Helen

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00:01:29 ♪ Happy Birthday to you ♪
00:01:37 ♪ Happy Birthday, dear Helen ♪
00:01:41 ♪ Happy Birthday to you ♪
00:01:47 Happy Birthday!
00:01:50 What do you think?
00:01:52 Oh, my God!
00:01:54 Happy Birthday, Helen.
00:01:56 Happy Birthday.
00:01:58 Isn't it gorgeous?
00:02:05 Did you make this yourself?
00:02:07 Yes.
00:02:08 Darling, it's gorgeous.
00:02:11 Make a wish, Mom.
00:02:15 Help!
00:02:18 Thank you, sweetheart.
00:02:22 Just one.
00:02:24 A short one.
00:03:35 Let's eat!
00:03:51 ♪ Everything l have is yours ♪
00:03:55 ♪ You're part of me ♪
00:04:03 ♪ Everything l have is yours ♪
00:04:07 ♪ My destiny ♪
00:04:14 ♪ l would gladly give
00:04:21 ♪ lf the sun were only mine ♪
00:04:27 ♪ l would gladly give
00:04:33 ♪ And the stars that shine ♪
00:04:39 ♪ Everything that l possess
00:05:49 If I shoot those guys out there
00:05:52 and plead temporary insanity,
00:05:54 would you corroborate my story, huh?
00:06:02 Oh, shit.
00:06:04 Hmm?
00:06:06 The alarm didn't go off.
00:06:09 -Come on.
00:06:10 -It's almost 8:00.
00:06:14 Julie has a test in her first period.
00:06:17 -Where's your tie?
00:06:20 And I can't take her.
00:06:22 I have this stupid
00:06:29 -David!
00:06:30 Wake up!
00:06:32 Wake up. Wake up.
00:06:34 M m-hmm.
00:06:36 We gotta go, darling.
00:06:37 Everyone is gonna be there.
00:06:39 I already told Brian I could go,
00:06:41 and if I back out now,
00:06:43 Good morning.
00:06:44 You know how hard it is
00:06:45 to get a reservation at Claire's
00:06:47 -Hey! I slept just fine.
00:06:50 Thank you, thank you.
00:06:51 But you never said you made plans.
00:06:54 It was supposed to be a surprise.
00:06:56 -Hey, who cleaned up?
00:06:58 -I did. But that is not the point.
00:07:00 The point is, I never said
00:07:01 that you could go away
00:07:03 -You're crazy. I would have helped.
00:07:09 Is that true?
00:07:12 Somebody was supposed to tell you.
00:07:14 Well, I forgot!
00:07:17 Well, you're not going,
00:07:20 Great! Thanks a lot!
00:07:22 But if you think I'm going
00:07:24 think again!
00:07:28 She has to be in school
00:08:11 Hello?
00:09:07 Can I help you?
00:09:10 I was just. . . .
00:09:11 What are you doing here?
00:09:14 Well, I can. . .
00:09:16 Nobody's supposed to be here
00:09:20 So what are you still doing here?
00:09:24 Aren't you in my music theory class?
00:09:29 I just. . . I can't. . . get it right.
00:09:33 Nothing I play sounds adequate,
00:09:38 Well, it's not your notes
00:09:42 But you need to slow down.
00:09:44 Try to. . . pay more attention
00:09:47 to what happens
00:09:50 Try to hold on to time.
00:09:54 What do you mean?
00:09:58 Suspension. Silence.
00:10:05 That's where you'II find
00:10:10 In the distance between things.
00:10:20 And you really shouldn't be
00:10:23 Let me know when you want to go.
00:10:30 I'll let you out.
00:10:32 No need to climb out the window.
00:11:13 l don't see it coming.
00:11:22 But l can feel it.
00:11:30 lt's there.
00:12:03 Hey, Helen.
00:12:05 Hi, Donna.
00:12:06 So you think they'll read your brief,
00:12:09 and send us a written apology?
00:12:11 Or a fruit basket.
00:12:15 Oh! Helen's here.
00:12:18 Hey, love.
00:12:20 Thank God you're here.
00:12:21 You gotta save me from this man.
00:12:24 What are you doing here? Huh?
00:12:32 Well. . . actually, I was nowhere
00:12:36 and l just thought
00:12:38 But you are so busy.
00:12:39 I'm sorry,
00:12:41 No, no, no, it's perfect. We're gonna
00:12:44 -Why don't you come with us?
00:12:47 No, thanks. I'm not hungry.
00:12:49 You don't have to eat.
00:12:50 You know, I --
00:12:52 l reaIIy shouId go home
00:12:56 You sure?
00:12:57 Yeah. AbsoIuteIy.
00:13:02 -I'll see you later.
00:13:04 -See you, Suz.
00:13:25 Hello, everyone.
00:13:27 After I've returned your essays,
00:13:34 We will. . . .
00:13:39 Excuse me.
00:14:02 I'm going to bed.
00:14:04 Sleep tight, sweetheart.
00:14:07 Okay.
00:14:12 Straight answer --
00:14:17 It was. . . incredible.
00:14:20 Yeah, okay.
00:14:24 Good night.
00:15:13 Helen?
00:15:36 I love this car.
00:15:39 I know you do.
00:15:57 Are you going to let me in
00:16:02 What makes you think
00:16:06 Don't you?
00:16:13 Not with you.
00:16:19 What is it, honey?
00:16:26 It's nothing.
00:16:29 I'm just tired.
00:16:31 I'm just really tired. That's all.
00:16:36 I always hate the beginning
00:16:49 Come on, let's go inside.
00:17:01 Have you eaten?
00:17:02 Yeah.
00:17:03 Julie tried her very first
00:17:06 It was scary.
00:17:19 Are you okay?
00:18:44 What are you doing here, honey?
00:18:48 I was at school.
00:18:55 What time is it?
00:18:59 1 5.
00:19:03 Jesus. . . I must have slept
00:19:13 Can you -- can you please
00:19:16 I really need to get this done
00:19:18 Yeah.
00:19:21 Just give me a minute.
00:19:34 Do you want me to call Dad
00:19:45 No.
00:19:49 Of course not. I'm taking you.
00:20:15 I'm not going on a world trip, Mom.
00:20:21 I'll be back in three weeks.
00:20:24 I know.
00:20:25 Okay.
00:20:42 Go, Mom!
00:20:47 -Hey, Dad!
00:20:49 How'd it go?
00:20:51 Come here.
00:20:53 -All right, get in there.
00:20:56 Dad, come here!
00:21:02 Dad!
00:21:04 All right.
00:21:05 No, I don't think that she should try
00:21:08 I think that she should
00:21:09 take the kids,
00:21:12 and sue the hell out of him
00:21:13 until he doesn't have a pot
00:21:15 M m-hmm.
00:21:15 You sure you want to go out
00:21:18 Oh, no. Excuse me.
00:21:19 He is like the biggest fucking
00:21:22 First of all, he sleeps
00:21:25 Iies to Louise about it
00:21:28 and then he makes her feel guilty
00:21:32 Like now it's her fauIt
00:21:34 like some fucking. . . dog in heat.
00:21:37 I thought only female dogs
00:21:40 What do male dogs do?
00:21:41 It's a permanent condition for them
00:21:44 Susanna, remind me --
00:21:47 the ability to have
00:21:50 -Excuse me.
00:21:52 -Yes, you did.
00:21:56 Yeah, you made a reference to. . . .
00:22:50 We believe that life can be perfect.
00:22:52 So we are always miserable
00:22:56 Whereas they beIieve that even
00:23:00 life could maybe be improved.
00:23:01 So what are you saying?
00:23:02 That we should lower
00:23:04 to a point that they're already met?
00:23:06 No, I think she's saying we should
00:23:08 Yeah!
00:23:09 But you don't need
00:23:10 There's no room for improvement
00:23:13 He loves his life.
00:23:14 -Isn't that disgusting?
00:23:16 Somebody should sue me.
00:23:19 -l wiII.
00:23:21 That might be a dare.
00:23:23 Helen, are you still in there?
00:23:31 Helen?
00:23:34 Excuse me.
00:23:40 Helen?!
00:23:43 Helen!
00:23:49 What the fuck is going on?
00:23:50 What are you doing here? Huh?
00:23:56 Sorry, I didn't feel well.
00:23:58 What's wrong? Are you okay?
00:24:00 Yeah. It's nothing.
00:24:02 Nothing? You disappeared
00:24:14 I'm sorry.
00:24:17 I should have said something.
00:24:29 Listen, David, it doesn't have
00:24:42 Is there someone else?
00:24:48 Is there?
00:24:52 Wait a minute.
00:24:54 You're suspecting me
00:25:00 No. Of course not.
00:25:03 Then what is it? What's so awful
00:25:07 I'm sorry.
00:25:09 Sorry for what?
00:25:14 Helen, I used to know
00:25:18 For better or for worse, remember?
00:25:25 Come on, honey. Talk to me.
00:25:27 Stop it! Please!
00:25:32 Please stop interrogating me.
00:28:19 Helen?
00:28:24 Jesus Christ.
00:28:37 Helen!
00:28:42 Hey.
00:28:48 Oh, God!
00:28:50 Helen!
00:28:54 -David?
00:28:58 M r. Leonard?
00:28:59 How is she?
00:29:00 WeII, there's nothing
00:29:02 I've notified Dr. Barnes.
00:29:05 I don't understand.
00:29:07 there's nothing wrong with her.
00:29:10 You'll have to wait for Dr. Barnes.
00:29:12 Give me the goddamn time of day,
00:29:14 She was practically unconscious.
00:29:17 It seems the problem is psychiatric.
00:29:21 What the hell are you talking about?
00:29:23 There's no physical cause
00:29:26 Look, this is. . . .
00:29:29 You know what?
00:29:32 Well, I am the second opinion.
00:29:34 Please wait for Dr. Barnes.
00:29:38 Do you suffer from insomnia
00:29:41 Less sleep or more than usual?
00:29:42 She hasn't sIept
00:29:45 but she's always been
00:29:49 Have you been in a depressed mood
00:29:51 for more than two weeks?
00:29:58 Helen?
00:30:06 Almost.
00:30:11 Do you have a marked
00:30:13 in nearly every aspect of your life?
00:30:19 Have you had considerable
00:30:21 without a change in diet?
00:30:23 She lost some weight, yes.
00:30:27 Are you unable to concentrate
00:30:36 M rs. Leonard,
00:30:45 Have you been here before?
00:30:50 No.
00:30:57 Has anyone ever prescribed you--?
00:30:59 Yes.
00:31:02 Pardon?
00:31:13 I've been here before.
00:31:17 When?
00:31:30 1 2 years ago.
00:31:36 How long have you been married?
00:31:39 Um, seven years.
00:31:46 So I understand you had
00:31:56 How come I didn't see this coming?
00:31:59 It's not unusual.
00:32:03 You should meet some of the clowns
00:32:07 I'm going to prescribe her
00:32:09 and Ativan to control anxiety.
00:32:13 But it'll take at least two weeks
00:32:16 to the antidepressants.
00:32:18 Now, in some cases, the side effects
00:32:21 but they tend to subside
00:32:23 What kind of side effects?
00:32:25 Oh, it varies.
00:32:26 Nausea, drowsiness, night sweats,
00:32:31 blurred vision, thirst.
00:32:33 Make sure she doesn't drink alcohol,
00:32:35 and it's very important
00:32:37 on a regular basis.
00:32:42 Helen is a. . .
00:32:45 a happy, successful woman.
00:32:49 She loves her job.
00:32:55 Your wife is not unhappy,
00:32:57 Your wife is ill.
00:33:09 Let's go home, love.
00:33:12 Come on.
00:33:40 Helen.
00:33:44 Please.
00:33:46 No.
00:33:50 They don't help.
00:33:53 It's too early to tell, you know that.
00:33:56 They just make it worse.
00:33:59 That's supposed to be temporary.
00:34:16 Thank you.
00:34:27 How come we never
00:34:33 Hmm?
00:34:37 You don't want to hear it.
00:34:42 Try me.
00:34:54 I can't.
00:35:03 I'm sorry.
00:35:10 I want you to get
00:35:13 and cancel my lunch meeting
00:35:15 And tell him also that I want
00:35:18 -He'll smell a rat.
00:35:21 -What do you need these for?
00:35:26 Uh, send them
00:35:37 What's going on, David?
00:35:40 I'm gonna take a few days off.
00:35:42 Oh, man.
00:35:45 We'll deserve it.
00:35:48 I mean now.
00:35:50 Wait. . .
00:35:53 Today?
00:35:54 Yes.
00:35:55 What, are you out of your mind?!
00:35:58 We'll move for a continuance.
00:36:00 On the trial date?!
00:36:03 You can handle it!
00:36:05 I'll call you tomorrow night.
00:36:48 Helen.
00:36:49 Stay away from me! Don't come--!
00:36:51 Hey, l'm not going
00:36:56 I'll just sit here, okay?
00:37:08 David.
00:37:09 I'm right here, baby. Right here.
00:37:14 I can't--!
00:37:16 I can't do this any more!
00:37:48 l wiII prescribe her
00:37:51 But as long as she refuses
00:37:53 Don't you see how sick she is?
00:37:54 I'm scared to let her
00:37:57 At this point,
00:38:00 if she wants to be helped.
00:38:01 -That's the Iaw.
00:38:03 But my wife is sick, and you're
00:38:06 You're forgetting that these laws
00:38:08 are designed to protect people
00:38:13 I need you to sign this.
00:38:15 It states that you're leaving
00:38:27 Helen.
00:38:34 Please.
00:38:53 All right, so I'll take you
00:38:59 It's just right down this way.
00:39:22 Hey.
00:39:24 Um, can I talk to you for a minute?
00:39:27 You want to come in?
00:39:28 No, I don't want Julie
00:39:33 Can we go someplace else?
00:39:35 She was ready and willing
00:39:37 to abandon her one-year-old
00:39:41 That's not exactly something
00:39:45 If Julie hadn't woken up
00:39:47 then Helen wouldn't be alive today.
00:39:50 She never forgave herself for that.
00:39:53 What about you? What'd you do?
00:39:56 I never had a chance.
00:39:58 Wouldn't talk about it.
00:40:00 I tried to fight it,
00:40:03 And I lost.
00:40:05 End of story.
00:40:09 I tried, she wouldn't have it.
00:40:11 Just pretended it never happened.
00:40:15 And then she moved on without me.
00:40:20 I'm not gonna let that happen.
00:40:25 Don't be a jerk, David.
00:40:28 You think this is about love?
00:40:31 It isn't.
00:40:33 There is nothing you can do.
00:40:38 I don't believe that.
00:40:58 Hey, it's okay.
00:41:05 Don't be scared.
00:41:10 It's okay.
00:41:16 You're a great teacher, you know.
00:41:25 I'll never teach again.
00:41:31 You're not gone, Helen.
00:41:34 You're just lost.
00:41:43 Hey!
00:41:49 Hello?!
00:41:51 Hold on a second.
00:42:02 Jesus, Mathilda.
00:42:05 Come on, let's go.
00:42:15 Hey.
00:42:17 Hi.
00:42:20 What happened with her?
00:42:25 She's in my class.
00:42:29 She was in my class.
00:42:32 I have class today.
00:42:34 I took care of it. Don't worry.
00:42:38 I should be in class.
00:42:41 Helen, look at me.
00:42:44 If you don't want to be here,
00:42:46 I'll take you home right now.
00:42:58 How's Julie?
00:43:01 Have you talked to her?
00:43:02 She's good.
00:43:06 She sends her love.
00:43:08 I don't want her to know
00:43:10 Tell her I have a virus or something.
00:43:14 You can't keep it a secret from her.
00:43:17 I don't want her to know
00:43:22 Well, then you have
00:43:25 I'll be fine. I'll handle it.
00:43:29 Helen. . . I told her.
00:43:34 She asked me, and I told her.
00:43:42 You had no right to do that!
00:43:45 -Do you understand?!
00:43:47 She's my daughter!
00:43:50 Oh, you had no right to do that!
00:43:58 l don't want you to taIk
00:44:01 I'm sorry, Dr. Sherman.
00:44:02 It's all right, Susan.
00:44:05 If. . . I. . . .
00:44:07 If -- if I don't allow it, you can't
00:44:12 That's right.
00:44:14 If I don't want him. . . .
00:44:16 If. . . .
00:44:20 If I don't want you to talk to him,
00:44:25 Why don't you sit down?
00:44:30 Where are you going?
00:44:32 Why do I have to tell you that?
00:44:35 You don't have to tell me that.
00:44:38 Good.
00:44:45 Yes, yes, yes!
00:44:50 Mom!
00:44:53 I'm so glad you're here.
00:44:55 Me too, darling.
00:45:02 We kicked some serious butt
00:45:05 And David taped the whole thing,
00:45:09 You should lay down and rest a bit.
00:45:14 Yes! And I'll cook for us,
00:45:16 and then we can watch
00:45:32 I have an idea.
00:45:34 How about the three of us
00:45:38 I'm sorry, sweetheart. I can't.
00:45:40 Come on, Mom. Why not?
00:45:45 I have a better idea.
00:45:48 Why don't the two of you go?
00:45:52 Huh? That'd be fun.
00:45:58 No, I want us all to go.
00:46:07 I have homework.
00:46:13 Come on, Sugar.
00:46:27 So if you consider these principles,
00:46:45 It would have amounted
00:47:01 This is bullshit!
00:47:26 That will be all for today.
00:47:40 I don't want to talk.
00:47:45 Okay.
00:47:53 You're doing better.
00:47:58 Yeah, well, I decided to be
00:48:13 Top five worst pieces of advice
00:48:16 from people who don't know
00:48:26 Take a vacation.
00:48:31 Read a book.
00:48:33 Get a haircut.
00:48:36 Redecorate.
00:48:39 Try yoga.
00:48:50 Top five ways of killing yourself.
00:49:12 Top five reasons to live anyway.
00:49:32 I can't go back.
00:49:50 I can still see it all around me,
00:49:53 but it's Iike l don't
00:49:59 And I see. . . .
00:50:07 I see how sad it makes David.
00:50:10 And I see. . . how sad it makes Julie,
00:50:16 and that makes it that much harder,
00:50:19 And l am reaIIy sick
00:50:25 Then don't.
00:50:34 Do you have any idea how worried
00:50:37 -l'm sorry, David.
00:50:38 Can you even begin to imagine
00:50:41 I didn't realize how late it got!
00:50:43 Hey, you're not the only one
00:50:47 Do you understand?!
00:50:52 I know.
00:50:54 You know?
00:50:56 I don't think so.
00:50:57 I don't think you know
00:50:59 with the shadow
00:51:06 Fuck!
00:52:23 -Don't ever do that again.
00:52:25 No!
00:52:27 -David, l'm sorry.
00:53:00 Hey, 1 3.
00:53:03 Hey.
00:53:05 I just wanted to tell you
00:53:06 that I'm going to spend
00:53:13 Why?
00:53:17 It's only Thursday, isn't it?
00:53:19 Yes, it's Thursday.
00:53:21 I just wanted to give you
00:53:27 You don't need to do that.
00:53:34 I'm gonna go.
00:54:33 I don't know.
00:54:36 That fucking son of a bitch!
00:54:38 Oh, no, David, don't bother.
00:54:42 What happened?
00:54:44 Why didn't you file my suppression
00:54:47 Look, man, I'm sorry, but I've got
00:54:49 Last thing I need is having to do
00:54:52 l just asked you to do this
00:54:54 No, it's not one thing!
00:54:55 It's one thing after another,
00:54:57 Clean up your own shit,
00:54:59 You've been nothing
00:55:01 -Hey, watch it!
00:55:03 -Who gives a fuck?!
00:55:05 Hey, don't you care at all
00:55:07 What? About your little junkie
00:55:10 No, I don't.
00:55:12 Let her do her time.
00:55:15 David! Stop it!
00:55:17 Stop it! David! No!
00:55:35 Thanks for the ride.
00:55:37 You're welcome.
00:55:52 I wish that there was something
00:55:59 I know.
00:56:38 Good night, Susanna.
00:56:41 Good night.
00:57:03 What are you doing here?
00:57:10 Helen called me.
00:57:15 What happened?
00:57:18 Don't worry. She'll be all right.
00:57:28 I'd appreciate it
00:57:45 Hey. I'm gonna go now.
00:57:48 No, please don't go.
00:57:51 It's okay. We'll talk tomorrow.
00:58:06 I, um. . . I've given her three valiums.
00:58:10 She's had enough for tonight.
00:58:13 Make sure she doesn't
00:58:19 I'll let myself out.
00:58:34 I need to take another sick leave.
00:58:42 No.
00:58:45 Of course.
00:58:48 I understand. Yes.
00:58:53 I will.
00:58:55 Thanks.
00:59:38 Mom!
00:59:42 I'm so sorry, darling.
00:59:47 Frank.
00:59:53 Julie, I want to, uh,
00:59:56 speak to your mother alone
01:00:16 You want me to call someone?
01:00:26 Where's David?
01:00:38 I want Julie to come
01:00:43 What?
01:00:44 She should stay with me
01:00:54 Please don't do this, Frank.
01:00:57 You can't take care of her.
01:01:04 And don't fight me on this.
01:01:08 You'll lose.
01:02:20 God, you're so lovely.
01:04:39 Helen!
01:04:41 HeIen! Wake up!
01:04:44 Oh, goddamn it!
01:04:45 Helen! Helen, come on!
01:04:47 Hey, hey! Wake up!
01:04:49 Helen! Helen! Helen!
01:04:51 Come on!
01:05:42 M rs. Leonard?
01:05:44 Where are you going, M rs. Leonard?
01:05:49 Where are you going?
01:05:50 I want to go home.
01:05:52 You can't just leave.
01:05:54 Excuse me?
01:05:55 You can't Ieave.
01:06:01 Excuse me?
01:06:04 Why don't I take you
01:06:05 and I can get the doctor.
01:06:34 Where are my clothes?
01:06:36 You weren't wearing any
01:06:43 I want to go home.
01:06:46 I'm sorry, but that's not possible.
01:06:54 Your husband had you committed
01:07:04 I want to go home.
01:07:08 Helen. . .
01:07:12 You almost died.
01:07:40 I'm sorry.
01:07:45 You don't need to apologize to me.
01:08:24 I almost didn't go home that night.
01:08:31 But you did.
01:08:38 I didn't want to go home.
01:08:46 You did go home, David.
01:09:08 She can't hold on to you.
01:09:12 It doesn't work like that.
01:09:15 Can she hold on to you?
01:09:27 No.
01:09:33 You're not going to like
01:09:38 I think you should consider ECT.
01:09:49 Shock treatment?
01:09:51 l know it's scary.
01:09:58 But ECT could help you.
01:10:04 And the side effects are
01:10:07 No.
01:10:11 Never. I'd rather die.
01:10:15 Helen.
01:10:17 I said, no.
01:10:18 Hey, nobody's forcing you to--
01:10:20 Get out!
01:10:25 All right, enough.
01:10:28 Enough.
01:10:33 M r. Leonard. Please.
01:11:08 M rs. Leonard.
01:11:09 Do you understand
01:11:13 Yes.
01:11:15 WouId you care
01:11:19 I see a handful of strangers
01:11:21 who think they know
01:11:24 Do you believe they know
01:11:28 I would like to decide for myself
01:11:32 You decided to take your own life,
01:11:36 That was very stupid of me.
01:11:38 But isn't it also true
01:11:40 the second time
01:11:43 Mrs. Leonard suffers
01:11:46 Without continued treatment
01:11:50 there's a serious risk
01:11:53 Has M rs. Leonard
01:11:55 that she pIans on discontinuing
01:11:59 She doesn't beIieve
01:12:02 But she hasn't indicated
01:12:03 that she plans on discontinuing it,
01:12:05 This isn't just about the medication.
01:12:08 Dr. Sherman, has she indicated
01:12:10 that she plans on discontinuing
01:12:13 No. But M rs. Leonard needs help.
01:12:17 Has M rs. Leonard indicated
01:12:19 that she plans on trying
01:12:22 if she leaves here?
01:12:24 No. But that doesn't mean
01:12:27 Nothing further, Your Honor.
01:12:31 I find that the state
01:12:34 of proving with cIear
01:12:37 that the patient is a danger
01:12:42 You're free to go, M rs. Leonard.
01:12:47 Congratulations.
01:12:48 Take care of yourself and good luck.
01:13:12 Who is it?
01:13:20 I want to see Helen.
01:13:21 I don't think she wants to see you.
01:13:23 Don't be ridiculous.
01:13:37 So, that's it?
01:13:40 You'll throw away the life you had,
01:13:46 about everyone who loves you,
01:13:50 and give up?
01:13:54 Is that it?
01:14:01 No, that's not it.
01:14:02 Well, it looks like that to me.
01:14:05 That's because you can't see it
01:14:07 And I assume she does, huh?
01:14:10 It's not your fault, David.
01:14:13 When are you gonna
01:14:16 You know, it's funny
01:14:19 because if it's not my fault,
01:14:24 then why the fuck
01:14:26 Why?!
01:14:42 You remind me of who I used to be.
01:14:49 Isn't that worth fighting for?
01:14:52 Helen? Isn't it?
01:15:03 Julie's better off without me.
01:15:12 This is insane.
01:15:19 I'm taking you home.
01:15:22 I'm not going.
01:15:24 You don't know what you're saying.
01:15:30 Okay, let's go.
01:15:31 No! I'm not coming with you!
01:15:36 Let go of her.
01:15:37 Let go of her!
01:15:38 -Get out of my way.
01:15:39 Who the fuck do you think
01:15:42 You really think I'll let you
01:15:44 You're fucking nuts! Huh?
01:15:48 I want you to go!
01:15:53 God, I'm so sorry. I'm sorry.
01:15:59 What makes her so special, hmm?
01:16:05 She doesn't ask me how I feel. . .
01:16:10 She knows.
01:16:36 You know, you're right.
01:16:44 I don't even dare to imagine.
01:16:47 But I know how I feel.
01:16:52 You're my life, Helen.
01:16:56 Without you and JuIie,
01:17:00 And nothing is going
01:17:07 I hope you'll remember that one day.
01:17:48 ♪ lf l had no place to fall ♪
01:17:55 ♪ And l needed to ♪
01:18:01 ♪ Oh, could l count on you ♪
01:18:10 ♪ To lay me down? ♪
01:18:13 Let's get out of here.
01:18:17 ♪ l'll never tell you no lies ♪
01:18:25 ♪ l don't believe it's wise ♪
01:18:31 ♪ You've got pretty eyes ♪
01:18:39 ♪ Oh, won't you spin me 'round? ♪
01:18:46 ♪ l ain't much of a lover, it's true ♪
01:18:55 ♪ l'm here, and l'm gone ♪
01:18:59 ♪ And l'm forever blue ♪
01:19:06 ♪ Oh, but l'm sure. . . ♪
01:19:07 Whose house is this?
01:19:12 It's my house.
01:19:15 ♪ The sky's full of silver and gold ♪
01:19:23 ♪ Try and hide the sun ♪
01:19:29 ♪ Oh, but it can't be done ♪
01:19:37 ♪ At least not for long ♪
01:19:41 Are you cold?
01:19:46 No.
01:19:47 Good. Let's go for a walk.
01:19:52 ♪ While the light of day ♪
01:19:59 ♪ Shines down our way ♪
01:20:04 You're not going to make it
01:20:07 ♪ Oh, then we can't go wrong ♪
01:20:12 I never said I would.
01:20:14 ♪ Oh, but time,
01:20:22 ♪ She's here, and she's gone ♪
01:20:26 ♪ And she won't come again ♪
01:20:32 ♪ Oh, won't you take my hand? ♪
01:20:41 ♪ lf l had no place to fall ♪
01:20:49 ♪ And l needed to ♪
01:20:55 ♪ Oh, could l count on you ♪
01:21:01 She was sick for as long
01:21:04 ♪ To lay me down? ♪
01:21:08 Then one morning she got up,
01:21:11 And after she cleared the table
01:21:15 she hung herself.
01:21:20 And she left her eight-year-old
01:21:31 So what do you think?
01:21:34 Should I keep it?
01:21:38 Or should I insure it really well
01:22:22 I want you to know me, Helen.
01:22:28 I've never wanted that from anybody.
01:23:22 Helen!
01:23:27 Helen?
01:23:47 Death comes so close.
01:23:53 And with such promise.
01:24:05 Nice hit, Julie!
01:24:14 Good job, Julie.
01:24:17 Thanks.
01:24:39 Hey, you.
01:24:45 How are you?
01:24:47 Did something happen to Mom?
01:24:48 No, no, no, sweetie.
01:24:50 That's not why I'm here. I'm sorry.
01:24:55 Come here. Come here.
01:24:58 Oh, God, I miss you.
01:25:06 Oh!
01:25:10 I wanted to visit her
01:25:13 But Dad didn't think
01:25:20 He is such a wuss!
01:25:23 Did you just call him a wuss?
01:25:27 Yes, I did.
01:25:45 You think we'll ever be
01:25:48 Like we used to be?
01:25:52 Straight answer?
01:25:54 Straight answer.
01:25:59 I don't know.
01:26:02 We may not.
01:26:05 But I hope so, you know.
01:26:16 Do you know where she is?
01:26:41 Julie?
01:26:46 Are you Mathilda?
01:26:49 I was-- I'm looking for my Mom.
01:26:55 Is she here?
01:27:00 Helen?
01:27:03 Leave me alone, please.
01:27:10 Mom?
01:27:41 My poor darling.
01:27:52 I'm sorry I left, Mom.
01:27:58 No. . . no.
01:28:05 Don't say that.
01:28:09 No, darling,
01:28:17 I am so sorry.
01:28:23 My dear child.
01:29:33 No matter how long the journey
01:29:36 or how deep the descent. . .
01:29:42 . . .in the end, all it takes
01:29:48 One step. . .
01:29:51 Between me and madness.
01:29:57 Between pain and nothing.
01:30:04 One single small step.
01:31:29 What I do remember
01:31:34 I think it is thin, you know.
01:31:38 Thin as lake ice after a thaw.
01:31:41 And we fill our lives with noise
01:31:44 to hide that thinness
01:32:15 How's it going?
01:32:19 Good.
01:32:26 I. . . .
01:32:27 Do we know each other?
01:32:31 Absolutely not.
01:32:36 You'd like to change that?
01:32:38 Helen.
01:33:06 Stop!
01:33:07 Ow!
01:33:09 Stop!
01:34:18 Mathilda?
01:34:19 Jesus.
01:34:24 What are you doing here?
01:34:28 Well, you weren't at the hospital.
01:34:29 No, no. Tomorrow.
01:34:31 l thought you were
01:34:34 No, today.
01:34:36 I was gonna pick you up.
01:34:39 I know.
01:34:40 I -- I thought --
01:34:42 I thought it was tomorrow.
01:34:45 What am I doing?
01:34:47 Hi.
01:34:50 Oh, I'm so glad you're home.
01:34:56 I'm sorry about the mess.
01:34:58 I was gonna get it
01:35:04 It was a stupid idea, I guess.
01:35:08 You want a drink?
01:35:13 Let me get you a drink.
01:35:25 Don't look at me like that.
01:35:38 I see you met Macho.
01:35:40 Yeah. Where did you get him?
01:35:42 I found him.
01:35:53 Look, Helen.
01:35:56 I thought it was tomorrow, I did.
01:36:32 Did I wake you?
01:36:36 Bad dreams.
01:36:41 They say that's normaI.
01:36:55 So now that you have this new life,
01:37:02 I don't want a new life.
01:37:08 I miss my old one too much.
01:37:20 l don't know if there's
01:37:26 You'll find out, I guess.
01:37:41 Mathilda.
01:37:45 What are you doing?
01:38:15 I'm not like you, Helen.
01:38:20 I get -- I get tired
01:38:22 of turning down the volume
01:38:28 Sometimes I just -- I want to hear
01:38:31 do you know what I mean?
01:38:35 I wish I did.
01:39:20 David Leonard's office, please.
01:39:27 Do you know where he works now?
01:39:32 Thank you.
01:39:34 Hey! How was your appointment?
01:39:36 Fine.
01:39:54 Listen, I'm gonna run out
01:39:58 I'll be back soon.
01:40:21 All right. Thank you very much.
01:40:34 You look good.
01:40:42 You always were a lousy liar, David.
01:40:52 You look terrible.
01:40:55 But. . . you look good.
01:41:01 Different.
01:41:09 It was hell.
01:41:21 I lost part of my memory,
01:41:22 and l don't know if it's aII
01:41:29 I'm still on medication,
01:41:30 but that's no guarantee
01:41:39 And I am constantly terrified
01:41:46 And I hate myself for it.
01:41:49 I hate myself for what I've done
01:41:58 I hate this illness.
01:42:05 Sometimes l stiII feeI
01:42:13 But I am grateful to be alive.
01:42:26 Come home, Helen.
01:42:48 I'll never be the same.
01:42:55 Maybe. . .
01:42:58 But you'll always be the one.
01:43:18 Hi, Macho.
01:43:19 No, stay, stay.
01:43:22 Oh, my God!
01:43:30 Mathilda?
01:43:33 There's no air.
01:43:44 Oh! Come here!
01:43:47 It's okay.
01:44:09 You want to go back, don't you?
01:44:18 I'm trying to remember who I was.
01:44:29 I miss my family.
01:44:36 I miss my daughter.
01:44:41 Yeah.
01:44:44 I understand that.
01:44:47 We can't hide out here forever.
01:44:53 I know.
01:44:57 But I don't want to leave you,
01:45:01 Never.
01:45:03 You know that, don't you?
01:45:06 I know.
01:45:11 I'm sorry I scared you.
01:46:13 Mathilda?
01:46:28 Mathilda!
01:46:44 Hey.
01:46:47 What are you doing up here?
01:46:52 Thinking.
01:47:00 About what?
01:47:06 Just. . . stuff.
01:47:21 Oh, Jesus.
01:47:24 Why's it so fucking cold?
01:47:39 Come on, let's go back inside.
01:47:41 No.
01:47:44 Let's just sit here
01:47:49 Just for a little while.
01:48:03 How can I say good-bye to you?
01:48:15 Huh?
01:48:17 -It's cold. I'm really cold.
01:48:30 I'm so relieved, you know?
01:48:35 Everything's gonna be okay.
01:48:40 Yes.
01:48:42 I am right here.
01:48:46 I know.
01:48:51 But you don't belong here, Helen.
01:49:03 Come on, let's go. You're cold.
01:49:22 -I'll get him.
01:49:25 Macho!
01:51:20 l was prepared to fight.
01:51:29 l wasn't prepared to lose.
01:52:16 Macho!
01:52:19 Come here! Come here!
01:52:59 Macho!