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00:02:27 Good morning.
00:02:31 Hi.
00:02:33 You sleep all right?
00:02:38 You?
00:02:40 Not really.
00:02:42 Ah... There's more Cokes,
00:02:48 Want to go for some pancakes or something?
00:02:50 l'm totally starving.
00:02:54 Actually, l already had one of those...
00:03:05 Maybe l should get going, anyway.
00:03:08 l gotta take care of some stuff.
00:04:24 What the hell do you want?
00:04:26 An incredibly complicated
00:04:28 that takes you about 10 minutes to make.
00:04:30 Then l'd like to complain about
00:04:33 That's our best seller.
00:04:36 You want a massage
00:04:39 Maybe later.
00:04:41 - l wanted to ask you something.
00:04:43 You have any plans
00:04:46 You mean other than going on auditions that
00:04:51 l want to do the river swim.
00:04:53 What river swim?
00:04:54 The river swim, the one l've been
00:04:57 the entire length of the lower Hudson,
00:04:59 all the way from Troy
00:05:03 Why?
00:05:05 Just because.
00:05:06 -Just because?
00:05:08 You accompany me in a boat,
00:05:11 What do you say?
00:05:13 Not many people have swam the whole river.
00:05:16 Not many people have dug up
00:05:19 with his skeleton in their car either,
00:05:21 which was another idea
00:05:24 l know, but l mean it.
00:05:28 l want to swim the river.
00:05:30 We can leave Monday
00:05:33 Why now?
00:05:35 Why not?
00:05:40 Sarah's not going to like it.
00:05:42 Hi.
00:05:44 Hey.
00:05:45 Liz... Hi. You remember Paul.
00:05:47 Sure. You're a financial writer or something?
00:05:50 Or something, right. And you waitressed
00:05:54 Never again.
00:05:55 A sentiment shared by the management.
00:05:57 l wasn't that bad.
00:05:58 Nor were you any good.
00:06:01 You're actually a teacher, right?
00:06:02 Yeah.
00:06:03 For retarded kids or something.
00:06:05 No, regular ones.
00:06:07 Oh. Don't know where l got that.
00:06:09 May l have a very strong
00:06:13 One Alcoholic's Special coming up.
00:06:16 So, what are you boys up to tonight?
00:06:19 Talking about 19-year-old girls
00:06:22 Maybe. What's it to you?
00:06:26 Actually, it looks like
00:06:30 A swimming trip?
00:06:32 -Thank you.
00:06:34 Paul's gonna swim the entire length
00:06:37 Why would you do that?
00:06:40 Why do people climb Everest?
00:06:41 Most people don't.
00:06:44 l didn't realize you were a big-time swimmer.
00:06:47 l'm not. It's iust an idea l had long ago
00:06:50 to swim all the way down the river
00:06:55 Don't you think you'd get a little pooped?
00:06:57 l don't swim it all at once.
00:07:00 lt's more a psychological challenge
00:07:03 Anyone could do it if they wanted to.
00:07:06 Totally eccentric, l like it.
00:07:08 Then come with us.
00:07:09 -Right, right.
00:07:11 Or just go instead of me.
00:07:14 Come on.
00:07:17 and drive a boat,
00:07:20 while you're in the water all day?
00:07:22 lf she wants to come, thank God.
00:07:24 lt'll give me someone
00:07:30 Well, l don't want to interfere if it's gonna...
00:07:34 Please. If we were any more bonded,
00:07:37 -You should come with us.
00:07:39 l don't start school till after Labor Day.
00:07:42 We could spend a night at my mom's house
00:07:44 along the way, if you want. Free beds.
00:07:46 See? She's from the Hudson Valley, too.
00:07:50 l'm not sure.
00:07:52 What kind of bathing suits do you have?
00:07:55 'Cause we usually wear a two-piece.
00:08:00 l don't think it'd be very much fun.
00:08:03 -lt might be.
00:08:06 You finally take some time off...
00:08:08 l think it's really important to him
00:08:11 So you and Paul get to spend
00:08:13 and l get to sit here all by myself.
00:08:17 Liz is coming with us, too.
00:08:20 The girl from the bar? Are you kidding me?
00:08:23 She wants to come.
00:08:24 What?
00:08:26 No.
00:08:28 -Are you?
00:08:31 -Then why is she coming?
00:08:35 Why didn't you ask me if l wanted to come?
00:08:37 -Do you?
00:08:39 Then don't come.
00:08:42 Fuck you.
00:08:44 Right.
00:08:46 - What?
00:08:48 What?
00:08:51 Nothing.
00:09:11 Because l feel like getting out of the city, l...
00:09:14 Neither of them.
00:09:18 No.
00:09:22 l'll, uh... l'll call you when we get close.
00:09:26 Three weeks or so.
00:09:32 Yeah, l guess it is a three-week vacation,
00:10:18 Yeah, we'll probably get there
00:10:20 We can drop off the car, head down
00:10:23 You're really gonna buy a boat?
00:10:25 Yeah, it's easier than trying to rent one.
00:10:29 What are you gonna do with it
00:10:30 l don't know.
00:10:34 How much do boats cost?
00:10:37 l'm not sure. Don't worry about it.
00:10:40 l didn't realize l was traveling
00:10:56 Which way to the boatyard?
00:11:10 -Can l help you?
00:11:12 Well, you sure can't have one for free!
00:11:36 -What kind of boat?
00:11:37 What kind of boat are you looking for?
00:11:39 Oh, uh, the smallest one you got.
00:11:42 Like a canoe?
00:11:44 A motor boat.
00:11:45 With a weak motor.
00:11:46 -A weak motor?
00:11:48 He's gonna swim down the river to the city
00:11:51 So iust, you know,
00:11:53 -You're swimming to New York City?
00:11:56 ls it some sort of charity-type of thing,
00:12:00 Not really.
00:12:02 Hmm.
00:12:04 Well, l got an old whaler with
00:12:08 Couldn't outrun a turtle.
00:12:23 2,400 bucks.
00:12:25 Sounds reasonable.
00:12:27 Yeah, l believe that's the going rate
00:12:30 Right.
00:12:32 You folks done much boating before?
00:12:38 Hmm...
00:12:40 l have.
00:12:44 and we had waterskiing, we...
00:12:49 Well, this boat couldn't pull a turtle,
00:12:52 What's with the turtles?
00:12:57 Piloting a boat is a lot different
00:13:01 But it, um, starts with a key, right?
00:13:04 Yeah. But it's got no brakes, for starters.
00:13:07 Neither did my last car. l think we'll be fine.
00:13:20 How do l look?
00:13:21 Like a total dick. What'd that getup run you?
00:13:24 -Uh, not much. l bought it used.
00:13:30 Let's head up to the very beginning
00:13:33 To the dam where the first lock is.
00:14:17 Okay, then.
00:14:18 Don't drink the water.
00:14:28 -Damn it!
00:14:30 lt's freezing!
00:14:31 Really? Isn't that, uh, your...
00:14:35 Doesn't your thing keep you warm?
00:14:36 What thing?
00:14:38 Your outfit.
00:14:40 You know what? l think it's broken.
00:14:43 Bullshit you're getting out!
00:14:46 -lt's freezing!
00:14:49 We didn't come all this way
00:14:51 so tuck your cock in your ass
00:15:22 Salvador Sanchez
00:15:27 Arrived and vanished
00:15:31 Only 23
00:15:34 With so much speed
00:15:36 Owning the highway
00:15:50 Mexico City
00:15:55 Bred so many
00:15:59 But none quite like him
00:16:02 Sweet warrior
00:16:04 Pure magic matador
00:16:17 Pancho Villa
00:16:22 Would never rest
00:16:26 Till 1925
00:16:30 He closed his eyes
00:16:32 Till Manila stars would rise
00:16:50 Maybe you should stop for the day.
00:16:56 You think so?
00:16:58 Yes.
00:17:00 Okay.
00:17:17 Thanks.
00:17:23 How much ground do you think we covered?
00:17:26 Maybe three miles.
00:17:29 lt's not enough.
00:17:30 lt's only the first day.
00:17:34 Gotta do better tomorrow.
00:17:36 Maybe you could smoke in the water.
00:17:39 The cigarettes would get wet.
00:17:40 Not if you smoke the waterproof cigarettes.
00:17:44 You guys are weird.
00:17:46 What do you mean ''you guys''?
00:17:48 l don't want to swim all day.
00:17:50 l want to swim the Hudson.
00:17:51 lt's not like l'm going back and forth
00:17:56 He was a mentally retarded boy
00:17:59 Autistic.
00:18:00 Whatever.
00:18:04 -Mmm...
00:18:07 l don't know what you mean by that.
00:18:09 Now, let's head back to shore
00:18:40 It's okay.
00:18:51 lt's okay. It's okay. It's okay.
00:18:58 It's okay.
00:19:44 l haven't had sex in a year.
00:19:48 No?
00:19:51 You should get married then.
00:19:53 l have sex like, God, almost six times a year.
00:19:59 What's that about?
00:20:00 l don't know. Marriage, l guess.
00:20:10 You're single.
00:20:13 Get it while you can. You know?
00:20:16 l guess.
00:20:17 So what's this
00:20:19 A girl like you should be getting
00:20:23 Yeah, l don't know.
00:20:27 -Too many lovers?
00:20:29 Not too much sex. But too many lovers.
00:20:34 Paul! Hey, Paul!
00:20:36 You think you've slept with
00:20:38 Too many?
00:20:40 Yeah. Think you had too many lovers?
00:20:41 Oh, yeah. Way too many.
00:20:44 Wish l could turn back the clock.
00:20:47 Where do l sign up for
00:20:49 -You don't understand.
00:21:47 l haven't slept in a sleeping bag
00:21:53 The famous camp.
00:21:55 Waterskiing. Teepees.
00:22:00 l wish l could go to camp now.
00:22:03 lt was fun.
00:22:04 lt had all sorts of old-school activities.
00:22:07 Archery, water polo, capture the flag.
00:22:10 Oh! l would love to play water polo.
00:22:14 Paul, how much would you pay
00:22:21 -Ten bucks?
00:22:24 Wow. Water polo.
00:22:28 What didn't they have at that camp?
00:22:29 Adequate adult supervision. It was great.
00:22:35 Any lesbian experimentation going on?
00:22:38 A little.
00:22:46 Why are you swimming down the river, Paul?
00:22:49 lt's a charity stunt.
00:22:51 Why is it so important to get there
00:22:54 He has Yankee tickets that night.
00:22:58 You don't remember what the 28th is?
00:23:01 lf you're talking about the day
00:23:03 l'm pretty sure that, that was
00:23:08 And we never really celebrate that.
00:23:10 This stuff never stops, does it?
00:23:13 Nope.
00:23:16 lt's an odd phenomenon.
00:23:20 Enough about me.
00:23:24 Amy's anniversary.
00:23:28 August 28th is the fifth anniversary
00:23:31 To prepare for the occasion,
00:23:34 something unique,
00:23:35 to distinguish myself in some small way
00:23:41 Go where?
00:23:49 lt's been five years.
00:23:51 Motherfucker!
00:23:53 What?
00:23:56 What?
00:24:09 Jeff!
00:24:18 What's happening?
00:24:22 He's gonna kill himself
00:24:27 What's going on here? What...
00:24:28 When Amy was killed, Paul was a wreck.
00:24:31 He was completely destroyed.
00:24:33 Um... One night, after not being able
00:24:36 l went over to their apartment
00:24:39 And when l got there, the door was open
00:24:44 And l remember
00:24:47 so l run up there.
00:24:49 And there he was on the edge of the roof,
00:24:53 -about to iump.
00:24:55 Yeah. But l start talking to him.
00:24:57 We start talking
00:24:59 that he will feel better sometime.
00:25:00 Amy had iust died three months earlier
00:25:05 And l told him to think about
00:25:08 And what about our friendship?
00:25:11 And l give him reason after reason
00:25:13 not the least of which
00:25:16 l don't want him to land on it.
00:25:18 Really?
00:25:19 No, but l did say that at one point
00:25:22 l got a laugh out of him,
00:25:27 just kept him talking.
00:25:30 Finally, after what seems like an hour,
00:25:33 l say, ''l'll tell you what.
00:25:36 ''You absolutely have to give this more time.
00:25:41 ''Give it five years,
00:25:44 ''and if at the end of those five years
00:25:47 ''l promise not only not to interfere,
00:25:52 ''l'll kick in for a pack of razor blades,
00:25:54 ''and l'll give a eulogy at your funeral,
00:25:59 ''and l'll defend your decision
00:26:03 But he didn't want to wait five years.
00:26:07 Thing is, he would've asked for
00:26:10 if the situation was reversed,
00:26:13 And when he realized that, l knew l had him.
00:26:19 We actually shook hands on it,
00:26:24 And after a couple years,
00:26:28 and, uh, kind of forgot about it,
00:26:33 until about two minutes ago.
00:26:36 So, it's five years later and, uh...
00:26:39 The time is actually here,
00:26:43 and he still wants to die.
00:27:29 Hi.
00:27:32 Hi.
00:27:37 Good morning.
00:27:43 Where'd you get that?
00:27:44 A little store up there.
00:27:49 Oh, perfect. Thank you.
00:27:57 l also found out
00:28:01 Well, we're private people.
00:28:15 Rise and shine, captain.
00:28:18 The missus brought you some coffee.
00:28:20 Really?
00:28:22 Fantastic.
00:28:24 Need to do six miles today, at least.
00:28:28 Considering all we have to do is
00:28:31 while you do the actual swimming,
00:29:28 l can't believe we're iust...
00:29:32 What would you prefer we do?
00:29:33 Stop the trip. Take him to a hospital.
00:29:36 lf we stop the trip and say,
00:29:41 what's that going to accomplish?
00:29:42 He wants to kill himself, he'll find a way.
00:29:45 You guys talking about me?
00:29:46 -Yeah.
00:29:48 Please don't.
00:29:49 Okay.
00:29:51 We'll chat about the weather instead.
00:29:52 Pretty nice day, huh?
00:29:55 Not as bad as yesterday.
00:29:56 Ah! Probably getting used to it.
00:29:58 Water's always freezing
00:30:01 Ain't that the truth.
00:30:03 Well, keep on trucking.
00:30:07 Will do, buddy.
00:30:10 l don't know
00:30:15 l don't know what to do.
00:30:19 lf he kills himself,
00:30:25 lt's got a huge screen.
00:32:34 What's he swimming for?
00:32:36 Just for fun.
00:32:37 Don't know how clean the water is.
00:32:39 There's a freshwater lake
00:32:41 l don't think
00:32:58 Let's get some hot dogs.
00:33:06 Damn it!
00:33:10 All right.
00:33:16 Put that around there.
00:33:39 We're looking for hot dogs.
00:33:41 l don't have any.
00:33:43 Fair enough.
00:33:44 Anybody know where we can
00:33:46 Town's about a quarter-mile down the road.
00:33:48 Perry's has hot dogs.
00:33:51 -No, they don't.
00:33:53 -They're iust not on the menu.
00:33:56 Bullshit!
00:33:57 It's true. You just have to ask for 'em.
00:33:59 -Who told you that?
00:34:02 Don't worry, we'll get to the bottom of it.
00:34:06 Knock some heads together, if we have to.
00:34:08 Mmm-hmm.
00:34:17 Mmm! Mmm!
00:34:21 l saw this thing on TV once,
00:34:25 and they were talking about
00:34:29 This chaplain was saying
00:34:34 never once did he actually see
00:34:37 They always ended up
00:34:40 We'll be passing Sing Sing.
00:34:41 l know. That's why l mentioned it.
00:34:47 Why did you mention it?
00:34:49 Well, how can you be eating so happily
00:34:54 Well, A, this isn't my last meal,
00:35:00 B, l'm hungry, and C, l love food.
00:35:03 Okay. Good. You love food.
00:35:07 That... Isn't that one reason
00:35:09 l mean, not to mention
00:35:10 l mean, you were like a little kid
00:35:14 l'm sure they'll have donuts in heaven.
00:35:17 -What?
00:35:19 -They have donuts in heaven.
00:35:22 l mean, if one believes in the concept
00:35:27 not really a stretch to believe
00:35:29 -Right.
00:35:30 even if they do have donuts in heaven,
00:35:32 and l can't believe l'm actually
00:35:34 what about B,
00:35:36 don't believe suicides go to heaven,
00:35:39 l don't believe in hell, or that suicides
00:35:42 l'm not saying l believe that either
00:35:45 Me neither.
00:35:47 Yet you're sure there's donuts there,
00:35:50 Willing to find out.
00:35:52 Paul, you've got to get some therapy.
00:35:55 l tried therapy, Liz.
00:35:57 All kinds. Groups, Prozac, Zoloft.
00:36:02 l tried praying
00:36:05 and then one day l just stopped.
00:36:08 Why?
00:36:12 Because Amy and the baby were still dead.
00:36:18 Okay. l understand that.
00:36:19 But that doesn't mean that
00:36:25 Lots of people have suffered
00:36:31 and continued with their lives.
00:36:36 Not all of them.
00:36:38 But most do go on, Paul. They find a way.
00:36:43 Maybe they were stronger than me,
00:36:44 but it was their choice to go on
00:36:46 l'm sorry, but, like, grief
00:36:50 is iust not a good reason to kill...
00:36:55 Not a good enough reason for you, you mean.
00:36:56 lt's not a good enough reason for anyone!
00:37:00 lt's a hostile act.
00:37:02 l don't have any siblings,
00:37:07 my wife and child are dead,
00:37:09 What about Jeff?
00:37:12 Why should l be forced
00:37:16 l wouldn't stop Jeff from killing himself,
00:37:23 You want to kill yourself,
00:37:26 Thanks. But who would drive the boat?
00:37:29 Good point. Hang in there, buddy.
00:37:31 You're an asshole.
00:37:33 And you're an idiot.
00:37:36 What'd l do?
00:38:01 l'm pretty sure ''slack tide'' means... It's like...
00:38:06 Slack. It's calm. It's not moving either way.
00:38:10 Remember, the Hudson is an estuary
00:38:14 Right, so ideally you want
00:38:17 Maximum ebb best of all, where you'd be
00:38:21 l know, so why was l fighting tides
00:38:25 l don't know how to read the chart.
00:38:33 Well, we were beginning to think
00:38:40 You okay?
00:38:41 Went window shopping.
00:39:28 l'm cold and sore and everything aches.
00:39:31 What do you care?
00:39:52 Cigarettes don't help with
00:39:56 What do l care? l'll be dead soon anyway.
00:39:58 Douché.
00:40:01 Maybe we should take tomorrow off.
00:40:05 We could...
00:40:07 l don't know,
00:40:10 See where plastic's made.
00:40:12 Can't fall behind.
00:40:13 Then we'll motor down the river
00:40:16 and nobody will know the difference.
00:40:18 l'll know the difference.
00:40:23 l'd like to accomplish
00:40:28 l want to actually do something
00:40:31 You know what l mean?
00:40:43 Let's get a milkshake.
00:40:48 This guy really didn't get enough time
00:40:50 Neither of them, Mom. Right.
00:40:54 Yes.
00:40:56 Maybe tomorrow.
00:40:57 When do you think we'll get there?
00:40:59 -Uh, hard to say.
00:41:02 - Probably tomorrow.
00:41:04 -No.
00:41:05 -l'm serious. l want to do 10 miles.
00:41:08 Neither of them, Mom! Okay?
00:41:12 Uh, sometime tomorrow afternoon, probably.
00:41:18 Will Pasthule be there?
00:41:21 l'm just asking. Suzanne?
00:41:24 All right, well, we'll all have dinner. Okay.
00:41:29 Okay. Okay!
00:41:34 Bye.
00:41:38 All set. She's looking forward to it.
00:41:43 Faggots!
00:42:21 Good morning.
00:42:24 Hey, did you sleep okay?
00:42:28 Yeah.
00:42:32 We need to get going.
00:42:37 Maximum ebb, people!
00:42:44 He's out of his mind!
00:42:46 No kidding.
00:42:51 l made him a promise.
00:42:53 -You don't have to honor it.
00:42:56 What good is giving your word
00:43:12 -Shit!
00:43:47 You all right?
00:43:50 Just swimming down the river.
00:43:52 What do you mean?
00:43:54 l'm swimming down to the Verrazano Bridge.
00:43:57 Verrazano Bridge? It's like 90 miles.
00:44:00 Not all at once. You know, day by day.
00:44:05 Everything okay?
00:44:08 Everything okay here?
00:44:14 l'm fine. Really.
00:44:16 He wants to swim the entire river.
00:44:20 Kind of, like, that Iditarod dog sled race
00:44:26 Except there's no other racers.
00:44:29 Right.
00:44:31 You got a permit for this?
00:44:35 No.
00:44:37 Do l need one?
00:44:41 Just be careful, okay?
00:44:44 Thank you.
00:44:59 -Do you know what we're eating tonight?
00:45:03 -There'll be an aunt there?
00:45:08 You don't sound too enthused.
00:45:11 We can always stay at a motel, if you want.
00:45:14 We'll be fine.
00:45:19 Fuck me!
00:45:21 What are the chances your mother
00:45:24 -waiting for us at the house?
00:45:27 -What are the chances your stepfather will...
00:45:31 What are the chances your mother's
00:45:34 upon my person?
00:45:39 Your taxi's here!
00:45:43 Hi, Mom!
00:45:45 Now, that one was built by a prosperous
00:45:50 Made an absolute fortune in imports.
00:45:53 Unfortunately, his grandson frittered it all
00:45:58 -That's too bad.
00:46:01 You used to play with his grandson, Liz.
00:46:04 We used to smoke pot by the river
00:46:07 Oh, don't be sassy!
00:46:10 And what about you, Seth?
00:46:14 -Jeff.
00:46:16 -Jeff.
00:46:18 Forgive me, Jeff.
00:46:22 My mother's a college professor, retired,
00:46:27 Oh! A doctor. That must've come in handy
00:46:31 Ha! Actually, he was the kind of guy
00:46:35 and research and whatever else,
00:46:37 you could be walking around the house
00:46:41 My aunt had a leg amputated
00:46:47 Right. l mean, he probably would have
00:46:51 And what do you do?
00:46:53 Actor. Bartender.
00:46:59 Et vous?
00:47:02 Et vous?
00:47:03 Hey! Hello? What's your background?
00:47:07 My father was a lawyer.
00:47:11 They both died.
00:47:13 Aw, lord. Plane crash?
00:47:15 No, no. Cancer. Natural causes.
00:47:19 They both had good lives.
00:47:20 Thank goodness for small favors, huh?
00:47:23 Yeah.
00:47:25 That house is amazing.
00:47:27 The Williams.
00:47:29 More divorce and alcoholism in that family
00:47:33 Troubled family, huh?
00:47:34 l don't want to discuss it. Please.
00:47:37 The youngest is in jail, if you can believe it.
00:47:41 And the middle one is a... A gay.
00:47:46 Oh, look at that one. That is huge!
00:47:49 The Vanderhooks.
00:47:52 They had nine children.
00:47:55 Seven.
00:47:56 Well, l never counted.
00:48:00 And poor Emily.
00:48:05 Not that the father seemed to mind.
00:48:10 She couldn't have been a day over 21.
00:48:13 She did not wear a bra.
00:48:18 You think that's funny?
00:48:20 Not wearing a bra is ha-ha funny?
00:48:24 No, not the lack of bra, in and of itself, no.
00:48:27 Well, let me tell you,
00:48:30 Teenage wife,
00:48:35 with no bra on all day!
00:48:54 So when does school start, dear?
00:48:57 The Wednesday after Labor Day.
00:49:00 l heard they were making
00:49:03 start school in August these days,
00:49:04 because they were so hopelessly
00:49:09 -lt's not true.
00:49:11 Do you think they should start in August?
00:49:15 Right, like she's really going to be
00:49:19 Paul, we never did get to what it is you do.
00:49:23 That is, when you're not
00:49:26 or crossing the Great Ponds.
00:49:29 l've been writing for a business magazine.
00:49:31 Mostly personal investments,
00:49:38 That sounds like a drag.
00:49:39 Suzanne...
00:49:41 No. Actually, she's right. It's... It isn't fun.
00:49:46 Well, maybe this little vacation
00:49:48 will re-energize you and you can go back
00:49:53 Not that l would want to write
00:49:56 Or even read one.
00:49:59 -l'm not going back to work.
00:50:02 Oh? Well, what's next?
00:50:07 Uh...
00:50:11 Nothing, really.
00:50:13 Nothing?
00:50:16 People don't just do nothing, Paul.
00:50:20 You have to do something.
00:50:24 Well, actually, if you really want to know,
00:50:30 He's joking. He's...
00:50:32 These guys have a real
00:50:35 Bedpan?
00:50:37 Deadpan.
00:50:38 Bedpan, too.
00:50:39 Oh, l'm not joking.
00:50:41 But if you'd rather not discuss it, which is
00:50:44 Please. Let's do.
00:50:47 What is all this nonsense
00:50:52 Why?
00:50:53 Because l've lived my life.
00:50:55 Uh-huh. You're all of 21 years old!
00:50:58 Thirty-five, actually.
00:51:00 Well, l don't care if you're 36.
00:51:06 She's right, Paul.
00:51:10 Particularly growing older.
00:51:12 lf it was, we'd all be dead.
00:51:15 Look, l'm way over 21,
00:51:20 l'm no spring chicken either,
00:51:24 You know what? l'm...
00:51:27 l'm sorry.
00:51:28 Good luck closing that barn door.
00:51:31 lt actually was a ioke, okay?
00:51:35 l'm sorry l said that. l'm sorry.
00:51:45 l do not like those boys.
00:51:48 Which one are you dating?
00:51:49 l'm not dating either of them, Mom.
00:51:52 l iust hate to see you throw yourself into
00:51:57 just because you're getting older.
00:52:00 Do yourself a favor.
00:52:02 Forget about marriage and children.
00:52:07 -Thanks.
00:52:09 You know what l'm saying.
00:52:11 You gotta look out for number one,
00:52:16 not some man.
00:52:18 l'll tell you something.
00:52:21 l don't give Pasthule a thing, until l got my...
00:52:26 You know what.
00:52:28 l really don't want to discuss this.
00:52:31 Uh, yeah, l think she does some good work
00:52:35 l didn't say she was better than you,
00:52:38 just she does what she does.
00:52:42 And no, l don't think she's prettier than you.
00:52:46 Well, yeah, she's younger.
00:52:49 Right.
00:52:51 No, she's not.
00:52:52 We'll talk about this when l get home, okay?
00:52:54 Yes, l gotta get off the phone.
00:52:57 'Cause it's not polite to talk for an hour
00:53:01 Yeah, whatever, 20 minutes.
00:53:03 Yes, definitely.
00:53:06 Uh, no, nothing's wrong.
00:53:09 l don't know what you perceive in my voice,
00:53:12 l'll call you soon. Bye.
00:53:16 High maintenance!
00:53:24 So you're an actor, huh?
00:53:27 Have l seen you in anything?
00:53:30 Other than the dining room during dinner?
00:53:34 Unless you happened to be living
00:53:37 a few years back,
00:53:40 from the Lem's Auto Insurance ad
00:53:43 as the poor bastard
00:53:47 lt ran all the time.
00:53:48 l think l missed that one.
00:53:50 Well, l have it on tape.
00:53:52 Be happy to send it to you.
00:53:59 You know that self-deprecating humor
00:54:02 as a defense mechanism for those
00:54:06 That would be me.
00:54:08 Which doesn't mean it isn't funny.
00:54:11 Thanks.
00:54:14 But what l'm really good at
00:54:17 is bartending.
00:54:21 Hmm, someone's gotta make the drinks, huh?
00:54:26 Yeah, l guess so.
00:54:32 So, uh...
00:54:36 What do you study in college?
00:54:38 Actually, l'm a drama major.
00:54:40 Another actor.
00:54:42 No, l'm just kidding. l'm pre-med.
00:54:45 Really? So, you want to be a doctor?
00:54:47 No. l'm fucking with you.
00:54:50 l'm iust a regular liberal arts,
00:54:57 You'll make a great temp someday.
00:54:59 Thank you.
00:55:04 So, um, your friend in there,
00:55:08 he sounded serious about
00:55:12 He is.
00:55:14 Hmm, interesting. It's his life.
00:55:18 You think so?
00:55:21 No, it's your life.
00:55:30 Let's take a walk.
00:55:33 Where to?
00:55:36 l don't know.
00:55:48 l'm gonna go for a walk.
00:55:51 Come join me, if you like.
00:56:05 And that's when l knew, right then and there,
00:56:06 And that's when l knew, right then and there,
00:56:14 She's not on the porch.
00:56:16 Oh, dear, l'm not going to tell her anything.
00:56:21 Why don't you pin a note to Pasthule's shirt?
00:56:24 -Nice meeting you, Paul.
00:56:26 Good night, Aunt Karen.
00:56:28 No, let her figure it out the hard way.
00:56:36 Let's roll him for his billfold.
00:56:39 lf only he had one.
00:56:43 God, l'm sorry l brought you here.
00:56:47 l'm sorry l brought me here.
00:56:49 -Why?
00:56:53 All families are weird.
00:56:57 Do you miss yours?
00:57:00 Of course.
00:57:04 They good to you?
00:57:10 Amy was great.
00:57:13 And the baby, well...
00:57:15 Um, l wasn't... l wasn't talking about...
00:57:19 l was talking about your parents.
00:57:22 Oh, no.
00:57:26 Of course.
00:57:29 l miss them, too.
00:57:52 l want you to taste me.
00:57:54 l want you to taste me
00:57:57 Wanna taste me? Do you wanna fuck me?
00:58:04 Taste me.
00:59:58 Hi.
01:00:02 Good morning.
01:00:06 Wow.
01:00:08 Mmm.
01:00:21 What time is it?
01:00:23 Um, almost 11:00.
01:00:28 Really?
01:00:30 Yeah.
01:00:35 We should get going.
01:00:40 Do you think there's any Cokes in the house?
01:00:42 Probably Pepsi.
01:00:44 Pepsi?
01:00:45 What kind of flophouse
01:00:54 Bonjour.
01:00:58 l'm such an idiot!
01:01:00 Yup.
01:01:04 How was it?
01:01:10 She's kinda nutty.
01:01:12 ln a good way or a bad way?
01:01:14 A little of both.
01:01:21 Was our absence remarked upon?
01:01:23 Pasthule went nuts.
01:01:26 ls that, that guy's name?
01:01:28 l don't know.
01:01:31 Yeah, he nodded off.
01:01:35 -And what'd you guys do?
01:01:50 You're really going back into that water
01:01:55 Or are you just gooing on me?
01:01:59 Goofing.
01:02:00 -What?
01:02:03 Oh, who cares what the word is, dear?
01:02:09 Yes, l'm going to swim
01:02:12 What do you do when you finish?
01:02:17 Look for a new job, l guess.
01:02:19 There you go!
01:02:20 Can't hurt to see what's out there,
01:02:24 Nope.
01:02:25 Keep my options open.
01:02:29 Ah, there's Renny Van Cort.
01:02:31 The sorrow that man has known.
01:02:53 Wish l could have grabbed
01:03:21 There's my favorite
01:03:29 Rollercoaster
01:03:36 Next to the blue water
01:03:52 There's the sun
01:04:00 Going down
01:04:08 Creating that fluorescent glow
01:04:23 Reminding me I'll never be able
01:04:39 To relive this day
01:04:47 Except in memory
01:05:12 There's those big
01:05:19 Barking fish
01:05:27 ln the concrete stream
01:05:41 But where's Dad?
01:05:48 And where is Mom?
01:06:03 Looks like from here on out
01:06:08 lt's me and you
01:06:18 Looks like from here on out
01:06:23 lt's iust me and you
01:06:29 Can l sleep with you tonight?
01:06:32 Tie our sleeping bags together or something?
01:06:36 What are we gonna tell him?
01:06:44 Don't worry about it.
01:06:47 Liz and l are shacking up tonight.
01:06:51 When did this develop?
01:06:53 Last night.
01:06:56 Christ!
01:07:00 She knows. l can hear it in her voice,
01:07:03 l cannot believe you slept with Suzanne.
01:07:06 l didn't find that part to be a problem.
01:07:08 What are you going to do?
01:07:11 -l might not go home.
01:07:14 l might not go home.
01:07:17 l'm tired of living like this.
01:07:20 Oh, man.
01:07:23 l feel so drained.
01:07:26 And l do not want to do this anymore.
01:07:28 -But you need to.
01:07:30 Make it work somehow. It's not impossible.
01:07:34 You could have a future, a child.
01:07:36 You iust need to hang in there
01:07:38 You're giving me advice?
01:07:42 Yeah.
01:07:47 What are you gonna do?
01:07:53 l don't know. Keep swimming, l guess.
01:08:15 lt's a rainout!
01:08:17 Let's go get some breakfast.
01:08:19 Take in a movie or something.
01:08:24 No, no, no, no, no, no, no.
01:08:25 We can make excellent time.
01:08:27 -Are you kidding?
01:08:30 Who cares?
01:08:31 The people who normally stay dry
01:08:34 lt may not matter to you in the water,
01:08:37 before l sit on a boat going
01:08:40 Let's go.
01:08:42 No.
01:08:45 We're gonna wait till it clears up.
01:08:47 lf you guys don't want to, that's fine.
01:08:52 But l want to reach New York by August 28th,
01:08:57 You can meet me downriver later.
01:09:29 You know, it actually feels kind of warmer.
01:09:50 What are you doing? Stop it! Stop it!
01:10:36 Hey.
01:10:39 The library in this town sucks.
01:10:42 They have, like, two books and a newspaper.
01:10:46 What are you doing?
01:10:49 ls it true, if you cut a worm in half,
01:10:54 l think you get three.
01:10:56 How's he doing?
01:11:03 Hey, sorry about that, uh, you know, that
01:11:07 but l'm over it.
01:11:31 It's amazing here.
01:11:36 l was on Staten Island once
01:11:39 where l saw these huge rats fighting
01:11:44 Let me tell you, this definitely beats that.
01:11:54 Have you ever seen such a lovely sight?
01:11:58 Not in a long time.
01:12:01 There's... There's so much more beauty
01:12:07 There's visual, artistic, emotional.
01:12:15 And love.
01:12:35 l can't believe we don't have
01:12:38 Or marshmallows.
01:12:39 We could throw Paul in the fire.
01:12:41 Watch him iump out so fast
01:12:46 So, how are you planning on killing yourself?
01:12:52 l'm not sure, really. Maybe a gun.
01:12:55 We're not gun people.
01:13:08 You don't understand.
01:13:10 Help me understand.
01:13:13 lt's not your fault, Liz,
01:13:15 and it's not your responsibility
01:13:20 Look after your own lives, guys, not mine.
01:13:23 Well, here's the problem, butt-plug.
01:13:25 You're a part of my life,
01:13:27 and you've become a part of Liz's life, too,
01:13:29 so, uh, we are worrying about our own lives.
01:13:34 Look, l'm not asking you to agree with me
01:13:37 l'm just asking you to respect my wishes.
01:13:42 We all have to die sometime,
01:13:43 so what's wrong with choosing
01:13:47 lf l were a quadriplegic with burns
01:13:51 you wouldn't try and make me
01:13:54 But you're not even close to being like that.
01:13:58 l'm not fine at all!
01:14:03 Nobody's saying emotional suffering
01:14:06 It... 'Cause it is,
01:14:12 but the difference between
01:14:15 is that you can heal someday.
01:14:19 That's your opinion.
01:14:21 No, Paul, that's a fact,
01:14:24 People can and do heal from emotional pain,
01:14:30 You want us to let you die?
01:14:32 You want us to drive this boat
01:14:34 Then make us a promise,
01:14:36 and that is to at least consider the possibility
01:14:40 that you could be wrong about everything.
01:15:16 What was he like as a kid?
01:15:18 He was shorter.
01:15:22 He was unusual, actually.
01:15:25 Um... One part of him was
01:15:30 Then there was always this other side,
01:15:33 This vulnerability, this, uh,
01:15:38 fragile part of him.
01:15:46 Good old Indian Point.
01:15:48 Hey, wanna get a move-along there?
01:15:52 l'm no Mark Spitzer.
01:15:54 Or Stevie Brennan for that matter.
01:15:56 ls it true the water is warmer
01:15:59 'cause of the crap they discharge
01:16:01 No. It's freezing!
01:16:06 Should be in Hastings soon.
01:16:08 We can crash at my parents',
01:16:13 At their other house that they can afford,
01:16:15 'cause they worked hard
01:16:18 while l didn't, and therefore live
01:16:24 But whatever.
01:16:52 ''One should always carry
01:16:55 lt's just my life philosophy.
01:16:57 Think your mother
01:16:59 l know she does.
01:17:00 -Nilla wafers, too.
01:17:02 - Nice house.
01:17:05 Welcome to my former home.
01:17:07 Wish l had appreciated it more at the time.
01:18:12 Don't leave us.
01:18:15 Don't leave us, Paul.
01:18:19 Don't leave me.
01:18:22 You're so lovely.
01:18:38 That ought to clear things out for a while.
01:18:44 lt's nice up here, huh?
01:18:48 Remember how we used to build
01:18:52 We spent weeks on those things.
01:18:54 l loved building those forts.
01:18:57 They were so elaborate.
01:19:04 You know, you could stay here
01:19:06 My parents won't be back till October.
01:19:09 Take walks in the woods,
01:19:31 We should get back to the river.
01:20:17 If l find you messing
01:20:20 there's gonna be hell to pay.
01:20:23 Liz.
01:20:26 You okay?
01:20:31 He wants to get going.
01:20:35 Mmm. l know.
01:21:21 Amy. Olivia.
01:22:10 l'm sorry, l'm sorry.
01:22:47 Time
01:22:52 All the long, red lines
01:23:00 That take control
01:23:06 Of all the smokelike streams
01:23:12 That flow into your dreams
01:23:19 The big, blue, open sea
01:23:27 That can't be crossed
01:23:33 That can't be climbed
01:23:40 Just torn between
01:23:46 Oh, the two white lines
01:23:52 Distant gods and faded signs
01:24:00 Of all those blinking lights
01:24:06 You had to pick the one tonight
01:25:02 Holes
01:25:07 Dug by little moles
01:25:14 Angry, jealous spies
01:25:21 Got telephones for eyes
01:25:28 Come to you as friends
01:25:34 All those endless ends
01:25:42 That can't be tied
01:25:48 Oh, they make me laugh
01:25:54 And always make me cry
01:26:02 Till they drop like flies
01:26:08 And sink like polished stones
01:26:15 Of all the stones l throw
01:26:21 How does that old song go?
01:26:35 How does that old song go?
01:26:43 Congratulations, man.
01:26:47 -Good work.
01:26:51 Thank you.
01:26:53 Some rough waters at the end there.
01:26:58 Yeah.
01:27:01 Well, you made it through.
01:27:06 Let's get back in the boat,
01:27:09 get some celebration dinner. All right?
01:27:13 Come on, man. My treat.
01:27:16 l'm not getting back in the boat.
01:27:18 What?
01:27:21 l'm not getting back in the boat.
01:27:24 What are you gonna do?
01:27:41 Aw, Jesus, man.
01:27:43 Thank you for everything.
01:27:47 Really.
01:27:56 Paul.
01:27:57 Don't get back in that water.
01:28:03 Do not get back in that water!
01:28:09 Paul, please.
01:28:11 Just get back into the boat. We'll iust...
01:28:17 l'm sorry.
01:28:41 Where are you going?
01:28:48 Paul.
01:28:50 lt's okay, Jeff. It really is.
01:28:54 You've done all you can.
01:28:58 Please, keep the deal we made.
01:30:01 l'm gonna go get him.
01:30:09 lf he wants to turn around, he will.
01:33:14 Salvador Sanchez
01:33:20 Arrived and vanished
01:33:25 Only 23
01:33:28 With so much speed
01:33:30 Owning the highway
01:33:45 Mexico City
01:33:51 Bred so many
01:33:55 But none quite like him
01:33:58 Sweet warrior
01:34:00 Pure magic matador
01:34:15 Pancho Villa
01:34:20 Would never rest
01:34:25 Till 1925
01:34:28 He closed his eyes
01:34:30 Till Manila stars would rise
01:34:45 Ghosts of the Philippines
01:34:51 Choirs and angels singing
01:34:55 Ukulele strings play for his legend
01:35:00 Iloilo King
01:35:15 Why have they gone?
01:35:17 felled by leather
01:35:21 All alone, bound together
01:35:39 Benny ''Kid'' Paret came a good way
01:35:49 To climb up gray skies to lift his hands
01:35:54 Stopped by the better man
01:36:08 Eyes of Las Villas
01:36:14 Cry for sons
01:36:19 Lost on distant shores, unforeseen horrors
01:36:24 Struck and delivered him
01:36:39 Why have they gone?
01:36:41 felled by leather
01:36:45 All alone, bound together
01:36:51 Where have they gone?
01:36:53 felled by leather
01:36:57 All alone, bound together