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Before Sunset
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Do you consider the book |
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Well, I mean... |
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...isn't everything autobiographical? |
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I mean, we all see the world |
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I mean, I always think |
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Have you ever seen that little |
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...in the front |
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Anyway, he says that we are the sum |
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...and anybody who sits down to write |
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...that you can't avoid that. |
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So when I look at my own life, |
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I've never been around a bunch of guns |
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No political intrigue |
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But my life, from my own point of view, |
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And so I thought, |
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...that could capture what it's like |
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One of the most exciting things |
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...is to meet somebody, |
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And if I could make that valuable, |
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...that would be the attempt, or... |
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Did I answer your question? |
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I'll try to be more specific. |
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Was there ever a French young woman |
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...and spent an evening with? |
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See, to me, that... I mean... |
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...that's not important, you know? |
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All right, since I'm in France and this |
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Thank you. |
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Mr. Wallace, the book ends |
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We don't know. |
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Do you think they get back together |
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...like they promise each other? |
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Like they promised? |
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I think how you answer that, |
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It's a good test, right, |
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Right? I mean, you think |
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- You don't, for sure. |
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And you hope they do, |
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- That's why you're asking the question. |
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I mean, did you in real life? |
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Did I in real...? |
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Look, in the words |
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"To answer that would take |
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We just have the time |
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What is your next book? |
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I don't know, man. I don't know. |
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I've been... |
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Well, I always kind of wanted |
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...that all took place |
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Like three or four minutes long, |
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The story, the idea, |
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...and he's totally depressed. |
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His great dream was to be a lover, |
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...riding motorcycles |
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And instead he's sitting |
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He's got a good job and |
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Everything that he needs. |
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...because what he wants |
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You know? Happiness |
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Not in the getting what you want. |
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So he's sitting there, |
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...his little 5-year-old daughter |
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And he knows that she should |
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But she's dancing to this pop song |
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And he looks down... |
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...and all of a sudden, he's 6. |
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And his high-school sweetheart |
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And they just lost their virginity, |
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...and the same song is playing |
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And she climbs up and starts dancing |
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And now he's worried about her. |
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And she's beautiful, with a facial |
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In fact, maybe that's why |
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You see, he knows he's not |
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...he's there. He's there, |
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And just for an instant, |
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And it's obvious to him |
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That it's all happening all the time... |
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...and inside every moment |
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...all happening simultaneously. |
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Anyway, that's kind of the idea. |
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Our author has to be going |
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...so thank you all very much |
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And a special thanks to Mr. Wallace |
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Thank you. Thank you. |
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We hope to see you here again |
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Thank you all. How much longer |
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Oh, you should leave at 7:30... |
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- Seven-thirty at the very latest. |
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- Hi. |
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- How are you? |
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I'm good, yeah, I'm great. I'm... |
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Do you wanna, maybe, |
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Didn't he just say |
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Yeah. But, I mean, I have a little time. |
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- Okay. |
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I'll meet you outside. Okay. |
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Excuse me. I'm just gonna go |
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- I'll be back at 7: 5. |
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- Yeah, I sure did. |
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...so you can call his cell |
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We'll put your bags in the car |
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- All right, thanks for everything. |
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Which one's Philippe? |
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- I can't believe you're here. |
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Are you sure you don't have to stay? |
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They're sick of me. |
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- You did? |
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- How are you? This is so weird. |
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- It's good to see you. |
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- So you want to go to a café? |
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Okay. There's one a little further |
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I thought I was gonna totally lose it |
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How did you know |
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It's my favorite bookstore in Paris. |
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I love it. There's fleas, |
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I know. I think a cat slept |
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I saw your picture on the calendar |
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...and that you were going |
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It's funny, because I read an article |
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...and it sounded vaguely familiar. |
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But I didn't put it all together |
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Did you have a chance to read it? |
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Yes, I... |
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I was really, really surprised, |
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I mean, I had to read it twice, actually. |
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- Yeah? |
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No, I liked it. It's very romantic. |
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I usually don't like that, |
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- It's well-written. Congratulations. |
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- Wait. |
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Before we go anywhere, |
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Sure. What? |
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Did you show up in Vienna |
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- Did you? |
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- I need to know. It's important to me. |
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Well, did you? |
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No. |
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Thank God you didn't. |
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- Oh, my God. |
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Thank God I didn't and you didn't. |
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...that would have sucked. |
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I felt horrible about not being there, |
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...and she was buried that day, |
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- The one in Budapest? |
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- I remember everything. |
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But anyway, I was about to |
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...and we heard the news about her, |
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Yeah, I'm sorry to hear that. |
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I know. But you weren't there anyway. |
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Wait. Why weren't you there? |
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I would have been there |
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You better have a good reason. |
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What? |
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Oh, no. |
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No, you were there, weren't you? |
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Oh, no, that's terrible! |
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I'm laughing, but I don't mean it. |
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Did you hate me? |
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- Have you been hating me all this time? |
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- Yes, you have. |
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But you can't hate me now, right? |
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- I mean, my grandma... |
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I flew all the way over there, |
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My life's been a big nosedive since, |
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- No, I'm kidding. |
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You must have been so angry |
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I wanted to be there, |
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- Honestly, I swear... |
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I know. I honestly thought that something |
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I was definitely bummed, but... |
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Mostly I was mad we hadn't exchanged |
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That was so stupid. |
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- Nothing to go on. |
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Remember, we were both afraid |
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...that it would slowly fade out. |
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No, it sure wasn't. |
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We wanted to pick up |
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Which would have been fine |
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So... |
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- How long were you in Vienna, then? |
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Did you meet another girl? |
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Yeah, her name was Gretchen |
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The book's really a composite |
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No, I'm kidding. You wouldn't believe... |
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I put up signs of my number |
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- I was a total dork. |
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Just a couple hookers |
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No, it was awful, I mean, |
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It's so sad. I'm so sorry. |
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I walked around for a couple days. |
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I owed my dad 2000 bucks... |
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...who had warned me |
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What did he tell you |
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Nothing. He's never met |
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He's never been |
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Why didn't you put, "Six months later, |
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No, but I did, I did. |
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- You did? |
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I wrote this fictional version |
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- Oh, what happens? |
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What? |
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We make love for about 0 days straight, |
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- Interesting. So the French slut, right? |
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It's just then they get |
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...and realize they don't |
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- I like that. It's more real. |
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Everyone wants to believe in love. |
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Yeah, exactly, so... |
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So things are going well for you, |
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- Your book is a bestseller in the U.S. |
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- Oh, come on. |
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Most people haven't read Moby Dick. |
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I haven't read Moby Dick |
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- Thanks. |
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...I thought you idealized |
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Come on, it's fiction, right? |
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- I'm supposed to... |
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I know. I thought there were times |
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Well, I mean, her, right? |
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- A little bit neurotic. |
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- You think I'm neurotic? |
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Where did I do that? I didn't do that. |
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Oh, maybe it's just me, you know... |
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Reading something, knowing |
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...it's both flattering and disturbing |
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How is it disturbing? |
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I don't know. Just being part |
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Seeing myself through your eyes. |
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How long did it take you to write it? |
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Three or four years, on and off. |
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Wow, that's a really long time |
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Yeah, I know. Tell me about it. |
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I always assumed |
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No, I had a pretty clear picture |
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- I have to tell you something. I just... |
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I've wanted to talk to you for so long |
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I feel like everything should be... |
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How long do we have? |
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We got more than that. |
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Tell me, what are you doing? |
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Where to start? I work for Green Cross. |
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What are they all about? |
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We basically work on different |
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...from clean water to |
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International laws that deal |
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- What do you do for them? |
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Different things. |
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Like, last year I was in India for a while, |
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Well, the cotton industry there |
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I mean, it sounds like you're actually |
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Most people, myself included, |
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You know, how America's consuming |
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...global warming is real... |
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I'm relieved to hear you're not one |
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Hey, you know... |
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I came out of political science, |
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- And I did for a little while. Terrible. |
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Yeah, no. Anyway, I got really tired... |
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Having this endless conversation |
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...about how the world |
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So I decided what I really |
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...to find things that could be fixed |
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You know, I always thought you'd be |
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Thanks. I just feel really, really lucky |
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Yeah. |
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I actually alternate in between thinking |
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...and things might be |
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Better? How could you |
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Well, I just mean, you know, like... |
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I know it sounds weird, but there are |
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Okay... I know your book is selling, |
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But let me break the news to you: |
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From a Western view, |
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We're moving industry to developing |
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...free of any environmental laws. |
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Five million people die a year |
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How is the world getting better? |
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But come on, I want to know. |
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I realize that there are a lot |
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- Okay. Thank you. |
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...one publisher in the Asian market. |
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- Say stop. |
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Look, all I'm saying is there's more |
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The world might be getting better |
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...are educated and speaking out. |
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Even the very notion of conservation, |
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...weren't in the vocabulary |
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And they're becoming the norm and |
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I agree with what you're saying, |
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An imperialist country can use |
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...to justify their economic greed. |
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Is there any particular imperialist country |
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- No, not really. |
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- So you wanna sit over there? |
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Oh, wow. Maybe what I'm saying is... |
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...the world might be evolving |
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Like, I mean, me, for example. |
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Am I improving? I don't know. |
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...but I was wracked with insecurity, |
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Now I'm older and my problems |
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...but I'm more equipped |
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So, what are your problems? |
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Right now I don't have any. |
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...damn happy to be here. |
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Me too. |
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So how long have you been in Paris? |
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I got in last night. |
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I'm wrecked. I'm so glad it's over, |
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I'm tired of being a huckster. |
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- Hi. |
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What do you want? |
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A cup of coffee. |
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God, I love this café. I wish they had |
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Yeah, I missed cafés |
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I mean, I find a few places |
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- You were living in the U.S.? |
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I was studying at NYU. |
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Oh, God, don't tell me that, Celine. |
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- What? |
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- Nothing, I mean, I... |
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I've been living in New York since '98. |
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- In New York? |
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That's weird. It actually crossed my mind |
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...but the odds are so slim, right? So... |
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I didn't even know |
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- Weren't you somewhere in Texas? |
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I was for a long time. I just, |
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What brought you back here? |
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I had finished my master's, for one... |
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...and no visa, no more visa. |
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And I was starting to get paranoid. |
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Gang violence, murders, |
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But the final straw was... |
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...one night I heard some noise |
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...so I called 9, |
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- Like three hours later. |
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No, but it was a man |
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I was explaining what I had heard... |
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...when the woman had |
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I was left alone with the male cop. |
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Right away he asked me if I had a gun, |
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And he told me, "Well, you better |
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This is America, not France. Okay?" |
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And I said to him, "I have no idea |
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...and I have no interest |
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And that's when he pulled out his gun, |
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"Well, one day, you're gonna have |
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...and if you wanna have a long life... |
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...you're gonna have to choose |
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And then they left. And the next morning |
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Me with a gun. |
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But then I realized |
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The way that cop had pulled his gun out, |
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So I canceled my demand |
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...and I called the police and tried |
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- What happened with that? |
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...and then I got scared, |
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- Thought you'd get deported? |
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...and forgot about the whole thing. |
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- Well, I guess I never forgot. |
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But still, you know, |
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- There's lots of things I miss in the U.S. |
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Well... |
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The overall good mood |
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Like, even if it can be |
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Like, "How you doing?" "Great. " |
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"Have a great day!" |
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I don't know. Parisians can be |
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No, everybody seems |
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- They're not happy. No. |
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No, they are. I don't know. I just |
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What is it? What about them? |
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Well, they're very nice. |
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They love food, wine, |
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But I've had really bad luck with them. |
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Why? What do you mean? |
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- Well, I guess they're not as... |
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What's the word? |
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- Horny? They're not as horny. |
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Wait, listen to me on this one. In that |
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And you should be. |
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Have you ever spent time |
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Eastern... No, I don't. |
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I remember as a teenager |
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...when it was still |
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- Which I don't approve of at all. |
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- No, I don't. |
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But anyway, something about |
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After a couple of weeks, |
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The city was quite gloomy and gray... |
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...but after a while, |
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I was writing more |
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...ideas I'd never thought of before... |
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- Listen, I'm not... |
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- Okay. |
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Okay. I'll send you to a gulag later. |
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No. But it took me a while to figure out |
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One day, as I was walking |
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...I don't know why, |
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...I realized that I had spent the last |
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TV was in a language |
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...there was nothing to buy, |
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...so all I'd been doing was... |
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...walk around, think, and write. |
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...free from the consuming frenzy. |
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I felt so peaceful inside. |
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...to shop... |
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It could have seemed |
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...but it became very, very soulful. |
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It was interesting, you know? |
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Can you believe it was nine years ago |
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- Nine years? No, that's impossible. |
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But it was summer '94. |
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Do I look any different? |
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I do? |
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I'd have to see you naked. |
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- What? |
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Your hair was different back then. |
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- It's the same... Oh, down. |
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Down. Okay, it was down. Okay. |
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Well? Voilà. |
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So? |
| 00:24:24 |
Okay, come on. Tell me. |
| 00:24:29 |
Skinnier, I think. A little thinner. |
| 00:24:33 |
Did you think I was fat before? |
| 00:24:35 |
- No... |
| 00:24:38 |
No, you thought I was a fatty. You |
| 00:24:42 |
- No, listen. |
| 00:24:44 |
Seriously, all right? You look beautiful. |
| 00:24:46 |
Do I look any different? |
| 00:24:49 |
No. Not at all. |
| 00:24:53 |
- I know. |
| 00:24:55 |
- A scar? Like a gunshot wound? |
| 00:25:01 |
I had this funny... |
| 00:25:07 |
I was having this awful nightmare |
| 00:25:11 |
And then I woke up, |
| 00:25:14 |
And then I woke up for real, |
| 00:25:17 |
- Shit, man. It happens. |
| 00:25:20 |
Time goes faster and faster. |
| 00:25:23 |
...we don't renew synapses after |
| 00:25:27 |
I like getting older, you know? |
| 00:25:31 |
I don't know, it feels more immediate. |
| 00:25:35 |
No, me too, actually. I really love it. |
| 00:25:38 |
I was once... |
| 00:25:40 |
...a drummer in a band. |
| 00:25:42 |
- You were? |
| 00:25:44 |
But the lead-singer guy, he was just so |
| 00:25:49 |
It's all we talked about, thought about, |
| 00:25:52 |
Everything was just focused on |
| 00:25:56 |
...the band doesn't even exist anymore. |
| 00:25:58 |
And looking back |
| 00:26:00 |
...even rehearsing, it was just |
| 00:26:03 |
I just... Now I'd enjoy every minute of it. |
| 00:26:08 |
Well, your book has been published. |
| 00:26:11 |
You've been all around Europe. |
| 00:26:15 |
- Not really. |
| 00:26:17 |
No. |
| 00:26:19 |
- Do you have another one of those? |
| 00:26:24 |
Here. |
| 00:26:26 |
In my field, I see these people that... |
| 00:26:30 |
Come into it with big, |
| 00:26:32 |
...of becoming the leader |
| 00:26:35 |
They enjoy the goal, |
| 00:26:38 |
- Right. |
| 00:26:40 |
...the true work of improving things |
| 00:26:43 |
- That's what you need to enjoy. |
| 00:26:46 |
I was working for this organization |
| 00:26:51 |
And their concerns was how |
| 00:26:53 |
...sent to the kid |
| 00:26:56 |
It was not about big, |
| 00:27:00 |
I see the people that do the real work, |
| 00:27:04 |
...the people that are |
| 00:27:07 |
...and capable of making |
| 00:27:09 |
...usually don't have the ego |
| 00:27:12 |
They don't see any interest |
| 00:27:15 |
They don't care if their name |
| 00:27:19 |
They actually enjoy the process |
| 00:27:22 |
- They're in the moment. |
| 00:27:24 |
...you know, to be in the moment. |
| 00:27:28 |
...designed to be slightly dissatisfied |
| 00:27:32 |
It's like always trying |
| 00:27:34 |
I satisfy one desire, |
| 00:27:38 |
And then I think, to hell with it, right? |
| 00:27:42 |
You know? Do you think it's true... |
| 00:27:45 |
...that if we never wanted anything, |
| 00:27:48 |
I don't know. Not wanting anything, |
| 00:27:53 |
Yeah, that is, right? |
| 00:27:57 |
Yeah. I don't know. It's what all |
| 00:28:01 |
Liberate yourself from desire, |
| 00:28:03 |
...you already have everything you need. |
| 00:28:07 |
...when I want something more |
| 00:28:10 |
Wanting, whether it's intimacy |
| 00:28:13 |
...or a pair of shoes, is beautiful. |
| 00:28:15 |
I like that we have those |
| 00:28:18 |
Maybe it's this sense |
| 00:28:20 |
You know, like whenever you feel like |
| 00:28:24 |
It's okay to want things, as long as you |
| 00:28:28 |
Life's hard. It's supposed to be. |
| 00:28:31 |
If we didn't suffer, we wouldn't |
| 00:28:35 |
So, what, are you Buddhist, |
| 00:28:38 |
- No. |
| 00:28:41 |
I don't know. The same reason I don't |
| 00:28:46 |
I decided a long time ago that |
| 00:28:50 |
...but not buy into any one |
| 00:28:54 |
I went to this Trappist monastery |
| 00:28:58 |
- Trappist? |
| 00:29:02 |
- Why did you do that? |
| 00:29:05 |
Thought it'd be cool. Have you ever |
| 00:29:10 |
- No. It's not really my style. |
| 00:29:14 |
Well, I expected them to be all |
| 00:29:18 |
They were quick to laugh, |
| 00:29:21 |
Seriously, very attuned to everything, |
| 00:29:24 |
You know, they weren't trying |
| 00:29:27 |
They're trying to live and die |
| 00:29:29 |
...or whatever part of them |
| 00:29:32 |
It was just so refreshing to be around. |
| 00:29:34 |
You realize that most |
| 00:29:37 |
...are trying |
| 00:29:39 |
They're trying to make more cash, |
| 00:29:42 |
...have more people admire them. |
| 00:29:45 |
- No kidding. |
| 00:29:48 |
There I am, right, you know, |
| 00:29:52 |
"I want to be a better person," |
| 00:29:56 |
I had this boyfriend of mine many years |
| 00:30:02 |
So he went to Asia to visit some |
| 00:30:05 |
- I've thought about doing that too. |
| 00:30:09 |
He was good-looking, and each time |
| 00:30:12 |
...a monk offered to suck his cock. |
| 00:30:15 |
True story. |
| 00:30:17 |
It all comes down to that, doesn't it? |
| 00:30:20 |
That's why I really admire |
| 00:30:23 |
- You know? |
| 00:30:25 |
- No. |
| 00:30:29 |
No, I was gonna say |
| 00:30:33 |
You're putting your passion into action. |
| 00:30:35 |
Well, I try. |
| 00:30:38 |
You know something? |
| 00:30:42 |
...and in an airport |
| 00:30:45 |
I'd just love to see |
| 00:30:47 |
- Would you walk with me? |
| 00:30:49 |
- Do you mind? |
| 00:30:50 |
- Do you want to? |
| 00:30:53 |
What do we owe here? |
| 00:30:55 |
No, I got it, I got a little |
| 00:30:57 |
- This good, for a tip? |
| 00:31:00 |
- That's more than enough. |
| 00:31:02 |
- Is there anywhere to go around here? |
| 00:31:06 |
- What's that? |
| 00:31:09 |
It's twice a year. |
| 00:31:13 |
All right, let's go shopping. |
| 00:31:15 |
No, no, no. That's a bad idea. |
| 00:31:19 |
It's madness. Let's just go |
| 00:31:23 |
All right. That sounds |
| 00:31:25 |
Not that I wouldn't do |
| 00:31:28 |
Sometimes I don't even need |
| 00:31:31 |
...on trying on |
| 00:31:33 |
Is this where we're going? |
| 00:31:35 |
- Yeah. |
| 00:31:37 |
- Really? Are you ever in therapy? |
| 00:31:40 |
- Do I seem like I'm in therapy? |
| 00:31:43 |
- Does it help your sex problems? |
| 00:31:47 |
- I'm kidding. |
| 00:31:49 |
- We didn't have any problems. |
| 00:31:51 |
- We didn't even have sex. |
| 00:31:54 |
No, we didn't. |
| 00:31:57 |
- Of course we did. |
| 00:31:59 |
You didn't have a condom |
| 00:32:02 |
I'm extremely paranoid. |
| 00:32:04 |
I find it scary that you don't |
| 00:32:07 |
No, listen... |
| 00:32:09 |
...I didn't write an entire book, |
| 00:32:11 |
...and I wrote the whole night in it. |
| 00:32:16 |
All right, listen, I even remember |
| 00:32:19 |
That's disgusting. |
| 00:32:21 |
- That's not disgusting. |
| 00:32:24 |
Okay, when I get home I'll check my |
| 00:32:31 |
- Wait a minute. |
| 00:32:33 |
- Was it in the cemetery? |
| 00:32:36 |
No, we went to the cemetery |
| 00:32:39 |
It was in the park, very late at night. |
| 00:32:42 |
- In the park? |
| 00:32:45 |
I can't... I can't... |
| 00:32:47 |
Is it that forgettable? You really |
| 00:32:51 |
Okay. Wait a minute, |
| 00:32:54 |
You're messing with me now. |
| 00:32:55 |
- No. |
| 00:32:57 |
Okay. No, I'm sorry. I think... |
| 00:33:00 |
Sometimes I put things in drawers |
| 00:33:04 |
It's less painful to put things |
| 00:33:07 |
What, so that night was, like, |
| 00:33:10 |
I didn't mean that night |
| 00:33:12 |
I meant certain things |
| 00:33:14 |
I remember that night |
| 00:33:17 |
- Me too. |
| 00:33:19 |
Well, I thought I did. |
| 00:33:24 |
But maybe I... Maybe I put it away |
| 00:33:27 |
...my grandmother's funeral was |
| 00:33:31 |
It was a tough day for me, |
| 00:33:34 |
It was unreal. I remember looking |
| 00:33:39 |
...at her beautiful hands, so warm, |
| 00:33:44 |
...but nothing in that coffin resembled |
| 00:33:47 |
All the warmth was gone. |
| 00:33:49 |
And then I was crying, |
| 00:33:52 |
...because I was never gonna see her |
| 00:33:58 |
I'm sorry. I'm sorry to go on like this. |
| 00:34:02 |
- Why? |
| 00:34:05 |
Reading your book, maybe? |
| 00:34:07 |
No, but... Thinking of how hopeful |
| 00:34:11 |
...and since then it's been kind of a... |
| 00:34:14 |
I don't know. |
| 00:34:15 |
Memory is a wonderful thing if |
| 00:34:22 |
"Memory is wonderful if you don't |
| 00:34:25 |
Can I put that |
| 00:34:27 |
If you wrote a book about our night, |
| 00:34:30 |
- And it could be a total different book. |
| 00:34:34 |
- But you know what? |
| 00:34:36 |
Now that we've met again... |
| 00:34:38 |
...we can change our memory |
| 00:34:40 |
It no longer has that sad ending |
| 00:34:44 |
Right. I mean, I guess a memory's |
| 00:34:49 |
Yeah, I know. I have this memory |
| 00:34:53 |
...I realized recently never happened. |
| 00:34:55 |
Well, when I was 8 or 9, |
| 00:34:58 |
...when I was walking home |
| 00:35:01 |
...she'd warn me about dirty old men |
| 00:35:04 |
...and then showing me |
| 00:35:06 |
She was so obsessed with it that, |
| 00:35:10 |
...I had this image in my head |
| 00:35:13 |
To the point that I even associated sex |
| 00:35:17 |
I mean, and sometimes, |
| 00:35:21 |
When I'm having sex, I see myself |
| 00:35:26 |
I swear. It's so weird, right? |
| 00:35:28 |
- Is that street nearby? I mean, could...? |
| 00:35:32 |
Very far. |
| 00:35:35 |
Did you ever keep a journal |
| 00:35:38 |
Yeah. On and off, I guess. |
| 00:35:42 |
It's funny, I read one of mine... |
| 00:35:44 |
...from '83 the other day. |
| 00:35:46 |
And what really surprised me is... |
| 00:35:48 |
...that I was dealing with life |
| 00:35:51 |
I was much more hopeful and naive... |
| 00:35:53 |
...but the core, and the way I was |
| 00:35:58 |
It made me realize |
| 00:36:00 |
I don't think anybody does. |
| 00:36:02 |
People don't want to admit it, but it's |
| 00:36:06 |
...and nothing much that happens to us |
| 00:36:10 |
- You believe that? |
| 00:36:11 |
I read this study where they followed |
| 00:36:15 |
...and people who'd become paraplegics. |
| 00:36:17 |
You'd think one extreme is gonna make |
| 00:36:21 |
But the study shows that, |
| 00:36:24 |
...as soon as people had gotten used to |
| 00:36:28 |
...they were, more or less, the same. |
| 00:36:30 |
Yeah. Like, if they were basically |
| 00:36:33 |
...they're now an optimistic, jovial |
| 00:36:36 |
If they're a petty, miserable asshole... |
| 00:36:39 |
...they're a petty, miserable asshole |
| 00:36:43 |
So I'll be forever depressed |
| 00:36:46 |
- Definitely. |
| 00:36:48 |
No, come on, are you depressed now? |
| 00:36:50 |
No, no, I'm not depressed. |
| 00:36:52 |
But sometimes I worry |
| 00:36:55 |
...feeling I haven't done all I wanted to. |
| 00:36:59 |
I... |
| 00:37:01 |
I want to paint more, |
| 00:37:04 |
I want to learn Chinese. |
| 00:37:07 |
There's so many things I want to do, |
| 00:37:12 |
All right, well, let me ask you this: |
| 00:37:18 |
No. |
| 00:37:20 |
- No? |
| 00:37:21 |
- Okay, what about reincarnation? |
| 00:37:25 |
- God? |
| 00:37:27 |
- All right. |
| 00:37:30 |
But I don't want to be one of those |
| 00:37:34 |
- So then, astrology? |
| 00:37:36 |
- There we go. |
| 00:37:38 |
You're a Scorpio, |
| 00:37:43 |
No, no, no. |
| 00:37:45 |
There's an Einstein quote |
| 00:37:48 |
He said, "If you don't believe |
| 00:37:52 |
...you're basically as good as dead. " |
| 00:37:55 |
I've always felt there was some kind of |
| 00:37:58 |
But, more recently, I've started to think |
| 00:38:03 |
That I don't have any permanent |
| 00:38:07 |
In eternity or whatever, you know. |
| 00:38:09 |
And the more I think that, I can't go |
| 00:38:13 |
This is it. This is actually happening. |
| 00:38:16 |
What do you think is funny? |
| 00:38:19 |
You know, every day's our last. |
| 00:38:21 |
When I feel that way, I usually |
| 00:38:25 |
- Yeah? |
| 00:38:27 |
"Are you okay? Do you have cancer? |
| 00:38:31 |
It's almost not worth it. |
| 00:38:35 |
So, what about us? |
| 00:38:38 |
- What about us? |
| 00:38:41 |
...if we were both going to die tonight... |
| 00:38:44 |
No, that's too dramatic... But what if |
| 00:38:49 |
I mean, would we talk |
| 00:38:51 |
- The environment? Or... |
| 00:38:54 |
Yeah, what would we talk about? |
| 00:38:56 |
- Well... |
| 00:38:58 |
- No, no, I'll do it. |
| 00:39:00 |
I definitely would |
| 00:39:02 |
- I would probably drop the environment. |
| 00:39:05 |
But I would still want to talk about, |
| 00:39:09 |
- I'd just want to do it from a... |
| 00:39:13 |
...a hotel room, you know... |
| 00:39:14 |
...in between sessions of us |
| 00:39:18 |
Wow. Well, why waste time |
| 00:39:21 |
Why not do it right there on a bench? |
| 00:39:26 |
Come here, come here, come here. |
| 00:39:28 |
Okay. We're not gonna die tonight. |
| 00:39:31 |
All right. Too bad. I'm sorry. |
| 00:39:33 |
That was an extreme example. |
| 00:39:35 |
- I'm sorry. |
| 00:39:37 |
What I... My point was, you know... |
| 00:39:39 |
...to truly communicate with |
| 00:39:42 |
No, I know, most of our |
| 00:39:45 |
Yeah, no, I mean... |
| 00:39:47 |
...not to bring everything back to sex... |
| 00:39:50 |
No, this example, this friend of mine, |
| 00:39:53 |
- She and her boyfriend... Problems in bed. |
| 00:39:56 |
And how when they had been dating |
| 00:40:00 |
...what he could do to please her more, |
| 00:40:03 |
- Why? |
| 00:40:04 |
He thought it meant |
| 00:40:07 |
Maybe she shouldn't have |
| 00:40:09 |
- After a year... |
| 00:40:11 |
- What, more than women? |
| 00:40:14 |
- You think so? |
| 00:40:16 |
Well, maybe it's because, you know... |
| 00:40:18 |
...men are easier to... To please. |
| 00:40:23 |
- Well, I don't know. |
| 00:40:26 |
Anyway, this friend, |
| 00:40:28 |
...next time she dates a man, |
| 00:40:32 |
...about what they like and dislike... |
| 00:40:36 |
Yeah, mostly written down. |
| 00:40:37 |
But it wouldn't be just yes or no. |
| 00:40:41 |
Like, for example, if the question is: |
| 00:40:45 |
The answer could be: "No, but a good |
| 00:40:50 |
Right, or like: |
| 00:40:54 |
- That kind of thing? |
| 00:40:57 |
Just "What specific word |
| 00:41:00 |
- What, me? |
| 00:41:02 |
For example what specific word |
| 00:41:04 |
I don't know. |
| 00:41:07 |
What do you feel about the word |
| 00:41:10 |
I love it. |
| 00:41:13 |
Good. |
| 00:41:15 |
It's amazing what perverts we've |
| 00:41:18 |
At least now we don't have to pretend |
| 00:41:22 |
...is, like, a life-altering event. |
| 00:41:24 |
I know. By now, you've stuck it in |
| 00:41:27 |
And I can't realistically expect you've |
| 00:41:31 |
- Yeah, thank you. |
| 00:41:35 |
- That's true. What can you do? |
| 00:41:38 |
So, what kind of songs do you write? |
| 00:41:42 |
- What kind? |
| 00:41:44 |
- I don't know, just songs. |
| 00:41:46 |
Like, some are about, |
| 00:41:48 |
Relationships. One's about my cat. |
| 00:41:50 |
- Sing one. |
| 00:41:53 |
- Come on. A cappella. |
| 00:41:55 |
I'm not singing a song without a guitar. |
| 00:41:58 |
Why not? |
| 00:42:00 |
- No, okay. Not now. No. |
| 00:42:03 |
If not now, when? You want to meet |
| 00:42:06 |
I'll fly all the way over here. |
| 00:42:08 |
- You may or may not make the Métro. |
| 00:42:12 |
- We've got to get back. |
| 00:42:14 |
- You're gonna miss your flight. |
| 00:42:16 |
We can walk down La Seine. |
| 00:42:18 |
Okay. |
| 00:42:20 |
- So you're flying back to New York? |
| 00:42:26 |
So I read in that article that |
| 00:42:30 |
Yeah, he's... He's 4. |
| 00:42:33 |
- What's his name? |
| 00:42:35 |
- He's so much fun. |
| 00:42:38 |
- Your wife, what does she do? |
| 00:42:41 |
- Do you have kids? |
| 00:42:44 |
- What? |
| 00:42:46 |
With the windows up, six months ago! |
| 00:42:49 |
No, I'm kidding. |
| 00:42:51 |
- I'm just not ready yet. |
| 00:42:53 |
- I'm in a good relationship, though. |
| 00:42:57 |
- What's he do? |
| 00:42:59 |
He does war coverage. |
| 00:43:01 |
He's away a lot, which is good |
| 00:43:04 |
But isn't that dangerous? Aren't a lot of |
| 00:43:08 |
He promises me he doesn't take risks, |
| 00:43:11 |
He goes in this trance when |
| 00:43:14 |
- What do you mean? |
| 00:43:18 |
...and we passed a bum on the... |
| 00:43:19 |
- A bomb? |
| 00:43:22 |
All right, right. |
| 00:43:23 |
He looked like he needed help, but his |
| 00:43:27 |
He went really close to his face, |
| 00:43:30 |
...totally detached from the person. |
| 00:43:32 |
But don't you have to be like that |
| 00:43:35 |
Yeah, I mean, I'm not... |
| 00:43:37 |
I'm not judging him. |
| 00:43:40 |
All I'm saying is that |
| 00:43:42 |
Let's get on that boat. Come on. |
| 00:43:44 |
- No! |
| 00:43:46 |
- You don't have time! |
| 00:43:48 |
I've got 5 more minutes. |
| 00:43:51 |
- Yeah. |
| 00:43:53 |
I can call him to pick us up |
| 00:43:56 |
I've never been on those boats. |
| 00:44:00 |
Okay. All right. |
| 00:44:04 |
No, I'll get it, I'll get it. |
| 00:44:07 |
All right. All right, all right. |
| 00:44:13 |
Thank you. |
| 00:44:14 |
- So are you in love with that guy? |
| 00:44:17 |
- The war photographer. |
| 00:44:24 |
So do you have that cell phone? |
| 00:44:26 |
Oh, yeah. |
| 00:44:28 |
- Okay, let's see... |
| 00:44:30 |
What do I tell him? |
| 00:44:32 |
Tell him to pick you up at |
| 00:44:34 |
Oh, shit. Quai...? |
| 00:44:37 |
Henri Quatre. Quai Henri Quatre. |
| 00:44:40 |
Henri Quatre. |
| 00:44:42 |
What's wrong with you? No, do you |
| 00:44:45 |
- Henry Four? |
| 00:44:47 |
- Come on, why didn't you say so? |
| 00:45:02 |
Yeah, is this Philippe? |
| 00:45:04 |
Yeah. Philippe, this is Jesse Wallace. |
| 00:45:07 |
Yeah. |
| 00:45:08 |
Well, listen, I'm on |
| 00:45:13 |
And we're gonna arrive at Henry Four. |
| 00:45:16 |
At Port Henry Four. |
| 00:45:19 |
All right, great. |
| 00:45:22 |
Yeah, so we'll be there in... |
| 00:45:25 |
Okay. Au revoir. |
| 00:45:29 |
- It's okay? |
| 00:45:31 |
Oh, wow. |
| 00:45:33 |
- Notre Dame, man. Check that out. |
| 00:45:36 |
I heard this story once about when |
| 00:45:41 |
...and they had to retreat back. |
| 00:45:42 |
They wired Notre Dame to blow... |
| 00:45:44 |
...but they had to leave one guy |
| 00:45:49 |
And the guy, the soldier, |
| 00:45:52 |
He just sat there, knocked out |
| 00:45:56 |
Then, when the Allied troops |
| 00:45:58 |
...they found all the explosives |
| 00:46:02 |
...and they found the same thing |
| 00:46:06 |
...couple other places, I think. |
| 00:46:08 |
Is that true? |
| 00:46:10 |
I don't know. |
| 00:46:13 |
Yeah, that's a great story. |
| 00:46:15 |
But you have to think that Notre Dame |
| 00:46:18 |
There used to be another church |
| 00:46:21 |
- What, right in the same spot? |
| 00:46:26 |
You know, this is great. |
| 00:46:28 |
- Yeah. |
| 00:46:31 |
It's not so bad, being a tourist. |
| 00:46:33 |
- Thanks for getting me on the boat. |
| 00:46:36 |
I think that book that I wrote |
| 00:46:39 |
...so that I wouldn't forget the details |
| 00:46:43 |
You know, like, just as a reminder, |
| 00:46:47 |
You know, that this was real, |
| 00:46:50 |
I'm happy you're saying that, |
| 00:46:53 |
I mean, I always feel like a freak because |
| 00:46:58 |
People just have an affair, |
| 00:47:01 |
...they break up and they forget. |
| 00:47:04 |
They move on like they would have |
| 00:47:09 |
I feel I was never able to forget |
| 00:47:12 |
...because each person had their own |
| 00:47:18 |
You can never replace anyone. |
| 00:47:24 |
Each relationship, when it ends, |
| 00:47:28 |
That's why I'm very careful |
| 00:47:31 |
...because it hurts too much. |
| 00:47:34 |
Even getting laid, |
| 00:47:37 |
...because I will miss of the person |
| 00:47:40 |
Like I'm obsessed with little things. |
| 00:47:43 |
Maybe I'm crazy, |
| 00:47:46 |
...my mom told me |
| 00:47:49 |
One day she followed me to see why. |
| 00:47:51 |
I was looking at chestnuts falling from |
| 00:47:56 |
...or ants crossing the road, the way |
| 00:48:02 |
Little things. |
| 00:48:04 |
I think it's the same with people. |
| 00:48:07 |
I see in them little details, |
| 00:48:10 |
...that move me and that I miss |
| 00:48:14 |
You can never replace anyone... |
| 00:48:16 |
...because everyone is made of such |
| 00:48:23 |
Like, I remember the way your beard |
| 00:48:27 |
...and how the sun |
| 00:48:30 |
...that morning right before you left. |
| 00:48:34 |
I remembered that, and I missed it. |
| 00:48:38 |
Really crazy, right? |
| 00:48:40 |
Now I know for sure. You wanna |
| 00:48:44 |
- Why? |
| 00:48:47 |
...and I could walk up to you and ask, |
| 00:48:52 |
No... You think I'd be here today? |
| 00:48:54 |
I'm serious. I think I wrote it, |
| 00:48:59 |
Okay, that's... I know that's not true... |
| 00:49:01 |
...but that's sweet of you. |
| 00:49:03 |
What were the chances |
| 00:49:07 |
After that December, |
| 00:49:10 |
But we're not real anyway, right? |
| 00:49:13 |
We're just characters |
| 00:49:16 |
She's on her deathbed, |
| 00:49:19 |
So of course we had to meet again. |
| 00:49:21 |
Oh, God. Why weren't you there |
| 00:49:26 |
- I told you why. |
| 00:49:30 |
I wish you would have been. |
| 00:49:32 |
Our lives might have been |
| 00:49:35 |
You think so? |
| 00:49:37 |
I actually do. |
| 00:49:39 |
Maybe not. Maybe we would have |
| 00:49:42 |
What, like we hate each other now? |
| 00:49:46 |
You know, maybe we're... |
| 00:49:51 |
...walking around in European cities, |
| 00:49:55 |
Oh, God. Why didn't we |
| 00:49:59 |
Why didn't we do that? |
| 00:50:01 |
Because we were young and stupid. |
| 00:50:04 |
Do you think we still are? |
| 00:50:06 |
I guess when you're young |
| 00:50:08 |
...there'll be many people |
| 00:50:11 |
Later in life you realize |
| 00:50:14 |
And you can screw it up, you know. |
| 00:50:18 |
The past is the past. |
| 00:50:21 |
You really believe that? |
| 00:50:24 |
Well, you know, the world might be |
| 00:50:28 |
Yeah? |
| 00:50:30 |
When given these exact circumstances, |
| 00:50:34 |
Two part hydrogen, one part oxygen, |
| 00:50:37 |
No, I mean, what if your grandmother |
| 00:50:41 |
Or passed away a week earlier? |
| 00:50:43 |
Things might have been different. |
| 00:50:45 |
- You can't think like that, it's... |
| 00:50:49 |
It's just, on this one, it seemed like |
| 00:50:55 |
In the months leading up to my wedding, |
| 00:50:59 |
Even on my way there, I'm in the car, a |
| 00:51:03 |
...and I'm staring out the window |
| 00:51:06 |
...not far from the church, right... |
| 00:51:08 |
...folding up an umbrella |
| 00:51:11 |
...on the corner of 3th and Broadway. |
| 00:51:15 |
And I thought I was going crazy. |
| 00:51:19 |
I lived on th and Broadway. |
| 00:51:23 |
You see? |
| 00:51:26 |
So, what is it like to be married? |
| 00:51:30 |
I haven't? How weird. |
| 00:51:34 |
I don't know. We met, you know, |
| 00:51:39 |
And we broke up and got back together |
| 00:51:46 |
What? We were sort of back together |
| 00:51:50 |
...so marriage. |
| 00:51:52 |
What is she like? |
| 00:51:54 |
She's a great teacher, a good mom. |
| 00:51:58 |
She's smart, pretty, you know. |
| 00:52:01 |
I remember thinking at the time... |
| 00:52:03 |
...that so many of the men |
| 00:52:06 |
...that their lives were dedicated to |
| 00:52:11 |
So you got married because |
| 00:52:14 |
No, no. It's more like I had this... |
| 00:52:21 |
And I wanted to pursue that... |
| 00:52:22 |
...even if it might have been |
| 00:52:25 |
You know what I'm saying? |
| 00:52:27 |
In the moment, I remember thinking |
| 00:52:32 |
I mean, that nobody is gonna be |
| 00:52:34 |
...and that it's just the action |
| 00:52:37 |
...you know, meeting |
| 00:52:41 |
I mean, what is love, right, |
| 00:52:45 |
And I... I felt all those things. |
| 00:52:48 |
Cut to the present, |
| 00:52:51 |
...with somebody I used to date, |
| 00:52:54 |
I mean, I'm like a monk, you know. |
| 00:52:56 |
I mean, I've had sex less than 0 times |
| 00:53:01 |
- What, what? You laughing at me? |
| 00:53:04 |
- It sounds pathetic? |
| 00:53:07 |
Okay, you're right, I'm doing better |
| 00:53:11 |
But I do, I feel like if somebody |
| 00:53:13 |
...I would dissolve into molecules. |
| 00:53:16 |
Well, we're here. We've gotta go. |
| 00:53:19 |
Shit. |
| 00:53:33 |
- I'm sorry to hear that, you know. |
| 00:53:36 |
You're not that happy |
| 00:53:39 |
- This friend of mine, she's a shrink... |
| 00:53:42 |
She's a mess, but... |
| 00:53:44 |
No, she said she's been dealing |
| 00:53:47 |
...for the same reason. |
| 00:53:50 |
They all expected, after a few |
| 00:53:53 |
...for the passion, that desire, |
| 00:53:55 |
- Yeah, right. |
| 00:53:57 |
And thank God... |
| 00:53:58 |
...we'd end up with aneurysms in that |
| 00:54:02 |
We'd do nothing at all |
| 00:54:04 |
Would you have finished your book |
| 00:54:08 |
I might have welcomed the challenge, |
| 00:54:11 |
It's natural for your wife |
| 00:54:14 |
...to give all her love to the little one. |
| 00:54:16 |
If she was obsessed with sex, |
| 00:54:20 |
That wouldn't make any sense, right? |
| 00:54:22 |
Everything you're saying makes sense. |
| 00:54:25 |
No, I know. It's obvious. |
| 00:54:28 |
I... |
| 00:54:30 |
You know, couples |
| 00:54:34 |
I think it must be that... |
| 00:54:36 |
...men need to feel essential |
| 00:54:40 |
It's been imprinted in their head |
| 00:54:43 |
...that they had to be the provider. |
| 00:54:45 |
Like, I'm a strong, independent woman |
| 00:54:49 |
I don't need a man to feed me... |
| 00:54:51 |
...but I still need a man to love me |
| 00:54:55 |
- So your driver's here. |
| 00:54:58 |
Well, I guess this is goodbye. |
| 00:55:00 |
- You better give me your... |
| 00:55:02 |
Why don't we just |
| 00:55:04 |
- Well, I can take the Métro. I'm fine. |
| 00:55:07 |
My flight's not until 0. |
| 00:55:10 |
This way we can keep talking. |
| 00:55:11 |
- Monsieur, can...? |
| 00:55:28 |
You told him where you are |
| 00:55:30 |
Yeah. |
| 00:55:35 |
- He knows where he's going? |
| 00:55:38 |
Glad somebody does. |
| 00:55:40 |
- But this is better than the Métro, right? |
| 00:55:47 |
I was thinking, for me it's better I don't |
| 00:55:51 |
I was suffering so much all the time. |
| 00:55:53 |
I still have lots of dreams, |
| 00:55:57 |
It doesn't make me sad, |
| 00:56:00 |
Is that why you're in a relationship |
| 00:56:04 |
Yes, obviously I can't deal with |
| 00:56:08 |
Yeah, we have this |
| 00:56:10 |
...and he leaves and I miss him, |
| 00:56:14 |
When someone's always around me, |
| 00:56:16 |
No, wait, you just said |
| 00:56:19 |
Yeah, but when I do, |
| 00:56:22 |
It's a disaster. |
| 00:56:24 |
I mean, I'm really happy |
| 00:56:27 |
Even being alone, it's better than sitting |
| 00:56:32 |
It's not so easy for me |
| 00:56:35 |
You start off that way, and after |
| 00:56:38 |
...you forget about your delusional ideas |
| 00:56:43 |
That's not even true. |
| 00:56:46 |
...I've just had too many |
| 00:56:48 |
They weren't mean, |
| 00:56:50 |
...but there were no real connection |
| 00:56:54 |
At least, not from my side. |
| 00:56:56 |
God, I'm sorry, is it really that bad? |
| 00:56:59 |
It's not, right? |
| 00:57:03 |
You know, it's not even that. |
| 00:57:06 |
I was fine until I read |
| 00:57:09 |
It stirred shit up, you know? |
| 00:57:11 |
It reminded me how |
| 00:57:14 |
...how I had so much hope in things... |
| 00:57:16 |
...and now it's like I don't believe |
| 00:57:20 |
I don't feel things for people anymore. |
| 00:57:23 |
In a way, I put all my romanticism |
| 00:57:27 |
...and I was never able to feel |
| 00:57:30 |
Like, somehow this night |
| 00:57:32 |
...and I expressed them to you, |
| 00:57:35 |
It made me feel cold, |
| 00:57:37 |
I don't believe that. |
| 00:57:41 |
You know what? Reality and love |
| 00:57:45 |
It's funny, every single of my exes, |
| 00:57:50 |
Men go out with me, we break up, |
| 00:57:53 |
And later they call me to thank me |
| 00:57:57 |
...and that I taught them to care |
| 00:57:59 |
- I think I'm one of those. |
| 00:58:02 |
Why didn't they ask me? I would have |
| 00:58:06 |
I know it's my fault because |
| 00:58:10 |
Never. But what does it mean, |
| 00:58:13 |
The concept is absurd. We can only be |
| 00:58:17 |
- It's evil, right? |
| 00:58:19 |
I guess I've been heartbroken |
| 00:58:23 |
So now, you know, from the starts, |
| 00:58:26 |
- I know it's not gonna work out. |
| 00:58:29 |
You can't live trying to avoid pain... |
| 00:58:31 |
...at the expense... |
| 00:58:33 |
I've gotta get away from you. |
| 00:58:34 |
- Stop the car, I wanna get out. |
| 00:58:37 |
- Keep talking. |
| 00:58:39 |
Don't touch me, you know. |
| 00:58:44 |
No, don't. No, no, keep going. |
| 00:58:46 |
Listen, I'm just so happy... |
| 00:58:50 |
All right. |
| 00:58:53 |
Look, I'm just so happy, |
| 00:58:57 |
I am. I'm so glad you didn't |
| 00:59:01 |
No, I didn't. |
| 00:59:04 |
You come here to Paris, |
| 00:59:07 |
Okay? Screw you. |
| 00:59:10 |
Don't get me wrong, |
| 00:59:12 |
I mean, all I need is a married man. |
| 00:59:15 |
There's been so much water under |
| 00:59:19 |
It's about that moment in time |
| 00:59:21 |
You say that, but you didn't |
| 00:59:25 |
Of course I remembered. |
| 00:59:29 |
- You did? |
| 00:59:31 |
- Women pretend things like that. |
| 00:59:35 |
What was I supposed to say? |
| 00:59:39 |
...and us looking up at the stars fading |
| 00:59:43 |
We had sex twice, you idiot! |
| 00:59:47 |
All right, you know what, |
| 00:59:51 |
Even if you've become an angry, |
| 00:59:55 |
...I still like you, |
| 00:59:59 |
And I feel the same. I'm sorry. |
| 01:00:04 |
- I had to let it all out. |
| 01:00:06 |
I'm so miserable in my love life, |
| 01:00:09 |
I always act as... |
| 01:00:12 |
But I'm dying inside. |
| 01:00:16 |
I don't feel pain or excitement, |
| 01:00:20 |
You think you're the one |
| 01:00:22 |
My life is 24/7 bad. |
| 01:00:27 |
- I'm sorry. |
| 01:00:28 |
I mean, the only happiness I get |
| 01:00:31 |
I've been to marriage counseling... |
| 01:00:33 |
...I've done things I never thought |
| 01:00:36 |
I've lit candles, |
| 01:00:39 |
- Did the candles help? |
| 01:00:42 |
I don't love her the way |
| 01:00:44 |
...and I don't even see a future for us, |
| 01:00:49 |
...sitting across from me, |
| 01:00:53 |
...to be with him for |
| 01:00:55 |
I don't want to miss out on one. |
| 01:00:57 |
But then, there's no joy or laughter |
| 01:01:02 |
- I don't want him growing up in that. |
| 01:01:06 |
My parents have been |
| 01:01:08 |
...and even when they fight |
| 01:01:10 |
I don't want to be one of those people |
| 01:01:14 |
...and falling down into tears, admitting |
| 01:01:19 |
...and they feel their life has been |
| 01:01:24 |
You know, I want a great life. |
| 01:01:28 |
...she deserves that. |
| 01:01:30 |
But we're just living in the pretense |
| 01:01:34 |
...you know, all these ideas |
| 01:01:39 |
But then I... I have these dreams... |
| 01:01:45 |
What dreams? |
| 01:01:46 |
I have these dreams, |
| 01:01:50 |
...I'm standing on a platform... |
| 01:01:54 |
...and you keep going by on a train... |
| 01:01:57 |
...and you go by, and you go by, |
| 01:02:01 |
And I wake up with |
| 01:02:03 |
And then I have this other dream... |
| 01:02:06 |
...where you're pregnant in bed |
| 01:02:10 |
...and I want so badly to touch you, but |
| 01:02:14 |
And I... And I touch you anyway... |
| 01:02:19 |
...right on your ankle, and your skin is |
| 01:02:24 |
My wife is there looking at me, |
| 01:02:27 |
And I know that there's |
| 01:02:32 |
God, that I can't keep living like this... |
| 01:02:34 |
...that there's gotta be more to love |
| 01:02:37 |
But then I think that |
| 01:02:40 |
...on the whole idea of romantic love. |
| 01:02:42 |
That I might have put it |
| 01:02:45 |
That day when you weren't there. |
| 01:02:48 |
You know, I think I might |
| 01:02:52 |
Why are you telling me all this? |
| 01:02:55 |
I'm sorry. I don't know. |
| 01:03:00 |
I shouldn't have. |
| 01:03:03 |
You know, it's so weird. |
| 01:03:04 |
People think they are the only one |
| 01:03:09 |
I mean, when I read the article, |
| 01:03:13 |
A wife, a kid, published author. |
| 01:03:18 |
But your personal life |
| 01:03:21 |
I'm sorry. |
| 01:03:24 |
Well, I'm glad it's good for something. |
| 01:03:30 |
- This is where you live? |
| 01:03:34 |
So you're just relieved that I'm |
| 01:03:38 |
Yes, you've made me feel better. |
| 01:03:40 |
Oh, good, I'm glad. |
| 01:03:43 |
No, I really wish you the best. |
| 01:03:45 |
It's not because I'm incapable of having |
| 01:03:49 |
...that I wish everyone to be |
| 01:03:51 |
I'm sure you'd make... Be |
| 01:03:54 |
- Really? You think so? |
| 01:03:56 |
...a few antidepressants, you know, |
| 01:03:59 |
- Okay, say stop. |
| 01:04:03 |
- Okay. |
| 01:04:16 |
- So I want to try something. |
| 01:04:22 |
I want to see if you stay together |
| 01:04:28 |
How am I doing? |
| 01:04:30 |
Still here. |
| 01:04:32 |
Good. I like being here. |
| 01:04:38 |
Is this your apartment? |
| 01:04:40 |
No, I live down there. |
| 01:04:42 |
- Down there? |
| 01:04:44 |
Monsieur, I'm gonna walk her |
| 01:04:55 |
This is incredible. |
| 01:04:57 |
- This is where you live? |
| 01:05:00 |
- How long have you been here? |
| 01:05:05 |
- So tell me... |
| 01:05:07 |
Is it all true about your dreams... |
| 01:05:09 |
...or did you say that to hopefully |
| 01:05:12 |
I said that to get in your pants. |
| 01:05:13 |
- I use that all the time. |
| 01:05:16 |
You know. Sometimes. |
| 01:05:20 |
Here's my kitty. Oh, so cute. |
| 01:05:24 |
You know what I love |
| 01:05:26 |
Every morning I bring him |
| 01:05:28 |
...and every single morning he looks |
| 01:05:33 |
Every corner, every tree, every plant. |
| 01:05:38 |
Smells everything |
| 01:05:40 |
Oh, I love my kitty. I love my kitty. |
| 01:05:45 |
- What's his name? |
| 01:05:48 |
Che? |
| 01:05:52 |
- What? |
| 01:05:55 |
No, "che" in Argentina means "hey. " |
| 01:05:59 |
- Okay. |
| 01:06:01 |
Oh, baby. Oh, yes, yes, yes. |
| 01:06:08 |
We're having a little party. |
| 01:06:22 |
- So... |
| 01:06:40 |
You know what? I was thinking, |
| 01:06:45 |
- You're gonna miss your flight. |
| 01:06:47 |
I'm gonna be in the airport for |
| 01:06:50 |
...wishing you'd played me |
| 01:06:54 |
One song? Okay, but quickly. |
| 01:06:56 |
Okay. |
| 01:07:03 |
God, I love these old staircases. |
| 01:07:45 |
- Hold this. |
| 01:07:47 |
Hey there, buddy. |
| 01:07:50 |
Che. |
| 01:08:04 |
- Would you like some tea? |
| 01:08:08 |
Wow. |
| 01:08:11 |
- Is chamomile okay? |
| 01:08:14 |
- Merci. |
| 01:08:17 |
- You think my apartment is messy? |
| 01:08:21 |
- Merci beaucoup. |
| 01:08:24 |
I meant to tell you, |
| 01:08:28 |
- Really? |
| 01:08:30 |
Yeah, you've really |
| 01:08:33 |
All right, all right, what song |
| 01:08:38 |
No, I can't. It's too embarrassing. |
| 01:08:42 |
Whoa. No way. No way. I came up here, |
| 01:08:45 |
One song. Anything will be great. |
| 01:08:48 |
But listen, you're gonna laugh at me. |
| 01:08:50 |
- You think so? |
| 01:08:51 |
I doubt it. |
| 01:08:56 |
Okay. |
| 01:08:58 |
What do you want to hear? I have... |
| 01:09:00 |
I have three songs in English. |
| 01:09:03 |
One's about my cat... |
| 01:09:04 |
...one's about my ex-boyfriend... |
| 01:09:09 |
...and there's one about... |
| 01:09:11 |
Well, it's just a little waltz. |
| 01:09:15 |
A waltz? Yeah. |
| 01:09:17 |
- Play the waltz. |
| 01:09:20 |
I haven't played it in a while. |
| 01:09:25 |
Okay. |
| 01:09:28 |
All right, the waltz. |
| 01:09:42 |
Let me sing you a waltz |
| 01:09:47 |
Out of nowhere, out of my thoughts |
| 01:09:52 |
Let me sing you a waltz |
| 01:09:56 |
About this one-night stand |
| 01:10:01 |
You were, for me, that night |
| 01:10:07 |
Everything I always dreamt of in life |
| 01:10:13 |
But now you're gone |
| 01:10:17 |
You are far-gone |
| 01:10:22 |
All the way to your island of rain |
| 01:10:27 |
It was, for you, just a one-night thing |
| 01:10:33 |
But you were much more to me |
| 01:10:36 |
Just so you know |
| 01:10:40 |
I don't care what they say |
| 01:10:43 |
I know what you meant |
| 01:10:48 |
I just want another try |
| 01:10:54 |
I just want another night |
| 01:11:00 |
Even if it doesn't seem quite right |
| 01:11:06 |
You meant, for me, much more |
| 01:11:10 |
Than anyone I've met before |
| 01:11:15 |
One single night with you, little Jesse |
| 01:11:21 |
Is worth a thousand with anybody |
| 01:11:27 |
I have no bitterness, my sweet |
| 01:11:31 |
I'll never forget this one-night thing |
| 01:11:36 |
Even tomorrow, in other arms |
| 01:11:43 |
My heart will stay yours until I die |
| 01:11:53 |
Let me sing you a waltz |
| 01:11:58 |
Out of nowhere, out of my blues |
| 01:12:03 |
Let me sing you a waltz |
| 01:12:08 |
About this lovely one-night stand |
| 01:12:30 |
- No, one more! Please, please. |
| 01:12:34 |
One... One song. No, no, no. |
| 01:12:37 |
You can have your tea and then... |
| 01:12:45 |
- All right, let me ask you one question. |
| 01:12:47 |
Do you just plug that name in |
| 01:12:51 |
Yes, of course. |
| 01:12:53 |
What do you think, that I wrote |
| 01:13:01 |
Is this you? Little cross-eyed Celine? |
| 01:13:04 |
- Yes. That's funny. |
| 01:13:08 |
- Is that your grandmother? |
| 01:13:13 |
Oh, wow. |
| 01:13:15 |
- You want some honey? |
| 01:14:08 |
Did you ever see Nina Simone |
| 01:14:11 |
No, I never did. |
| 01:14:14 |
I know, it's so sad. |
| 01:14:16 |
Thanks. |
| 01:14:18 |
It's hot. |
| 01:14:22 |
I saw her twice in concert. |
| 01:14:25 |
She was so great. |
| 01:14:28 |
That's one of my favorite songs of hers. |
| 01:14:47 |
She was so great. |
| 01:14:50 |
She was so funny in concert too. |
| 01:14:52 |
She would... She would be |
| 01:14:57 |
...you know, stop... |
| 01:14:59 |
...and walk from the piano all the way |
| 01:15:03 |
Like, really slowly. |
| 01:15:08 |
And she'd start talking to someone |
| 01:15:12 |
"Oh, yeah, baby. Oh, yeah. |
| 01:15:16 |
I love you too. " |
| 01:15:19 |
And then she'd walk back. |
| 01:15:23 |
She had that big, cute ass. |
| 01:15:27 |
She would move. |
| 01:15:30 |
And then she would go back to the piano |
| 01:15:36 |
And then she would, I don't know... |
| 01:15:38 |
...just start another song |
| 01:15:41 |
You know, like, |
| 01:15:45 |
"You over there, |
| 01:15:50 |
You're cute. |
| 01:16:13 |
Oh, yeah. " |
| 01:16:19 |
Baby, you are gonna miss that plane. |
| 01:16:24 |
I know. |
| 01:20:11 |
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