Waking Life
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Um, pick a color. |
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Blue. |
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B- L-U-E. |
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- Eight. - 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8. |
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- Fifteen. |
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5, 6, 7, 8, |
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13, 14, 15. |
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- Six. |
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"Dream is destiny. " |
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Rock out. |
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Rock and roll. |
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Go, strings. Begin. |
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Sara, will you try that, |
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- Yeah. |
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- Okay. - Vibrato. Just try it |
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But what I want... |
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I mean, I want it to sound rich |
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due to being |
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- Do you want it, um... |
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That's what I was wondering. |
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Yeah, yeah, you got it. |
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Snazzy. |
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Okay, pick up to 20, please. |
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- Erik, this is a pickup to 20. |
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1, 2, 3. |
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Hey, man, it's me. |
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I thought maybe I could bum a ride |
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I could probably just take a cab, |
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Yeah, I guess I'll hang out |
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Ahoy there, matey! |
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You need a little hitch in your |
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Oh, um, yeah, actually, I was waiting for |
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All right. |
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- Hey, thanks. |
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Anchors aweigh! |
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So what do you think |
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She's what we call "see-worthy. " |
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I feel like my transport should be |
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Voila. And this? This is like |
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and every minute, |
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Now, I may not understand it. I may |
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But I'll tell you what, I accept it |
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You want to keep things on an even keel |
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You want to go with the flow. |
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The idea is to remain in a state of |
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Saves on introductions |
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The ride does not require |
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Just occupants. |
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It's like you come onto this planet |
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Now, you may get the 8-pack, |
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But it's all in what |
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the colors |
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Don't worry about drawing within |
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I say color outside the lines. |
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Don't box me in. |
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We are not landlocked, |
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So where do you want out? |
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Uh, who, me? |
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Um, I don't know. |
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Well, just... just give me an address |
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Tell you what, |
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take a right, |
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drop this guy off |
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- Where's that? |
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and it's gonna determine the course |
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All ashore |
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Toot toot! |
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The reason why I refuse |
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as just another French fashion |
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is that I think it has something very |
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I'm afraid we're losing the real |
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the sense of taking responsibility |
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the ability to make something of |
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Existentialism is often discussed |
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But I think the truth |
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Sartre once interviewed said he never |
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But one thing that comes out |
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is not a sense of anguish |
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a real kind of exuberance |
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It's like your life |
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I've read the post modernists |
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But when I read them, I always have |
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that something absolutely essential |
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The more that you talk about a person |
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or as a confluence |
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or as fragmented |
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what you do is you open up |
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And when Sartre |
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he's not talking about |
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He's not talking about the kind of self |
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It's something very concrete. |
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Making decisions. Doing things |
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It might be true that there are six |
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Nevertheless, |
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It makes a difference, |
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Makes a difference to other people |
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In short, I think |
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that we should never simply |
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and see ourselves as the victim |
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It's always our decision |
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Creation seems |
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It seems to come out of |
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And this is where I think |
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I mean, it came from our desire |
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and have some sort of |
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And it had to be easy |
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Like, you know, "water. " |
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Or, " Saber-toothed tiger right behind |
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But when it gets |
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is when we use that same system |
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all the abstract and intangible things |
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What is, like, frustration? |
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When I say "love," |
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the sound comes |
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and it hits |
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travels through this |
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you know, through their memories |
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and they register what I'm saying |
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But how do I know they understand? |
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They're just symbols. |
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And so much of our experience |
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So much of what we perceive cannot |
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And yet, you know, |
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and we... |
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we feel that we |
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and we think that |
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I think we have a feeling |
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And that feeling might be transient, |
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If we're looking at the highlights |
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you have to look at |
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and then at the development of its |
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Evolution of the organism will begin |
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perceived through |
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coming to the evolution |
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Neanderthal, Cro-Magnon man. |
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Now, interestingly, what you're looking |
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biological, |
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development of the cities, |
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and cultural, which is |
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Now, what you've seen here |
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not so much the evolution |
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And in addition, if you look at |
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two billion years for life, |
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six million years |
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100,000 years for |
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you're beginning to see the telescoping |
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And then when you |
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when you get to scientific revolution |
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you're looking at 10,000 years, |
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You're seeing a further telescoping |
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What that means is that as we |
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it's gonna telescope to the point we |
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within our lifetime, |
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The new evolution |
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and it stems from two types of |
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The digital is |
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The analog results from molecular |
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And you knit the two together |
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Before on the old |
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one would die and the other |
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But under the new paradigm, |
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as a mutually supportive, |
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Okay, independent |
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And what is interesting here is that evolution |
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emanating from the needs |
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and not an external process, |
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where the individual is just |
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So, you produce a neo-human with a new |
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But that's only the beginning |
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because as |
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the input is now |
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As intelligence |
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as ability piles on ability, |
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Until what? |
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could be imagined as an enormous |
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human and neo-human |
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It could be something |
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It could be the amplification |
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the multiplication |
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Parallel existences now with the individual |
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And the manifestations |
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manifestations could be |
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That's the interesting part. |
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It's sterile. |
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And its manifestations are |
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You're talking about parasitism, |
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Uh, war, predation, these would |
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These would be |
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The new evolutionary paradigm will give |
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of justice, of freedom. |
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These will be the manifestations |
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That is what we would hope to see |
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A self-destructive man feels completely |
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He's an outsider |
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He thinks to himself, |
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What he fails to realize is that |
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a vested interest in considerable |
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These wars, famines, floods |
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Man wants chaos. |
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In fact, he's gotta have it. |
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Depression, strife, riots, |
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We're irresistibly drawn |
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created out of death |
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It's in all of us. |
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Sure, the media tries to put |
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painting them up |
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But we all know the function |
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to eliminate the evils |
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Their job is to persuade us to accept those |
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The powers that be want us |
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Hey, you got a match? |
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And they haven't given us |
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outside the occasional, |
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participatory act |
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You want the puppet on the right |
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I feel that the time has come |
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inadequacies |
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into the sociopolitical |
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let my own lack of a voice |
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I keep thinking about |
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- Something I said? |
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About how you often feel like |
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from the perspective of an old woman |
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- You remember that? |
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Like I'm looking back |
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Like my waking life |
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Exactly. |
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I heard that Tim Leary |
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that he was looking forward |
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when his body was dead, |
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They say that there's still 6 to 12 minutes of |
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And a second of dream |
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well, that's infinitely longer |
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- You know what I'm saying? |
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For example, I wake up |
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and then I go back to sleep |
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beautiful dreams |
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and then I wake up |
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Exactly. So then 6 to 12 minutes |
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I mean, that could be |
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I mean, you are that woman |
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Okay, so what if I am? |
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Whatever I am |
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I mean, yeah, |
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I'm still just as real |
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Yeah. |
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- I've been thinking also about |
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Just about reincarnation and where all |
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Everybody always say |
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of Cleopatra |
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I always want to tell them they were |
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I mean, it's impossible. |
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The world population has doubled |
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- So if you really believe in that ego |
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then you only have a 50% chance |
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And for it to be over 150 years old, |
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So what are you saying then? |
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or that we're all young souls like where |
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No, no. What I'm trying to say |
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reincarnation is just a... |
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a poetic expression of what |
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There was this article by this |
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and he was talking about how when |
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it has a billion years |
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And this is where |
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I like that. |
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this whole telepathic thing going on |
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whether we're |
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That would explain why |
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seemingly spontaneous, worldwide, |
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You know, like the same results poppin' |
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Some guy on a computer, |
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and then almost simultaneously, a bunch |
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- figure out the same thing. |
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They did this study. They isolated |
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and they monitored their abilities |
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in relation to |
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And then they secretly gave them |
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one that had already been answered |
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Their scores went up dramatically, |
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So it's like once the answers |
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you know, people can |
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It's like we're all telepathically |
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I'll get you motherfuckers |
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Oh, you're gonna pay |
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For every second |
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I'll see you spend |
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Oh, you fucks are gonna |
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No, no, not yet. |
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I want you cocksuckers |
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Oh, I'll fix your |
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Maybe a long needle |
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A hot cigar in your eye. |
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Nothin' fancy. |
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Some molten lead up the ass. |
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Ooh! |
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Or better still, |
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some of that old |
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Cut your eyelids off. |
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I'll just listen |
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Oh, what sweet music |
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Yeah. We'll do it |
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With doctors and nurses so you pricks |
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You know the best part? |
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The best part is you dick-smokin' |
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so you'll have to watch me |
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You'll see me bring that |
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to your wide-open eyeball... |
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till you're almost |
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But not quite... |
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'cause I want it to last |
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I want you to know |
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that I'm the one |
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Me! |
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And that |
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What unmitigated |
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That old drunken fart |
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What a pompous ass! |
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Judge not lest ye be judged! |
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All of you pukes are gonna die the day |
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I guarantee you'll regret |
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In a way, in our |
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It's easy to think that science |
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But some philosophical problems |
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Take the problem |
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This problem's been around |
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since before Aristotle |
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St. Augustine, |
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these guys all worried |
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if God already knows in advance |
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Nowadays we know that the world operates |
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and these laws govern the behavior |
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Now, these laws, because |
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they enable incredible |
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But look at yourself. |
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We're just complex arrangements |
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We're mostly water, |
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and our behavior isn't gonna be |
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So it starts to look like whether it's |
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and knowing everything |
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or whether it's these basic |
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There's not a lot of room |
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So now you might be tempted |
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ignore the mystery |
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Say, " Oh, well, it's just an historical |
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It's a question with no answer. |
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But the question keeps staring you |
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You think about individuality, |
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Who you are is mostly a matter |
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Or take responsibility. |
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you can only be found guilty |
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for things you did |
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The question keeps coming back, and we |
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It starts to look like all your |
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Think about how it happens. There's |
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Your neurons fire. They send |
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It passes along down |
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They twitch. You might, say, |
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Looks like it's |
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but every one of those... |
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is actually governed by |
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chemical laws, |
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So now it just looks like the Big Bang |
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and the whole rest |
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the whole rest of human history |
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is really just sort of the playing out |
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according to these basic |
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We think we're special. We think we |
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but that now |
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I mean, that's really |
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So you might be saying, " Well, wait a |
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"I know enough contemporary physical |
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"It's really |
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There's room. It's loose. |
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And that's gonna enable us |
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But if you look at the details, |
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because what happens is you have |
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and their behavior is |
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They swerve. Their behavior is absurd |
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and we can't understand it |
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It just does something out of the blue, |
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But is that gonna help |
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Should our freedom just be |
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just some random swerving |
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That just seems like it's worse. |
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in a big deterministic, |
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than just some |
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So we can't just ignore |
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We have to find room in our |
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with all that that it entails; |
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And that means trying |
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finding room for choice |
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and trying to understand |
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You can't |
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Don't talk about politics |
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This is all the equivalent of enemy |
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"Lay down, G.I. |
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We saw it all through |
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And now in the 21 st Century, |
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that we should not allow ourselves |
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We should not submit |
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I don't know about you, but I'm concerned |
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I'm concerned |
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I'm concerned with |
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those that control my life and those |
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I want freedom! |
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And that's what |
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It's up to each and every one of us to |
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the hatred, the envy and, |
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because that is the central mode of |
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so we'll willingly give up our |
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We have got to realize that we're |
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Start challenging this |
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The 21 st Century is |
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not the century of slavery, not the century |
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and classism and statism and all |
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It's gonna be |
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standing up for something |
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What a bunch of garbage... liberal |
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It's all there to control you. |
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Two management teams |
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The C.E.O. job of |
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The truth is out there in front of you, |
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I'm sick of it, and I'm not gonna take |
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Resistance is not futile. |
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Humankind is too good! |
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We're gonna stand up |
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We're gonna get fired up about the |
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creativity and the dynamic human |
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Well, that's it! That's all I got |
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The quest is |
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which is really |
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And once having |
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the affirmation |
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It bursts into a chain of affirmations |
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To say yes to one instant... |
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is to say yes |
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The main character is |
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It's mastery, |
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Throughout history, |
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to contain those experiences which |
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where the mind |
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But I think we are in |
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Those moments, those what |
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limit, frontier, |
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are actually now |
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These multiplicities |
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that have given great |
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are actually through entering |
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tasting and feeling |
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One might make a breakthrough |
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that holds them together. |
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And so the main character is, |
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greater, greater mind. |
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A mind that yet is to be. |
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And when we are obviously |
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you can see |
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radical attunement to individuality, |
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opens itself |
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So the story is |
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The moment is not just a passing, |
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And this is in the way |
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Yes, it's empty |
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that the great moment, |
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is pulsating in it. |
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And each one, each object, |
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leaves a mark. |
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And that story is singular. |
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But, in fact, |
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Time just dissolves into quick-moving |
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Either I'm moving fast or time is. |
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It's such a strange paradox. |
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I'm closer to the end of my life |
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I actually feel more than ever |
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When I was younger, there was |
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like there was an end to the path, |
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I know what you mean |
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"Oh, someday, like in |
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everything's going to just |
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It was like there was this plateau, |
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and I was climbing up it, |
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all growth and change |
00:36:01 |
Even exhilaration. But that hasn't |
00:36:06 |
I think that what we don't take into account |
00:36:10 |
That's what's so great |
00:36:12 |
- You know that thing Benedict |
00:36:16 |
Well, he's talking about |
00:36:19 |
So you pick up this picture, this two |
00:36:24 |
Well, to connect this baby |
00:36:27 |
with yourself living and |
00:36:29 |
you have to make up a story like, |
00:36:33 |
"and later I had long hair, |
00:36:36 |
and now here I am. " |
00:36:39 |
So it takes a story |
00:36:42 |
to make you and the baby in the picture |
00:36:47 |
And the funny thing is, our cells are |
00:36:52 |
We've already become completely |
00:36:55 |
and yet we always remain |
00:36:58 |
Hmm. |
00:37:20 |
Our critique began |
00:37:22 |
with doubt. |
00:37:24 |
Doubt became our narrative. |
00:37:27 |
Ours was a quest |
00:37:30 |
And we grasp toward this new history |
00:37:33 |
that ordinary language |
00:37:37 |
Our past appeared frozen |
00:37:40 |
and our every gesture |
00:37:42 |
signified the negation of the old world |
00:37:46 |
The way we lived |
00:37:49 |
one of exuberance |
00:37:51 |
that of a subversive |
00:37:53 |
in the heart of a society |
00:37:56 |
Art was not the goal |
00:37:59 |
for locating |
00:38:01 |
and buried possibilities |
00:38:03 |
The discovery of a true communication |
00:38:06 |
or at least the quest |
00:38:09 |
The adventure of finding it |
00:38:12 |
We the unappeased, the unaccepting |
00:38:14 |
filling in the silences with our |
00:38:18 |
Driven forward by the fact that no |
00:38:22 |
no matter how degraded and used up |
00:38:26 |
we knew that anything |
00:38:28 |
And, given |
00:38:30 |
a new world was just |
00:38:49 |
There are two kinds |
00:38:52 |
those who suffer |
00:38:55 |
and those who suffer from |
00:38:58 |
I've always found myself |
00:39:01 |
When you come to think of it, |
00:39:04 |
almost all human |
00:39:07 |
is not essentially any |
00:39:11 |
The most advanced technologies |
00:39:14 |
bring us, at best, up to |
00:39:18 |
Actually, the gap between, |
00:39:21 |
say, Plato or Nietzsche |
00:39:24 |
is greater than the gap between |
00:39:29 |
The realm |
00:39:32 |
the true artist, the saint, |
00:39:35 |
is rarely achieved. |
00:39:37 |
Why so few? |
00:39:39 |
Why is world history and evolution |
00:39:45 |
but rather this endless and |
00:39:48 |
No greater values |
00:39:52 |
Hell, the Greeks 3,000 years ago |
00:39:56 |
So what are these barriers |
00:39:59 |
from reaching anywhere |
00:40:03 |
The answer to that can be found in |
00:40:08 |
Which is the most universal |
00:40:12 |
fear or laziness? |
00:40:26 |
What are you writing? |
00:40:32 |
A novel. |
00:40:35 |
What's the story? |
00:40:37 |
There's no story. |
00:40:39 |
It's just... |
00:40:41 |
people, gestures, |
00:40:45 |
bits of rapture, |
00:40:49 |
In short, |
00:40:51 |
the greatest stories |
00:40:57 |
Are you in the story? |
00:41:01 |
I don't think so. |
00:41:04 |
But then I'm kind of reading it |
00:41:13 |
It was in the middle of |
00:41:17 |
but on the way to Vegas, |
00:41:20 |
every once in a while |
00:41:23 |
It was the last gas stop |
00:41:26 |
Office had the chair, |
00:41:29 |
and that was all the room |
00:41:32 |
I was asleep, |
00:41:36 |
You know, |
00:41:40 |
So I got up, and I walked out, |
00:41:44 |
and I stood on the curb of |
00:41:48 |
you know, the driveway there. |
00:41:50 |
I'm rubbing the sand out of my eyes, |
00:41:53 |
and way down at the very end |
00:41:58 |
they had tire racks. |
00:42:00 |
Chains around them, you know. |
00:42:02 |
And I see there's |
00:42:06 |
And there's a guy |
00:42:09 |
and he's packing |
00:42:12 |
with all of these tires. |
00:42:16 |
He's got the last two tires |
00:42:21 |
pushes them into the thing, |
00:42:23 |
and then I, of course, |
00:42:27 |
This guy turns around, |
00:42:31 |
he's sweating, he's built |
00:42:35 |
pulls out a knife, |
00:42:38 |
and then starts running at me |
00:42:47 |
I'm still... |
00:42:51 |
"This is wrong. " |
00:42:56 |
stuck my hand behind the cash register |
00:43:01 |
pull it out, |
00:43:05 |
and just as I turned around, |
00:43:09 |
And I could see his eyes. |
00:43:13 |
And he just had bad thoughts |
00:43:19 |
And I fired a round, and it hit him. |
00:43:23 |
Bang. He went... as fast as he was |
00:43:28 |
Went right up between the two pumps, |
00:43:32 |
And he must've been on drugs, |
00:43:36 |
because he stood up... |
00:43:39 |
and he still had the knife, and |
00:43:44 |
and he stood up and he went like that, |
00:43:48 |
And I was pretty much in shock, |
00:43:50 |
so I just held the trigger back |
00:43:53 |
It's one of those old-time... |
00:43:58 |
And I blew him |
00:44:00 |
And ever since then, |
00:44:03 |
I always carry this. |
00:44:07 |
I hear that. |
00:44:09 |
A well-armed populace |
00:44:12 |
I'll drink to that. |
00:44:19 |
And you know, |
00:44:22 |
I haven't fired this in such a long |
00:44:24 |
Why don't you pull the trigger |
00:45:22 |
I'm not here. Leave a message. |
00:45:24 |
Hey, man. I guess you already |
00:45:27 |
But, uh, remind me to tell you |
00:45:32 |
'cause there's some |
00:45:35 |
All right, man. Uh, I guess |
00:45:47 |
Bareback riding. Copenhagen William... |
00:45:50 |
and his horse Same Deal. |
00:45:52 |
...for a hat band. |
00:45:56 |
I do not await the future, |
00:45:58 |
anticipating salvation, |
00:46:00 |
not even enlightenment |
00:46:02 |
I subscribe to the premise that this flawed |
00:46:08 |
in every single, |
00:46:12 |
The Blonde Bee, |
00:46:15 |
...lunatic macaroni munchkin |
00:46:22 |
...venerable tradition of sorcerers, |
00:46:27 |
who have developed and perfected |
00:46:30 |
the so-called |
00:46:34 |
where, by consciously |
00:46:36 |
you're able |
00:46:39 |
beyond your capacity to apprehend |
00:46:48 |
- Winning back-to-back... |
00:46:52 |
A single ego is an absurdly narrow vantage |
00:46:58 |
And where most consider their |
00:47:02 |
I contemplate |
00:47:04 |
of my various selves |
00:47:07 |
While most people |
00:47:10 |
are having trouble |
00:47:12 |
at age 92,Joy Cullison's |
00:47:15 |
#Now I'm free to see the world ## |
00:47:39 |
Hey, how's it going? |
00:47:44 |
They say that dreams are real |
00:47:47 |
Can't you say |
00:47:49 |
A lot of us out there are mapping |
00:00:04 |
Really, it's just about the two |
00:00:07 |
which don't really |
00:00:10 |
See, in the waking world, |
00:00:12 |
the neuro-system inhibits the activation |
00:00:15 |
This makes evolutionary sense. |
00:00:17 |
It'd be maladapted for the perceptual |
00:00:21 |
to be mistaken for the memory |
00:00:24 |
If the memory of a predator |
00:00:28 |
we'd be running off to the bathroom |
00:00:31 |
So you have |
00:00:33 |
that inhibit hallucinations... |
00:00:35 |
that they themselves |
00:00:39 |
This allows dreams |
00:00:41 |
while preventing competition |
00:00:45 |
This is why dreams |
00:00:49 |
To the functional system of neural |
00:00:54 |
there is no difference between dreaming |
00:00:59 |
and actually the waking |
00:01:18 |
I had a friend once |
00:01:20 |
that the worst mistake |
00:01:22 |
is to think |
00:01:28 |
when really you're asleep |
00:01:40 |
The trick is to combine... |
00:01:43 |
your waking |
00:01:46 |
with the infinite |
00:01:50 |
'Cause if you can do that, |
00:01:55 |
Did you ever have a job that |
00:01:58 |
A long, hard day of work. Finally you get |
00:02:04 |
And immediately |
00:02:06 |
that the whole day at work |
00:02:16 |
It's bad enough that you sell your |
00:02:21 |
but now they get |
00:02:27 |
Hey, man, |
00:02:29 |
I fancy myself the social lubricator |
00:02:33 |
helping people become lucid |
00:02:36 |
Cut out all that fear and anxiety |
00:02:40 |
By becoming lucid, you mean just knowing |
00:02:43 |
Yeah. And then |
00:02:45 |
They're more realistic and less |
00:02:49 |
You know, |
00:02:52 |
It wasn't like a typical dream. It seemed more |
00:02:55 |
Yeah, it's real. |
00:02:57 |
I mean, technically, |
00:03:01 |
but you can have |
00:03:04 |
And, of course, |
00:03:06 |
- Yeah. |
00:03:10 |
Oh. A lot of people. |
00:03:12 |
Some of it was kind of absurdist, |
00:03:16 |
Mostly, it was just people going off |
00:03:20 |
I woke up wondering, where did |
00:03:23 |
- You can control that. |
00:03:27 |
Hell, yeah. I'm always |
00:03:30 |
But the trick is, you got to realize |
00:03:33 |
You got to be able |
00:03:35 |
You got to be able to ask yourself, |
00:03:39 |
Most people never |
00:03:41 |
when they're awake or especially |
00:03:44 |
Seems like everyone's sleepwalking |
00:03:47 |
or wakewalking |
00:03:49 |
Either way they're not |
00:03:52 |
The thing that snapped me into realizing I |
00:03:56 |
I couldn't really read it. It was like the |
00:04:01 |
Yeah, that's real common. And small |
00:04:04 |
Very unstable. |
00:04:06 |
Another good tip-off |
00:04:09 |
You can't really do that. |
00:04:11 |
If you see a light switch nearby, |
00:04:15 |
That's one of the few things |
00:04:18 |
What the hell. |
00:04:20 |
have an interesting conversation |
00:04:23 |
I can explore all these |
00:04:26 |
not to mention I can have any kind |
00:04:31 |
So I can't adjust |
00:04:34 |
But that's one of the things you do to |
00:04:37 |
Yeah, like I said, you can totally |
00:04:40 |
I mean, just hit a light switch |
00:04:43 |
If the lights are on and you can't turn |
00:04:47 |
And then you can |
00:04:49 |
And believe me, |
00:04:51 |
- Hey, you know what I've been |
00:04:54 |
Oh, man, it's way ambitious, |
00:04:58 |
You're gonna dig this. |
00:05:02 |
I can see in all directions. |
00:05:04 |
Yeah. Wow. |
00:05:07 |
Well, I got to go, man. |
00:05:09 |
Okay, later, man. Super perfundo |
00:05:12 |
- What's that mean? |
00:05:16 |
Maybe you can. |
00:05:19 |
Louis. He's a recurring |
00:06:51 |
Cinema, in its essence, |
00:06:53 |
is about reproduction |
00:06:55 |
which is that, like, |
00:06:59 |
And for him, it might sound like |
00:07:02 |
And he feels like, um... |
00:07:06 |
like... like literature |
00:07:09 |
And if you tell a story |
00:07:11 |
"This guy walks into a bar |
00:07:16 |
That works really well because you're |
00:07:20 |
And it's an imaginative |
00:07:22 |
In film, you don't have that because you |
00:07:25 |
in a specific bar |
00:07:28 |
- of a specific height who looks |
00:07:30 |
So like, um, for Bazin, what the |
00:07:35 |
it has to deal |
00:07:37 |
- Photography also has an ontology, |
00:07:39 |
except that it adds |
00:07:41 |
and this |
00:07:43 |
And so, |
00:07:46 |
at that moment |
00:07:49 |
And, you know, Bazin |
00:07:51 |
so he, like, believes |
00:07:53 |
in God, obviously, |
00:07:57 |
For him, reality and God |
00:08:00 |
And so what film is actually capturing |
00:08:04 |
You know, like this very moment, |
00:08:10 |
And what the film would capture |
00:08:13 |
would be, like, |
00:08:15 |
and God is you and God is me and God |
00:08:18 |
and saying and thinking |
00:08:20 |
- because we're all God |
00:08:23 |
So film is like a record of God |
00:08:26 |
or of the ever-changing |
00:08:28 |
You have a mosquito. |
00:08:30 |
- You got it. Yeah. |
00:08:34 |
And the whole Hollywood thing |
00:08:36 |
and tried to make it |
00:08:38 |
where you take |
00:08:40 |
and then you, |
00:08:42 |
you get the script and then try |
00:08:44 |
But it's ridiculous. |
00:08:46 |
It shouldn't |
00:08:48 |
It should be based |
00:08:51 |
And, um... |
00:08:53 |
they're almost right |
00:08:55 |
- because then it's about that person |
00:08:59 |
Truffaut always said |
00:09:03 |
The best scripts don't |
00:09:06 |
because they have that kind of literary, |
00:09:10 |
The best films are the ones |
00:09:14 |
So, um... |
00:09:16 |
The whole narrative thing |
00:09:19 |
Obviously, there's narrativity |
00:09:21 |
just the way there's |
00:09:23 |
You don't first think of the story |
00:09:26 |
It has to come |
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That's what film has. |
00:09:32 |
You know, like this |
00:09:34 |
But we walk around |
00:09:36 |
We walk around like there's some holy |
00:09:38 |
- that are not holy, but this |
00:09:41 |
And film |
00:09:43 |
We can frame it so that we see, |
00:09:47 |
Like "holy, holy, holy" |
00:09:49 |
But who can live that way? |
00:09:52 |
Because if I were to look at you |
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I don't know. I would, |
00:09:57 |
Well, you'd be in the |
00:10:01 |
Yeah, but I'd be open. |
00:10:03 |
I'd look in your eyes |
00:10:07 |
and I'd feel all this stuff |
00:10:10 |
It would make you |
00:10:12 |
You could laugh too. |
00:10:15 |
Well, 'cause... |
00:10:17 |
For me, |
00:10:20 |
Uh-huh. Well... |
00:10:24 |
Well, let's do it right now. |
00:10:51 |
- Everything is layers, isn't it? |
00:10:53 |
There's the holy moment |
00:10:56 |
of trying to have |
00:10:58 |
in the same way that the film |
00:11:02 |
but then the character pretending |
00:11:05 |
It's all these layers. |
00:11:08 |
And, uh, I was in and out |
00:11:13 |
Can be in a holy... |
00:11:16 |
That's one |
00:11:18 |
You can... |
00:11:41 |
If the world that we are forced |
00:11:46 |
then everything |
00:11:48 |
On the way to discovering what we love, |
00:11:50 |
everything that blocks |
00:11:53 |
The comfort will never be comfortable for |
00:11:55 |
A systematic questioning |
00:11:58 |
We'll cut the vocal chords |
00:12:01 |
We'll yank the social symbols through the |
00:12:05 |
To confront |
00:12:07 |
Society is a fraud |
00:12:09 |
that it demands to be destroyed beyond the |
00:12:14 |
Where there's fire, |
00:12:16 |
Interrupt the continuum |
00:12:18 |
and all the normal |
00:12:21 |
To live as if something |
00:12:24 |
To rupture the spell of the ideology |
00:12:27 |
so that our oppressed desires of a more |
00:12:31 |
To demonstrate the contrast between what |
00:12:34 |
To immerse ourselves in the oblivion of |
00:12:38 |
There will be an intensity |
00:12:40 |
to exchange love and hate, |
00:12:42 |
terror and redemption, |
00:12:45 |
An affirmation of freedom |
00:12:47 |
that it amounts to a total denial of |
00:13:02 |
- Hey, old man, what you doing up there? |
00:13:06 |
You need any help |
00:13:10 |
No, I don't think so. |
00:13:13 |
Stupid bastard. |
00:13:15 |
No worse than us. |
00:13:19 |
We're all theory |
00:13:31 |
Why so glum, |
00:13:34 |
What was missing |
00:13:39 |
The extreme |
00:13:41 |
of subsisting |
00:13:45 |
made excesses necessary... |
00:13:48 |
and breaks definitive. |
00:13:50 |
To quote Stevenson: |
00:13:53 |
"Suicide carried off many. |
00:13:57 |
"Drink and the devil... |
00:14:00 |
took care of the rest. " |
00:14:13 |
- Hey. |
00:14:15 |
You a dreamer? |
00:14:19 |
Yeah. |
00:14:23 |
I haven't seen too many |
00:14:27 |
Things have been tough |
00:14:30 |
They say dreaming's dead, |
00:14:34 |
It's not dead. |
00:14:37 |
Removed from |
00:14:39 |
Nobody teaches it, |
00:14:45 |
The dreamer is |
00:14:49 |
I'm trying to change all that, |
00:14:53 |
By dreaming every day. |
00:14:56 |
Dreaming with our hands |
00:15:00 |
Our planet is facing the greatest |
00:15:05 |
So whatever you do, |
00:15:07 |
This is absolutely the most exciting time |
00:15:11 |
And things |
00:15:30 |
A thousand years |
00:15:32 |
There's nothing new, nothing different. |
00:15:36 |
The same clouds, |
00:15:38 |
the same insight felt |
00:15:40 |
There's nothing here |
00:15:43 |
Now I remember. This happened |
00:15:50 |
You have begun |
00:15:53 |
Although it will seem difficult, |
00:15:56 |
Exercise your human mind |
00:15:58 |
knowing it is |
00:16:01 |
Build beautiful artifacts, |
00:16:03 |
explore the secrets |
00:16:06 |
Savor the input |
00:16:08 |
Feel the joy and sorrow, the laughter, |
00:16:11 |
and tote the emotional |
00:16:14 |
I remember where I came from |
00:16:18 |
Why I hung around. And now my final |
00:16:21 |
This way out. |
00:16:24 |
Not just eternity, |
00:16:54 |
- Excuse me. |
00:17:01 |
Hey. Could we |
00:17:04 |
I know we haven't met, but I don't |
00:17:08 |
I mean, it's like |
00:17:11 |
with our antennas |
00:17:14 |
continuously |
00:17:16 |
with nothing really human |
00:17:21 |
Stop. Go. |
00:17:24 |
All action |
00:17:27 |
All communication simply to keep |
00:17:31 |
in an efficient, |
00:17:33 |
"Here's your change. " " Paper |
00:17:38 |
"You want ketchup |
00:17:41 |
I don't want a straw. |
00:17:45 |
I want to see you. |
00:17:48 |
I don't want to give that up. |
00:17:54 |
Yeah. Yeah, I know. |
00:17:57 |
I don't want |
00:17:59 |
Yeah, thanks for kind of, |
00:18:02 |
I've been kind of |
00:18:05 |
I don't feel like an ant in my head, |
00:18:09 |
It's kind of like D.H. Lawrence had this |
00:18:14 |
And instead of just passing |
00:18:17 |
they decided to accept what he calls |
00:18:21 |
It's like, um... like freeing |
00:18:25 |
Then it's like |
00:18:29 |
I'm doing this project. I'm hoping |
00:18:32 |
It's a soap opera, |
00:18:34 |
and, so, the characters |
00:18:37 |
They're the alter egos of |
00:18:40 |
So you pretty much just figure out |
00:18:43 |
or the life you've wanted to lead |
00:18:47 |
And we write that in, and then we |
00:18:51 |
with other people's in the soap opera |
00:18:56 |
Then I also want to show it |
00:19:00 |
and have the actors present |
00:19:04 |
then the audience |
00:19:06 |
the actors for subsequent |
00:19:10 |
So it has a lot to do with choices |
00:19:14 |
to say what it is |
00:19:16 |
and also consumerism |
00:19:20 |
And if you don't like what you got, |
00:19:24 |
or you get |
00:19:26 |
orjust participating, |
00:19:30 |
- So, you wanna do it? |
00:19:35 |
I'd love to be |
00:19:38 |
Uh, I kinda gotta ask you |
00:19:42 |
I don't really know |
00:19:44 |
uh, what's it like to be |
00:19:48 |
'Cause, uh, I'm not |
00:19:52 |
And I haven't even worn |
00:19:54 |
I think this is |
00:19:57 |
Um... Uh, yeah. |
00:19:59 |
I don't even know if you're able |
00:20:03 |
But I'm just trying to get like a sense |
00:20:08 |
So, what about you? What's your name? |
00:20:13 |
What are you doing? |
00:20:15 |
I... I... You know, |
00:20:18 |
I can't really... |
00:20:21 |
But that's |
00:20:23 |
whether or not I can dredge up |
00:20:26 |
about, you know, |
00:20:30 |
my mom's maiden name |
00:20:33 |
I've got the benefit in this reality, |
00:20:37 |
of a consistent |
00:20:39 |
What is your |
00:20:43 |
It's mostly just me dealing |
00:20:47 |
who are... |
00:20:49 |
exposing me |
00:20:52 |
that... seem |
00:20:56 |
but, at the same time, |
00:20:58 |
it's all very alien to me. |
00:21:01 |
I'm not in an objective, |
00:21:06 |
Like, I've been, |
00:21:08 |
Uh... |
00:21:10 |
I don't know. It's weird, too, |
00:21:14 |
It's more like this whole |
00:21:17 |
Like the lucidity wavers. |
00:21:19 |
Like, right now I know |
00:21:21 |
We're, like, |
00:21:23 |
This is the most in myself and in |
00:21:29 |
I'm talking |
00:21:31 |
But I'm beginning |
00:21:35 |
that it's something that I don't |
00:21:39 |
It's... It's totally unique. |
00:21:42 |
The... The quality |
00:21:46 |
and the information |
00:21:49 |
Like your soap opera, |
00:21:51 |
That's a really cool idea. |
00:21:54 |
I didn't come up with that. |
00:21:58 |
It's like something |
00:22:02 |
I don't know what this is. |
00:22:04 |
We seem to think we're |
00:22:07 |
and... and the confines, |
00:22:11 |
And you keep trying |
00:22:13 |
but it seems like now that you know |
00:22:17 |
you can do |
00:22:19 |
You're, uh, dreaming, |
00:22:22 |
You have, um, |
00:22:26 |
and that's |
00:22:29 |
I understand |
00:22:30 |
It's up to me. |
00:22:33 |
It's weird. Like, so much |
00:22:36 |
that... that these people |
00:22:40 |
I don't know. It's got this, like, |
00:22:44 |
- Well, how do you feel? |
00:22:47 |
Well, sometimes |
00:22:49 |
but most of the time, |
00:22:53 |
really, like, engaged |
00:22:55 |
Which is kind of weird |
00:22:58 |
I've just been really passive |
00:23:01 |
except for now, I guess. |
00:23:03 |
I'm just kind of letting |
00:23:06 |
It's not necessarily passive |
00:23:10 |
We're communicating |
00:23:16 |
Perhaps you're... |
00:23:19 |
Most of the people that |
00:23:22 |
and most of the things |
00:23:26 |
it's like they kind of say it |
00:23:30 |
It's, like, |
00:23:34 |
It's not like I'm having a bad dream. |
00:23:38 |
But... |
00:23:40 |
it's so unlike any other dream |
00:23:44 |
It's like the dream. |
00:23:49 |
It's like I'm being |
00:24:20 |
"On this bridge," |
00:24:24 |
"life is not a dream. |
00:24:26 |
"Beware and beware and... |
00:24:30 |
beware. " |
00:24:33 |
And so many think |
00:24:36 |
"now" isn't. |
00:24:38 |
But didn't I mention the ongoing "wow" |
00:24:44 |
We are all coauthors |
00:24:47 |
where even our inabilities |
00:24:51 |
We are the authors |
00:24:53 |
coauthoring a gigantic |
00:24:57 |
This entire thing we're involved |
00:25:00 |
is an opportunity to exhibit |
00:25:05 |
Life is a matter of a miracle |
00:25:10 |
by moments flabbergasted |
00:25:13 |
The world is an exam to see if we can |
00:25:19 |
Our eyesight is here as a test |
00:25:23 |
Matter is here as a test |
00:25:26 |
Doubt is here as an exam |
00:25:29 |
Thomas Mann wrote that he would |
00:25:33 |
than write |
00:25:35 |
Giacometti was once |
00:25:39 |
and he recalled |
00:25:43 |
a sudden exhiliration, |
00:25:45 |
as he realized at last |
00:25:49 |
An assumption develops that you cannot |
00:25:54 |
I do not agree entirely. Which is |
00:25:59 |
I would say that life |
00:26:03 |
But the paradoxes bug me, |
00:26:06 |
and I can learn to love |
00:26:09 |
to the paradoxes |
00:26:11 |
And on really romantic |
00:26:14 |
I go salsa dancing |
00:26:17 |
Before you drift off, |
00:26:21 |
Which is to say, |
00:26:23 |
Because remembering is so much more |
00:26:28 |
Lorca in that |
00:26:31 |
that the iguana will bite those |
00:26:35 |
And as one realizes... |
00:26:39 |
that one |
00:26:42 |
in another person's dream, |
00:26:45 |
that is self-awareness. |
00:27:13 |
You haven't |
00:27:18 |
But the advantage to meeting others |
00:27:22 |
is that one of them |
00:27:29 |
Examine the nature... |
00:27:31 |
of everything |
00:27:34 |
For instance, |
00:27:36 |
you might find yourself |
00:27:39 |
a dream parking lot. |
00:27:42 |
And, yes, those are dream feet |
00:27:46 |
Part of your dream self. |
00:27:50 |
the person you appear |
00:27:53 |
cannot be |
00:27:55 |
This is an image, |
00:27:58 |
a mental model. |
00:28:22 |
Do you remember me? |
00:28:24 |
No. No, I don't think so. |
00:28:26 |
At the station? |
00:28:28 |
You were on the pay phone |
00:28:32 |
a few times. |
00:28:35 |
I remember that, |
00:28:38 |
Are you sure? |
00:28:42 |
Well, maybe not. |
00:28:46 |
I was sitting down... |
00:28:49 |
and you were looking at me. |
00:29:45 |
My little friend, dream no more. |
00:29:50 |
It's called Efferdent Plus. |
00:29:52 |
In hell, you sink to the level |
00:29:55 |
In heaven, you rise to the level |
00:29:58 |
Hurry up! Come on! |
00:30:02 |
Allegedly, |
00:30:05 |
Billy Wilder |
00:30:08 |
This was in the late '50s, |
00:30:10 |
And Louis Malle had just made his most expensive |
00:30:14 |
And Billy Wilder asks him |
00:30:17 |
And Louis Malle says, |
00:30:21 |
And Billy Wilder says, |
00:30:24 |
I feel a little more apprehensive |
00:30:35 |
Down through the centuries, the notion |
00:30:38 |
has been a pervasive theme |
00:30:42 |
So doesn't it make sense that death, |
00:30:47 |
That, after death, |
00:30:50 |
in what might be called, |
00:30:53 |
It would be the same dream body you |
00:30:57 |
Except that |
00:31:01 |
you could never |
00:31:03 |
never again return |
00:31:16 |
As the pattern gets |
00:31:19 |
being swept along |
00:31:45 |
What's the word, turd? |
00:31:49 |
Hey, do you also |
00:31:51 |
- A what? - You gave me a ride |
00:31:56 |
No, man, I don't have a boat car. |
00:32:01 |
Man, this must be, like, |
00:32:04 |
You know that cat |
00:32:06 |
who just ran out |
00:32:08 |
Well, he comes up to the counter, |
00:32:10 |
And he lays down this burrito and he kind of |
00:32:14 |
"I have but recently returned from |
00:32:17 |
"I'm rapturously breathing in all |
00:32:20 |
"I've been to the brink |
00:32:22 |
I remember and ferment the desire |
00:32:29 |
So, what did |
00:32:31 |
Well, I mean, |
00:32:33 |
I said, " If you're gonna |
00:32:36 |
"I want you to poke holes in the |
00:32:39 |
And I'm tired of cleaning up your |
00:32:48 |
'Cause the jalapenos |
00:32:50 |
They're like little wheels. |
00:32:56 |
When it was over, |
00:32:59 |
was how this entire |
00:33:03 |
what we are, is just... |
00:33:06 |
this logical structure, |
00:33:09 |
a place to momentarily |
00:33:15 |
It was a time |
00:33:17 |
to give form and coherence |
00:33:22 |
And I had been a part of that. |
00:33:25 |
Life was raging |
00:33:29 |
and every moment |
00:33:32 |
I loved all the people, |
00:33:35 |
dealing with all |
00:33:39 |
That's what I loved the most... |
00:33:44 |
Looking back, that's |
00:34:45 |
Kierkegaard's last words |
00:37:46 |
- Hey, man. |
00:37:54 |
Weren't you |
00:37:56 |
You know, the guy... |
00:37:59 |
He gave me a ride |
00:38:03 |
and you were in |
00:38:05 |
I'm not saying you don't know |
00:38:08 |
but I don't know |
00:38:11 |
No, see, you guys let me off |
00:38:14 |
that you gave him directions |
00:38:16 |
I get out and ended up |
00:38:19 |
But then I just woke up |
00:38:21 |
and later, I found out |
00:38:24 |
dreaming |
00:38:28 |
Those are called "false awakenings. " |
00:38:31 |
But I'm still in it now. |
00:38:33 |
I can't get out of it. |
00:38:36 |
I keep waking up, but I'm just |
00:38:40 |
I'm starting to get creeped out too, |
00:38:44 |
This woman on TV's telling me |
00:38:48 |
that exists outside of life. |
00:38:50 |
I mean, I'm starting |
00:38:57 |
I'm gonna tell you |
00:39:00 |
I know that when |
00:39:02 |
usually you're in for a very boring |
00:39:05 |
But it sounds like... |
00:39:09 |
Anyway, I read this essay |
00:39:12 |
What, you read it |
00:39:14 |
No, no. I read it |
00:39:16 |
It was the preamble |
00:39:18 |
It was about that book, |
00:39:21 |
- You know that one? |
00:39:25 |
Right. That's the one |
00:39:27 |
It just, like, flowed |
00:39:29 |
He felt he was sort |
00:39:32 |
But anyway, about four years |
00:39:34 |
he was at this party |
00:39:36 |
who had the same name |
00:39:39 |
And she had a boyfriend with the same name |
00:39:43 |
and she was having an affair |
00:39:47 |
And he had the same name |
00:39:50 |
So she's telling him |
00:39:52 |
and everything she's saying |
00:39:55 |
So that's really freaking him out, |
00:39:58 |
And shortly after that, |
00:40:02 |
and he saw this kind of, um, dangerous, |
00:40:07 |
But instead of avoiding him, which he |
00:40:10 |
he walked right up to him |
00:40:12 |
And the guy said, |
00:40:15 |
He pulls out his wallet and he hands him some |
00:40:19 |
And then he gets home and |
00:40:22 |
This guy can't get |
00:40:25 |
So he gets back in his car. He finds |
00:40:30 |
And as he's pulling up |
00:40:32 |
he realizes, " Hey, |
00:40:35 |
This exact station. |
00:40:39 |
So this whole episode |
00:40:43 |
And he's telling |
00:40:45 |
describing |
00:40:47 |
and four years later, |
00:40:49 |
And as he's telling it to him, the |
00:40:53 |
You're describing |
00:40:55 |
He's like, "I've never |
00:40:57 |
So he goes home |
00:40:59 |
and it's, like, |
00:41:01 |
Even the characters' names |
00:41:06 |
And the Book of Acts takes place in 50 |
00:41:09 |
So Philip K. Dick |
00:41:11 |
that time was an illusion and that |
00:41:16 |
And the reason that he |
00:41:18 |
was that he had somehow momentarily |
00:41:22 |
this veil of time. |
00:41:24 |
And what he had seen was what |
00:41:27 |
And he was really |
00:41:30 |
and this idea |
00:41:32 |
had created this illusion |
00:41:35 |
that Christ |
00:41:37 |
and the kingdom of God |
00:41:40 |
and that we're all in 50 A.D. and |
00:41:44 |
you know, that... you know, |
00:41:46 |
And that's what time is. |
00:41:49 |
this kind of continuous, |
00:41:53 |
And so I read that, |
00:41:56 |
And then that night, |
00:41:58 |
and there was this guy in the dream |
00:42:01 |
But I was skeptical. I was like, |
00:42:04 |
I was just thinking |
00:42:06 |
And then suddenly, |
00:42:08 |
like levitating |
00:42:10 |
And as I almost go |
00:42:12 |
"Mr. Psychic, I believe you. You're |
00:42:16 |
And I float down, |
00:42:19 |
the psychic turns |
00:42:23 |
And this woman |
00:42:25 |
Now, Lady Gregory was Yeats' patron, |
00:42:28 |
And though I'd |
00:42:31 |
I was just sure that this was |
00:42:35 |
So we're walking along, |
00:42:38 |
"Let me explain to you |
00:42:42 |
"Now, Philip K. Dick is right about |
00:42:46 |
"Actually, there's only |
00:42:49 |
"And it's eternity. |
00:42:51 |
"And it's an instant |
00:42:55 |
"And that question is, basically, |
00:42:58 |
"'be one with eternity? |
00:43:00 |
"Do you want to be |
00:43:02 |
"And we're all saying, 'No, |
00:43:06 |
And so time is actually just |
00:43:09 |
to God's invitation. |
00:43:11 |
That's what time is. It's no more |
00:43:16 |
There's just this one instant, |
00:43:20 |
And then she tells me that actually this |
00:43:24 |
That behind the phenomenal difference, |
00:43:28 |
and that's the story of moving |
00:43:32 |
All of life is, |
00:43:35 |
Then ultimately it's, |
00:43:38 |
Yes, I accept. |
00:43:40 |
I mean, that's the journey. |
00:43:42 |
- Everyone gets to the "yes" |
00:43:48 |
So we continue walking, |
00:43:52 |
So I'm petting him. I'm really happy |
00:43:55 |
So I'm petting him |
00:43:57 |
there's this kind of gross oozing stuff |
00:44:01 |
And I look over at Lady Gregory, |
00:44:04 |
She's like... |
00:44:07 |
And there's vomit dribbling down |
00:44:10 |
And I think, |
00:44:13 |
"That's not just the smell of vomit, |
00:44:17 |
"That's the smell |
00:44:19 |
You know, |
00:44:22 |
And then I realize I'm actually in, |
00:44:26 |
And everyone |
00:44:28 |
My dog had been dead over ten years. |
00:44:31 |
When I finally woke up, I was like, |
00:44:35 |
That was a visitation to this |
00:44:39 |
- So what happened? How did you |
00:44:43 |
It was just like one of those, |
00:44:47 |
I could never really look at the world |
00:44:50 |
Yeah, but how did you |
00:44:54 |
See, that's my problem. |
00:44:56 |
I keep... I keep thinking that I'm |
00:44:59 |
It seems like it's going on forever. |
00:45:02 |
I wanna wake up for real. |
00:45:05 |
I don't know. |
00:45:09 |
But, um, if that's |
00:45:11 |
I mean, you probably should. |
00:45:14 |
If you can wake up, |
00:45:16 |
because someday |
00:45:18 |
So just, um... |
00:45:20 |
Just... Just... |