Dear Mr

en
00:00:43 Man:
00:00:45 when the killing spree of
00:00:49 as Chicago police arrested him
00:00:51 and began digging up bodies he
00:00:54 Man #2:
00:00:56 Some of the bodies were clothed
00:00:57 and three of the bodies had
00:01:01 Woman:
00:01:03 and his victims were all boys
00:01:07 Man: He says he's a victim
00:01:10 and he says the families
00:01:12 because they don't know who
00:01:13 Woman: Testimony provided
00:01:16 of the worst mass killer
00:01:18 33 families...
00:01:20 Woman #2: When you have a child
00:01:22 it's like a huge piece
00:01:24 Woman #3: Cook County sheriff's
00:01:27 of a teenaged boy
00:01:29 in the crawl space
00:01:32 The owner of the house is local contractor
00:01:36 The bodies of 28 victims have
00:01:38 Man: He knew exactly what he was doing;
00:01:41 he carried it out
00:01:44 Man #2:spree was initially uncovered
00:01:46 when the first of his victims
00:01:49 beneath his suburban Chicago home.
00:01:50 Woman: In the crawl space,
00:01:52 dug up a few days before Christmas,
00:01:55 The bodies of 28 victims
00:01:58 another five retrieved
00:02:00 Man: Tuesday, four bodies;
00:02:03 and today, six bodies.
00:02:05 Man #2: Skeletonized remains
00:02:08 Reporter: At one point he told police
00:02:11 Now he's telling me he never did.
00:02:14 John Wayne Gacy was
00:02:16 for the rape and murder
00:02:20 many of whom he buried
00:02:23 while others were found
00:02:26 That was 13 years ago
00:02:27 and today attorneys have filed
00:02:30 with the Seventh Circuit Court
00:02:32 while Gacy remains on death row
00:02:34 at the Menard Correctional Center
00:02:36 The US Court of Appeals
00:02:40 a move that could clear
00:02:44 Who are they talking about?
00:02:46 Gacy.
00:02:49 Reporter: About what it's like to
00:02:51 Due to be executed in six months...
00:02:53 Feet off the coffee table.
00:02:56 Gacy: No, I don't sit around
00:02:59 See, I'm a PMA kind of person...
00:03:03 I don't have time
00:03:05 This guy's been in prison since '78
00:03:08 The reason it takes so long is
00:03:11 Reporter: And refuses to cooperate
00:03:14 This thing that I did...
00:03:15 no, if I'm guilty of anything, it's operating
00:03:20 And you want a career
00:03:22 These people are
00:03:24 Okay, Mom.
00:03:26 Gacy:
00:03:27 I'm an embarrassment to
00:03:30 because it's easier to kill me now
00:03:32 than to admit that they screwed up
00:03:35 Reporter: Authorities have tried
00:03:38 to elicit a detailed
00:03:41 but he has remained tight-lipped
00:03:46 With time running out
00:03:49 the truth may never be revealed.
00:03:52 Antisocial Personality Disorder,
00:03:55 or APD,
00:03:57 is characterized by a lack of regard
00:04:02 in a given culture.
00:04:04 There's also an inability
00:04:08 as well as to abide
00:04:11 Now individuals with this disorder
00:04:13 are often referred to as psychopaths
00:04:18 Yes, Jason?
00:04:20 Doesn't the DSM have
00:04:23 that includes people who commit illegal,
00:04:26 but they're not necessarily
00:04:30 What's the DSM?
00:04:33 Oh, would you care to
00:04:37 Sure, it's the Diagnostic and
00:04:42 And although it has some
00:04:44 and is considered culturally biased,
00:04:46 it is the major resource
00:04:50 - Well, thank you, Professor Moss.
00:04:52 Well, that's not precisely correct,
00:04:55 but I'd say it's close enough.
00:04:59 Uh, okay look,
00:05:02 so why don't we stop there
00:05:05 Thank you.
00:05:09 - I'll catch up with you, okay?
00:05:13 Professor Harris?
00:05:15 Can I talk to you
00:05:17 Term paper? That's not due
00:05:20 Yeah, I know. I just... I want
00:05:24 Sure. What's your question?
00:05:26 So I want to do my paper
00:05:28 Gacy?
00:05:31 - Um...
00:05:33 Well, there's a thousand angles
00:05:37 um, capital punishment from
00:05:41 does Gacy fit the typical FBI profile
00:05:44 And he's... he's scheduled
00:05:47 so he might be more willing
00:05:49 You know, Jason, I've read
00:05:53 and quite frankly, I think
00:05:57 You're gonna have to demonstrate
00:06:04 Okay?
00:06:08 Okay.
00:06:10 I'll work on it.
00:06:13 And don't forget, this paper counts
00:06:17 Yeah. Yeah, I'm not worried.
00:06:22 (machine humming)
00:06:22 (machine humming)
00:06:58 Woman:
00:07:00 Gacy:
00:07:01 He had to make a delivery
00:07:03 What kind of damage is
00:07:06 I think he was talking about tearing down
00:07:09 All right, I'll go take a look.
00:07:12 Hey.
00:07:16 Girl:
00:07:19 No, not yet.
00:07:22 - You?
00:07:24 Boy:
00:07:26 How much you make
00:07:28 $2.50.
00:07:29 You know, I pay my guys $7.50.
00:07:32 Really?
00:07:34 You interested?
00:08:05 Oh shit.
00:08:25 Hey.
00:08:27 Where the fuck were you?
00:08:29 I know, man, I'm sorry.
00:08:35 Look at me. Hey.
00:08:38 What the fu...
00:08:40 Alex, why does that guy
00:08:42 Just drive, okay?
00:08:45 - Later.
00:08:51 I'm sorry I was late.
00:09:19 You guys are late.
00:09:21 Jason:
00:09:23 Alex, take your hat off at the table.
00:09:27 - So how was school, boys?
00:09:29 Good.
00:09:30 Did you hear me?
00:09:32 Father:
00:09:38 What the hell happened
00:09:41 - Nothing.
00:09:43 It doesn't look like nothing to me.
00:09:46 It's not a big deal, Mom, okay?
00:09:48 He just got into it
00:09:50 You should see the other kid.
00:09:54 - I don't support violence in this house.
00:09:57 Don't get smart with me.
00:10:00 Pass the salad.
00:10:03 - So guess what?
00:10:06 I'm gonna write a letter
00:10:10 Father:
00:10:12 He's a psychotic murderer, Frank.
00:10:14 You don't know who
00:10:17 So why are you contacting
00:10:22 For my criminology class.
00:10:24 Cool.
00:10:27 Mother:
00:10:29 Come on, Valerie,
00:10:32 Let him write the letter.
00:10:34 - I don't care. The answer is no.
00:10:37 - No, I'm telling you...
00:10:39 my name is Jason Moss
00:10:42 I'm writing because I thought you might
00:10:46 and might want someone
00:10:49 I've been seeing you on TV a lot lately
00:10:52 and I wanted
00:10:54 as I'm sure most of what the media
00:11:00 At the moment I live at home
00:11:02 And if they found out I was writing
00:11:06 But my mom is pretty much against
00:11:09 so what's the difference?
00:11:11 I have to admit that
00:11:14 I barely graduated from high school,
00:11:18 But I'm just gonna go
00:11:22 and then when I can get
00:11:24 I'll move out.
00:11:26 I can't wait.
00:11:29 At this point, I don't really know what
00:11:33 If you should need anything like paper
00:11:36 I'd be happy to help.
00:11:38 I'm sure there are
00:11:40 but I hope you take the time
00:11:43 You'll see that
00:11:45 I look forward
00:11:48 Your friend, Jason Moss.
00:11:52 Gacy: Look, Sam, I need to know how long
00:11:56 (door buzzes)
00:11:57 I mean on average...
00:12:00 (keys jangle, lock turns)
00:12:02 I know that, Sam.
00:12:04 how much time it's gonna buy me,
00:12:07 I know you're working hard.
00:12:10 I know that.
00:12:12 Listen to me, buddy,
00:12:14 you've got to know
00:12:18 All right, all right.
00:12:21 All right, keep me posted.
00:12:26 Good news?
00:12:29 (chuckles)
00:12:30 He's an attorney;
00:12:33 But no worries.
00:12:36 You know me, Stan.
00:12:38 I got friends in high places
00:12:41 I'm sure it'll all work out then.
00:12:43 Yeah, it's no problem, buddy.
00:13:03 (door buzzes)
00:13:14 (inhales)
00:13:53 Man on TV:
00:13:55 In the summer of 1985,
00:13:57 Southern California was held hostage
00:14:02 a phantom killer who cloaked
00:14:05 and soon became known as...
00:14:11 (opening letter)
00:14:24 What the fuck?
00:14:32 Look at this.
00:14:39 - What is this?
00:14:41 Where'd you get it?
00:14:43 It's from John Wayne Gacy.
00:14:47 The serial killer?
00:14:51 Yeah.
00:14:53 I told you, I'm writing him
00:14:57 No you didn't.
00:14:59 I didn't? Really?
00:15:02 Look, you know, I probably
00:15:04 because I never thought
00:15:11 "What's your relationship
00:15:15 Do you have a girlfriend?
00:15:19 How often do you masturbate?"
00:15:23 Why are you writing to this guy?
00:15:26 I just told you...
00:15:29 You couldn't think of anything else
00:15:32 No, this is what's intriguing to me.
00:15:37 (sighs)
00:15:38 You're not really gonna tell him
00:15:46 No no.
00:15:48 That wouldn't be
00:15:54 Jason: So I see Victor Leon Carsenos
00:15:58 Didn't you guys arrest him in '92
00:16:01 Yep, but he got off
00:16:04 So what's the urgency, Mr. Ross?
00:16:07 Uh, it's... it's this, sir.
00:16:11 And it's "Moss."
00:16:17 - A questionnaire?
00:16:21 Okay.
00:16:23 I wrote him for my criminology term paper
00:16:27 so I was hoping the FBI would be able to
00:16:31 Well, unfortunately you're barking
00:16:35 We don't have any information here
00:16:39 If we did have anything, it'd probably
00:16:41 Really? 'Cause, well,
00:16:45 He worked part time
00:16:49 And then shortly after that,
00:16:53 for which he served only 18 months
00:16:56 Mmm.
00:16:58 Well, you know
00:17:02 what do you need me for?
00:17:04 Well, I was hoping you could tell me
00:17:11 Look, son, like I told you before,
00:17:13 we don't have anything here
00:17:17 And the only thing I heard about him
00:17:19 that claimed he had
00:17:22 But that was all over
00:17:24 so I'm sure you already
00:17:27 An encounter?
00:17:29 Like what do you mean...
00:17:31 Who was it?
00:17:33 I don't remember the kid's name.
00:17:39 Have you guys ever tried writing him
00:17:45 All psychological profiling's
00:17:47 so you'd have to talk to them.
00:17:49 Yeah? Okay, do you have someone
00:17:51 (laughs)
00:17:55 Listen, kid, you're what... 18?
00:17:59 Go get laid.
00:18:03 Don't get caught up in
00:18:05 'cause it's only gonna
00:18:07 Write your term paper
00:18:12 and go be a teenager,
00:18:15 Okay. Well, thank you.
00:18:20 Man on TV: So tell me about
00:18:23 I could never get along
00:18:26 I mean, he was always
00:18:28 I was always dumb and stupid.
00:18:30 I would never amount to anything.
00:18:33 I remember one time I was
00:18:37 and I passed out.
00:18:39 So I was always more or less
00:18:42 And I guess that embarrassed him.
00:18:46 Man: Okay, so you continue to deny
00:18:50 but how do you explain the bodies
00:18:54 Gacy: The state wants you
00:18:58 that the motive was sex
00:19:00 and that they were all killed so that
00:19:04 That's ridiculous.
00:19:07 The facts don't match the fantasy.
00:19:08 Which raises the question
00:19:12 the 34th victim.
00:19:14 Man:
00:19:16 I would definitely not
00:19:20 Now I have nothing against
00:19:23 and I openly admit
00:19:26 But I would be bisexual.
00:19:28 I mean the idea that
00:19:31 strolling around the streets
00:19:33 stalking and murdering
00:19:36 Hell, if you could have
00:19:38 you'd know damn well
00:19:41 (rewinding)
00:19:44 I would definitely not
00:19:48 Now I have nothing against
00:19:50 and I openly admit
00:19:53 But I would be bisexual.
00:19:56 (hip-hop music playing)
00:20:00 (knock on door)
00:20:06 What are you doing?
00:20:08 What does it look like?
00:20:10 Since when does
00:20:12 Since now, okay?
00:20:15 Hey hey, go get your camera.
00:20:19 I need you to take
00:20:21 Of what?
00:20:22 Come on, let's go.
00:20:26 - This is ridiculous.
00:20:28 before Mom comes home?
00:20:33 Why are you trying to look sexy?
00:20:35 Because, buddy,
00:20:37 so I need to look like a homo,
00:20:41 - Come on.
00:20:43 (sighs)
00:20:47 Oh, wait wait wait.
00:20:49 I'm not gonna look at your abs.
00:20:51 Alex, could you just
00:20:54 I need to make sure
00:20:56 - Your abs look fabulous.
00:21:02 - Okay, one more, one more.
00:21:08 How'd that look?
00:21:10 Gay.
00:21:12 Perfect.
00:21:25 - Open D-32.
00:21:30 Hey, Picasso,
00:21:33 How's it going, buddy?
00:21:35 Another clown, huh?
00:21:38 Well, that's what
00:21:40 that's what they get.
00:21:42 How else could I be able to afford
00:21:45 Speaking of lavish lifestyle,
00:21:48 Oh yeah? Great.
00:21:51 (door buzzes)
00:21:54 Well, back to the grind, huh?
00:21:56 Where are you off to
00:21:58 I thought maybe we'd kick back
00:22:02 You know the rules.
00:22:04 Hey, Stan?
00:22:08 Rules are meant to be broken.
00:22:10 So why are you here?
00:22:13 - Best to your family, pal.
00:22:16 (door buzzes)
00:22:51 Jason's voice: My relationship with
00:22:54 My mom is always on my ass
00:22:57 My dad's normally more passive.
00:23:00 and loses it once in a while
00:23:04 Nobody knows I'm thinking about being
00:23:08 which is a bit tight
00:23:10 I don't even know
00:23:12 I guess I just feel like
00:23:15 Well, I really want us
00:23:19 So I look forward to hearing
00:23:22 Yours, Jason.
00:23:25 Gacy's voice: One of the things
00:23:27 is that I'm open-minded, outspoken,
00:23:30 not very tactful, nonjudgmental,
00:23:33 liberal, and I say what I mean.
00:23:35 The only thing I ask is
00:23:39 If you're not sure, then ask.
00:23:41 Nothing offends me
00:23:44 No subject is off limits
00:23:47 to be just as open
00:23:49 Jason's voice: I want you to feel free to
00:23:53 Even if it's 20 pages long, I want
00:23:57 Don't worry about
00:24:00 I am truly fascinated to know about
00:24:03 that enter your mind.
00:24:06 I am a very liberal person.
00:24:08 And since you said you will not
00:24:10 I feel I can confide in you,
00:24:15 As far as sex goes,
00:24:18 I don't have a girlfriend or anything,
00:24:19 but I have an open mind
00:24:22 Gacy's voice: You want my opinion
00:24:26 I want to know all your innermost
00:24:29 What do you fantasize about?
00:24:31 You say that you're thinking about
00:24:35 But you have to promise you'll
00:24:38 I want details... everything.
00:24:40 You and I are gonna
00:24:48 Professor Harris?
00:24:50 Professor Harris?
00:24:50 Yes, Mr. Moss?
00:24:52 Hi. I wanted to share
00:24:56 - What's that?
00:25:00 A letter from Gacy?
00:25:02 - You got him to write to you?
00:25:10 Okay.
00:25:14 I'm gonna get information out of him
00:25:19 not the police, not the FBI,
00:25:23 I'm gonna get inside this guy's head
00:25:28 Well, that's quite a lofty goal, Jason,
00:25:30 but I still don't know
00:25:33 Well, my paper is about
00:25:36 journeying into
00:25:39 Is that a strong enough
00:25:46 Okay, Jason, you're going
00:25:50 so go ahead.
00:25:52 But don't let your ego
00:25:55 This guy's talent is
00:25:58 Yeah, but that's also his weakness.
00:26:02 He's so convinced
00:26:04 he wouldn't even for an instant think
00:26:07 could be way ahead of him.
00:26:10 I'm working on a strategy.
00:26:12 I even found a guy
00:26:14 You give me a couple of weeks
00:26:15 and I'll have him eating
00:26:56 (doorbell rings)
00:27:10 - Can I help you?
00:27:13 Hi, I'm Jason Moss.
00:27:17 - I'm doing a paper about John Gacy...
00:27:20 Whoa whoa, hey hey!
00:27:22 Get the fuck out of here.
00:27:29 I'll just take up five minutes
00:27:35 Come on, you know him
00:27:37 I just want to figure out
00:27:39 What part of "Get the fuck out of here"
00:27:43 Look, I wrote him, okay?
00:27:46 Look.
00:27:49 Yeah, of course he's interested.
00:27:51 Listen listen, I didn't mean
00:27:53 I just... you know, I thought
00:27:55 who I'm really dealing with here.
00:27:59 I hope you never find out.
00:28:02 (sighs)
00:28:08 (phone ringing)
00:28:19 Hello?
00:28:21 Operator: I have a collect call
00:28:23 from the Menard Correctional Center.
00:28:28 Yes yes.
00:28:32 Operator:
00:28:34 Gacy:
00:28:37 Hey.
00:28:41 Wait.
00:28:43 How did you get my number?
00:28:46 I told you I got friends
00:28:50 What's the matter?
00:28:52 No.
00:28:55 Uh...
00:28:57 Gacy:
00:28:59 I'm just sitting around watching TV.
00:29:03 Well, I was...
00:29:06 Oh, the time difference,
00:29:08 Sorry about that.
00:29:13 Jason:
00:29:16 So what were you doing?
00:29:19 Uh, no.
00:29:21 I told you, John,
00:29:24 That's right. That's right.
00:29:33 (laughs)
00:29:35 I can't believe I'm actually
00:29:38 I know this must
00:29:40 but just try to relax, you know?
00:29:43 Tell me about your day.
00:29:47 You still flunking out?
00:29:50 I was never much
00:29:53 My teachers were all assholes.
00:30:03 You asked about a sense of power.
00:30:06 Now I think everybody feels
00:30:11 The power to get somebody off
00:30:16 I could even see doing that
00:30:25 Holy shit, John,
00:30:30 Shit, my parents are gonna kill me
00:30:32 Don't worry about that, buddy.
00:30:36 Jason: Wow, that'd be great.
00:30:38 I've got your back, bud. Hmm?
00:30:41 I know money's tight
00:30:44 Yeah, it is.
00:30:46 You should think about going out
00:30:50 A pretty boy like you
00:30:53 Jason:
00:30:55 Well, do it.
00:30:57 Why don't you go out tonight?
00:31:00 Okay.
00:31:04 - Yeah?
00:31:06 I'll give you a call tomorrow at 4:00.
00:31:12 - And Jason?
00:31:15 I want to hear every last detail.
00:31:18 Okay.
00:31:23 Bye, John.
00:31:35 Jason,
00:31:36 you are a fucking genius.
00:31:40 (laughs)
00:31:53 Gacy: If you're hustling on the street,
00:31:57 Don't pick an area that's too busy.
00:32:00 those fuckers.
00:32:01 Wear something nice,
00:32:03 like a pair of cut-off shorts
00:32:07 And you want to walk in a way
00:32:10 Be sexy.
00:32:13 And when you approach buyers,
00:32:16 They've got the money
00:32:19 And they're gonna want to do it all...
00:32:23 want you to fuck
00:32:25 You're there to provide a service.
00:32:29 But make sure you
00:32:32 There's a lot of fucked-up people
00:32:34 that are gonna want
00:32:36 so always watch your back.
00:32:47 Excuse me?
00:32:51 Well, look what
00:32:53 Meow.
00:32:57 Um, I was just wondering if l...
00:33:00 - Oh, and he's shy too.
00:33:02 What's your name, kitty cat?
00:33:05 It's Ja... Jack.
00:33:08 (laughs) Cute.
00:33:11 So?
00:33:19 So how do you want it?
00:33:21 No, actually, I was wondering
00:33:25 just to talk to me.
00:33:28 No, see, I'm a student.
00:33:30 - Oh, hell no.
00:33:31 - Wait wait.
00:33:33 No no, I'm not.
00:33:36 Okay?
00:33:39 Look.
00:33:52 Come on, "Ja... Jack."
00:33:55 I know the perfect place.
00:34:06 (techno playing)
00:34:44 So is this... is this where you take
00:34:50 Hey, this is my special friend.
00:34:54 Get him a drink.
00:34:59 So tell... tell me about
00:35:02 Like what kind of language
00:35:05 You know, the terms you use
00:35:20 Drink up.
00:35:28 Ahem.
00:35:29 Like what do guys
00:35:34 Most guys just want a blow job
00:35:38 Sorry, what? "The top man"?
00:35:41 You really don't get out much,
00:35:44 That's where they get
00:35:49 That costs the most.
00:35:51 I get it all though... everything from
00:35:54 to me fucking them up the ass.
00:36:01 Anyone ever try to hurt you?
00:36:07 I was sucking some guy off
00:36:11 I tried to finish him off and get out of there,
00:36:18 Was he trying to kill you?
00:36:21 This is fucking boring me, all right?
00:36:24 Finish your drink.
00:36:53 (distorted)
00:36:55 This is my special friend.
00:37:00 Trust me.
00:37:04 (groaning)
00:37:30 (screaming)
00:37:35 (Gacy's voice echoes)
00:37:40 (coughing)
00:37:47 Oh God.
00:37:58 (starts engine)
00:38:12 (knock on door)
00:38:18 Hey.
00:38:20 You okay?
00:38:23 You didn't show up at class. You haven't
00:38:26 Yeah, I was just feeling a little tired.
00:38:35 Hey, come here.
00:38:40 Give me your hand.
00:38:48 Come here, sit down.
00:39:02 You know, Jason,
00:39:05 I don't think
00:39:09 You know... oh God.
00:39:12 Listen, if you're here to lecture me,
00:39:15 No, I don't want to lecture you.
00:39:18 You haven't been the same
00:39:21 I just don't have the strength
00:39:25 - No, you keep putting me off.
00:39:26 I want to know what's going on with you.
00:39:28 I just... I'm feeling... I'm feeling like
00:39:32 I'm feeling really sick, so...
00:39:34 - maybe if... if you could just go?
00:39:39 If you could just go,
00:39:42 - Fine.
00:39:44 - I hope you feel better.
00:39:50 - Hello?
00:39:52 from inmate John Gacy from
00:39:55 Will you accept the charges?
00:39:57 - Yes yes, I accept the call.
00:40:00 - Hey, pal.
00:40:02 So how'd it go last night?
00:40:04 Uh, not good, John.
00:40:08 What happened?
00:40:10 Well, I picked this guy up
00:40:12 And we went to the club,
00:40:15 He offered me $200
00:40:19 But when I stood up,
00:40:21 I realized that
00:40:24 Oh shit.
00:40:27 I ran.
00:40:30 That fuck stole my wallet too.
00:40:32 That pussy cock motherfucker.
00:40:35 You want me to have him
00:40:37 What do you mean?
00:40:39 I know a lot of people out there, Jason.
00:40:42 and they'll cut his dick off.
00:40:44 I'm very protective
00:40:46 No no, John,
00:40:49 So why weren't you more careful
00:40:54 I told you you've got
00:40:57 You've got to figure them out
00:41:00 You've always got to be
00:41:04 so that you're the one
00:41:09 I watch people very closely when
00:41:13 I try to figure out
00:41:15 what they're thinking,
00:41:21 By observing their behavior,
00:41:26 their vulnerabilities, their fears.
00:41:35 And once you get into their minds,
00:41:40 - Jason: To do what?
00:42:17 Jason: Well, John, thank God
00:42:20 I'm learning from the best.
00:42:22 Gacy:
00:42:24 I just taught you.
00:42:31 What I want to learn all about
00:42:35 Hey!
00:42:37 Hey. (chuckles)
00:42:39 - What are you doing?
00:42:41 - What are you doing?
00:42:44 Cool.
00:42:47 Listen, I'm sorry about the other day.
00:42:51 I'm much better now though.
00:42:53 Good.
00:42:58 What are you doing?
00:43:00 Yeah, I have to study,
00:43:03 and we could get
00:43:05 Yeah yeah, that sounds good.
00:43:07 - Cool.
00:43:25 (whispering) Hey.
00:43:29 and two like charges
00:43:31 what is the nature
00:43:36 What do I look like to you,
00:43:39 - Hmm?
00:43:47 Get out of here.
00:43:49 Don't. Get out of here.
00:43:53 We're in a library, okay?
00:44:02 What the hell are these?
00:44:05 Would you give me... give 'em!
00:44:08 - For your paper?
00:44:10 I posed like this when I first sent Gacy
00:44:14 I can't take any more
00:44:16 - It's gone too far.
00:44:18 - What is the big deal?
00:44:20 My boyfriend is posing seductively
00:44:24 and you don't think it's a big deal?
00:44:26 I don't give a shit
00:44:28 - Are you gay?
00:44:30 You know what, Alyssa?
00:44:35 Fuck.
00:45:07 (video game beeping)
00:45:15 - Hey.
00:45:20 You wanted to borrow this, right?
00:45:23 - Oh yeah. Thanks.
00:45:27 (laughs)
00:45:34 So l...
00:45:37 Gacy was asking about you.
00:45:39 - Gacy?
00:45:41 - Why me?
00:45:43 I'm still trying to figure it out.
00:45:45 - But well, he wants to talk to you.
00:45:49 I know.
00:45:52 Look, I think I can get around it
00:45:54 I'm not writing him a letter either.
00:45:57 I'll write the letter.
00:45:59 Okay? All you have to do is
00:46:03 Why do I have to get
00:46:05 Come on, Alex man.
00:46:08 I'm getting him to open up and give me
00:46:10 I don't want to lose him now.
00:46:14 Alex, please, man, just...
00:46:24 Come on.
00:46:26 Please?
00:46:28 Alex, just this once, okay?
00:46:32 Fine.
00:46:35 Yeah?
00:46:37 Thank you.
00:46:47 Jason: Dear John, I am
00:46:51 My father beat my ass again last night.
00:46:54 I'm so sick of feeling this way.
00:46:58 I'm not sure I even want
00:47:00 What would you do
00:47:03 Gacy: I've thought many times
00:47:06 but the Bible preaches against
00:47:10 Then again,
00:47:15 Jason, your life will hit
00:47:18 And when the time is right, you'll know
00:47:22 But don't worry, Jason.
00:47:24 I'm here for you.
00:47:28 your only friend right now.
00:47:31 ~ Fall on your knees ~
00:47:35 ~ O, hear the ~
00:47:38 ~ Angels' voices ~
00:47:42 ~ O night ~
00:47:47 ~ Divine... ~
00:48:36 Gacy:
00:48:38 A guy can't even get off in peace.
00:48:41 I got 24-hour whack-off patrol
00:48:45 (laughs)
00:48:47 So listen, John...
00:48:52 can I ask you something?
00:48:56 Do you feel any remorse
00:48:59 Jason, I never killed anyone.
00:49:03 Look, I took three
00:49:06 and they found that I had no knowledge
00:49:11 Yeah yeah, but would you
00:49:15 Gacy:
00:49:17 Those hustling bitches got
00:49:20 Nobody asked them to go out there
00:49:24 They were just begging to be killed
00:49:28 No, but they weren't
00:49:32 There were other kids too.
00:49:34 Gacy: What kids?
00:49:39 How did you lure them
00:49:42 What was your method?
00:49:44 Gacy: You can get anyone
00:49:47 if you play on their fear.
00:49:50 And the feeling of energy
00:49:53 is unlike anything
00:49:56 Tell me about that.
00:50:01 I don't want to talk
00:50:06 What I want to talk about is that skimpy
00:50:10 I thought you told him
00:50:13 I did, I did, John.
00:50:16 I can't control him.
00:50:18 Gacy:
00:50:20 Well, you said to me,
00:50:22 "My brother looks up to me
00:50:25 When I tell him to jump,
00:50:33 Well, he hasn't been
00:50:36 He keeps getting his ass kicked every day,
00:50:39 What the fuck is
00:50:41 What is he, some kind of a pussy?
00:50:43 No, he... no, he's not a pussy.
00:50:45 He just... the other kids are
00:50:49 Oh, fuck that.
00:50:53 You need to be a fucking man.
00:50:55 You get a 2x4 and you crack
00:50:59 You don't want people saying that the Moss
00:51:03 No no, of course not.
00:51:08 Oh, Jason,
00:51:10 you and I are a lot alike.
00:51:12 (Gacy chuckles)
00:51:14 But your brother Alex...
00:51:19 So he needs
00:51:23 And the same thing applies
00:51:28 You know?
00:51:30 I've been giving this
00:51:34 You know, you two,
00:51:37 you can get each other off
00:51:43 You know, your brother,
00:51:46 'cause he obviously isn't getting any.
00:51:50 Don't you see what a waste that is?
00:51:57 Nobody would ever have to know.
00:52:01 All you gotta do
00:52:03 is slip into his bed one night and start
00:52:10 And then you let your head
00:52:15 and then you put it in your mouth.
00:52:18 And then he'll resist
00:52:21 and he'll fight at first.
00:52:24 But after awhile, he'll get into it
00:52:27 and he'll let you finish the job.
00:52:30 You know what, John?
00:52:54 (phone rings)
00:53:06 Fuck.
00:53:10 (machine picks up)
00:53:13 - This is Jason. Leave a message.
00:53:16 Operator: I'm sorry, sir,
00:53:18 Please try your call again later.
00:53:31 (touchtones)
00:53:34 (phone ringing)
00:53:42 (ringing continues)
00:53:58 (rain dripping)
00:54:14 Professor Harris:
00:54:15 Don't forget the due date
00:54:18 and I am expecting
00:54:22 Goodbye.
00:54:25 Jason?
00:54:27 Can I see you for a minute?
00:54:45 So what's up?
00:54:47 You're missing class. And when you are
00:54:52 not that I miss that.
00:54:55 I think maybe you got involved
00:54:59 You're not my father, okay?
00:55:04 You're gonna get your precious
00:55:06 just get off my back about it.
00:55:14 (phone ringing)
00:55:32 (ringing continues)
00:55:36 - (beeps)
00:55:38 Operator: You have a collect call
00:55:40 from the Menard Correctional Center.
00:55:44 - Yeah, I accept.
00:55:47 Jason, where the hell have you been?
00:55:50 Well, I've been busy, John. Okay?
00:55:53 What did you do?
00:55:54 - What are you talking about?
00:55:57 What, I'm not good enough
00:55:58 John, John, it's not like that, okay?
00:56:00 You think you can just ignore me?
00:56:04 You don't play both ends against
00:56:07 - I won't tolerate it!
00:56:09 just calm down.
00:56:11 Do you have any idea who I am
00:56:14 Because I know who you are
00:56:17 For all you know, I could have
00:56:20 watching you and your family.
00:56:24 What are you talking about?
00:56:26 Gacy: You know exactly what
00:56:28 Don't play me, Jason.
00:56:30 Remember who I am.
00:56:32 How could I forget?
00:56:35 And don't go taking your friendship
00:56:37 and I won't have to take something
00:56:40 Yeah, I got it.
00:56:42 Remember who I am.
00:56:45 Always remember who I am.
00:56:51 Fuck.
00:56:54 Fuck!
00:57:13 Fuck.
00:57:22 Jason: Oh, you think you scare me, huh?
00:57:25 Huh? Well, I got you, you fuck.
00:57:33 FBI!
00:57:37 Put your fucking hands up!
00:57:41 - (knock on door)
00:57:43 No one.
00:57:45 Why isn't the car washed? I asked you to
00:57:48 - I am not going to Grandma's.
00:57:51 It means I'm not going!
00:57:55 Look, I just have a lot of important things
00:57:59 I can't be worried about going
00:58:02 - Oh really?
00:58:03 Well, then maybe your father
00:58:05 about paying the bills around here
00:58:08 Yeah, maybe you should.
00:58:21 Fuck.
00:58:33 Hey, where are you going
00:58:35 - None of your business.
00:58:44 - Fuck off, Marcus.
00:58:50 Get the fuck out of my face.
00:58:54 Oh, you're fucking dead.
00:58:58 - Man: Hey hey!
00:59:01 Jason, that's enough!
00:59:04 Stop!
00:59:05 Stop it, let's go!
00:59:07 - Hey! Hey, you two!
00:59:10 Ah!
00:59:39 Hey, Jason.
00:59:42 Jason?
00:59:46 - What's with him?
00:59:48 Where have you guys been?
00:59:50 You know I wanted
00:59:52 We got held up.
00:59:54 Because your brother's going through
00:59:57 Go get your bag.
00:59:59 Sure, let's just worry
01:00:01 Go get your bag.
01:00:04 Go!
01:00:19 (phone ringing)
01:00:24 Hello?
01:00:28 Hello?
01:00:31 Hello?
01:01:31 (doorbell rings)
01:01:51 Jesus!
01:01:55 What are you doing here?
01:02:01 What are you doing with a gun?
01:02:07 Well, there's been
01:02:09 so we... we got it
01:02:14 Oh.
01:02:19 Hey, do you want
01:02:24 I mean, as long as you're here,
01:02:30 Okay, just for a second.
01:02:39 (Jason laughs)
01:02:56 (phone ringing)
01:03:02 Hello?
01:03:03 Operator: I have a collect call
01:03:05 Yes, I accept.
01:03:06 - Are you fucking kidding me?
01:03:08 (crying)
01:03:13 They're gonna kill me
01:03:16 My fucking piece-of-shit lawyer
01:03:18 John, John, slow down.
01:03:20 - No, wait, Alyssa, don't leave.
01:03:23 Jason, are you listening to me?
01:03:25 Okay, John, slow down. Alyssa!
01:03:28 - Who the fuck is Alyssa?
01:03:32 I thought you said
01:03:33 - It doesn't matter, John.
01:03:36 I thought I could trust you.
01:03:38 Wait wait,
01:03:40 You pussy-whipped
01:03:43 John?
01:03:45 (beeps)
01:03:47 - Fuck!
01:03:50 Fuck!
01:05:02 The room is nice. I like it.
01:05:15 I always close the curtains too.
01:05:32 So?
01:05:51 Jason: On the bed.
01:05:55 How original.
01:06:14 Take off your stockings.
01:06:17 (unzipping)
01:06:45 How do you want it?
01:06:47 Lie down on the bed...
01:06:54 on your stomach.
01:07:01 On your stomach.
01:07:23 - What are you doing?
01:07:27 I'm not comfortable with this.
01:07:29 - Just stay still.
01:07:32 - Shut up, shut up.
01:07:34 Someone... no! No!
01:07:36 - What are you fucking doing, huh?
01:07:38 What are you doing?
01:07:40 - (screams)
01:07:43 Shut the fuck up!
01:07:46 - (crying)
01:08:04 (sobbing)
01:08:27 Gacy: Jason, there's a lot I want
01:08:30 and you're the only one I can trust.
01:08:33 Yeah?
01:08:35 I can't tell you over the phone.
01:08:37 I need to see you in person.
01:08:40 I'll even let you see
01:08:44 And don't worry,
01:08:47 It'll be fun.
01:08:50 It's perfectly safe too.
01:08:54 I can even have
01:08:57 - The warden?
01:09:01 I already spoke to him. He said that
01:09:05 Would you like me
01:09:08 Sure.
01:09:10 Great.
01:09:12 I look so forward
01:09:18 - (pounding on door)
01:09:21 Open up, please!
01:09:28 (pounding)
01:09:30 Look, Gacy is gonna be executed, Glen.
01:09:38 He wants me to come visit him.
01:09:45 Aw, fuck.
01:09:56 I'm sorry to keep bothering you.
01:09:59 I know how hard this must be.
01:10:04 I need to figure out
01:10:10 And nobody knows that
01:10:17 So you're gonna go see him?
01:10:22 I don't know.
01:10:26 That's why I came here.
01:10:33 You can't go there.
01:10:37 Why?
01:10:41 Tell me what happened.
01:10:47 ('70s rock playing)
01:10:51 You want another Scotch?
01:10:53 - Glen: Yeah.
01:11:00 Boo.
01:11:03 Glen:
01:11:04 Just clowning around, buddy.
01:11:09 You would be surprised all the tricks
01:11:12 (high-pitched voice)
01:11:14 Here you go.
01:11:17 Put 'em on.
01:11:20 - Yeah.
01:11:24 Huh?
01:11:26 Go on, put 'em on.
01:11:30 - Go on.
01:11:34 - The trick is to have the key.
01:11:36 (John's voice, distorted)
01:11:39 (Glen sobbing)
01:11:41 I've got something real special
01:11:44 (groaning)
01:11:49 I told you to shut your mouth,
01:11:53 (Glen shouts)
01:11:55 (sobs)
01:11:56 Hey hey, relax.
01:11:59 You're really gonna enjoy this.
01:12:01 No! Let me out of here.
01:12:06 Let me out!
01:12:07 (sobbing)
01:12:10 I got this specially
01:12:13 - (ripping)
01:12:18 - Come on, step that fat ass up.
01:12:22 (Glen screaming)
01:12:26 (mocking screams)
01:12:29 Please let me go.
01:12:33 Please.
01:12:43 I jumped from the car.
01:12:48 And I broke
01:12:50 and I didn't feel a thing.
01:12:59 I hope that this helps you
01:13:13 Hello, Mr. Moss, this is Warden Michaels
01:13:17 I understand you have
01:13:18 Yeah yeah, I was thinking
01:13:23 and I just wanted to find out
01:13:25 Well, Mr. Moss, there are a lot of
01:13:29 Jason: Well, is he going to be
01:13:33 Warden: No, you would be in two different
01:13:37 Mr. Gacy will have his arms
01:13:39 and there's a... there's a camera
01:13:43 that is monitored at all times.
01:13:46 Jason:
01:13:47 Well, there'll be a number of guards
01:13:50 If there are any problems,
01:13:52 There hasn't been an incident
01:13:55 Security is just too tight.
01:13:58 you'll be completely safe.
01:14:08 - Jacket too?
01:14:10 Okay.
01:14:19 Step through, please.
01:14:22 (beeps)
01:14:24 Arms up and out to the side.
01:14:27 (scanner beeping)
01:14:33 - Follow me.
01:14:41 He's all yours.
01:14:45 Sign here, here and here.
01:14:49 - What is this?
01:14:52 For what?
01:14:53 It says we're not responsible.
01:14:56 Excuse me?
01:14:57 In the unlikely event hostages are
01:15:00 we won't negotiate for your release.
01:15:03 So what you're saying is
01:15:05 you'd let them kill me
01:15:09 Exactly. Sign there, please.
01:15:16 - Have a nice day.
01:15:19 Officer Thompson.
01:15:22 Nice to meet you.
01:15:25 Mr. Gacy is very excited
01:15:28 That's good.
01:15:30 Right this way.
01:15:32 (door buzzing)
01:16:11 Go ahead.
01:16:12 Jason, oh my God.
01:16:16 Nice to meet you too.
01:16:18 Look at you...
01:16:20 Hey, Stan, would you mind taking
01:16:24 - Yeah. Sure, John.
01:16:30 Something to remember me by.
01:16:33 Excuse me, guard?
01:16:35 - Where are you going?
01:16:39 Whoa whoa, hey hey hey!
01:16:41 What are you doing?
01:16:43 Where are you gonna be
01:16:45 Jason, come on, relax.
01:16:49 Please make yourself at home.
01:16:53 I mean, seriously, sit.
01:17:04 Hey, can I have
01:17:08 or a chocolate milk
01:17:10 - No. No, I'm good.
01:17:12 Yeah.
01:17:14 God.
01:17:16 This is perfect.
01:17:21 I mean, look at you.
01:17:24 You know? Seriously, bud.
01:17:27 Yeah, no problem, John.
01:17:29 You know, I just wanted
01:17:32 I appreciate that, you know?
01:17:35 Hey, you're not out there
01:17:39 - No no no, not too much anymore.
01:17:41 So how's the girlfriend?
01:17:46 Yeah yeah, she's good.
01:17:50 Yeah?
01:17:54 (both laugh)
01:17:56 What's all this stuff?
01:17:58 Oh, this is everything I promised you.
01:18:00 Here, check this out.
01:18:02 Got everything...
01:18:06 notes from my trial;
01:18:11 channel 7,
01:18:15 Look at all these letters.
01:18:18 I get 'em from all kinds of people...
01:18:21 rock stars, porn stars,
01:18:25 You know?
01:18:29 See this trailer-park bitch?
01:18:32 She's got two sons
01:18:35 She says she wants
01:18:37 Can you imagine?
01:18:39 Why would I ever want
01:18:42 (both laugh)
01:18:45 Wait, it gets better. Here.
01:18:48 This is her sister.
01:18:50 They've offered to give me
01:18:53 Can you imagine? Between the three of us,
01:18:57 (both laughing)
01:19:00 You look good.
01:19:05 Really.
01:19:12 (door buzzing)
01:19:17 This food's not so bad.
01:19:19 The fellas treat me pretty good
01:19:22 You got it, boss.
01:19:28 - Jason?
01:19:31 I ordered this dessert especially for you.
01:19:34 strawberry shortcake.
01:19:37 I'm full, John.
01:19:42 So John, you know how at your trial,
01:19:45 you said that you didn't kill
01:19:47 and someone else must have done it?
01:19:50 I want to try to find
01:19:55 I mean, who do you think did it,
01:20:02 Do you have any idea
01:20:09 I could just tell you
01:20:14 and you'd have no one.
01:20:20 What would you do without me?
01:20:23 I don't know, John.
01:20:27 Where would you be without me?
01:20:30 You know, if I was a bad guy,
01:20:33 I'd tell the police
01:20:37 they would take him away
01:20:40 Yeah, but you wouldn't
01:20:45 I didn't say I would do it.
01:20:49 Just remember who I am.
01:20:55 I know who you are.
01:20:58 John, we're buddies, right?
01:21:01 That's right.
01:21:06 That's right.
01:21:10 So...
01:21:12 tell me, did you
01:21:16 Yeah yeah, it was fine.
01:21:19 And did you get that painting
01:21:23 I did. I did. Thank you for that, John.
01:21:27 Of course.
01:21:32 Yeah.
01:21:37 So, John,
01:21:40 you said you had some things
01:21:42 You know, some things
01:21:46 Yeah.
01:21:48 Do for me and I'll do for you.
01:21:55 John, tell me about that kid
01:21:57 Okay? The one that you picked up
01:22:03 Oh.
01:22:05 I woke up and he was standing
01:22:09 He was gonna rob
01:22:11 I didn't have any choice.
01:22:14 Yeah, well, if it was self-defense, John,
01:22:19 Well, the son of a bitch,
01:22:22 But he wasn't attacking you.
01:22:25 Right? I mean, wasn't he
01:22:29 What the fuck are you
01:22:32 You don't stand over a man
01:22:42 So what happened
01:22:48 Nothing happened.
01:22:52 Let me tell you something, Jason:
01:22:55 You can always tell
01:23:00 because he shits all over himself.
01:23:04 The little cocksucker
01:23:07 so I buried him
01:23:12 How did it feel to kill that kid?
01:23:18 Did you feel powerful?
01:23:24 Jason, Jason,
01:23:27 you have no idea
01:23:34 - How'd I feel?
01:23:37 I felt fine.
01:23:40 I slept fine.
01:23:46 I am fine, aren't I?
01:23:53 Thattaboy.
01:24:00 Let me tell you something.
01:24:04 how long it would take the guards
01:24:07 Maybe one or two minutes.
01:24:10 I could kill you right now
01:24:13 You know that, don't you?
01:24:18 Yeah, John.
01:24:21 But I got other plans
01:24:24 (Jason groaning)
01:24:26 You see that table there? Look.
01:24:30 That's where I'm gonna do you.
01:24:33 And after I'm done, I'm gonna wrap
01:24:37 and I'm gonna squeeze
01:24:39 John, John, John, why are you
01:24:42 (mocking) "John, John, why are
01:24:46 You know something, Jason?
01:24:49 In person you are
01:24:52 Oh, you know what you are?
01:24:55 You're a little pussy boy, huh?
01:24:58 A little pussy boy.
01:25:01 A little
01:25:16 Here you go.
01:25:18 - It's black. Where's the cream?
01:25:23 Check out monitor 3.
01:25:26 - (laughs)
01:25:29 Leave the guy alone.
01:25:34 Least we can do is let the poor fuck
01:25:37 - Doesn't mean I have to watch.
01:25:44 You bitch.
01:25:48 Like when you're hustling and selling
01:25:51 Well, now you're gonna get
01:25:53 What the fuck are you doing, John?
01:25:55 Shut the fuck up!
01:25:58 God!
01:26:00 This is over!
01:26:02 Who the fuck are you
01:26:04 I'm not who you think I am,
01:26:07 Guards, open this fucking door!
01:26:09 You know how many little pussy boys
01:26:12 Huh?
01:26:13 Get on your fucking knees.
01:26:17 Fuck you.
01:26:18 Now open your mouth.
01:26:23 - I said open your fucking mouth!
01:26:27 You fucking piece of shit.
01:26:29 - It hurts to let the demon in, doesn't it?
01:26:32 - But you feel good.
01:26:35 - Get off him, boy.
01:26:37 - Let him go.
01:26:40 Who's the clown now, John?
01:26:42 - You'll be there with me!
01:26:45 I told you we're alike.
01:27:18 Valerie:
01:27:33 It's okay.
01:27:40 Oh, Jason.
01:28:04 (phone rings)
01:28:16 (ringing continues)
01:28:19 (machine picks up)
01:28:21 This is Jason. Leave a message.
01:28:23 (beeps)
01:28:25 Gacy:
01:28:28 Pick up.
01:28:30 What's wrong?
01:28:35 They're gonna kill me in a couple of days.
01:28:39 What is it?
01:28:41 What did I do?
01:28:44 Was it the little fight we had?
01:28:47 If it is, l... I'm sorry.
01:28:49 I'm... I'm really sorry.
01:28:56 John?
01:28:59 You little cocksucking jackoff.
01:29:02 Do you have any idea
01:29:07 I should have choked the life out of you
01:29:11 You know what I'm gonna do, Jason?
01:29:15 and the FBI.
01:29:17 I'm even gonna send
01:29:20 let the whole world know what
01:29:25 You want to send
01:29:27 then the police, John?
01:29:30 Well, go ahead.
01:29:32 Because everybody up here knows that
01:29:36 You were an experiment, John.
01:29:40 I was playing you from the start
01:29:44 and you were too stupid
01:29:48 What do you have to say now, John?
01:29:59 (beeps)
01:31:08 Female reporter:
01:31:10 Illinois's Stateville Penitentiary
01:31:14 for the 33 murders
01:31:18 Three drugs will be administered
01:31:22 Sodium Pentothal,
01:31:24 pancuronium bromide
01:31:28 and potassium chloride
01:31:31 If all goes as planned,
01:31:34 within 10 to 15 minutes.
01:31:41 Jason?
01:31:47 - (knocking)
01:31:54 - Jason?
01:32:01 Male reporter:
01:32:03 And some of the families of Gacy's victims
01:32:07 One family issued a statement saying,
01:32:09 "Nothing will ever
01:32:11 but after 16 years,
01:32:15 Meanwhile, protesters...
01:32:33 We've just received confirmation
01:32:36 succumbed to lethal injection
01:32:39 at 12:58 AM,
01:32:41 nearly an hour after
01:32:44 Cheers from the crowd were heard
01:32:47 while others continued
01:33:10 So I have read
01:33:16 And?
01:33:17 And it's very good.
01:33:25 Thank you.
01:33:27 So do you really think you were able
01:33:31 Uh...
01:33:33 as close as anyone can get.
01:33:37 Well, listen, obviously you've been talking
01:33:41 because there is a lot of buzz
01:33:45 I know some of the other students
01:33:48 and even some of the faculty are
01:33:51 I was wondering,
01:33:53 to put on a small presentation
01:33:55 Nothing too formal...
01:33:58 and how you developed
01:34:06 Jason: While this sociopath was
01:34:10 the images of the boys
01:34:14 Their innocent faces
01:34:16 of just how unthinkable
01:34:20 And the losses that these families suffered
01:34:25 We live in a society
01:34:27 by murder, killing and violence.
01:34:31 So I thought I was just one
01:34:35 in the darker side
01:34:37 But I also wanted
01:34:41 Instead of running away
01:34:44 something told me
01:34:46 and look it in the eye.
01:34:48 When I first embarked
01:34:51 to enter into the mind
01:34:54 one of the world's
01:34:57 I never imagined that the one
01:35:01 and controlled would be me.
01:35:07 Thank you.
01:35:09 (applause)
01:35:14 Very good, Jason.
01:35:52 (opening letter)
01:36:02 Gacy: Well, Jason,
01:36:07 You were right,
01:36:11 Of all the people who
01:36:13 I never thought it would be you.
01:36:15 But it must have been fate.
01:36:18 Thousands of people wanted me,
01:36:22 We had a real connection,
01:36:25 And now that I know the truth,
01:36:29 that you and I are
01:36:34 It's time to die now.
01:36:36 See you on the other side, buddy.
01:37:32 I portrayed an image to Gacy
01:37:36 I wanted someone
01:37:38 I presented myself as very naive.
01:37:40 I didn't want to just learn about Gacy.
01:37:43 find out about his crimes,
01:37:46 that no one else
01:37:47 I thought, "I'm gonna find the secrets
01:37:50 I want to do
01:37:53 And every letter I got back, I thought that
01:37:56 why Gacy buried those kids.
01:37:58 But he was also a part
01:38:01 He was my friend, my confidant,
01:38:04 the subject of all my nightmares.
01:38:06 But it's weird to know
01:38:21 (slow-tempo music playing)
01:38:43 ~ Maybe I left you alone too much ~
01:38:50 ~ Maybe I didn't know you well ~
01:38:58 ~ Maybe if I held you a little longer ~
01:39:03 ~ When you were a boy ~
01:39:05 ~ Maybe I would have been
01:39:12 ~ You dance with the devil ~
01:39:16 ~ You'll never be the same ~
01:39:19 ~ I wish I'd have known ~
01:39:22 ~ I'd make you stay with me ~
01:39:27 ~ My forever won't change ~
01:39:34 ~ Like a wound I keep on paying ~
01:39:42 ~ Time won't heal this kind of pain ~
01:39:56 ~ I watched you walk
01:40:03 ~ I saw a side you never showed ~
01:40:11 ~ Pretended like it was okay ~
01:40:18 ~ I never wanted it to end this way ~
01:40:25 ~ If you survive ~
01:40:29 ~ You'll never be the same ~
01:40:32 ~ I wish I'd have known ~
01:40:34 ~ I'd make you stay with me ~
01:40:40 ~ My forever won't change ~
01:40:46 ~ Like a wound I keep on paying ~
01:40:54 ~ Time won't heal this kind of pain ~
01:41:01 ~ My forever won't change... ~
01:41:11 ~ Won't change,
01:42:04 ~ My forever won't change ~
01:42:10 ~ Like a wound I keep on paying ~
01:42:17 ~ Time won't heal this kind of pain ~
01:42:25 ~ My forever won't change. ~
01:42:49 (train whistle blowing)