16:25 Really weird.
01:16:27 Kinda freaks me out to think about it.
01:16:30 We can only experience the outside world
01:16:37 Who knows what you're really like?
01:16:39 - I just see what I think you're like.
01:16:46 If you look closely.
01:16:54 You know the only thing that has made
01:16:59 ...has been those...
01:17:01 ...few times that I've been able to really,
01:17:09 I had a hunch about you, sir.
01:17:11 - You did?
01:17:14 I had a hunch you might
01:17:22 You know, everyone
01:17:25 ...when you're older, that you'll
01:17:28 Like it's some great thing.
01:17:29 That's a load of shit.
01:17:31 I think I've actually just
01:17:34 - Really?
01:17:36 So, all your experience is useless.
01:17:40 No, I wouldn't say that.
01:17:43 As our friend Mr. Huxley says:
01:17:46 It is what a man does
01:17:51 - Let's go swimming.
01:17:54 - What?
01:17:57 I thought you were
01:18:00 ...I said to myself I'll suggest doing
01:18:05 And if he resists, if he even hesitates
01:18:11 Well, I wasn't.
01:18:14 Hell, no!
01:18:34 Come on sir.
01:18:38 Let's go.
01:19:25 Come on, sir.
01:20:01 Sir?
01:20:03 Sir?
01:20:15 That's enough for now, sir.
01:20:18 - I'm fine.
01:20:34 Can we go back to your place, sir?
01:20:36 Of course.
01:20:40 - Where else.
01:20:42 - What's the matter?
01:20:46 We're invisible, don't you know that?
01:20:50 You know sir, they ought not
01:20:53 You're liable to get into real trouble.
01:20:55 I excel at it.
01:20:57 Your forehead is bleeding.
01:21:23 The bathroom is just down the hall
01:21:27 Aren't you taking a shower too, sir?
01:21:30 I'm fine. I'm English.
01:21:33 First, I think that we need
01:21:36 Do you have any band-aids?
01:21:41 - Going camping, sir?
01:21:46 Stay there.
01:22:32 Sit up.
01:22:35 Tilt your head back.
01:23:02 Well sir, I'm afraid this
01:23:04 ...the excuse of mescaline
01:23:09 I think we should get you
01:23:14 Yes, sir.
01:24:49 - You're not too cold?
01:24:52 - Would you like a drink?
01:24:55 I'm afraid that's all we have.
01:24:58 Two beers coming up.
01:25:14 - You live here all by yourself, sir?
01:25:17 I used to share this place with
01:25:20 Man, guys my age dream about the
01:25:23 I mean, what more can you want?
01:25:26 You get to be left alone and
01:25:32 Is that's your idea of the perfect life?
01:25:33 What's the matter, sir?
01:25:36 If you're so keen on the
01:25:38 ...where does Lois fit into this plan?
01:25:40 Lois? What's she got to
01:25:44 I got the impression that you
01:25:49 Not really.
01:25:53 ...we're good friends but...
01:25:57 I think what you really want to
01:26:02 - And do you?
01:26:04 - Why only once?
01:26:10 Come on, the last thing I want to
01:26:13 What time is it?
01:26:17 My watch seems to have stopped.
01:26:26 Do you want me to go?
01:26:28 You must be kidding.
01:26:32 Is that an order, sir?
01:26:36 You're damn right it is.
01:26:49 Pathetic.
01:26:52 Did you say something, sir?
01:26:59 Why are you here?
01:27:02 Why did you get to the office and
01:27:09 I just wanted to see you
01:27:15 Why?
01:27:20 Sometimes I think I'm crazy cause I see
01:27:25 I feel like I can talk to you.
01:27:28 To be honest sir, I was also
01:27:36 Me?
01:27:38 What's to be worried about?
01:27:41 I'm fine.
01:27:52 I'm...
01:27:55 I'm fine.
01:30:40 A few times in my life I've had
01:30:47 When for a few brief seconds...
01:30:50 ...the silence drowns out the noise...
01:30:53 ...and I can feel rather than think.
01:30:57 And things seem so sharp...
01:31:00 And the world seems so fresh...
01:31:04 ...as though it had all
01:31:27 I can never make these moments last.
01:31:30 I cling to them...
01:31:32 ...but like everything they fade.
01:31:36 I've lived my live on these moments.
01:31:40 They pull me back to the present...
01:31:44 ...and I realize that everything is
01:34:09 And just like that it came.
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