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00:02:11	This is a diary...
00:02:13	of...
00:02:15	hate.
00:02:22	And perhaps I wouldn't
00:02:25	if some devil hadn't made me
00:02:29	in the rain.
00:02:32	You want to drown, Henry?
00:02:37	I wanted a bit of air.
00:02:40	How nice to see you, Bendrix.
00:02:42	How long has it been?
00:02:46	June, 1944.
00:02:48	As long as that?
00:02:51	How's Sarah?
00:02:53	Oh, she's out and about
00:02:56	She at the cinema?
00:02:59	No, she never goes.
00:03:03	Oh, good night, Henry.
00:03:06	You should go home
00:03:12	Is something wrong?
00:03:18	Let me take you home, Henry.
00:03:23	Or perhaps I wouldn't
00:03:26	if I had known then
00:03:29	Was it Henry?
00:03:33	Or was it some other
00:03:40	Sarah?
00:03:48	See? She's out still.
00:03:58	Come upstairs.
00:04:23	Come in.
00:04:26	Whiskey, thank you.
00:04:28	Whiskey.
00:04:39	So what's troubling you,
00:04:43	Sarah.
00:04:57	She's out for a walk now,
00:05:04	A walk.
00:05:06	Well, she always was
00:05:24	Jealousy's a terrible thing.
00:05:27	Well, you know you
00:05:32	You know, I went so far...
00:05:35	as to get the name
00:05:40	You think she's seeing someone?
00:05:44	- Of course you think me a fool.
00:05:47	I don't think you're a fool.
00:05:51	- You mean you think it's possible?
00:05:53	Sarah's human.
00:05:59	Can't sleep.
00:06:03	Keep picking up...
00:06:05	this wretched card.
00:06:11	Burn it.
00:06:12	- I wish I could.
00:06:16	And sit where all
00:06:20	Do you think they have
00:06:23	where we see each other's faces
00:06:26	Why not let me go, Henry?
00:06:29	- You?
00:06:31	I could pretend
00:06:34	Jealous lovers are less ridiculous
00:06:37	They're supported
00:06:40	Tragic, never comic.
00:06:43	Well, I shan't lose my amour propre
00:06:49	This is ridiculous.
00:06:50	One can't spy on one's wife
00:06:52	and have the friend
00:06:54	- What else are friends for?
00:06:58	All I needed was to talk,
00:07:00	The name was Savage,
00:07:03	Forget what I've told you.
00:07:09	That was the door.
00:07:12	It's the maid.
00:07:15	No, it was Sarah's step.
00:07:21	Sarah, darling.
00:07:23	Henry.
00:07:27	- You... Is that you?
00:07:29	- Yes.
00:07:32	You're wet through, Sarah.
00:07:37	Good night.
00:07:43	Their marriage was conventional...
00:07:46	like their well-appointed house.
00:07:48	And I liked them both
00:07:52	drinking bad South African sherry
00:07:57	Good evening, sir.
00:07:58	- May I take your hat?
00:08:00	Mr. Miles is upstairs.
00:08:10	Sherry, sir?
00:08:11	Thank you.
00:08:13	She seemed restless.
00:08:16	In the summer of 1939...
00:08:19	the whole of London was restless
00:08:36	How nice of you to come.
00:08:40	Sarah, this is our neighbor,
00:08:43	What on earth
00:08:45	- Research.
00:08:47	On your husband.
00:08:48	I'm trying to write a character
00:08:52	I need to find out his habits,
00:08:55	- Cocoa.
00:08:56	11:00, isn't it, Sarah?
00:09:00	Would you be so kind
00:09:02	- The ministry needs him.
00:09:07	- So tell me.
00:09:09	- His secrets.
00:09:11	- Good men have no secrets.
00:09:13	You see, goodness
00:09:16	What does have fictional value?
00:09:18	- A minister of Home Security.
00:09:22	I'm saying he could be,
00:09:25	Oh, dear. This is alarming.
00:09:27	- You mean change the subject?
00:09:31	Of course.
00:09:34	- So how long have you been married?
00:09:37	Yes, he's been married happily
00:09:40	Henry's the perfect model then.
00:09:43	You know that...
00:09:44	happiness is even harder to write
00:09:47	Henry prefers habit to happiness.
00:09:53	- I'll give them to you to sign.
00:09:58	Let me fill that for you.
00:10:01	- It's a lovely house.
00:10:03	And your wife is charming.
00:10:05	- She's a great help to me.
00:10:08	They've made a picture
00:10:10	Yes, it's playing at the Rialto.
00:10:14	- I'll take you both.
00:10:17	Should I make a note of that?
00:10:18	Make sure your character
00:10:21	- Come out, Henry, for once?
00:10:23	But you go.
00:10:26	- Sarah, one has to insist.
00:10:29	- Where are you going?
00:10:32	- But you promised.
00:10:40	- It's not what I wrote, you know.
00:10:43	- It's true.
00:10:57	There was one scene you did write.
00:10:59	Describe it.
00:11:01	Where he offered her onions
00:11:03	She refused because her husband
00:11:06	He got angry.
00:11:10	And why did he get angry?
00:11:15	He didn't want to think of her
00:11:25	Does Henry like onions?
00:11:28	No.
00:11:54	I'm in love, you know.
00:11:58	Me too.
00:12:07	Susan?
00:13:10	Come upstairs.
00:14:58	Sarah?
00:15:07	One minute, dear.
00:15:12	What if he heard?
00:15:15	He wouldn't recognize the sound.
00:15:32	- Sarah, you been eating onions?
00:15:36	So, Bendrix,
00:15:38	Up to scratch?
00:15:42	Of course, as she began to love me...
00:15:46	she learned to deceive Henry.
00:15:49	So why was I upset to find
00:15:53	she was deceiving him again?
00:16:06	Mr. Bendrix, I assume we
00:16:10	Not exactly. She's the wife
00:16:14	Perhaps you and the lady
00:16:17	No.
00:16:18	I've only seen her once
00:16:22	I don't understand.
00:16:24	You said this was a watching case.
00:16:30	Can't one love or hate
00:16:34	There's nothing discreditable
00:16:38	I always salute it
00:16:41	I've come on behalf of the husband.
00:16:44	- She has secrets.
00:16:48	- Yes.
00:16:52	In my experience, Mr. Bendrix...
00:16:54	there almost invariably is.
00:16:58	Shall my man report to you
00:17:00	To me.
00:17:01	He must know nothing about it.
00:17:06	Most interesting case.
00:17:09	All my men use great discretion.
00:17:13	And he will do his damndest
00:17:19	Or should I say the husband's?
00:17:41	Hello?
00:17:45	Good.
00:17:50	Yes, how long has it been?
00:17:52	As long as that?
00:17:54	Well, you were always better
00:17:58	You want to meet?
00:18:03	Not tomorrow, no.
00:18:07	Wednesday? Let me check.
00:18:15	Would Thursday do?
00:18:18	Good.
00:18:36	It was odd to think
00:18:40	we could be so totally at peace.
00:18:43	There were nights
00:18:45	would never end.
00:19:16	Tell me again.
00:19:18	I love you.
00:19:23	And I always will.
00:19:42	I'm sorry I'm late.
00:19:46	Well, taxi is quicker.
00:19:48	I know.
00:19:53	I booked a table at Palmer's.
00:20:00	Can't we stay here?
00:20:02	Well, it's where
00:20:06	You see,
00:20:09	Well, it was never
00:20:11	- So you still go there?
00:20:14	It's convenient.
00:20:17	Let's go.
00:20:24	Thank you. Thanks.
00:20:27	- Sorry about that.
00:20:29	Got my hand caught in the way.
00:20:51	Such a pleasure to see you, sir.
00:20:54	It's been so long,
00:20:56	- I was afraid you'd say that.
00:20:59	- It's been a long time too.
00:21:07	- There.
00:21:22	Why did you lie?
00:21:24	- About my coming here?
00:21:27	Why did you want to meet?
00:21:31	I wanted to ask you about Henry.
00:21:34	Henry.
00:21:37	I'm worried about him.
00:21:39	How did you find him
00:21:42	- Was he strange at all?
00:21:46	I wanted to ask you...
00:21:50	whether you could
00:21:52	I think he's lonely.
00:21:55	With you?
00:21:57	You know he's
00:21:59	not for years.
00:22:02	Maybe you've given him reason.
00:22:06	What reason could I give?
00:22:12	What reason did you give me?
00:22:19	None.
00:22:23	- Are you on a new book?
00:22:25	It's not about us, is it?
00:22:28	A book takes a year to write.
00:22:32	If you knew how little
00:22:35	I'm joking.
00:22:38	We're adults, and we knew
00:22:42	And now we can lunch
00:22:55	I'm sorry.
00:22:56	This was stupid,
00:23:00	That cough needs attending to.
00:23:02	It's only a cough.
00:23:05	Good-bye, Maurice.
00:23:06	Good-bye.
00:23:15	- Your menu, sir.
00:23:22	I'm sorry, but you have to realize
00:23:26	- I'm jealous of the rain.
00:23:48	Where did you get it?
00:23:50	Spain.
00:23:52	That was my war, I'm afraid.
00:23:55	It finished me off for this one.
00:23:57	You were shot. How romantic.
00:24:00	Not really.
00:24:03	I wondered about the limp.
00:24:07	And have you?
00:24:09	I have never, ever loved anyone
00:24:34	Yes?
00:24:37	A Mr. Parkis to see you, sir.
00:24:40	Show him in.
00:24:42	This way, please.
00:24:48	- I'll be with you in a minute, Mr...
00:24:53	Mr. Savage's man.
00:24:55	Sit down.
00:24:59	Oh, no, sir.
00:25:01	Unless, of course,
00:25:03	But you're not on duty now.
00:25:05	Well, in a manner of speaking,
00:25:07	I've just been relieved for half an hour
00:25:12	So there's something to report?
00:25:15	It's not quite a blank sheet, sir.
00:25:20	Have me met
00:25:24	I don't think so.
00:25:30	Well, like I say, sir...
00:25:33	it's not quite a blank sheet.
00:25:36	But then it never is.
00:25:40	Me and my boy,
00:25:43	Your boy?
00:25:45	My son, sir.
00:25:48	Yeah, I'm teaching him
00:25:51	I mean, a boy can be useful
00:25:56	On the day in question, the party in
00:26:01	and proceeded
00:26:03	She seemed quite agitated.
00:26:07	And there met a gentleman with whom
00:26:10	since they greeted each other
00:26:14	and at one point...
00:26:16	although I cannot be certain of this...
00:26:21	- They held hands?
00:26:24	Gentleman pushed the lady's glass
00:26:26	and...
00:26:27	the hand sort of stayed there...
00:26:30	for some time.
00:26:32	Which generally indicates
00:26:36	After a short conversation,
00:26:39	called...
00:26:41	Palmer's...
00:26:43	which was difficult to gain access to,
00:26:46	But I observed them
00:26:49	And after a while,
00:26:52	laboring...
00:26:55	under great emotion.
00:26:57	Great emotion.
00:27:00	Oh, without doubt, sir.
00:27:02	Then I followed her down
00:27:05	where she turned into a church for what
00:27:11	She's not a Roman, is she, sir?
00:27:13	No.
00:27:15	Thought not.
00:27:16	She didn't kneel, sir,
00:27:19	From the angle of her face,
00:27:22	tears were an issue.
00:27:24	- Forgive the personal touch.
00:27:29	You see, I liked the lady.
00:27:33	As did I, but you were wrong
00:27:36	The hands, sir?
00:27:38	We never so much as touched hands.
00:27:43	Oh, dear.
00:27:44	- I have made a fool of myself.
00:27:48	Mr. Savage
00:27:51	Oh, no, sir.
00:27:54	- It was up to me.
00:27:57	If you look at it from the outside,
00:28:00	But I'm on the inside, sir.
00:28:04	It's not Mr. Savage I'm worried about
00:28:09	- When I tell him you're the husband...
00:28:13	I'm acting on the husband's behalf.
00:28:15	So you've requested
00:28:18	That's an interesting paradox.
00:28:21	But who's the wronged party then,
00:28:27	Pardon me, sir.
00:28:29	I am slow in such matters.
00:28:32	Both you and the husband have been
00:28:35	Another?
00:28:39	Try to think of it
00:28:44	Jealousy can only exist
00:28:48	You are on a hunt for desire.
00:28:51	Just regard yourself
00:28:55	Of course, sir.
00:28:58	Thank you.
00:29:11	The vicarious lover, Parkis.
00:29:15	- Good night, sir.
00:29:25	I wondered how much of her
00:29:29	And, for a moment,
00:29:32	shining his searchlight
00:29:42	I am a jealous man.
00:29:58	- I'm jealous of this stocking.
00:30:01	'Cause it does what I can't.
00:30:05	It kisses your whole leg.
00:30:10	And I'm jealous of this button.
00:30:13	- Poor, innocent button.
00:30:18	It's with you all day,
00:30:27	- I suppose you're jealous of my shoes.
00:30:31	Why?
00:30:34	Because they'll
00:30:38	I measured love
00:30:42	And as my jealousy was infinite...
00:30:44	Anyone who loves is jealous.
00:30:46	My love should have
00:30:48	I hate you being unhappy. I don't mind
00:30:52	- If I slept with someone else?
00:30:55	I want you to be happy,
00:30:57	Maybe you'd want an excuse
00:30:59	- I never would.
00:31:01	- Do what?
00:31:04	You mean Henry?
00:31:07	He has you. I don't.
00:31:10	We inhabit the same house.
00:31:12	That's all. You know that.
00:31:16	And I love you.
00:31:17	I would rather be dead or see you dead
00:31:20	I will never, ever be
00:31:24	You may see me dead,
00:31:28	- We should go down to the shelter.
00:31:30	If a bomb hit us now,
00:31:32	- What wouldn't happen?
00:31:36	I would never imagine
00:31:38	- My jealousy would end.
00:33:13	Do you believe me now?
00:33:22	But sadly, I didn't believe her.
00:33:25	There was a devil in my mind
00:33:29	And now I had Parkis'boy
00:35:13	My boy managed to gain access, sir.
00:35:15	Remarkably useful he can be.
00:35:19	They say a promise is forever,
00:35:24	He killed me with jealousy.
00:35:27	So he's got the scent too,
00:35:31	- What scent?
00:35:33	Stalking it like a retriever.
00:35:36	Well, he's
00:35:39	He observed the party in question,
00:35:43	with an unidentified male.
00:35:46	- Where?
00:35:48	The male party then closed the door,
00:35:51	The implications, and I think
00:35:55	intimacy was...
00:35:58	imminent.
00:36:00	Indeed. Who is he?
00:36:02	Here, sir, is where progress
00:36:05	As my boy left, he glanced at the
00:36:08	The party in question had a dental
00:36:13	In fact, she visited at 3:30...
00:36:15	a premises on 65 Cedar Road
00:36:39	A Mr. Smythe owns the premises, sir.
00:36:41	Smythe, with a "Y"?
00:36:44	Yes, sir. S-M-Y-T-H-E.
00:36:49	And...
00:36:51	no...
00:36:54	Though we have no evidence
00:36:58	the implication is clearly there.
00:37:00	How is it there?
00:37:02	Why the fictitious
00:37:07	Exhibit "B."
00:37:09	My boy took that.
00:37:13	The party in question emerged
00:37:16	Passage of time being
00:37:19	intimacy to have taken place.
00:37:22	The courts generally demand
00:37:26	Now, my boy would have provided us
00:37:29	but for the unfortunate
00:37:32	falling asleep.
00:37:39	Luckily, sir,
00:37:42	mistook him
00:37:44	woke him up and led him
00:37:46	so that the time of reemergence
00:37:49	as was an acquaintance which may have
00:37:54	So should I walk in and confront him
00:37:57	I'm against it, sir.
00:38:01	This will never reach court.
00:38:03	- An amicable settlement then.
00:38:06	One can hardly make a fuss
00:38:09	I'd just like to see him,
00:38:12	Well, perhaps Lance can oblige us
00:38:16	- Lance?
00:38:19	Called after Lancelot,
00:38:21	He found the Holy Grail.
00:38:23	That was Galahad. Lancelot
00:38:30	I hadn't heard.
00:38:45	I have to say, sir,
00:38:48	I'd just like to see
00:38:53	Will you lend me your boy?
00:38:56	Well, if you'll assure me
00:39:00	Sarah isn't there. This scene
00:39:04	Come with me, young Lancelot.
00:39:07	Go on, Lance.
00:39:09	No need to worry.
00:39:12	Now, you're feeling ill,
00:39:14	- How ill, sir?
00:39:17	Can you act that?
00:39:19	If I hold my breath
00:39:21	Good.
00:39:33	Excuse me, but does
00:39:36	- No, I'm afraid he doesn't.
00:39:38	See, I was given this address,
00:39:41	We've traveled all this...
00:39:43	- You better come in.
00:39:46	I think he needs
00:39:48	Thank you.
00:39:54	- Can I fetch him a glass of water?
00:39:58	Or some orange squash?
00:40:00	- Water will be fine.
00:40:03	Say thank you, Arthur.
00:40:05	- Is his name Arthur?
00:40:09	- His mother was fond ofTennyson.
00:40:12	Yes, yes. Four years now.
00:40:16	- He must be of great comfort to you.
00:40:19	I ought to introduce myself.
00:40:22	- Bridges.
00:40:24	- With a "Y"?
00:40:25	- With a "Y"?
00:40:27	This is Mr. Bridges.
00:40:31	I was given this address
00:40:33	There's no such doctor here.
00:40:39	I've seen your boy before.
00:40:42	Maybe on the common.
00:40:49	What was the real purpose
00:40:55	I told you. A doctor.
00:41:02	No, you're not ill,
00:41:10	People sometimes come to me...
00:41:13	and can't explain why.
00:41:17	But if there is a reason...
00:41:19	- My brother often deals...
00:41:22	They must ask themselves.
00:41:29	I recognize your boy,
00:41:33	- Who recommended you?
00:41:38	Sarah Miles.
00:41:41	And your name is?
00:41:43	Bendrix.
00:41:52	- I know all about you.
00:41:55	But you must enlighten me.
00:41:57	- Aren't you bound by vows of chastity?
00:42:02	Go, please.
00:42:05	Would you just go?
00:42:08	Come along, Lancelot.
00:42:16	Poor Sarah.
00:42:19	And here were Parkis and his boy
00:42:23	I would have called the spies off...
00:42:25	had the devil not tugged
00:42:28	Henry.
00:42:30	Still in the rain?
00:42:32	Walking, Bendrix.
00:42:35	Well, walk with me.
00:42:37	I recommend a drink.
00:42:53	How's Sarah?
00:42:56	Pretty well.
00:42:57	Did you ever consult
00:43:02	I'd hoped you had forgotten that.
00:43:04	I was overworked.
00:43:06	I had Royal Commission brewing.
00:43:08	Don't worry, Henry.
00:43:12	- You had absolutely no right.
00:43:15	It's infernal cheek.
00:43:17	Here's the report, Henry.
00:43:19	His name is Smythe, with a "Y."
00:43:22	You've been properly led up
00:43:25	- Will you let me pass?
00:43:27	Photographs, names, love letters?
00:43:38	Now will you let me go?
00:43:44	I can always get you
00:44:04	Strange how much dignity
00:44:08	Without it, he seemed
00:44:12	the dispossessed.
00:44:15	I had pitied myself for so long,
00:44:18	to pity him.
00:44:21	I'm sorry, Henry.
00:44:26	Sit down.
00:44:39	Were you two lovers, Bendrix?
00:44:46	It's the only explanation.
00:44:49	The only excuse too.
00:44:55	Can't you see
00:44:58	is monstrous?
00:45:07	You must think me a fool
00:45:15	Why didn't she leave me?
00:45:18	Because you're a habit
00:45:20	You're her security.
00:45:23	- Why did she leave you?
00:45:26	Like you.
00:45:28	But I wasn't born one.
00:45:30	You created me.
00:45:33	She wouldn't leave you,
00:45:37	- You can't be jealous of me.
00:45:41	We had come to the end of love.
00:45:44	She'd only make love with me,
00:45:47	she could shop and cook
00:45:53	She's still very fond of you.
00:45:55	One isn't satisfied with fondness.
00:45:59	- I was.
00:46:03	The bore of a husband
00:46:06	but never notices his wife.
00:46:09	But you weren't
00:46:11	The war was
00:46:15	And the V-1 s
00:46:18	the act of love was over.
00:46:51	So what will you do when it ends?
00:46:53	It won't end. I told you.
00:46:55	I meant the war.
00:46:59	It's the only certain thing.
00:47:01	What do you mean?
00:47:03	That allows me to see you.
00:47:07	You think love ends...
00:47:09	when you don't see me?
00:47:14	To be is to be perceived.
00:47:17	Do I exist for you
00:47:20	Yes.
00:47:22	Isn't that why you stay
00:47:25	Because you know this will end?
00:47:27	No.
00:47:31	- We should go to the basement.
00:47:34	- Does that matter?
00:47:35	- It's close, Maurice.
00:47:38	- Let me go with you.
00:47:46	Hello?
00:47:50	There's nobody there.
00:48:45	I never heard the bang.
00:48:49	I awoke after five minutes...
00:48:52	or five seconds...
00:48:55	to a changed world.
00:49:02	For a moment,
00:49:07	Iove, hate, jealousy.
00:49:11	And it all felt like happiness.
00:50:25	Oh, my God.
00:50:29	You're alive?
00:50:35	You sound disappointed.
00:50:37	You're hurt.
00:50:43	I just cut myself, that's all.
00:50:58	What were you doing
00:51:02	Praying.
00:51:04	To what?
00:51:06	To anything that might exist.
00:51:09	Well, it'd have been more practical
00:51:14	I did.
00:51:20	Well, why didn't you wake me?
00:51:23	I tried.
00:51:25	You didn't move.
00:51:29	I don't understand.
00:51:32	I knew for certain
00:51:35	There wasn't much
00:51:38	A miracle.
00:51:42	And we don't believe in those.
00:51:45	No.
00:51:49	And that siren means you go.
00:51:55	Yes.
00:52:02	Please don't.
00:52:05	I have to. Henry will...
00:52:08	Forget Henry.
00:52:11	You don't understand.
00:52:13	Now I'm back.
00:52:16	I'm sorry to disappoint you,
00:52:23	Love doesn't end...
00:52:26	just because
00:52:29	Doesn't it?
00:52:31	People go on loving God,
00:52:33	All their lives.
00:52:36	Without seeing Him.
00:52:39	That's not my kind of love.
00:52:41	Maybe there's no other kind.
00:52:58	So I was a disappointment
00:53:01	I lived.
00:53:03	And that was the end
00:53:06	until I met you with that
00:53:10	I wondered why
00:53:16	You should go home, Henry.
00:53:23	I'm sorry.
00:53:36	Hello.
00:53:46	It was quite easy, sir.
00:53:49	And Mrs. Miles thought I was one
00:53:52	And Mr. Miles thought
00:53:56	Well, I knew the way
00:53:59	Anybody would have stopped me, I would
00:54:02	Of course, nobody did.
00:54:04	Did you think it was
00:54:07	Highly successful
00:54:09	But Mrs. Miles
00:54:13	I refer to this as Exhibit "D."
00:54:29	Did you look at it?
00:54:31	I ascertained its nature, sir.
00:54:34	And from one entry, judged
00:54:36	So happy. M returns today.
00:54:39	My experience of diaries
00:54:43	People invent their little codes.
00:54:46	I woke up and
00:54:48	This covers several years.
00:54:51	I hope you're satisfied, sir.
00:54:53	Life was going to be happy again.
00:54:57	I think this may well
00:55:00	Yeah. I had a feeling
00:55:04	I have enjoyed
00:55:07	if one can talk of enjoying
00:55:10	As have I.
00:55:12	So I hope you wouldn't
00:55:21	There's quite a history
00:55:24	- Do you remember the Bolton case?
00:55:27	It caused quite
00:55:30	Lady Bolton,
00:55:32	All discovered together.
00:55:34	That ashtray stood
00:55:37	On the lady's side.
00:55:43	Well, I shall treasure it, Parkis.
00:55:47	If ashtrays could speak, sir.
00:55:50	Indeed.
00:55:55	Perhaps I should call later, sir, just
00:55:58	Thank you, Parkis.
00:56:02	- Good night, sir.
00:56:35	Sometimes I get tired of trying
00:56:40	and shall love him forever.
00:56:42	He pounces on my words
00:56:46	So what will you do
00:56:48	You think love ends
00:56:53	To be is to be perceived.
00:56:57	Do I exist for you
00:56:59	Yes.
00:57:02	Isn't that why you stay with Henry?
00:57:11	- We should go to the basement.
00:57:13	- Does that matter?
00:57:15	- It's close, Maurice.
00:57:17	- Let me go with you.
00:57:25	Hello?
00:57:30	There's nobody there.
00:58:00	Oh, God!
00:58:07	Oh, God. Oh, God.
00:58:21	Oh, God, don't take him.
00:58:23	But You had.
00:58:29	Whatever was him was gone.
00:58:31	You'd taken it.
00:58:36	I'd never believed in prayer.
00:58:41	Oh, God, please bring him back.
00:58:46	I don't believe in You,
00:58:52	Dear God, please.
00:58:55	Let him...
00:59:11	Dear God, please. Let him live.
00:59:18	Please bring him back.
00:59:22	Please don't take him.
00:59:27	I'll give him up forever.
00:59:29	Only please, let him be alive.
00:59:33	Let him live and I promise
00:59:46	Oh, my God.
00:59:50	You're alive?
00:59:54	You sound disappointed.
00:59:57	But if he was alive,
01:00:10	What were you doing on the floor?
01:00:14	Praying.
01:00:16	To what?
01:00:18	To anything that might exist.
01:00:20	How could I explain to him
01:00:24	You didn't move.
01:00:26	I knew for certain you were dead.
01:00:30	Then there wasn't much
01:00:32	A miracle.
01:00:35	And we don't believe in that.
01:00:41	And that siren means you go.
01:00:46	Yes.
01:00:49	And I knew that nothing in this world
01:00:55	Sorry to disappoint you.
01:01:02	Love doesn't end...
01:01:04	just because we don't
01:01:07	Doesn't it?
01:01:09	People go on loving God,
01:01:11	all their lives
01:01:15	That's not my kind of love.
01:01:19	Maybe there's no other kind.
01:01:42	I can't be held to that promise.
01:01:45	But something told me I would be.
01:01:48	I had tempted fate...
01:01:50	and fate had accepted.
01:01:53	So I was in the desert now,
01:02:00	I started a tour with Henry,
01:02:06	Henry and I sleeping side by side
01:02:12	In the new reinforced shelter
01:02:16	a chief warden kissed me.
01:02:19	I allowed him to
01:02:24	I'm beginning to believe
01:02:27	and maybe that's how You work.
01:02:29	You empty me of love,
01:02:33	They're recommending me
01:02:36	What's that?
01:02:37	A step below a C.B.E.
01:02:40	When I retire,
01:02:43	It's confusing. Couldn't
01:02:48	Wouldn't you like to be Lady Miles?
01:02:54	This was the British people's
01:02:57	V-E day,
01:03:04	A man we seem to have
01:03:07	Iooks down
01:03:21	The whole of London seemed happy
01:03:25	and there were no more bombs.
01:03:27	But I'm not sure
01:03:38	I walked his walks.
01:03:43	Tried to think where he'd be.
01:03:51	Then I gave up.
01:03:54	I thought that now
01:03:57	maybe I should have some.
01:04:12	I told him it all.
01:04:14	And Whoever heard my promise
01:04:19	and must have known it already...
01:04:22	since God knows everything.
01:04:27	How cruel that knowledge seemed.
01:04:31	It knew what I would say
01:04:35	Knew it would keep me to it.
01:04:39	Knew me the way
01:04:42	Sarah, darling.
01:04:47	You.
01:04:48	Knew I would meet him
01:04:50	- Been out for a walk?
01:04:52	It's a filthy night.
01:04:54	You're wet through. One day
01:04:57	Good night.
01:04:59	Knew he would hate me.
01:05:07	- Wednesday.
01:05:12	- Would Thursday do?
01:05:15	The Park Lane Hotel at 1:00.
01:05:21	I took my time.
01:05:27	Why did you want to meet?
01:05:29	I wanted to tell you I'd been dead
01:05:34	I can't be without you any longer.
01:05:37	I think he's lonely.
01:05:38	But, of course, I didn't.
01:05:40	You know he's never really
01:05:46	Maybe you've given him reason.
01:05:48	What reason could I give?
01:05:52	What reason did you give me?
01:06:00	None.
01:06:11	- Are you on a new book?
01:06:14	It's not about us, is it?
01:06:18	A book takes a year to write.
01:06:19	It's too hard work for revenge.
01:06:22	If you knew how little
01:06:25	No, I'm joking.
01:06:27	I mean, we're adults and...
01:06:29	we knew it had to end sometime.
01:06:32	And now we can lunch
01:06:41	In the old days,
01:06:44	We would have made up
01:07:06	I said to God, as I might
01:07:11	"Dear God, I'm tired.
01:07:15	I'm tired of being without him.
01:07:18	And it's all because of You."
01:07:23	Dr. Gilbert's appointment.
01:07:28	He asked me how I felt.
01:07:31	I said I felt nothing.
01:07:34	There was a stone
01:07:39	I need help, Father.
01:07:43	You know, Sarah,
01:07:45	Good. So it's settled.
01:07:48	- You can't.
01:07:53	I'm asking Henry for a divorce.
01:08:01	You can't because you're good.
01:08:05	Better than any person I know.
01:08:08	You're wrong, Father,
01:08:14	I found a small boy
01:08:17	with a birthmark
01:08:20	and wondered what kind of God
01:08:24	Are you lost?
01:08:26	It's all right.
01:08:29	Where do you live then?
01:08:33	- You'll be all right now?
01:08:35	I kissed his cheek
01:08:40	And suddenly I felt happy again.
01:08:43	I could free myself of this.
01:08:46	I am...
01:08:49	leaving you.
01:08:52	For the last five years...
01:08:57	I have been...
01:09:00	in love...
01:09:02	with Maurice.
01:09:05	I love you.
01:09:08	Do you know that?
01:09:15	Why now, Henry?
01:09:17	Why do you say that now?
01:09:23	I had a drink with Bendrix.
01:09:31	A horrible drink.
01:09:35	I can't do without you.
01:09:39	Oh, yes, you can, I thought.
01:09:41	You changed your newspaper once
01:09:45	What's wrong, Henry?
01:09:47	Did Bendrix upset you in some way?
01:09:53	I know I haven't been much
01:09:56	We are good friends.
01:10:00	You can do without a friend.
01:10:04	Don't leave me, Sarah.
01:10:08	Stick it out a few more years.
01:10:12	I'll try. I promise.
01:10:20	Is this coincidence?
01:10:24	Or the way life happens?
01:10:27	And if this is life,
01:10:32	But whatever it is...
01:10:34	I can't fight it anymore.
01:10:37	It has won and we have lost.
01:10:56	- Hello?
01:10:59	She's not here.
01:11:01	I know your voice, Sarah.
01:11:54	Stop here.
01:11:57	- Thank you.
01:12:11	One, please.
01:12:16	Thank you, sir.
01:13:08	How did you get it?
01:13:15	You had a drinks party last week.
01:13:19	- Yes. That small man.
01:13:23	He is my snoop.
01:13:28	How ridiculous.
01:13:31	It's no more
01:13:34	Why didn't you tell me?
01:13:36	I tried. Each time I tried,
01:13:41	- That's mumbo jumbo, Sarah.
01:13:46	Accidents.
01:13:47	Little things.
01:13:52	You can't believe that.
01:13:54	Do you believe in things
01:13:59	- You mean Him?
01:14:03	You see, I never stopped loving you,
01:14:10	My mother baptized me a Catholic.
01:14:14	My father was Jewish,
01:14:17	But she always said
01:14:21	Like a vaccination.
01:14:25	I've only made
01:14:29	One was to marry Henry...
01:14:32	the other to stop seeing you.
01:14:37	And I'm too weak to keep either.
01:14:43	I know you don't believe in Him...
01:14:47	but try to.
01:14:50	Talk to Him.
01:14:53	I can't.
01:14:54	Tell Him I'm sorry.
01:14:56	I'm too human...
01:14:58	too weak.
01:15:01	Tell Him I can't keep my promises.
01:15:06	I'm tired of being without you.
01:15:12	- Let's get you home.
01:15:17	I know.
01:16:03	So have we broken the spell?
01:16:10	The world didn't end, did it?
01:16:12	It did, in a way.
01:16:14	But then, it always did.
01:16:18	Can I sleep now, Maurice?
01:16:21	Please let me sleep.
01:16:51	- It's Henry.
01:16:53	Why not? We'll have
01:16:56	- Come away with me.
01:16:59	Anywhere. Brighton.
01:17:02	I want a few days peace
01:17:05	- Well, Henry never argues.
01:17:14	Pain is easy to write.
01:17:17	In pain, we're
01:17:22	But what can one write
01:17:49	It doesn't suit you.
01:17:52	- You want it? There's a price.
01:17:59	Can I pay again?
01:18:04	- I want children, you know.
01:18:08	- I'll start with one.
01:18:11	You want to start with two?
01:18:14	Is that a promise?
01:18:16	Yes.
01:18:26	Let's get you back to the hotel.
01:18:33	- Just those two.
01:18:48	It is a bit of a mess.
01:18:55	- Business going well?
01:18:57	Still on the job?
01:18:59	- Oh, dear.
01:19:02	Come. So where's
01:19:05	I left him at home, sir.
01:19:07	Hardly a wise move. He'd have
01:19:10	You think so, sir?
01:19:14	Tell your employer
01:19:17	What was your phrase?
01:19:21	- They notice everything.
01:19:27	- So who's hired you this time?
01:19:30	Let me guess. The jealous husband.
01:19:36	I never expected to be
01:19:38	Yours is a secure profession.
01:19:40	As long as fools like us love,
01:19:44	You could put it like that.
01:19:46	And love never ends, does it?
01:19:49	It seems not.
01:19:51	So what do you need?
01:19:53	Photographs of us
01:19:56	Copies of hotel bills? Evidence of
01:20:00	No, my brief is to follow you.
01:20:05	Which, of course, you'll do.
01:20:07	I'm obliged to, sir, under
01:20:10	Won't you need supplementary evidence?
01:20:16	They generally do, sir,
01:20:19	Well, Exhibit "A."
01:20:23	Receipt for two sandwiches
01:20:28	Mutual sandwiches are surely
01:20:31	- They could be so construed, sir.
01:20:34	Two tickets for a Big Dipper.
01:20:36	- You seem to be doing my job for me.
01:20:39	What would clinch it for us?
01:20:42	What would make
01:20:50	Generally, sir, some kind
01:20:57	Of intimacy.
01:21:02	Would be most useful, sir,
01:21:06	It will, Parkis.
01:21:42	Here.
01:21:51	I dreamt we had a child.
01:21:53	We will.
01:21:55	We were on the bed together.
01:21:57	The room filled up with water.
01:22:01	Why water?
01:22:03	The sea had come in the window.
01:22:23	So you'll marry me.
01:22:29	That's a promise.
01:23:02	The prince regent began building it
01:23:06	Beautiful but flawed.
01:23:08	- How was she flawed?
01:23:11	Impossible, of course.
01:23:13	So he loved her.
01:23:15	Yes, but he married Princess Caroline
01:23:20	but huge.
01:23:22	And he built this huge folly
01:23:26	- Not now, Henry.
01:23:29	- Oh, God, please. Henry, not now.
01:23:35	- Talk.
01:23:37	- You can't hold on to her forever.
01:23:39	It hardly suits you, Henry,
01:23:43	Please, I don't mean
01:23:46	Henry, go home.
01:23:49	I'm not jealous, Bendrix.
01:23:52	What was it you said?
01:23:54	Lovers are jealous.
01:24:01	I was never her lover.
01:24:03	Not much of a husband either,
01:24:05	But you hired our detective.
01:24:08	I had to find out where she was.
01:24:10	So you know. She wants a divorce.
01:24:15	That won't be possible, old man.
01:24:18	You'll contest it?
01:24:20	No, but it would take
01:24:23	Well, what's three months, Henry,
01:24:28	Half.
01:24:30	Half of what?
01:24:33	Of a lifetime, I'm afraid.
01:24:37	Sarah's dying.
01:24:40	Her doctor called the night
01:24:44	with the result of some tests.
01:24:49	I knocked on your door.
01:24:52	I imagined you were both there.
01:24:58	How oddly we behave
01:25:17	You shouldn't get wet, darling.
01:25:20	- Don't you like the rain, Henry?
01:25:23	You've heard news, Henry.
01:25:28	No, dear.
01:25:31	You see, Maurice, never make a promise.
01:25:43	You should never have been
01:25:52	I did Sarah a great disservice
01:25:59	I'm not the sort
01:26:04	She wanted someone like you.
01:26:07	I'm not sure
01:26:14	If you don't mind me asking...
01:26:18	I'd like you there
01:26:21	It may not come.
01:26:25	You of all people
01:26:28	No, but Sarah does.
01:26:34	I'd always believed that
01:26:39	and that Sarah
01:26:46	Are you at a loss, Henry?
01:26:52	I am quite.
01:26:57	And it would save you a bit
01:27:01	Sarah always said your books weren't
01:27:09	You could be there, working in
01:27:15	And at night, we could both...
01:27:26	And so I moved to the north side
01:27:30	and, oddly enough,
01:27:44	Can I help you, Father?
01:27:47	- I've come about Mrs. Miles.
01:27:50	You mean, she's ill, don't you?
01:27:53	- Yes, I suppose I do.
01:27:58	She's been to see me several times,
01:28:02	She's left word with me
01:28:05	Is her husband here?
01:28:15	- She told me about you.
01:28:19	I'm the lover, Father.
01:28:36	Who was that?
01:28:45	The postman.
01:28:50	What did he bring?
01:28:54	He had the wrong address.
01:29:01	How odd for a postman.
01:29:14	You know what happened that day?
01:29:19	You thought I was dead...
01:29:21	and I wasn't.
01:29:26	No, darling.
01:29:29	Something happened in that room.
01:29:33	There were the same walls
01:29:38	the same sunlight
01:29:43	but nothing will
01:29:48	You can't believe this, Sarah.
01:29:53	But it's true.
01:29:57	I never loved anyone
01:30:02	And when you came through that door
01:30:08	another kind of love
01:30:12	And I caught belief...
01:30:15	like a disease.
01:30:18	I fell into belief like I'd...
01:30:22	fallen into love.
01:30:25	And I tried to fight it...
01:30:30	but I haven't any fight left.
01:30:55	It wasn't the postman, was it?
01:30:59	No, it wasn't.
01:31:03	Dear Maurice,
01:31:06	It's only love, after all.
01:31:45	So You're taking her...
01:31:48	but You haven't got me yet.
01:31:51	I don't want Your peace
01:31:55	I wanted Sarah for a lifetime...
01:31:58	and You're taking her from me.
01:32:02	So I hate You, God.
01:32:06	I hate You as though You existed.
01:32:26	You have to help me, Bendrix.
01:32:30	I will.
01:32:32	I can't live in a world
01:32:39	I'll help you.
01:32:57	I would have taken care of
01:33:01	Surely you disapprove of cremation?
01:33:03	I would have arranged
01:33:05	But she wasn't a Catholic,
01:33:08	We recognize
01:33:12	She said things
01:33:15	We've made all the arrangements.
01:33:18	You wouldn't want talk, Henry.
01:33:23	If you'd come a little sooner, Father...
01:33:26	I think nothing
01:33:28	- Perhaps me?
01:33:31	Nothing you can do
01:33:37	- She was a good woman.
01:33:40	She could put the blinkers
01:33:42	She deceived you, Father,
01:33:45	- She was a consummate liar.
01:33:47	- Let the poor man rave.
01:33:49	- Keep it for your confessional!
01:33:53	I don't want you.
01:33:54	- I'm sorry, Father.
01:33:57	I know when a man is in pain.
01:34:02	I'm not in pain, Father.
01:34:05	I hate Sarah, because she was
01:34:08	I hate Henry,
01:34:11	And I hate you and your imaginary God,
01:34:18	- You are a good hater.
01:35:01	I'm sorry, Henry.
01:35:10	The thing is, Bendrix...
01:35:14	I always knew.
01:35:18	I knew she was with someone...
01:35:22	but I never thought you.
01:35:28	But the odd thing is...
01:35:32	I'm glad it was.
01:35:54	It's a sad pleasure
01:35:57	where bygones are always bygones.
01:35:59	Do you always follow your people
01:36:04	She was a very fine lady, sir.
01:36:07	At a cocktail party,
01:36:10	Was it South African sherry?
01:36:12	I wouldn't know, sir.
01:36:14	There weren't many like her.
01:36:17	My boy, now,
01:36:20	How is your boy, Parkis?
01:36:22	He's exceptionally well, sir.
01:36:27	He imagined she'd be buried
01:36:30	And why would he think that?
01:36:32	Young boys, sir,
01:36:35	Though I have to admit,
01:36:38	Explain what?
01:36:41	On the day of her assignation,
01:36:46	She thought he was lost, gave him
01:36:50	On his afflicted cheek, sir.
01:36:52	And over the weeks
01:36:54	his affliction gradually went away.
01:36:57	I tried to keep him rational,
01:37:02	Say hello to Mr. Bendrix, Lance.
01:37:23	Hello, sir.
01:37:37	I wrote at the start
01:37:41	I hated You as though You existed.
01:37:45	Now I am tired of hating...
01:37:47	but You're still there.
01:37:50	So Your cunning is infinite.
01:37:54	You used my hate to win
01:37:57	Thank you, Henry.
01:37:58	And I've only one prayer left.
01:38:02	Dear God, forget about me.
01:38:06	Look after her and Henry.

End of the Affair The