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00:02:02 Armed robbery.
00:02:05 I wasn't gonna ask that.
00:02:07 You know, that's what it was.
00:02:09 That's the story.
00:02:12 You were gonna hear it sooner or later,
00:02:14 None of my business.
00:02:16 Sure, it is.
00:02:18 Actually, you're right.
00:02:23 You know, if we're going
00:02:25 ...you should know these things
00:02:28 It's your right.
00:02:30 It's your right
00:02:32 I know.
00:02:35 I agree.
00:02:41 I walked into a Dunkin' Donuts at 2:00 a.m.
00:02:44 - I was broke.
00:02:50 - Dan.
00:02:53 Oh, no?
00:02:56 Fredrickson.
00:02:58 Son of the first elector.
00:03:00 The family owns a big nursery.
00:03:02 Every year,
00:03:05 Stuff from last year
00:03:08 - Some donation.
00:03:11 Yeah.
00:03:13 He's lived here his whole life.
00:03:17 They always pull that "local guy" stuff
00:03:23 Fuckin' politicians for you.
00:03:26 - Yeah. Where you from?
00:03:29 When did you graduate?
00:03:33 I was supposed to finish in '83...
00:03:37 ...but I didn't.
00:03:39 Figured if I read a lot I'd be okay, you know?
00:03:42 Sounds like a good idea.
00:04:00 You read?
00:04:02 I get the paper for the sports.
00:04:06 - Current events?
00:04:10 My wife reads all of Stephen King's.
00:04:13 My son gave me this guy Jim...
00:04:17 Jim Thompson?
00:04:18 They're pretty good.
00:04:22 I think I read about every Stephen King.
00:04:36 Up in Danbury...
00:04:39 ...I started reading spiritual books.
00:04:42 - Bible stuff?
00:04:46 More spiritual. More like...
00:04:50 ...men's souls and their spirits, you know?
00:04:53 Like how in society, they don't have the space.
00:04:57 No sort of...
00:04:59 - No fuckin' outlet for all the things...
00:05:03 No more with that word.
00:05:07 What?
00:05:10 Oh! "Fuck."
00:05:13 - Sorry.
00:05:16 Sorry.
00:05:24 How long were you in Danbury Correction?
00:05:27 Eighteen months.
00:05:29 It was only my first offense, you know.
00:05:35 Here he is, driving his '98 BMW.
00:05:48 Mr. Murphy. Hello.
00:05:53 Hello, nice to see you. Very sorry I'm late.
00:05:55 - That's okay. Where's the truck?
00:05:58 - Fine.
00:06:00 Fine. Where's the truck?
00:06:02 They're not here yet?
00:06:04 No.
00:06:06 I was afraid of that. Hang on.
00:06:10 I hope you don't have to load by yourself.
00:06:13 Hey, Mona!
00:06:15 I'm over at the storage barn.
00:06:19 Well, what...
00:06:21 How long of a delay?
00:06:24 Goddamn.
00:06:26 All right. No.
00:06:28 No, I'll ask them if they want to wait,
00:06:32 Trouble with a delivery over at Perkins...
00:06:34 - We'll come back tomorrow.
00:06:37 I need to get the stuff out of here today.
00:06:44 Do you think you guys could start to load it on...
00:06:46 ...until my guys get here,
00:06:49 Would that be okay? Hey.
00:06:51 - That's Paul. He's the new guy.
00:06:54 - Hi. How you doing?
00:06:57 I know you guys need to get
00:07:01 Could you just start?
00:07:04 Just get over here immediately and help you out?
00:07:09 Otherwise, I just can't think of what to do.
00:07:14 I want the town to have access
00:07:22 I don't want to load a bunch of...
00:07:24 ...seed fertilizer on the back of the truck.
00:07:27 Do you?
00:07:32 - Is there another way?
00:07:35 Your guys are supposed to help us
00:07:38 My father donates all the materials.
00:07:43 Sometimes he has his employees
00:07:47 It's a donation for the town.
00:07:50 Since you guys work for the town, I thought...
00:07:52 Maybe Terry Kaiser can send someone over to...
00:07:55 I have to get going. Let's wrap this up.
00:07:57 Let's take a look at what there is.
00:08:01 Wait a second.
00:08:03 I don't know what's going on. I just started.
00:08:05 But don't go walking over there,
00:08:10 What the fuck is that?
00:08:15 I'm just going to show you
00:08:20 I know this is your first day, but...
00:08:25 It's a donation for the town.
00:08:29 Shut up a second.
00:08:32 ...then act like we're doing it
00:08:35 Fuck.
00:08:36 I don't think you understand...
00:08:38 Just show us what your father wants to donate.
00:08:58 I guess these throw away. No. These look...
00:09:03 I don't know if they're supposed to go.
00:09:05 And, see...
00:09:07 - Be careful, don't get the fertilizer in the hand...
00:09:10 Okay. And as I say...
00:09:12 ...l'll tell Sanchez and Ricky to skip lunch and...
00:09:16 That'd be fine.
00:09:18 Back the truck up, will you? The keys are in it.
00:09:20 Great.
00:09:22 You gonna stick around and give us a hand?
00:09:24 What? I mean...
00:09:27 Okay.
00:09:31 My guys shouldn't be that long.
00:09:35 - Usually, I have gloves in the car.
00:09:44 It's not a question of gloves, really. I mean...
00:09:47 It's not my job.
00:09:49 I run the business.
00:09:54 - Neither were we, really.
00:10:01 I'll run back to the nursery, see if I can
00:10:06 That makes more sense.
00:10:07 - Whatever.
00:10:10 I said I'll go back, free up one of the workers
00:10:14 - I said I'll do it, I'm gonna do it.
00:10:18 I don't like your attitude, Mr...
00:10:21 - I don't like yours, faggot.
00:10:23 - Fuckin' faggot comes here like the king of Siam!
00:10:26 Sorry, Mr. Murphy. I won't say "fuck" anymore...
00:10:29 He means the word "faggot," moron.
00:10:32 - Jesus Christ!
00:10:35 It's okay, Ronnie.
00:10:37 I don't mean anything negative.
00:10:40 Enough, Ronnie.
00:10:51 Look, I've got to go.
00:10:53 I'm very sorry the guys aren't here.
00:10:58 Call Terry Kaiser.
00:11:00 Tell him we're gonna be longer than we thought.
00:11:02 As soon as I know what's going on.
00:11:05 Tell Bobby my thoughts are with him.
00:11:07 And please say hello to your wife for me
00:11:12 I will.
00:11:29 "When I see her,"
00:11:43 - I'm sorry. I didn't mean "faggot" like...
00:11:53 - I got nothing against them, you know.
00:12:00 - I meant "pussy." That guy was a pussy.
00:12:05 Enough.
00:12:10 I meant no insult at all.
00:12:13 It's no problem.
00:12:15 Let it go.
00:12:20 I don't even know your son.
00:12:22 I don't even know you. Here I am...
00:12:25 My first day, and I can't even...
00:12:31 What is it, three hours? And already I'm...
00:12:35 I quit.
00:12:37 - What are you doing?
00:12:40 He has authority.
00:12:43 Fuck!
00:12:46 I call your son a faggot. I mean...
00:12:48 Shit! Three fucking hours.
00:12:52 For some fuckin' reason,
00:12:58 My first fuckin' day!
00:13:45 Fuck.
00:13:53 - I can't do this.
00:13:59 I'm sorry, but I'm not gonna make it here.
00:14:03 Relax!
00:14:06 - The guy is a jerk!
00:14:10 - I mean, your son. I had no...
00:14:13 I'm not insulted.
00:14:16 The language, that's all...
00:14:18 The son of the first elector,
00:14:21 Kaiser hates this guy. I mean, the guy is...
00:14:26 The guy's got a cupcake mentality.
00:14:34 Cupcake mentality?
00:14:39 He's a jerk! A soft life, his whole life.
00:15:09 - I just need to start with a lawyer.
00:15:12 My parole would be so completely fucked.
00:15:14 Forget it! Last thing Fredrickson wants
00:15:18 This is the shit those books
00:15:32 Should we...
00:15:34 ...start loading that stuff?
00:15:36 No.
00:15:39 What about...
00:15:43 You really think
00:15:46 No. He's a liar.
00:15:49 Guys like that,
00:15:51 I smell that, and I swear to God,
00:15:54 - I know, but you've gotta watch that.
00:15:57 The only thing it's gonna get you
00:16:00 - No offense.
00:16:04 I'm not saying that.
00:16:07 Do what you wanna do.
00:16:08 A guy'll tell you to do something...
00:16:10 ...and just by having the balls to say it out loud...
00:16:14 He got the upper hand on you...
00:16:15 If you say no, you're the problem,
00:16:19 ...by telling you what to do, like you're unhuman.
00:16:21 They back you into a corner
00:16:26 Know how many people wanna hire you
00:16:30 It's like, "Hello! I'm radioactive!"
00:16:32 Kaiser hired you.
00:16:40 One guy.
00:16:43 He just told me, "I've been there."
00:16:44 He was! The judge told him,
00:16:48 - I didn't get a choice.
00:16:54 - I needed the money.
00:16:56 I bought a car so I could get to my new job.
00:16:59 A good job.
00:17:01 Working at the kitchen over there,
00:17:04 Minimum wage, but hey, right?
00:17:06 One whole year I looked, taking those
00:17:12 I demoed for a guy five weeks in a row.
00:17:16 Ripped down asbestos for him,
00:17:19 And now, could I help him out?
00:17:21 Meanwhile, I eat peanut butter sandwiches,
00:17:25 - Couldn't say he was fuckin' me or...
00:17:31 Sorry.
00:17:36 So that job was over.
00:17:38 Never saw the money.
00:17:40 I couldn't get unemployment.
00:17:43 Why call it unemployment?
00:17:44 Watch this. That's sumac. It's poisonous.
00:17:47 So I get the job at IBM.
00:17:49 After two weeks, I get my first paycheck for $310.
00:17:52 - Tax.
00:17:54 I go to the manager, say,
00:17:57 "No, there isn't," he says. So I tell him:
00:17:59 "Look. I worked 91 hours at $5.25."
00:18:03 I feel something coming on.
00:18:04 He tells me that four of my days
00:18:07 - When I'm not...
00:18:09 Where I'm just learning the ropes.
00:18:11 I don't get paid for those,
00:18:16 That would have frosted me!
00:18:18 What?
00:18:20 Frosted.
00:18:22 - Pissed me off.
00:18:25 I tell him I don't think that's fair.
00:18:27 He says it is.
00:18:29 Like I was a fuckin' junkie or something.
00:18:32 Next thing I know,
00:18:34 ...like I was some kind of terrorist.
00:18:37 - Jesus.
00:18:40 I just saw the whole thing slipping away,
00:18:45 My friend's wife giving him shit about
00:18:49 So I go into this Dunkin' Donuts off
00:18:53 And I rob them.
00:18:56 What was I gonna do?
00:19:09 What about the armed part?
00:19:11 Were you on the drugs?
00:19:14 No.
00:19:17 I figured I wasn't going without a gun, you know.
00:19:20 Some off-duty cop. You never know.
00:19:26 How'd they catch you?
00:19:33 A woman who worked there
00:19:41 What was I gonna do? Shoot her?
00:19:46 Next morning,
00:19:48 All night, I sweat bullets,
00:19:51 In the morning, I get busted.
00:19:53 It's tough!
00:19:55 Worst part is, these cops driving me
00:19:59 I've never been so hungry in my entire life.
00:20:12 I need this job, Mr. Murphy.
00:20:15 I gotta get back on track, you know?
00:20:32 Sure you don't want me to load that fertilizer?
00:20:34 No.
00:20:36 - I don't mind loading it by myself.
00:20:40 You heard him.
00:20:41 He's got deliveries all day tomorrow.
00:20:44 He's gotta have that space cleaned out,
00:20:48 We're not gonna do something for him
00:20:51 The minute he said that, I knew we had him.
00:20:54 - Isn't he expecting us to do it?
00:20:58 We'll go to the duck pond,
00:21:00 Eat lunch. Go prune the border back.
00:21:08 It was one of those places,
00:21:13 Just saw red.
00:21:16 Got a lot to learn.
00:22:43 I read this interview with the Dalai Lama...
00:22:45 - Wait.
00:22:48 - I know who he is.
00:22:50 This interview asks him what human behavior
00:22:55 Like an early warning sign
00:22:59 ...or closer to another...
00:23:01 ...Nazi attitude.
00:23:03 The Dalai Lama looks at him for a second,
00:23:06 "Routine."
00:23:13 Routine?
00:23:14 Yeah! Like, everybody unconsciously...
00:23:19 ...or even consciously, I guess,
00:23:22 Just following the same system or rules.
00:23:24 Routine.
00:23:26 - Programmed?
00:23:29 You want a coffee?
00:23:31 Maybe you've had enough coffee today already.
00:23:35 Get me a...
00:23:40 I don't have any money.
00:23:42 Me neither. It's payday.
00:23:44 I must have left it on the dresser.
00:23:46 I'm sorry about that $20 I owe you.
00:23:49 Don't worry about it.
00:23:50 No.
00:23:52 - I like to pay my debts.
00:23:55 I told you, pay me when you can.
00:23:59 This is getting a little routine.
00:24:02 That's very good.
00:24:06 You think I don't listen.
00:24:20 Fuckin' vandals.
00:24:23 Vandals.
00:24:26 What's the point of this?
00:24:28 They're losers.
00:24:33 - Kids are spoiled, don't know they got it good.
00:24:37 ...you just have to say, "Things are looking up."
00:24:41 Start looking up. You have to make an effort.
00:24:46 Look here. Here's a wallet.
00:24:54 Senior ID. Driver's license.
00:24:59 Dennis Ramirez.
00:25:01 Rubber. $50. The whole thing.
00:25:04 Looks like Dennis is gonna have
00:25:07 No. We'll take it back to his parents.
00:25:10 What are you talking about?
00:25:14 People learn to behave. They set me straight.
00:25:16 Maybe they'll get him
00:25:20 It's not armed robbery, you know.
00:25:26 It's a senior prom prank.
00:25:41 You know about karma?
00:25:44 Yeah.
00:25:49 - Okay, no.
00:25:52 - American Indian?
00:25:55 The energy you put out there...
00:25:57 Energy?
00:26:00 More like the good fortune you put out there.
00:26:04 When you put it out there, it stores up.
00:26:08 Then there's so much,
00:26:11 ...and you have...
00:26:14 ...more good fortune.
00:26:18 So, basically...
00:26:22 ...what goes around comes around?
00:26:25 Yeah.
00:26:45 Losers.
00:26:47 They got boot camps for vandals.
00:26:59 What do I know?
00:27:13 My father used to sing every morning.
00:27:16 While he was having his coffee. While he shaved.
00:27:20 Even when he was losing his shirt at the pub.
00:27:25 He'd make this effort to sing.
00:27:53 - You believe what goes around comes around?
00:28:01 So, my life has been so fucked up
00:28:04 Like, I was sending out bad karma?
00:28:05 No, it's a different thing entirely.
00:28:09 A little bad fortune.
00:28:12 Couple of bad breaks.
00:28:14 You get into a cycle like we were talking about.
00:28:17 Routine.
00:28:19 I gotta break the routine?
00:28:22 Yeah.
00:28:26 How?
00:28:27 One thing would be not to be so apologetic
00:28:31 - You think I am?
00:28:33 You were in a tough spot.
00:28:38 - Put it behind you.
00:28:40 - How?
00:28:46 Learned the rules of society, you know?
00:28:48 Paid my debt to society.
00:28:50 I realized I lived amongst others.
00:28:53 - Paid my debt to society.
00:28:58 You broke 'em. You were in a tough spot.
00:29:00 But still, I had...
00:29:01 How does your jail time affect things
00:29:06 As a matter of fact...
00:29:08 ...see, with the apologizing
00:29:12 ...might make you worse.
00:29:13 - No, I wouldn't say that. Definitely not.
00:29:19 Wait a minute.
00:29:20 - Are you talking about me owing you money?
00:29:23 The fact that you worry about it,
00:29:27 Remember that day last week?
00:29:28 Three times you said there was no water
00:29:32 - You thought I was lying?
00:29:35 You don't owe me anything, okay? Nothing.
00:29:37 You and me, we're the same. That's it.
00:29:40 If I lend you money, I tell you
00:29:45 You're starting to bug me
00:29:48 Be who you are. Say what you want.
00:29:50 - I can handle that, okay?
00:29:56 Give me back the wallet.
00:29:59 I'm gonna take it over there to his house.
00:30:02 So he'll know I know who he is.
00:30:06 I know where he lives.
00:30:09 And I'm giving him a break.
00:30:12 That puts some good karma out there,
00:30:15 Karma. Fuck.
00:30:18 - Quit saying "fuck."
00:30:30 What the fuck?
00:30:37 I'll just get out of here, okay?
00:30:39 Let me get my stuff out. No force! Okay?
00:30:46 Brooks. Fran Brooks.
00:30:49 Who's that?
00:30:51 My God. You're Fran Brooks.
00:30:53 - Who the fuck are you?
00:30:55 - You're Fran Brooks.
00:30:57 - I said watch your mouth!
00:31:01 Rob...
00:31:03 - Bobby Murphy's father.
00:31:06 I'm Bobby Murphy's father.
00:31:18 Mr. Murphy?
00:31:31 You got a cigarette, sir?
00:31:37 Give him a cigarette.
00:31:49 This is Paul.
00:31:52 - Hi.
00:32:00 What are you doing in there?
00:32:06 - Fran, what are you doing back there?
00:32:10 - You living in there?
00:32:12 - You can't live under there.
00:32:14 - It's illegal!
00:32:16 Take it easy, Paul.
00:32:21 - So, what's your plan?
00:32:26 You're not still drinking, are you?
00:32:30 You, sir?
00:32:35 You hungry?
00:32:38 I am, sir.
00:32:42 I'm gonna give you some money.
00:32:46 - They won't let me in.
00:32:50 - He don't want me there.
00:32:52 - Stuck up!
00:32:54 Look...
00:32:57 - I don't have any money.
00:33:09 Let's see if we can turn Dennis Ramirez's...
00:33:12 ...karma around.
00:33:17 Go over there. Get a table. Order up some eggs.
00:33:21 I'll just...
00:33:23 I'll be a few minutes.
00:33:25 I don't want to leave the tools.
00:33:28 - You want a fried-egg hero?
00:33:36 How is Bobby, Mr. Murphy?
00:33:39 - I heard he was doing well. Some big job.
00:33:44 Hey, Frannie?
00:33:49 Actually, he's not doing so good.
00:33:54 I'm sorry to hear that, sir.
00:33:56 I always liked Bobby.
00:33:58 I know you did.
00:34:03 Things will be better.
00:34:08 I hope so.
00:34:41 Jesus!
00:34:48 Everything's out of whack.
00:35:51 What?
00:35:52 Is it the money? 'Cause I'll buy you the pills.
00:35:57 No.
00:35:58 If you take drugs, you reduce your body's
00:36:02 Drugs?
00:36:04 It's an antihistamine. Doctors take them.
00:36:06 - What? It's not a natural thing to do?
00:36:10 If you want to go see this car naturally,
00:36:13 Christ, Murph, come on!
00:36:16 What's with "natural"? Okay, "natural."
00:36:20 Science is not a bad thing.
00:36:24 I know. I'm just trying to balance my body.
00:36:27 Mind and body clean. Keep 'em one.
00:36:30 - The hangovers last week, what was that?
00:36:32 I would call that an imbalance, all right?
00:36:35 Of course,
00:36:40 This happens to me every year. I'm used to it.
00:36:42 Maybe it's part of a mutation process.
00:36:45 I'll survive the greenhouse effect, you won't.
00:36:47 You think somebody wants you to survive,
00:36:51 Shit. Come on. I told the car guy by 12:30.
00:36:59 45 Oakridge Way.
00:37:04 I don't know why you have to have a car.
00:37:07 I don't mind picking you up on the way in.
00:37:10 It's the summer, all right?
00:37:14 Maybe you ought to tell the girls
00:37:17 That's a good tactic.
00:37:20 Sometimes you're so lame, you know that?
00:37:23 What are you doing?
00:37:28 What's killing me right now is listening to you.
00:37:33 All the classics, all the time, on WMRA.
00:37:47 The other night, I couldn't take it anymore.
00:37:50 I wanted sex.
00:37:53 I'm a guy.
00:37:58 So I went down to the Ancient Mariner.
00:38:03 I gotta get laid. Start talking to this girl, Julie.
00:38:07 28. Stacked. Beautiful. Drunk.
00:38:10 She's there with her girlfriends
00:38:13 - What, she's like a fifth wheel?
00:38:15 I'm dressed exactly like the boyfriends.
00:38:20 ...docksiders...
00:38:22 - They're like boat shoes.
00:38:28 They all wear 'em, okay?
00:38:31 So I told her I work in my father's gardening firm
00:38:37 She says, "You know, you got a great body.
00:38:40 "How'd you get so tanned?"
00:38:45 "I work outside all day with my shirt off."
00:38:47 - "I thought you sold garden supplies."
00:38:50 - Bitch just gets up, turns around...
00:38:54 The snot gets up, gives me this look like "later"...
00:38:58 ...gets her two friends and leaves.
00:39:02 Like I wasn't good enough for her or something.
00:39:05 How would a '77 Datsun change this?
00:39:10 I could have left with her.
00:39:13 I got a car. I would have seemed like less of a...
00:39:16 - Less of a what? A liar?
00:39:20 That's when you're not telling the truth.
00:39:22 - Mr. Philosopher.
00:39:27 - What?
00:39:30 "I go in the bar to get laid."
00:39:32 Not, "I go to have a good time,
00:39:35 That's pretty narrow, you know?
00:39:37 What are you? The Dalai Lama?
00:39:39 "Hello, Dolly..."
00:39:46 Sometimes when it gets heavy like this
00:39:52 - I've been having these weird dreams.
00:39:56 Come on. Take 10.
00:40:05 I wrote down this one dream,
00:40:09 Like a monster or something.
00:40:12 I got this huge gun.
00:40:15 This other guy's supposed to be with me.
00:40:18 A Native guide or something,
00:40:22 But he's missing, and it's definitely dangerous.
00:40:25 I don't see any tracks or anything, but...
00:40:28 ...there is no way I'm leaving this path.
00:40:36 And the birds are whispering, "A gun is stupid."
00:40:42 I think they want me to drop the gun as a trick...
00:40:45 ...so that I get killed or something.
00:40:48 My hands are sinking into
00:40:53 At that exact moment...
00:40:55 - The monster appears.
00:40:58 And I'm just terrified.
00:41:01 I just piss my pants right there.
00:41:04 Then I notice this other set of eyes...
00:41:06 ...like a little dog.
00:41:10 A puppy.
00:41:18 Suddenly my hands are just freed from the gun.
00:41:25 So the puppy leads me off the path and...
00:41:28 ...out to this...
00:41:30 ...big field.
00:41:34 The puppy comes up to me,
00:41:38 ...with smoke coming out of it...
00:41:40 Light blue.
00:41:44 And we eat it.
00:41:46 And I feel this...
00:41:49 Relief?
00:41:51 No. More like...
00:41:54 I don't know. Knowledge.
00:41:57 And I'm not so...
00:41:59 I don't feel like I need
00:42:04 I feel like I can just sit there.
00:42:07 The puppy.
00:42:09 The birds.
00:42:11 I can hear the breeze. The whole thing just...
00:42:15 It just feels...
00:42:17 ...more alive.
00:42:48 - What are you doing?
00:42:51 The guy's waiting with the car.
00:42:55 You want her to get a ticket?
00:42:58 You asshole.
00:43:01 Whenever you wanna do something...
00:43:02 Besides, we don't want to waste the water,
00:43:06 Don't. Please?
00:43:11 Miss!
00:43:13 Excuse me, miss.
00:43:14 I called Parks and Rec five months ago.
00:00:04 The previous owner
00:00:06 Railroad ties, gravel.
00:00:09 You never came.
00:00:13 - We never heard about 'em.
00:00:16 Covered in dog shit, but still there.
00:00:19 - What's the matter with your eyes?
00:00:22 - I got allergies.
00:00:26 - Don't you take anything?
00:00:29 You know the herbal tea?
00:00:33 - No.
00:00:34 I got some. It tastes like hell,
00:00:38 - When it doesn't, I take a prescription.
00:00:42 - What do you think?
00:00:47 It's a good way to be. Don't make fun of him.
00:00:49 I'm not making fun of him.
00:00:53 - You know about the new watering law?
00:00:56 I let my lawn die,
00:01:02 Jesus. You sound like shit. Do you want a pill?
00:01:04 - No, thanks.
00:01:07 - He's trying to cleanse.
00:01:09 - I'm not...
00:01:13 - You eating cheese?
00:01:16 He had pizza for lunch yesterday.
00:01:21 - I'm trying to cut down.
00:01:27 Come in. I'll give you some of that tea.
00:01:29 It's herbal. Herbal's good for you.
00:01:34 Come on. The car guy's waiting.
00:01:37 - Are you on lunch break?
00:01:39 So am I. I'll give you some food.
00:01:43 I've just gotta feed these puppies.
00:01:46 Two minutes! There goes the break.
00:01:47 Get some of this tea off of her anyway.
00:01:50 Come on, quick!
00:01:53 Get back!
00:01:54 I got 'em. Watch the puppy!
00:01:59 Look at that one. Watch it. Get it!
00:02:02 There's too many pharmaceutical labs
00:02:06 Come on!
00:02:17 Come on. Out.
00:02:19 Lunchtime.
00:02:24 Just make yourselves comfortable
00:02:29 They're beautiful, aren't they?
00:02:31 - What are they?
00:02:33 Black lab, though. Why, you want one?
00:02:37 - I don't know if it's...
00:02:47 - You got a dog?
00:02:50 Never?
00:02:51 - Not even when you were a kid?
00:02:54 Look how much
00:03:00 You wanna show me
00:03:03 ...and we can load them up?
00:03:05 Right back there behind the shed.
00:03:08 Take the ties and the gravel, I'll throw in a dog.
00:03:11 I don't think my wife
00:03:13 It's up to Paul there.
00:03:16 Never mind the bong. Look out for the dog shit.
00:03:24 She likes you.
00:03:29 You got a girlfriend?
00:03:31 No.
00:03:32 - A roommate?
00:03:35 - Yard?
00:03:38 You should take her.
00:03:40 You never get lonely.
00:03:41 I come home from work, I'm so glad they're here.
00:03:44 It's like a marriage.
00:03:46 A group marriage.
00:03:49 They're our equals, you know, animals.
00:03:51 Some ways, our superiors.
00:03:54 They don't care who you are.
00:03:56 You're sincere with them, they love you.
00:03:58 No head trips.
00:04:03 I don't think that humankind
00:04:07 A lot of problems would be solved
00:04:11 I love animals.
00:04:13 - You eat meat?
00:04:15 That's good.
00:04:17 I mean, how could you love a...
00:04:20 ...sweet little thing like that and eat a steak?
00:04:22 You know?
00:04:27 You should take her.
00:04:35 If you don't want her,
00:04:41 - Okay.
00:04:43 Here. I'll give you my number.
00:04:57 - Thanks.
00:04:58 - Paul.
00:05:02 I work at the school.
00:05:04 Why did I say that?
00:05:05 Don't you hate it when people define you
00:05:08 - We were just talking about...
00:05:12 - There's...
00:05:15 I went to that bar, the Ancient Mariner.
00:05:17 They all look like escapees
00:05:21 Chinos, the whole uniform.
00:05:33 Look how much she loves you.
00:05:42 I don't have a car...
00:05:43 Murph and me, we were gonna go look at one.
00:05:47 - I'm sorry.
00:05:50 It's just that in this town...
00:05:53 ...there's not a lot to do without a car...
00:05:57 I have a car.
00:06:01 You can...
00:06:03 ...go other places and stuff...
00:06:04 - But me, I mostly...
00:06:08 Those ties, gravel,
00:06:11 Did you see the old barrels?
00:06:13 - Barrels?
00:06:15 Next to the shed, not behind it.
00:06:17 Next to the shed.
00:06:19 I'll go look.
00:06:27 So, you don't have a car.
00:06:36 - You want to go out sometime?
00:06:38 - I mean, it's...
00:06:41 Because in this town, there's not a lot...
00:06:43 I can drive. Just call me.
00:06:47 Okay.
00:06:50 When?
00:06:52 - When?
00:06:55 - You don't waste any time, do you?
00:07:03 There's only one barrel.
00:07:05 I know. It's back there.
00:07:08 We've got time to look at the car if...
00:07:10 I got some Kleenex if you guys want it.
00:07:14 And you're taking a pill.
00:07:22 - I'll take the pill.
00:07:24 I didn't wanna go
00:07:28 She got hungry...
00:07:29 We don't have to rush. Haste makes waste.
00:07:33 You gonna ask her out?
00:07:37 I already did.
00:08:25 One year McCain had these left over.
00:08:28 Every year they come up.
00:08:31 Lilies round the trash.
00:08:38 You know...
00:08:41 ...I been thinking about going
00:08:45 The thing in the woods? The brochure?
00:08:48 - It only costs $200.
00:08:54 That includes food...
00:08:57 ...lodging...
00:09:02 - Food...
00:09:06 I don't know. They got Porta-Potties.
00:09:09 Must be money for the organization, too.
00:09:11 They got speakers! They got a sweat lodge, too.
00:09:15 Sweat lodge?
00:09:17 A sweat lodge. It's like a sauna.
00:09:21 It's like an American Indian hut
00:09:27 It's like healing.
00:09:28 You need healing from the wound
00:09:32 It's just a place for men...
00:09:35 ...to go and relate to other men
00:09:39 Feel good.
00:09:46 You don't have to spend $200
00:09:48 - I know.
00:09:50 You know what? Maybe it's not about the money.
00:09:53 Like you say.
00:10:00 You watch late-night TV?
00:10:02 You know those guys...
00:10:05 They're speakers and they're selling their tapes,
00:10:09 What do you call that?
00:10:10 - Infomercials.
00:10:13 If they really got the secret to inner peace,
00:10:35 Why do you have to pee back there?
00:10:37 Too much soda.
00:10:40 That makes sense if you think about it.
00:10:44 What are you doing?
00:10:46 Us?
00:10:47 We're playing tennis. What's it look like?
00:10:52 - Right?
00:10:53 Yeah, we are, too.
00:10:57 Can I try?
00:11:00 I don't know. What do you think?
00:11:03 - He looks like a tennis player to me.
00:11:07 All right.
00:11:08 This is what you do. You paint.
00:11:11 Here to here, there to there. Right there.
00:11:20 Watch it, now.
00:11:24 - What do you think?
00:11:29 What do you say?
00:11:31 - Thank you.
00:11:37 What do they find out
00:11:41 We're all supposed to be warriors?
00:11:43 Yeah.
00:11:45 Just there aren't any more wars to test us.
00:11:48 Plenty of wars.
00:11:50 It's also a place for men to relate to other men.
00:11:54 A place where it's safe for you
00:11:57 Maybe figure out why you feel empty at your job.
00:12:00 Why your life has no meaning. All that stuff.
00:12:03 The speakers there...
00:12:06 ...they give you the meaning?
00:12:07 I don't know. That's why I wanna go.
00:12:09 There must be something behind it.
00:12:13 Sure there's something.
00:12:17 I read this really good book last week.
00:12:19 - This one's good!
00:12:21 This is a good one.
00:12:24 In the Middle Ages,
00:12:28 Then, in a later century...
00:12:31 ...all the biggest buildings are political palaces.
00:12:34 Today, what are the biggest buildings?
00:12:42 I mean, you know...
00:12:44 That shows how things have changed...
00:12:48 ...over time.
00:12:50 There's no room in society anymore
00:12:53 It's all business now.
00:13:05 Maybe that's why men feel empty at their jobs.
00:13:10 I don't feel empty at my job.
00:13:12 I like my job.
00:13:14 I also like eating meatloaf, but what the heck?
00:13:16 Okay. How come you go to church?
00:13:18 I go to church to...
00:13:21 ...see my neighbors, think about my life.
00:13:24 Wish people well. Help out.
00:13:27 It's not all theology.
00:13:30 - What's the point of that?
00:13:34 That's just to hook you in.
00:13:36 But you know what?
00:13:39 People wanna do good. They wanna be good.
00:13:42 The people that run these religions,
00:13:45 They tell you, "This is what you do to be good."
00:13:48 That makes you feel better.
00:13:52 But it's mostly things
00:13:57 How come they don't?
00:13:58 Most do.
00:14:01 Look at these lilies.
00:14:04 I hope they come up next year.
00:14:10 There's nothing that will make you feel emptier...
00:14:14 ...in your life...
00:14:15 ...than to spend all your time
00:14:18 But nobody who wants your $200
00:14:21 What about war?
00:14:24 That's money, too, isn't it?
00:14:26 They might say it's about something else
00:14:30 So you don't think man is naturally violent?
00:14:34 "Man"?
00:14:36 Come on. Look around you.
00:14:43 Can my friend try?
00:14:45 You want your friend to try?
00:14:47 Get him to show you how.
00:14:49 You gotta paint the back.
00:14:56 There you go.
00:14:59 Go ahead.
00:15:03 - What's your name?
00:15:07 - Okay. What's her name?
00:15:10 You step on those lilies,
00:15:15 He means that.
00:15:17 You know what my general rule is?
00:15:21 Look at Earth from the moon,
00:15:25 It's all about money.
00:15:29 What do you guys think?
00:15:31 - Pretty good.
00:15:33 Okay. You owe me $150.
00:15:39 Bobby, come here.
00:15:43 Go over there...
00:15:45 ...and get us four sodas.
00:15:47 What do you say?
00:15:49 "Please." Help him out there, would you?
00:15:52 Make him hurry.
00:15:56 It's so hot.
00:15:58 In my little sweat lodge.
00:16:59 This time of the school year,
00:17:03 - I had it once.
00:17:04 I don't know. It was kind of like sniffing glue.
00:17:07 Except with a really great taste and no crash.
00:17:14 In high school, they hired this guy, O'Rourke,
00:17:19 He was an older guy, in his 20s.
00:17:22 He was the kind of guy you related to.
00:17:25 I mean, girls would leave notes with him.
00:17:28 A book to give to somebody two periods later.
00:17:31 He was cool, smoked cigarettes,
00:17:35 Turns out the guy was a narc.
00:17:37 - Canary.
00:17:38 - Stool pigeon?
00:17:39 All of a sudden, kids started getting busted.
00:17:42 Vice-principal would find pot
00:17:45 Cops would bust up parties
00:17:49 No one could figure it out.
00:17:50 Then one day,
00:17:53 ...tells O'Rourke she's going home for study hall,
00:17:57 Twenty minutes later, vice-principal shows up,
00:18:01 How old is she?
00:18:03 I don't know. 16 or something.
00:18:05 Anyway, they take the girl to the office
00:18:09 The boyfriend...
00:18:11 ...sees O'Rourke in the vice-principal's office...
00:18:14 ...and he's going:
00:18:15 "I know it wasn't drugs,
00:18:20 That's how we knew.
00:18:21 That was his proof O'Rourke knocked.
00:18:24 He follows him out into the smoking lounge.
00:18:26 And he confronts him.
00:18:28 O'Rourke knows he's caught,
00:18:32 - Boyfriend, he's a student?
00:18:36 So then these gearheads,
00:18:39 ...come over to stick up for him.
00:18:41 The boyfriend says, "Wait! This guy's a narc."
00:18:43 The gearheads are like, "No way!"
00:18:45 A couple of them believe him.
00:18:48 He's got this hot '73 Duster.
00:18:51 Finally, O'Rourke admits it.
00:18:54 And he says:
00:18:56 "I understand kids. Right? You know?
00:19:00 "I just narc on them for their own good."
00:19:04 Like learning your best friend was a Nazi.
00:19:07 Deceived.
00:19:08 But it was like someone who...
00:19:11 - Betrayed.
00:19:13 There you are in high school.
00:19:15 You're young, of course you wanna...
00:19:18 ...hang out with girls, talk.
00:19:20 Smoke a little weed. It's harmless, though.
00:19:23 We were still learning.
00:19:27 What does something like that teach you?
00:19:30 "Don't trust someone you think is one of you.
00:19:34 "Return to doing everything secretly."
00:19:40 So what happened to O'Rourke?
00:19:46 The gearheads beat the shit out of him.
00:19:49 I guess he learned something, too.
00:20:01 It's always a surprise when you're betrayed.
00:20:06 Like when Don Regan comes and tells me...
00:20:08 - You mean Regan from next door?
00:20:10 My neighbor.
00:20:12 He comes and tells me, in my house...
00:20:15 ...my son Bobby can't be scoutmaster
00:20:22 My neighbor.
00:20:24 Seen the kid grow up for 20 years.
00:20:27 He says, "I represent the Boy Scouts
00:20:31 I say, "Regan...
00:20:34 "...we're talking about Bobby."
00:20:39 He looks at me with tears in his eyes.
00:20:42 Tears in his eyes! And he says:
00:20:46 "I'm sorry, Murph.
00:20:47 "I'm just not comfortable
00:20:51 "Them."
00:20:59 He wouldn't cross the line.
00:21:01 He had to, for the boys' own sake.
00:21:05 Didn't want to. He had to.
00:21:10 My God.
00:21:12 I carried his daughter to the doctor,
00:21:15 ...when she tipped the barbecue over on her.
00:21:21 I'm running five streets...
00:21:23 ...her in my arms, screaming.
00:21:29 Bobby cut his lawn for six years.
00:22:09 I don't know.
00:22:15 I can't offer you applejack, so...
00:22:26 - You got a light?
00:22:37 I know. I'm supposed to hold it in, right?
00:22:46 Jesus.
00:22:47 Nice one, Murph.
00:22:59 You sort of just go with the flow there,
00:23:09 In 15 minutes you're gonna be craving
00:23:12 You know what the doctor told me?
00:23:15 Go easy on fat. Cut down on coffee.
00:23:18 Now they tell me. I'd rather skip
00:23:21 What have you got
00:23:25 - There's always sex.
00:23:28 God, me too.
00:23:31 You ever think about what it must be like to be...
00:23:35 ...sixty...
00:23:38 You know...
00:23:39 Eighty years old.
00:23:41 Knowing the last time...
00:23:45 That the last time that you...
00:23:50 Fucked?
00:23:55 Knowing the last time you fucked,
00:24:00 You are never gonna do it again.
00:24:06 - I wonder if you relish it.
00:24:09 I mean, what a...
00:24:12 - Drag?
00:24:14 ...drag it would be! I mean, relish it.
00:24:21 I just hope I die a little younger,
00:24:25 I don't want to see my friends die.
00:24:39 - Suppose your wife goes first.
00:24:42 I don't see a point thinking about it.
00:24:43 - I can't control what will or won't happen.
00:24:48 This book says if your partner dies first...
00:24:50 Wait. "Partner"?
00:24:52 Partner. Husband. Wife.
00:24:57 Partner.
00:25:00 - So, if your partner dies first...
00:25:06 No.
00:25:09 Agreement would do. A simple handshake.
00:25:13 Okay.
00:25:16 So...
00:25:18 - Lf your partner dies...
00:25:23 Jesus.
00:25:24 In a few minutes, you'll have the worst...
00:25:26 ...coffee jones of your entire life.
00:25:30 I got a hankerin' right now.
00:25:33 - Hankerin'?
00:25:36 Let's stop off at Bagelrama.
00:25:38 On the way on 35.
00:25:53 So, if your...
00:26:01 What?
00:26:06 So, they say...
00:26:11 I forget what I was saying.
00:26:13 Partner!
00:26:16 They say that if your partner dies first...
00:26:19 ...sometimes the ethereal body
00:26:23 ...because the partner still has issues...
00:26:27 ...with the survivor to take care of
00:26:31 To let go of that fear.
00:26:33 Fear of dying.
00:26:35 Like a ghost?
00:26:38 Sort of.
00:26:41 Except more like her energy field.
00:26:44 Her spirit.
00:26:46 Then you can continue
00:26:50 ...all your time together...
00:26:53 ...in sync...
00:26:56 ...as...
00:26:58 ...temporal beings.
00:27:01 Temporal beings?
00:27:02 In the body,
00:27:05 You know so much about her energy
00:27:08 The relationship keeps going on.
00:27:16 That's memory.
00:27:21 Right.
00:27:25 How long have you been married?
00:27:28 Forty-five years.
00:27:33 You...
00:27:36 ...never fucked around?
00:27:39 No.
00:27:44 Well, twice.
00:27:47 That's fucking around. Once would be.
00:27:49 It was during the war. We all did it.
00:27:53 You were going crazy!
00:27:55 You get married,
00:27:57 Go into service,
00:28:02 We were going nuts.
00:28:05 They were nice girls, though.
00:28:07 A porn star, I could screw.
00:28:09 I don't know about a whore.
00:28:10 You're obviously a man of discerning tastes.
00:28:17 One time...
00:28:19 ...when my brother died in Ohio.
00:28:23 My wife is sick.
00:28:29 I felt weak.
00:28:31 I don't know,
00:28:36 My kid brother.
00:28:38 Anyway, I'm driving around
00:28:42 ...section there. Dayton.
00:28:45 I don't know what I'm doing.
00:28:48 I knew what I was doing.
00:28:54 I mean...
00:28:56 I never told this to anybody.
00:29:00 So I'm driving. It's a warehouse district.
00:29:06 She asks me if I want a date.
00:29:07 They say that so if you're a cop,
00:29:11 ...then they can say:
00:29:13 "All I wanted was a date.
00:29:16 Right.
00:29:17 I don't know what to do.
00:29:21 I look at her. I look at the steering wheel.
00:29:26 What do I say to her? "My brother's dead"?
00:29:29 What's that mean to her?
00:29:31 She says to me:
00:29:32 "I could blow you right here for $15."
00:29:35 "Or we get a room, you do me any way you want.
00:29:43 What'd you do?
00:29:45 For a minute I'm thinking, "Do it."
00:29:48 Only...
00:29:51 ...I don't know this woman.
00:29:53 Nothing meaningful's gonna happen.
00:29:57 When you're young, sex is like...
00:30:00 You see it and just...
00:30:04 But a few years go by and...
00:30:07 ...there's gotta be something more...
00:30:09 ...that's bigger than sex.
00:30:12 Like jokes.
00:30:14 Laugh together.
00:30:16 There's gotta be something out there that's...
00:30:20 ...more important than just a physical thing.
00:30:26 Gotta be connected.
00:30:28 Murph.
00:30:31 You're stoned.
00:30:45 Sometimes, I can hear my brother
00:30:51 "You ought to be a poet."
00:30:56 How do you be a poet?
00:31:00 How do you be anything?
00:31:03 I feel like once you figure out
00:31:07 ...there's never time to...
00:31:09 Live?
00:31:11 Right.
00:31:14 He said something to me once
00:31:20 This Indian language he knew...
00:31:22 ...from this tribe up in New England...
00:31:26 ...where we grew up, near lthaca...
00:31:31 ...the word that they had for "poetry"...
00:31:36 ...was the same word they had for "breath."
00:31:41 So, breathing was like making a poem.
00:31:57 Maybe that's why they didn't have books.
00:32:01 What do you mean?
00:32:04 I mean...
00:32:06 ...breathing is the same as poetry...
00:32:11 ...and you're walking around and...
00:32:15 ...this is all you see.
00:32:20 You don't gotta write anything down.
00:32:24 You're living in a poem.
00:34:51 One time Bobby and I were in church together.
00:34:56 He was 13, 14.
00:35:01 He went to early mass with me
00:35:07 Boy, it was hotter than hell that day.
00:35:11 Shoulder to shoulder in the pews.
00:35:13 Bobby didn't like going to early mass.
00:35:16 Wanted to watch Abbott and Costello,
00:35:25 During the sermon...
00:35:31 Bobby lays his head down on my shoulder.
00:35:43 I let it sit there for about three seconds...
00:35:47 ...then I shoved my shoulder up, much to say:
00:35:50 "Okay. Sit up straight. Now."
00:35:57 Maybe he was tired. I don't know.
00:36:02 He wasn't tired. He was a kid.
00:36:08 He laid his head down on his dad's shoulder
00:36:19 In my head I told myself, "This is good for him."
00:36:22 "Too old to be putting his...
00:36:25 "...head on my shoulder."
00:36:30 But...
00:36:32 ...that wasn't it.
00:36:38 I was embarrassed.
00:36:40 Everybody can see us.
00:36:43 I was embarrassed,
00:36:50 That's the first thing I thought of...
00:36:53 ...when he told me and Elaine he was gay.
00:36:57 He had been for four years, and...
00:37:00 ...he'd hid it from us, afraid to tell us.
00:37:05 Four years of his life.
00:37:08 Don't know why it's the first thing I thought of.
00:37:23 Last time my father came around to...
00:37:27 ...pay my mother for my sister and me...
00:37:31 ...and he couldn't find work,
00:37:37 Then he...
00:37:40 ...comes out to me in the alley and...
00:37:45 ...he says:
00:37:48 "Time comes, you think about having kids...
00:37:51 "...all's I can say is, don't."
00:37:57 What a start.
00:38:02 Fucking drunk.
00:38:06 Fuckin' asshole loser drunk.
00:38:45 Last time Bobby was in the hospital, what...
00:38:48 ...two months ago...
00:38:53 ...l'm in there, and...
00:38:54 ...Elaine's going out to get some orange juice.
00:39:02 I'm holding his hand,
00:39:11 I was thinking, "What can I say? What can I do?"
00:39:17 I felt empty.
00:39:21 An empty room.
00:39:25 I'm sitting there holding his hand, and I...
00:39:31 That's all that's left, you know?
00:39:38 But it wasn't all that was left.
00:39:41 I had debated mentioning it to him for years.
00:39:45 I thought,
00:39:49 In that moment, I realized...
00:39:52 ...that I was afraid...
00:39:55 ...to mention it.
00:39:59 Embarrassed.
00:40:01 I looked in his eyes, and his pupils were like...
00:40:05 ...black olives.
00:40:09 I whispered to him:
00:40:12 "Bobby, you know I love you, honey.
00:40:17 "Something...
00:40:20 "...l've been needing to say.
00:40:24 "I wanted to for years."
00:40:30 It was everything I could do to get out the word...
00:40:34 ..."apologize."
00:40:38 And he said, "It's so okay, Dad."
00:40:44 For years, I avoided mentioning it, and he says:
00:40:50 "It's so okay, Dad."
00:40:58 Regan, how's the ticker?
00:41:02 Fine.
00:41:04 I've been on my feet about five months now.
00:41:11 I had a bypass.
00:41:15 I live down the street from the Murphys.
00:41:23 Danny and Bobby went to the country club
00:41:28 I didn't know that.
00:41:30 They hated it.
00:41:31 Sweating.
00:41:34 Something like $1 an hour.
00:41:37 Third day of work,
00:41:41 Could I come pick Bobby and Danny up?
00:41:45 They were fired.
00:41:49 So I get there and...
00:41:52 ...Mrs...
00:41:55 What's it?
00:41:57 Fat one, runs the Colonial Realty.
00:41:59 Dolores Edmondson.
00:42:02 She's there.
00:42:06 In a swimming suit,
00:42:11 That sailor hat.
00:42:15 She caught Bobby and Danny...
00:42:19 ...going into the women's dressing room...
00:42:21 ...looking up under the...
00:42:23 ...floorboards at the naked women,
00:42:29 She sees these two little sets of eyes
00:42:33 ...she starts screaming.
00:42:35 I never knew this.
00:42:40 So I'm driving them home. They're terrified.
00:42:45 In the back, neither one of them's saying a word.
00:42:49 Finally, Danny says under his breath:
00:42:54 "What a gyp!"
00:42:57 And Bobby goes, "Yeah.
00:43:00 "Three whole day's work,
00:43:09 Maybe that's what turned Bobby off it.
00:43:17 Do you think?
00:43:23 Maybe it is. Oh, God!
00:43:29 I'm sorry about that thing with the Cub Scouts.
00:43:34 Bobby would have been a great scout leader.
00:43:40 I should have stood up to them, said:
00:43:42 "Look, this is Bobby Murphy, for God's sake."
00:43:46 I'm so sorry, Murph.
00:43:49 Thanks for coming, Regan.
00:43:52 It's not up to me, you know?
00:43:54 It's okay.
00:43:59 We gotta let these things go.
00:44:17 Snow tomorrow.
00:44:19 Maybe.
00:44:41 No regrets.
00:44:55 Don't worry about anything.
00:45:02 That kid's putting dirty spark plugs
00:45:20 You might wanna...
00:45:23 ...sandpaper those plugs
00:45:26 Save you time.
00:47:15 The snow comes and it comes.
00:47:21 You know they got acid snow now, like acid rain?
00:47:25 - I told you that.
00:47:29 You know the rot at the bottom of the wise men,
00:47:32 I think that's acid snow.
00:47:36 Either that or the wise men got athlete's foot.
00:47:44 We could've gotten to it today if it hadn't snowed.
00:47:47 You take that fiberglass tape
00:47:53 - But you leave a hole in the bottom.
00:47:56 - Not an exact bottom.
00:47:58 Three inches from the bottom,
00:48:05 What am I worrying about?
00:48:06 Next year, they'll probably buy new ones.
00:48:11 You know, they got 'em at Wal-Mart now.
00:48:15 - But they're smaller.
00:48:18 There's something about the eyes.
00:48:21 - Crossed or something.
00:48:27 - But do it anyway, tomorrow.
00:48:30 Because next year, I mean...
00:48:33 ...you never know.
00:48:35 I will. I'll do it.
00:48:39 Wal-Mart.
00:48:42 Good thing, bad thing?
00:48:50 So...
00:48:56 You all right?
00:48:59 Yeah.
00:49:05 Just thoughts.
00:49:07 Last day sort of thoughts?
00:49:10 Yeah.
00:49:17 It's time. What's a job?
00:49:27 You know...
00:49:28 ...for years, you think...
00:49:31 ...when I retire, finally I'll...
00:49:34 Thoughts.
00:49:36 A lot of time.
00:49:50 What?
00:49:52 What do you mean?
00:49:55 - What is it?
00:49:58 - You okay?
00:50:01 Okay.
00:50:04 Do I look okay?
00:50:06 - Yeah. What are you talking about?
00:50:10 You haven't noticed me repeating things, or...
00:50:14 ...not being able to remember, forget...
00:50:17 - Talking.
00:50:22 I just don't want to go off the deep end, that's all.
00:50:29 - What do you mean, "go off the deep end"?
00:50:35 Or croak.
00:50:37 Who's gonna take care of Elaine?
00:50:41 For years, you work towards this thing
00:50:47 After a while, you begin to wonder.
00:50:49 Is it certain,
00:50:52 Is it like...
00:50:55 ...a mirage?
00:50:59 Like the only thing you can know for sure
00:51:03 ...what you already did.
00:51:04 But that's already behind you.
00:51:08 I don't know.
00:51:12 Besides, you're not gonna croak.
00:51:15 You're a young guy.
00:51:24 What am I gonna do with my life?
00:51:27 You already done it!
00:51:31 You still got your future to think about.
00:51:37 - Future is an open book?
00:51:43 It may be an open book.
00:51:47 That's not true.
00:51:50 - I don't know.
00:51:54 I mean, it's not like it's one open book.
00:51:57 A better way to think about it is,
00:52:01 That way it doesn't matter how old you are,
00:52:06 You don't know when it's gonna end. Nobody...
00:52:09 - Because that's when you die?
00:52:11 Who knows when that is, right?
00:52:16 You could die tomorrow,
00:52:19 "Shit, I've got all these pages left."
00:52:26 You're right.
00:52:30 I was winging it, but...
00:52:32 ...it sounded good to me, especially the last part.
00:52:35 - My life, you're winging it?
00:52:40 You get it all from them books, don't you?
00:52:45 - Finding My Father.
00:52:49 - How'd you get so smart all of a sudden?
00:52:52 - You're just a kid.
00:53:02 Time goes by, it seems like a little time.
00:53:07 You turn around, it was a big time.
00:53:13 Just like the movies.
00:53:16 What?
00:53:17 I was just thinking.
00:53:19 Everything goes by so much faster in the movies.
00:53:22 - Shit.
00:53:27 - Get in the car!
00:53:30 - Oh, my God.
00:53:33 - Get in the car!
00:53:36 - What's wrong with your mom?
00:53:38 The car smells, and she screamed,
00:53:41 Ma'am!
00:53:45 - Did you have an accident?
00:53:47 Mommy. Men are here.
00:53:49 Get in the car!
00:53:52 - What's your name?
00:53:55 Is your mother hurt, Hope?
00:53:58 I don't think so.
00:54:00 Let's get you in the car.
00:54:01 - You gotta keep warm.
00:54:05 We have to keep you warm.
00:54:07 Oh, my God, please!
00:54:10 Ma'am?
00:54:11 Go away. You don't know me.
00:54:14 - I deserve to die!
00:54:18 Yes, I do. My beautiful leather coat.
00:54:24 It looks fine to me.
00:54:26 It isn't!
00:54:28 It's burned, look!
00:54:30 Look at it!
00:54:38 That's nothing. A little patch, you can cover...
00:54:40 - Nothing?
00:54:43 This is God's punishment for smoking.
00:54:45 My husband bought me this coat,
00:54:48 My whole life, I wanted a leather coat. Look at it!
00:54:54 - I think your husband will understand.
00:54:58 This is all so fucked. You don't get it?
00:55:02 - Give me the light.
00:55:06 No, darling.
00:55:09 Mom's gonna be all right.
00:55:11 It's okay. Talk to me. Come on.
00:55:30 Wait!
00:55:37 Shit!
00:55:38 Get off me!
00:55:42 Let me die!
00:55:51 - Let me go.
00:55:53 - Let me die.
00:55:56 - God's punishing me.
00:56:02 - Yes, he is.
00:56:09 Wait!
00:56:11 Don't go up the hill!
00:56:15 What about Hope?
00:56:18 Hope, my angel.
00:56:23 - My angel.
00:56:25 She's your angel. God sent her. You know that!
00:56:30 Why would God send me a child
00:56:34 - He looks right through me.
00:56:38 She'd do anything for you.
00:56:40 What's a jacket?
00:56:42 You can't abandon her over a jacket.
00:56:45 Her blaming herself her whole life,
00:56:54 Stay there, okay?
00:57:12 Shit.
00:57:27 My husband hits me.
00:57:31 Why does God let him do it?
00:57:35 That's a sign. Like the angel. Maybe it's...
00:57:38 It's a sign it's time to leave him.
00:57:41 You know?
00:57:43 He doesn't deserve you. God knows that.
00:57:46 Leave your husband.
00:57:48 Not Hope.
00:57:49 Not your angel.
00:57:56 How do you know all this?
00:58:04 You Catholic?
00:58:07 No.
00:58:11 Where are you getting all this from?
00:58:14 I don't know.
00:58:22 Are you cold?
00:58:26 So cold.
00:58:29 I know. Here, take my coat.
00:58:37 People...
00:58:41 They look at you like you're some piece of shit.
00:58:46 I know.
00:58:49 Like you don't matter.
00:58:52 I know.
00:58:54 Like you don't belong here.
00:58:57 I know.
00:59:01 Like you're nothing.
00:59:05 You're not nothing.
00:59:39 I got cake.
00:59:41 Here's Murph. I'll see you guys later.
01:00:13 - Nothing like going out with a bang, huh?
01:00:19 What was the problem?
01:00:23 Her husband's a fucking jerk.
01:00:25 A fucking jerk?
01:00:31 Goodbye, fair workplace.
01:00:43 Don't, okay?
01:00:48 I gotta.
01:00:52 Okay, then.
01:00:57 - You're a great guy.
01:01:03 You mean a lot to me, you know.
01:01:06 Fuck you.
01:01:13 You know what I mean.
01:01:16 I know.
01:01:21 I got you something.
01:01:23 Sort of a retirement thing.
01:01:33 What is it?
01:01:36 I got it in one of those...
01:01:40 ...little bead shops.
01:01:42 They have these little...
01:01:44 ...pot signs and crystals and peace signs.
01:01:48 - It's a hand?
01:01:50 It's called the "Hand of Fatima."
01:01:54 What's it stand for?
01:01:58 - I don't know.
01:02:00 I just liked the way it looked,
01:02:04 ...shaking hands.
01:02:08 Kind of...
01:02:10 You gave me a helping hand.
01:02:50 Thanks.
01:02:53 No.
01:02:54 Thank you.
01:03:00 - Okay.
01:03:12 Surprise!
01:03:17 - Oh, come on.